i wish i could hate myself into someone worth loving
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i wish i could hate myself into someone worth loving
i had the most beautiful hand-blown glass pipe that looked like a lil fishy and i broke it :(((
#crysobbing
do you ever get frustrated that you never asked to be born nor to be abused, but You are the one who has to do the work to heal yourself and your relationships (if you choose to)? I feel so frustrated and exhausted sometimes. I know my mother will never accept responsibility for fucking up my mental state nor will she ever try to improve herself :(
personally i don’t want to cut her off completely but i do keep myself at a safe distance (800+ miles away lol)
I'm so frustrated I want to scream at my mother "What did you do that for HUH? Why can't you make a single good decision, how could you do this to me, go back and have an abortion NOW" but sadly she wouldn't care and would interrupt me to say I'm ungrateful xD
But yes it isn't fair. I think people should be encouraged to think through if they'll be able to give someone a good life, if this person will be safe and happy at 10, 20, 30 and 50 before deciding to have a baby. Because if the answer is uncertain then you're just increasing the amount of human suffering in the world and what do you need to do that for. Just don't have kids and give yourself a good life instead. Having kids only to create a life of pain and suffering should be considered a sin and a crime.
I'm so sorry your mother did that to you. None of them ever accept responsibility but we can point fingers and say its their fault anyway, they do this at court even when the criminal says "it wasn't my fault". We have evidence that it is.
800+ miles away sounds right. Hope you stay safe anon. I'm sorry you've been born into this mess. You deserved better.
me only 4 days after vowing not to kms: wow i feel like shooting myself in the head rn, too bad i don’t have a gun
i want to stay in bed with someone and bury my head in their chest and have them stroke my back while we just spend the day like that
I don’t feel like talkin to anybody like 97% of the time
as long as i am with my partner i cannot - i repeat, cannot - kms. this is a vow.
it's fine i don't even need to be part of social groups or friend groups anyway (giant hole appears in my chest spontaneously) ? what's that
Half of problems with having cptsd and chronic fatigue is that you can't do things, can't get out of bed, can't be out and about, can't get things done, and it makes you feel so guilty you want to disappear. And then you have to find a way to live around that. And deal with the psychological devastation, and feel alone, sad and ashamed the entire time you're doing it.
i’m about to be so brave and go into the basement to retrieve my clean laundry. then i will be so strong and fold it all.
i genuinely hope i dont wake up in the morning
it’s fine. i mean, it’s not fine. but i’m fine with it not being fine. i mean, i don’t really have a choice so it’s fine.
ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself
So as it turns out your sense of self doesnt exist in a vacuum. You gotta actually use it and bounce it off of other people like echolocation to see where you are as a person and shit. So if you dont regularly interact with other people the echoes just get weaker and weaker and before you know it your personality is a blurry fucked up fog clone of its former self. which it sucks because this makes it really hard to interact with people again but yknow
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ever since i was a little girl i have felt an unwavering feeling of loneliness and inadequacy
i love and hate the fact that weed helps me when i’m depressed