where the wild heart wanders.

the ramblings of a basic white city girl.

[where-dreamsgo]

Despite everything

I fall in love with you over and over again.

[where-dreamsgo]

Remember this pain

When you go to buy that next ticket Or cover his next meal. Remember that even after all of this, he forgot. You are an afterthought. Don't forget. It hurts to remember, I know. But don't forget. You will need this.

[where-dreamsgo]

It's a two way, broken down, cobbled street, & I'm the only one walking, with sore, callused feet. It's a road paved with hopes that I planted for us, Lain riddled with beaten-down heartache and trust. I know you don't realize your actions cause pain, But the soul is weary and I'm walking in rain, I'm waking up beaten, no sunny side up, And the worlds a lot better when you're on the way up. You get all crops but didn't plant any seeds, You give what you want and take far more than you need, You know what to do to let this garden grow, Just open up the clouds and let the sun show...

[where-dreamsgo]

I don't think he knows how much I've been taking... I'm trying. For you. It's all for you.

[where-dreamsgo]

Sometimes I don't think you will ever love me Other times that doesn't seem so bad

[where-dreamsgo]

You know

Good communication is important in a relationship. When you see they texted you, or asked to make plans, you don't wait until the last possible minute to text them. Instead, you should reply when you can, not whenever you feel like it. There are two people in this. Is it that hard not to think about yourself all the time?

[where-dreamsgo]

God I'm so embarrassing

[where-dreamsgo]

I'm so sick of nut jobs on my newsfeed posting about aliens or trying to convince everyone to "wake up" or calling others sheeple NOT EVERYTHING IS A CONSPIRACY /rant

[where-dreamsgo]

Is it normal to feel like you're throwing up your heart every time you see a pic of your SO and their ex?

[where-dreamsgo]

I'm tired of feeling like I'm chasing. I want to be chased.

[where-dreamsgo]

Even though

This morning wasn't filled with spooning and kisses, last nights embraces made up for all of it. Those kisses were so full and perfect. I miss you.

[where-dreamsgo]

"Embarrassing"

I acknowledge and accept my flaws. And like most of us, I'm trying to better myself. And right now, it feels like it's all for you. All because of two words. "It's embarrassing." I'm constantly resisting texting you first. I try so hard. But sometimes it feels like the effort I'm putting into NOT texting you is 100x worse than just letting myself give in. But every day gets a little easier. Every hour is a small victory. Remember this post when you go to text him first, ask him to the gym, even find yourself thinking about him. Remember this post and remember your self control is stronger than your desire. Remember that people who love you are never embarrassed by your company. That you may sing loud, and dance silly, and laugh too hard, but people who love you will sing the harmony, and grab your arm to teach you the polka, and laugh so hard they wheeze right along with you. Remember that you should never settle for less than you deserve. You're the embarrassment. Not me.

[where-dreamsgo]

Anxiety is so fucking murderous.

[where-dreamsgo]

Move forward. Push on. It'll be okay.

[where-dreamsgo]

Yes.

[where-dreamsgo]

Just by putting words on paper

I feel free.

[iista]

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