what i have withheld

[kuviraissues]

not your nikki

[emziess]

Inde Navarrette as Nikki Freeman Obsession (2026) dir. Curry Barker

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003

Listen to 003 by אשמדאי #np on #SoundCloud

this is the real world

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no one you know is a good person

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when the chile is tea but the mic stand is far away gag, sis i'm dead as a chile

@tankhall in birmingham

[dry-valleys]

Anthony van Dyck (1599-1641), Ecce Homo.

One of many masterpieces to be seen at the Barber Institute, Birmingham!

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301/302 dir. by Park Cheol-su

[sinatraaloof]

Yukio Mishima as Saint Sebastian.

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“When a captive lion steps out of his cage, he comes into a wider world than the lion who has known only the wilds. While he was in captivity, there were only two worlds for him - the world of the cage, and the world outside the cage. Now he is free. He roars. He attacks people. He eats them. Yet he is not satisfied, for there is no third world that is neither the world of the cage nor the world outside the cage.”

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I dreamt we had just days left, turns out it was two

I watched the cattle cry behind the wire

and I thought of you

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Mastered by my desire

to please

An ox, willing to serve you

spend the night at your manger

Bound with ropes I couldn’t resist

so it came back every night

until I was ready,

to face it

Do you wish to not have made mistakes?

Do they shape you

Into someone you no longer recognise

Do you feel desire

and wish that you did not

To want things is to be them

All the same

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He’s looking at the news, a report about a fire someplace on Earth. The reporter looks hot even though his hair is very short and cut very badly. He’d still do him. The fires are shown then, behind the man on the screen. He thinks for a moment, imagines his entire life, burnt to a crisp. When the reporter looks to the left, he can clearly see how uneven the haircut really is. How could they have let him on air, looking like that? He’d pull off a bald look. Four people died in the fire, two were injured.

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I imagined for a second her expanding, overflowing in her tight fitting dress, the fat at first stretching the wool fabric beyond its limits, then ripping the fabric to shreds. Her pink flesh overflowing the table, spilling everywhere, on the floor, next to my feet, like lava. Me trying to scoop it back up, handing it to her, the fat escaping my fingers like liquid sand, me apologizing. Her thanking me, her eyes little buttons, swallowed by the pink. She takes it from my hands, but it's never enough.

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when i was in london and then in paris, with you, you city boy, with your dirty caps and beautiful hands

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"‘I have led a toothless life’, he thought. ‘ A toothless life. I have never bitten into anything. I was waiting. I was reserving myself for later on-and I have just noticed that my teeth have gone. What’s to be done? Break the shell? That’s easily said. Besides, what would remain? A little viscous gum, oozing through the dust and leaving a glistering trail behind it.'"