Mo
as i stare into the dark trees that covered the street where you used to park, i somehow felt the jitters when i saw you arrived that night you were already smiling at me, and i can’t help to look down because i’m afraid that you’ll see me stupidly smiling back i kept both of my hands inside my jacket’s pocket because that’s where i put all my resistance to control myself from running towards you few feets away and i can already smell your scent - scent, that i knew to myself i will always remember and my brain will always know that it’s yours
i didn’t know that i would feel this longingness i didn’t even know i would definitely miss you as you were standing & laughing with the rest of the people that i love, i knew to myself that my heart is becoming fuller and fuller every time. i was hoping that they wouldn’t see me smiling that’s why i’m burying myself most of the time with the hood of my jacket oh lord, how can i feel this way in such a span of a few minutes i felt so light, so carefree so..... free so....... me i guess that’s what you made me realize without you even knowing about it the moment you lend your shoulders at me when we got alone and soflty whispered to my ear to sleep, i knew that i can finally rest my jumpy, tired heart you asked me what do i need, i simply told you to buy me a toothbrush and a bottle of water but all i ever wanted was to stay on your shoulders and just...... close my eyes how i wish i could tell you that... i already had my eyes on you the moment you let me drive you around but that’s a whole new side of the story your hugs your scent your hugs your warmth your smiles & laughs thank you for assuring me that i still exist that i’m still okay you may never know how important those hours or days to me and the sad reality that it’s also not as important for you but for me, it helped me a lot to realize that i am already okay you are still important to me as i’ve already told you a thousand times
and if you ever need someone to talk to, someone to eat with, to go to places with, maybe not to drink with hehe, but hey, sure why not? my phone is always open for you every day even though i know you have a lot of people with you already and i’m just an ordinary tropa, i know i still think about you Mo, i’ve always wanted to ask how are you? are you okay? what happened to your day? do you still smell so good? take care Mo, always missing you everyday. xx















