cut cut cut me up!!

shiloh | NSFW MDNI!! | forgot this shit was a thing….. | 23 | he/they |

[wetnewport100]

iaxtually migjt guvkinf do itni

[wetnewport100]

th is body is a hell scape and my mind hurts hahaha

[wetnewport100]

iwanttotear myself from limb to limb i hate this fucking body

[wetnewport100]

i've never been this much of a mess before mm!!

[andreii-tarkovsky]

[smouldered]

*sends u casual nudes to let u know I’m thinking of u*

[wetnewport100]

you'll leave me just like the others

[wetnewport100]

its getting harder to breathe with these traps for lungs.

[wetnewport100]

я боюсь, что твоя любовь ко мне может закончиться

[wetnewport100]

mmm gotta love that jealousy feeling

[wetnewport100]

one weird place to have sex in: a closet

[wetnewport100]

you can tell what mood im in by the shit i post on here o h b o y

[wetnewport100]

baby, your touch is lethal and i hope it kills me

[redportrait]

which ptsd emotion r u right now

1) vast, twisting emptiness

2) I Think The Body Is Cold And Hungry But I’m Also Pretty Sure It’s Not My Responsibility To Fix It

3) I want to snap my abusers neck like a fucking twig

4) small

5) everything on earth is my fault and I should die

6) Dirty™

7) *repeatedly makes shitty decisions because I’m already dead*

8) terror so thick you could choke on it

9) this deep feeling of unease in the pit of your stomach that kinda feels like someone’s holding a gun to your head and you know they’re gonna pull the trigger but you don’t know when

10) huh would you look at that… I’m shaking

11) can I get some uhhhhhhhhhhhhh jump off a bridge?

12) I can’t believe I lied about everything and made it all up wow…

13) drugs……… will make this better somehow

14) according to this list I just wrote, I made them do everything so not only is it all my fault, but I actually abused them by making them hurt me

I’m currently 7, 10, and 13 (don’t rb if you don’t have c/ptsd)

[wetnewport100]

currently i'm feeling 1,2,3,13,8,11,9 and 10

[wetnewport100]

uh oh im abt to do something big dumb cant wait to fucking regret later

[wetnewport100]

letmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehideletmehide

[wetnewport100]

god i woke up wanting to vomit

get out of my head.