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[werewade]

hi this is my sideblog to talk to my friends and also to myself bc im not allowed fun on my main blog anymore ever and i remembered i can do whatever i want. i vent here mostly but sometimes im really funny

-> names i use are richie or laika or wade or sparky but if you know me by any of my other names ive used then im fine with those too. like. sometimes i go by my middle name. for fun

-> my pronouns r like whatever i dont mind too bad but i prefer kit/pup and some other neopronouns. if you know me then you'll know what i like :)

-> i like lots and lots of things but mostly 80s horror, drawing weird gay furries, speedcore breakcore happy hardcore gabber etc mostly made by weird gay furries, car seat headrest, birds, werewolves, sparkledogs, pretending im living in 2012, violent video games, my boyfriend!!!<3 and my friends :0)

-> im otherkin and its a big part of my identity so im vocal about it. sooooooooo

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drawings been kinda fun lately idk. dont really know what else to report on im still doing bad. i miss my best friend

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im done lowkey

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wish i could smoke a blunt with my dog

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when was my last funny post damn !!!!! sorry everyone

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i have bpd and its hard and it makes me sad. i often focus on not letting My disorder affect other people unnecessarily because they dont deserve that but i dont think i ever really give myself a lot of credit for how Hard it is. like i dont really let myself think like that because a lot of the time just having bpd feels like a moral failing on my part even though it isnt my fault for existing with a personality disorder and it doesnt automatically make me a bad person. idk. just letting myself acknowledge that it is difficult to deal with and i do try really hard with managing it and communicating with people and strategies like urge surfing and stuff. idkkk. if you have bpd i love you forever and ever and ever

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maybe i should invest in an electric kettle for my room so i dont have to go downstairs to make instant noodles. Yep im something of an ideas man

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despite looking like a piggy pig

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im sparky

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blood sugar so low that im exhausted and shaking and lightheaded and my vision is blurry and yet i only got to be in the kitchen for a minute before my stepmother also got home and i immediately left because i really really really did not want to have to deal with her having any problem she possibly could with me because she Especially loves to cause issues with me eating. i just canttttt

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ill just go to bed bruh idgaf anymore <- 5pm

[werewade]

blood sugar so low that im exhausted and shaking and lightheaded and my vision is blurry and yet i only got to be in the kitchen for a minute before my stepmother also got home and i immediately left because i really really really did not want to have to deal with her having any problem she possibly could with me because she Especially loves to cause issues with me eating. i just canttttt

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is there anything anyone can do

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has anyone noticed how im fucking socially stunted and cant talk to anyone like a normal person so i fuck up every interaction i have because it feels like theres a plexiglass screen between me and everyone else and nobody can hear me quite right

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every bloodhound gang song especially earlier songs have about 10-20 seconds of essentially what i can only assume a heavenly choir sounds like its so fucking good and then it stops and goes back to normal good song

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honestly i dont even think im a person. not in like an otherkin way for once i just dont think im on the same level as everyone else and i just kind of deserve nothing

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maybe i should get tf over myself and learn to drive so i can get outtaaaaa here

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idk the thing is driving = The most stressful possible thing. in my mind. its also. driving = job = even fucking worse. i cant get a job right now man i cannot even do any of my assignments because i get home and immediately pass out im SO TIRED and SO STRESSED

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update i am looking for a job

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update i gave up im tired

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i love toys