unwell

tired

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when I am with you, I am the happiest! ✨

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you never know how grateful I am na nagkasama ulit tayo after all those drama we have been through, tangina wala naman akong ginawang masama to take away that part of me, ikaw kaya nagpapasaya sa akin and it feels like it takes the half of the air that I breathe.

alam mo I never beg God na maging tayo kasi if that will be the receiving end it will happen, gusto kita makasama, at yes, may mga times na nasasaktan ako due to past trauma na hindi maiwasan isipin at magbigay ng meaning kasi ayon ang aftermath ng staged niyong drama and I cannot blame myself to feel that way, ghaad too much drama.

Kahit isumpa ako or iwan ako ng mga friend ko (unlikely to happen) I will choose you kasi alam ko naman na I deserve to be happy, bigay ko na sa sarili ko to be with you kasi you are worth to be loved, sayang hindi ako naging babae to make it happen hehehe hindi naman siguro enough na matalino ako no? Haist.

Alam mo Brandon, simula first day nakita ko na sarili ko sayo kaya ayaw kitang alisin sa life ko, sa totoo lang kaya kong iwanan ka after natin magkaayos pero I fucking treasure you talaga kaya I stay! I never say sorry to you nung una kasi alam kong wala akong kasalanan tho di naman ako laging tama.

Sorry, minsan di ko na inisip na nabuburn out karin sa mga drama na ito, I am to focus on how much pain that it cost rather than isipin ko rin nararamdaman mo, I am too asshole for that. Both feelings are valid. Sometimes I am being insensitive which is quite true, siguro ngayon lang din ako nakikipag chat sayo since them kaya I always read between the lines, pasensya na for that.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH, THANK GOD NA BUMALIK KA NA AND YOU ARE THE BIGGEST BLESSING AND PLOT TWIST THAT I HAVE THIS YEAR.

ofcourse, there were wounds na hindi naman agad maghihilom but it takes time, ang mahalaga nandyan ka at thank you (personally)! I am grateful to have you! And I will never regret na nakilala kita akala ko una puppy love lang, matured love na rin pala ito.

You deserve to be loved by me! Kahit hindi na reciprocated makita lang kitang naappreciate mga effort ko masaya na ako.

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sa room, aside from powerpuff girls ikaw ang gustong gusto ko makasama, hindi na nga tayo gaya ng dati, Lord, if I wanted to beg, Please, please, please, I wish we could go back the time. Bihira lang ako makilala ng tao na feel ko I feel safe whenever around him, he means the fucking world to me and please do not take that to me, he heals me from all the past trauma that he caused.

FOOLISH YET I THINK THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. I DO NOT WANT TO FEEL LONELY. 🤸

[prapais]

please, don’t get bored… don’t get bored of me, p’pai.

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life latelyyy

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manifesting to my independency soon 🥹

[zepart-st3r]

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i miss brandon haha pero at least i know how worthless i am to him hahaha 💀

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unplanned trip with my lil sis

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[theambitiouswoman]

BOUNDARIES. Examples for when to say NO and when to say YES.

When to say NO:

When you're already committed to too many tasks and taking on more would be overwhelming.

When you need time for yourself to relax, recharge, or pursue your interests.

When someone invades your personal space or asks intrusive questions.

When someone asks for something that's beyond your capacity or comfort.

When someone tries to involve you in gossip or negative conversations about others.

When someone uses guilt, threats, or manipulation to pressure you into doing something.

When your generosity is being taken advantage of, and it's affecting your own needs.

When someone asks you to do something that goes against your values or principles.

When someone borrows money from you without a clear plan for repayment.

When someone consistently disrespects your boundaries or treats you poorly.

When to Say YES:

When a close friend genuinely needs your support and you're capable of providing it.

When you're passionate about a cause and want to contribute your time and skills.

When an opportunity arises that aligns with your goals and helps you learn and develop.

When you're invited to gatherings or events that you genuinely enjoy and benefit from.

When saying "yes" to social or professional opportunities can help you make valuable connections.

When your family members or loved ones need your emotional or practical assistance.

When saying "yes" involves trying something new or acquiring useful skills.

When taking on a new task or responsibility can push you to grow and overcome obstacles.

When saying "yes" to maintaining healthy relationships involves compromise and mutual understanding.

When you're confident that saying "yes" won't negatively impact your overall well-being or other important obligations.

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💯💯💯

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not a fan of skies and clouds but this is beautiful so vivid 🌙

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today i had my first day of job as working student (during vacation) and I had so much fun, It is tiring to be honest but I am for the experience.

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Swiftie night at UP Uptown

what a long ride yet memorable night with Taylor Sheesh but now with my sis. Had some fun and tons of jump and deafening shouts! Slay and bejeweled with my filo swifties.

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semestral end celebration with sis ☺️

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life latelyy...