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1 - 7 - 2019

I've got nothing left, nobody, nothing.

I'm just here laying on my bed like most of my life all alone being smashed by everything happened and made me the way I'm, and everything I'm afraid of happening.

I can't help but asking why! Is it so freaking hard to be kind with someone when they need it! Is it so hard to see someone trying his ass off just to be a little bit better and leave them alone!

I think it's been established that everything I do is wrong like literally everything. I think me drinking water is wrong and I think me breathing is such a shame, of course I mean how dare I do such a thing. How dare I be normal and try to have fun to forget everything. How could I have friends and hang out with them! This is so weird!

How dare I ask to have a life?! You want to have a life! Did you go nuts! What you mean you're being buried alive?! Here you are sitting doing whatever you and no one is telling you anything!

Wow I guess I'm so disrespectful to ask for the normal things and I must be so disgraceful to not thank you guys every 3 minutes for bearing me all these years and spending money I don't deserve and letting me have a bedroom of my own and letting me eat and drink and get out of the house one time every year and let me spend half an hour and then annoy me with the callings :)

Everyone makes mistakes even you and yours are bigger 'cause if any one of you for just a second tried to understand what a family means we wouldn't be here.

But the thing is everyone of you lived their time and me... Spent my time here laying writing all these stuff 'cause that's the luxury I have.

This is actually good!

All the Losers were given a packet of ‘80s references of music, films, slang etc. at a party at the studio. We all started going through it

#spotify #music #playlist #it movie #beverly marsh #sophia lillis #mixtape

Lady Bird | 2017

#lady bird #saoirse ronan #movies #cinema

When Harry Met Sally | 1989

#when harry met sally #movies #films #80s #80s aesthetic #80s movies #billy crystal #meg ryan #cinema #romcom

her. | 2013

#her #her movie #movies #cinematography #cinema #joaquin phoenix #lonely

This is beautiful 🎨💜

#her #la la land #begin again #500 days of summer #eternal sunshine of a spotless mind #movies #art #aestheitcs

How to fix a broken soul

We could be heroes just for one day

the perks of being a wallflower|2012

#movies #cinema #cinematography #the perks of being a wallflower

La La Land | 2016

#la la land #ryan gosling #emma stone #movies #cinema #cinematography

Hello, 21!

To be clear, I'm not happy that you're here AT ALL.

I don't like you from the beginning but we're stuck together so, hello anyway and I hope you change my mind.

M.A.G.I.C ❤️

#grey's anatomy #magic #alex karev #cristina yang #meredith grey #george o'malley #izzy stevens #bailey

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انه اكتئاب الأعياد و الاجازات العائلية...

لقد كرهت هذه الأعياد منذ زمن طويل، منذ أن تفككنا، منذ أن أصبح منزلنا كئيب و مكسور.

اني حقا مشتاقة لنا، لأسرتنا، لتفاصيلنا البسيطة.. لم احلم بالكثير قسمًا ولم اطلب الكثير فقط تفاصيلنا البسيطة و زحامنا الصغير في البيت. مفتقدة أصواتهم و هي تملأ البيت، كانت كوقع الموسيقى على اذني، قبل أن تصبح عبارة عن شجارات فقط، متكررة و مملة و لا تجلب اي نفع بل تزيد الوضع كآبة و تدمر ما تبقى بداخلي من حب لنا، قبل أن اهرب منها إلى غرفتي و سماعاتي التي تكاد أن تصم اذناي من علو صوتها.

لم يتبقى لي الا ذكريات قليلة لنا و نحن مكتفين بصحبة بعضنا، فقط جلستنا سويا كانت تكفيني و تغنيني عن كل الدنيا و تجعلني ابتسم بداخلي كالبلهاء.

كيف مات كل شئ على مدار الأيام لا أعلم لكني اتمنى لو أستطيع أن اعيد ما مضى و لكن ما بيدي حيلة..

او ربما بيدي لكني لا أظنها تكفي...