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[wfanycdjibou]

She never texted again after work. That’s how not worth it I am.

We still follow each other on social media, but I don’t like her stuff any more, and she has liked some stuff but no longer.

[wfanycdjibou]

I want to talk to Nathalie so much. So much. I miss her, I can’t stop thinking about her, but she treated me like shit, she was such a bad friend.

But you know, when you have fallen in love with a tirl in the past, it’s so hard sometimes and she has always had such a pull on me. I just can’t give in I can’t i can’t i can’t

[wfanycdjibou]

I miss Gina.

I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her.

I’m the one who said we wouldn’t get back together but fuck do I miss her. I miss her I miss her I miss her.

EVERY night I dream about her. About seeing her, about whether she is happy, about breaking the break we decided to take so we can get over each other, etc.

I need her in my life somehow. How is it possible to remove someone you’ve loved so hard for 2.5 years and who knows you like no one else does just like this? And expect it to be a good idea?

I know that we had major issues and that technically this is supposed to be for the best, but is this really worth it? Really? I am having such big second thoughts. I need/want to be in her life. I miss Tarrytown, I miss her life, I miss her apartment, I miss her.

Fuck

[wfanycdjibou]

Didn’t really want to admit it to myself but the more I look back on our relationship, the more I see abuse and gaslighting, whether it was intentional or not. I love you though. I realize you aren’t doing it on purpose. It just sucks that it takes you months to realize what you do, listen to me, and apologize

[wfanycdjibou]

Loving your girlfriend means letting her win at Songpop when she’s not feeling well

[wfanycdjibou]

Wahh my ex. Wahh I still love her. But hey don’t get upset over it, it’s none of my business.

[wfanycdjibou]

Also I love Gina

We are more and more understanding of each other. We complete each other. We clash but we are in love. She is sexy, she is mine and she is in love with me. I am so lucky. We aren’t perfect, but I am happy.

[wfanycdjibou]

I am so proud of my two babies.

One graduated last week

The other got her first job as a translator today.

They are successful and I am proud and in love 😍

[wfanycdjibou]

Why don’t you complain some more about how you only attract crazy people when I am legit there, doing everything I can for you and giving you things I told you I didn’t feel comfortable doing (but that you obviously forgot). You only olay the girlfriend card when you want me to do something for you/us.

[wfanycdjibou]

You downplayed the importance of the time you spent with him so much to me and now that he has showed his true colours as a psychopath, you miss him??

[wfanycdjibou]

Will you ever be grateful for me or do I need to be in your bed holding your hand for you to feel gratitude?

[wfanycdjibou]

I don’t think I can do this. Be there for you in every single way for a year and more and having this one person reaps the benefits and give you “what you haven’t felt in years”.

It’s unjust and really heartbreaking.

[wfanycdjibou]

The process of finally being happy has begun. Now you can stop claiming you’re single. Do you know how fucked up it is to call yourself single in front of your partner? How do you not see why it makes me feel so disposable and small in your life? Sure you tell me you appreciate me and me being there every so often maybe once every three weeks, but i hear that you are single and lonely almost every day.

If you and I break up, but you still have Rayne, you won’t be calling yourself single i am sure. I become very disposable.

I thought this shit with him wasn’t serious. I confronted you about it in spite of everything you told me. You could have stopped denying it. Instead you kept denying it and came out of a seven hour first date having kissed him. “Oh i don’t kiss on the first date”. Guess it was more serious than a simple first date. You could have just admitted it.

When you told me you kissed, it was like an iron fist went through my chest and made my heart stop beating. I have to force myself not to run away, not to take a break. But i really don’t think I can come to your graduation. You can have Rayne there, be couply in front of your mom and not have to hide me, the person who has been supporting you for over a year and who has been listening to your fears, suicidal thoughts, your mental illness diagnosis, etc. He can just be there and be the hero who saved your love life. Your mom will love him and be happy for you.

I had a shit night. And i don’t know if i can bear chatting with you today.

[wfanycdjibou]

Here we go, guys.

[wfanycdjibou]

I ruin everything lol you can’t even be lovey to me without getting upset

[wfanycdjibou]

I’m a nice consolation prize while you wait for the real thing eh

[wfanycdjibou]

its always about the past. how she is not over anything with her ex. how i am reacting to tjs pain regarding Danica. 

the number one reason why we cannot move forward is her ex. and her pain associated to her break up. 

we do not even have a future because of her past.