༺ ♱ Fern ♱ ༻

Welcome to my blog, please read pinned post

[werewolf-morgue]

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Warm welcomes to my journal/blog

First off, some things about me

You can call me Fern. I’m an adult (18+) and I use they/them pronouns. I have depression, cptsd, autism, EDNOS and ocd. I’m very passionate about mental health and want to become a therapist someday!

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What is this blog about?

Well to start off it’s my journal, but I’d like to add a bit of a twist. Not everything is terrible all the time and I’d like to make that very clear. Part of this is cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) to get myself out of bad coping skills and unhealthy thinking (and hopefully inspire some you to as well). This can also be used to track my progress mental health-wise. Here I am going to be showing pretty much everything, so do be warned. Refer my BYF and tags.

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BYF

I am an adult, but this account is welcome to minors. We all struggle with bad thoughts sometimes and it’s ok!

That being said, please look at my tags and blacklist ones that will trigger you or make you uncomfortable. This goes for everyone.

I’m going to be as honest as I possibly can. Some topics may be taboo to readers.

Emotions are hard to pinpoint and can be overwhelming, some of my posts will not be as well put together as others.

I will not show any images of triggering things (ie sh, body checking, etc). Same goes with flashing images. If I do, don’t be afraid to tell me and I’ll take down the post!

I occasionally (but not always) use tone indicators.

I will hardblock a lot of people, this can range from not following my DNI to people being uncomfortable with what I post. Please ask me to block you if you must!

Cyberbullying isn’t cool and I will also block you for this. Do not send me triggering things.

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DNI

Lgbtphobes, racists, sexists, TERFs, MAPs/p*dos, proship, xenophobic, antisemitic, don’t support neopronouns, anti furry or therian, any basic dni criteria I missed, if you are uncomfortable with the stuff I post, and if you are purposefully triggering yourself.

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Tags

#dear diary

My diary, usually what I did that day and how I felt

#werewolfwrites

If I decide to write poems or something they go under this tag

#awooo

Random thoughts, usually silly

#the sun is shining

Something positive!

#not mine

Experiences that I have not dealt with personally, typically from my ask box

#ocd thoughts

Pretty self explanatory, compulsions and such

#intrusive thoughts

Also self explanatory. TW: will contain disturbing content such as self destructive behavior, derealization, p*dophillia, etc etc. I will go more into depth on this in another post

#mental disorder or #mental health

Pretty much for generalized mental health and educational posts

#into the void or #vent

Big undesired emotions

#song

Tagged under songs I like :)

#tw

Trigger warning. I post some triggering stuff here

#tw disordered eating

Tagged under BED and other disordered eating posts

#tw sh related

Will never show self harm on here but I will discuss my experiences with it

#tw trauma

Tagged under posts with trauma and my experiences with cptsd

#tw sa

For things regarding SA

#tw sui ideation

When I’m feeling s*icidal

These tags may change and adapt as mental health is complex, I will update as needed. Feel free to request some as well. No promises I will add all of them though, so please keep that in mind.

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Final Thoughts

This is my blog, so a lot of these posts will talk about my experiences. However I am aware my my experiences aren’t always everyone else’s; that is completely valid! If you would like to discuss your experiences please send them to my ask box and clarify if you would like me to post it or not. I also encourage you to be anonymous if you would like. I am not a therapist so please do not treat me like one. As stated earlier a lot of these are just my experiences and ways to cope with them/vent about them. This will not work for everyone and a lot of my coping skills are admittedly not that great, but I will get better. Things will be tagged accordingly and feel free to tell me if I missed something.

If you are struggling right now, know that I care about you and things will be easier to manage. The sun is shining and I hope you have a great day <3

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

[werewolf-morgue]

I had originally made this blog many years ago when I was with an abusive ex girlfriend who was attempting to isolate me. In any case, fuck you Cara, I hope you die a painful death. And I hope the rest of your days on this earth are in tenfold as miserable as the days you inflicted on me :) Stay broke and lonely and unfuckable!

[werewolf-morgue]

I’ve never had a parental figure. I became the mother and the father, the sun and the moon. There is no place to call my home and I fear for the future. I want it to be better, and I will try. That’s the meaning of life. At least mine.

[teal-chimera]

a vent comic

[werewolf-morgue]

I’m SO giddy about this!! Tonight my cat, who is NOT a snuggler whatsoever and doesn’t like being in people’s personal space, crawled up onto my lap and asked me for pets!!!! Now she’s sleeping on my lap!! There’s more than enough room for her to sleep in her usual spot but she decided to come to ME! This is so out of the ordinary for her and I’m so honored that I was chosen!!!!! I think she knew that I was struggling and wanted to make me feel better AND IT ABSOLUTELY DOES!!! <3

[werewolf-morgue]

Dear Diary,

Today my beloved friend of three years and silly little guy has passed away. He was a wonderful dog. Loyal, quirky, and sometimes ominous. He was a dick to everyone except me. I think he knew we would be best friends. I knew that he was gentle if you gave him the room to be. He was an absolute snugglebug and sassy as all hell. Today, I will have to start moving on. He is gone and I miss him greatly. I’m so thankful of the memories we shared and what he has taught me. I hope he knows how much I loved him, and still do. I don’t believe in an afterlife but I hope for him that he is frolicking off in some fields up in the sky. Rock on, Steve <3

[em-0o]

[werewolf-morgue]

If anyone asks, yeah I already know

[abandon-all-ware]

[voluntaryvictim]

Moonlight, Wolf - Frederic Remington // You First - Paramore

[tunisian]

i spend my days waiting. waiting for the water to boil and my tea to be ready. for spring to come back. for more daylight. the oil in the pan to heat up. a “hey i miss you” or “can you help me out for a second?” or “you want to hang out?” text. for my phone to finish charging. for good news. flowers on the table. the next hug. “hey, you got the job!”. waiting for the sun. to set. to rise. to see both. for summer to be around the corner. a good song. a falling star. a text back. i spend my time waiting to be remembered. i spend my time repeating that tomorrow will be better. tomorrow will be better. i spend my days waiting and waiting and waiting. i spend my days waiting unbearably.

[r0zeclawz]

wags my tail sleepy style

[werewolf-morgue]

I find myself missing home. But home hurts. It’s heart beats, barely. Though I can’t remember if it was more lively in the past or always slow and rhythmic. There’s a thick fog wafting through the halls and all around town. The sort of fog that clings to you, begs you to stay put. But you don’t. And it makes you miss it. There’s a comfort to being miserable when it’s all you knew. I miss bumming cigarettes and vapes from my friends. I miss walking around town after curfew. I miss the experiences I had and how I felt in those moments.

People move on. Life cannot be the same forever after all. You grow and change and adapt. Time moves forward no matter how hard you try and fight it. It’s cruel, really. I wish I could’ve stayed young forever. Given my home infinite chances to be better. I don’t think they would’ve done well no matter how much time they had.

But I too have left it behind. Changed my name, moved to a new city. There’s hope and opportunity around every corner. And then I realize. Yes, this is home now. I will make new friends. Feel the sun on my skin. Have late night gas station runs. Make brand new experiences and feel good in the moment. I will treat myself better and heal.

[rachbtw]

[dreamsequencermusic]

[llovelymoonn]

hi! may i request a webweave on maturing too early/missing your childhood? thanks! (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*⁠。

naomi shihab nye the tent (via @weltenwellen) \\ kayla martel the long way (2022) \\ emily brontë the poems of emily brontë: "the prisoner" (c. 18645) (via @holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe) \\ via @gingerbronson \\ @francisforever2014 \\ odilon redon passage d'une âme

kofi <3

[poppunklateatnight]

I would love to feel alive again, but I’m not used to change

Citizen - Sleep