if I could go back

random text posts // 19

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It's weird coming home after such a long time

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Sometimes I don't like to be me. Sometimes I want to be outgoing and talkative. I want people to see me and be mesmerized by my stories and amused by my jokes. I want to be social but when I try I am so exhausted that I can't speak to anyone for a month.

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I regret being a goodie two shoes because i could have gotten where i am now without doing what everyone wanted me to do and could have had fun along the way

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How come that when I'm alone with someone I talk and talk and talk and as soon as another person - even if it's just a friend - joins us, my mouth is sealed shut.

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Measuring your selfworth according to your grades - we love to see it!

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I fear the only thing holding us together are the expectations of other people

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I love your smile and how happy you can get but is that enough?

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Maybe I already knew that we weren't meant to be

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Hiding in the bathroom to cry - brings back memories.

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Just cried over the smallest mishap and realised my life might not be going as well as I thought it was

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Right now, loosing you feels like the end of the world

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Dreaming of you is the best and the worst part of my day.

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I dreamt of you today, you were holding my hand, and now I wish I could sleep and dream forever.

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I'm overwhelmingly in love with the idea of you

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I know I don't love you, I know it's just a crush but that doesn't make it any easier to let go of you.

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I know I've said it a thousand times already but I mean it when I say I want to get over you - it just takes a lot more strength and time than I thought

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It would have been so much easier if you had never complimented me, talked with me, smiled at me, or even looked at me. I would have been over you a long time ago.