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“The way to love someone is to lightly run your finger over that person’s soul until you find a crack, and then gently pour your love into that crack.”

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Fear is truly a mental thing once you overcome that you can conquer so much. Man my son will be 5 months on the 22nd of this month amazing to see how i have just adapted so well into this mom roll with no real "How to Guide" & growing up i would love my baby dolls & barbies & took care of them but i was just 6 & those “babies” were only plastic to really process that now i see that was my last interaction with a baby as the real ones i could just give back to there moms after a couple hours but even in the back days i would be so irresponsible leave them darn dolls outside or with my mom when my parents told me i could do something more fun like ride a bike...Wow! Such a tomboy i was . The scariest thing honestly about pregnancy for me is I didn't fear labor or labor pains i knew that is only temporary so i feared something more long term like responsibility, having enough patience and knowing a little person will be so dependent on me to a degree that i never known before. Everyone always tells you "Oh, you will be a great mother" but i always think, Will I? I wanted to ask "How do you know? I was wondering what if i “mess up” whatever that means, I mean here i am a single mom who thinks its still funny to tell Knock-Knock jokes and an infant is soon going to be powering through. Fast forward to now when i hold my son (Wow!!! My son…seems like an outer body experience to say) for the first time i felt like a lioness holding her cub so empowered and in awe. I breastfeed my son solely for 5 months & my son never had to suck on a pacifier i kept him occupied it was tough guys but worth it in the end. I wasn’t doubtful that i would be a good mother it was fear because there is no mother manual & all children are different. Motherly instincts do kick in & now i feel like I'm MOM of the year its no better feeling it’s so rewarding to know God decided that child will be placed in your womb & in your life, such a blessing. If your feeling that uneasiness too or self -doubt then don't worry mom you got this! God equipped us women with all the necessary tools we need for this we are truly nurtures Edited 10/22/2017

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Instinct takes over fear

Growing up i would love my baby dolls & barbies & took care of them but i was just 6 & those “babies” were only plastic that was my last interaction with a baby that i had that i knew i couldn’t just give back after playing with them a couple hours. I didnt fear labor or labor pains how i hear some first time moms do i feared responsibility knowing a little person will be so dependent on me to a degree that i never known before. I was wondering what if i “mess up” & my zodiac sign cancer ego wouldn’t let me take those parenting courses because to me it was wack. But when i held my son (Wow!!! My son…seems like an outer body experience to say) for the first time i felt like a lioness holding her cub. I wasn’t doubtful that i would be a good mother it was fear because there is no mother manual & all children are different. Motherly instincts do kick in & now 4 weeks in i feel like im MOM of the year its no better feeling it’s so rewarding to know God decided that child will be placed in your womb & in your life . such a blessing