&& all the people say: you [ c a n ' t ] wake up this is not a
d r e a m. you're part of a machine, you are not a human being, with your face all made up living on a screen.. low on self esteem so you run on
[ g a s o l i n e ] .
“well, that’s admirable of you.” he smirked, his eyes following her every subtle move. “you know what, v, you might be onto something here. it’s just a matter of where to start? i mean there’s all my usual tricks which, i know work but are possibly a little played out now. or i could try and find a pr relationship? those are always fun,” he chuckled, taking a drag of his cigarette. “especially because i’m just so irresistible that they usually end up falling for me.”
“oh, you know me, so admirable all of the time.” she laughed, looking over at xai & raising an eyebrow as his mention of a pr relationship. ivy knew they were a thing in hollywood, a way to gain fanbases you otherwise wouldn’t touch, but she had yet to see one--that she knew of, of course--in her la experience thus far. “falling for you ? those poor girls.” her exaggerated sarcasm shining through, ivy tucked her hair behind her ear. “no, but really... i doubt a relationship is the last thing anyone is expecting out of you right now. might as well juice it for what you can, you’ll just have to find you a girl immune to that falling”
glad to know i’m not the only one all about it. i’m just doin’ my thing, don’t got time for the haters. hey that sounds like a good idea, i like your style. i might have to start making a list of places i want to visit that i haven’t yet. could be some good vacation ideas for later.
it’s one of the best things you can do for yourself, truly. have a bad day ? pick a spot & go. someone piss you off ? pick the one farthest away and say fuck them & leave. it’s a problem solver to a lot, really.
“I haven’t settled into my new place entirely yet. Translation: I have a sleeping bag on the floor until I get a bed… or a mattress, for that matter.”
“do not make a mistake and settle for just the mattress, make sure you get that boxspring set or the back pain will be hell on earth. in the meantime, splurge a little on extra pillows and make it more comfortable.”
two hours after getting home from her meeting with shine & finally being signed on with a manager, ivy relished in the fact that she was told to be exactly who she wanted to be. for years, her sweet baby face had earned a plentiful amount of trust ( & money ) for her through her channel, and she feared that if she changed her image she would lose her following. now, signed with shine, there was almost nothing she could do to lose fans. after all, people love shine, and there’s no such thing as bad press. putting on a exposing crocheted dress and bright red lipstick, ivy posed outside of her new apartment building & uploaded it, causing increased attention from everyone.
002. kermie : ( kermie, aka the only man i’ll ever trust )
ivy’s always had one consistent obsession growing up: frogs. for years, she begged her parents for one, until they finally broke and allowed her to get one at fifteen. since then, the australian green tree frog ( named kermie, of course ) has been traveling by ivy’s side like any other pet would. now settled in LA, kermie has a special corner in ivy’s room. she often makes jokes that he’s the only man she’ll ever trust, considering he truly has seen all of her secrets unfold.
003. only liked him for the bike : ( more dangerous than u know. )
after a few hours of window shopping in the streets of rome, ivy caught the attention of a handsome young man. after some talking, he quickly caught her attention all the same -- or at least, his bike did. the blonde’s always been one to go for the bad boys, and the bike screamed just that. ‘come on, let me get a shot of you on it. i’ll even teach you how to ride it once we get you in something a little more.. comfortable’, the boy convinced. the shot was taken, and posted the following morning.
004. stole her sunglasses : ( don’t talk to me until i’ve had my coffee. )
after arriving at the airport to head to LA for her last shine meeting, ivy got her first taste of paparazzi. this resulted in her being captured in her signature next day outfit: a sheer shirt from the night before’s party, a sports bra she shoved in her clutch for next-day, and a pair of sunglasses taken from her hookup’s nightstand. a few hours after posting it, ivy received a few angry texts, causing her to question why she ever gave the girl her number in the first place.
005. jessica rabbit : ( oh, honey bunny ! )
halloween always snuck up on ivy, and 2018 was no different. after being invited last-minute to a costume party, ivy did the only thing she could think of: she grabbed a skin tight red dress, silver sparkle heels, put on her reddest lipstick & BOOM ! she was jessica rabbit for the evening, and nearly placed in the contest just for sheer wow factor.
006. touchdown in honolulu : ( 8am flight has never been so worth it. )
one of ivy’s top five places to visit, honolulu, hawaii. after touching down, ivy proceeded to go to her favorite hotel & get changed from her flight. after getting a few smoothies with her temporary partner, they snapped a quick picture of ivy’s outfit, which ended up being posted shortly after their day ended.
007. tiny ivy : ( don’t you ever grow up.. it could stay this simple )
ivy often looks back at childhood photos, but this one always hit her where it hurt. her parents were happy, but she couldn’t take away the sting that came only days after this birthday photo was taken. no daughter should have to walk in on her father sleeping with anybody, let alone her own nanny, let alone at such a young age. she often wishes she could go back, never see anything, never allow the hidden pain behind this photo to exist. still, she leaves it up as a reminder of the innocence she used to have.
008. paris love : ( it’s not you, it’s not me, baby, it’s the city. )
in her favorite place, the amount of photos posted in paris while ivy’s present is unbearable. this one, though, obviously taken by someone else with a dozen roses on the balcony, caused quite a stir with ivy’s fans, causing them to thing she had finally settled down. while she’s in paris, ivy always let her feelings get the best of her, but the day she gets ready to leave ? she knows. it’s not in her, and it’s nothing against them... it’s just the way the city goes.
009. aspen, co : ( snuggle bug )
posted shortly after arriving at aspen with her fellow shine stars, ivy embraced her fur jacket and attempted to stay warm while snapping the picture. this was her first major trip with shine, and her first major confirmation that they did, in fact, want to keep her. though the trip was rocky indeed, the photo was her last posted of 2018 and earned a #9 spot.
“I don’t think I’m the only one who likes when I walk around shirtless. Come on, just give me the jacket. If it makes that much of a difference, I can take you to the sand. Sure. Fuck it, why not?”
“You’re not, but haven’t you ever heard of ‘no shirt, no shoes, no service’ ?? just imagine it includes jackets, yeah ?? see, a place where i can wear a bikini and put my hair up, that’s a place i’ll leave it behind for.”
“you don’t have to say that just because we’ve seen each other naked, y'know?” xai teased, though still appreciative of the blonde’s words. offering his lighter to her, he shrugged. “part of me says to just put everything into releasing solo music, the other part is telling me to do everything i know they hate. but trust me, they know what they’re doing. 6 songs on the album are songs we recorded together before aspen, 3 of them i wrote. they know that’’ll cause a bit of a stir.”
“trust me xai, no amount of seeing anyone naked would make me lie to them about the quality of their work,” ivy trailed off, taking the lighter from the man & taking a drag as she listened to his words. “why not both ?? they’re doing things strategically enough to use this to their advantage, why not do the same ?? do everything you know they’d hate for you to, get your solo shit exactly how you want it, let the stir come & let them see how much press they get because of you, and how much they’re losing when you drop your solo album & it tops theirs with no problems.. let them cause a stir.” her words came quick, her brain always working to create a way to adapt. after all, especially when it came to xavian, she knew... “there’s no such thing as bad press.”
“when shine go, we go hard!” delilah laughed, her body still aching slightly from whatever she got up to all those night before. “ivy, i can’t believe you don’t remember taking me home! i’m kidding.. though maybe you should put up a post about the joggers like ‘if these are yours, take ‘em back’“
“that we do, that we do !! what did they expect of us, though ??” ivy questioned, knowing that a majority of her fellow shine stars were waking up with a throbbing head & upset body. “oh, god, as if i could stolen you away from band boy for more than five minutes, he would’ve had me at the door turning us right back around. that’s actually a legitimate idea, i just might do that once i’ve worn them enough to be tired of them.”
“they’re going to regret this decision, i’m telling you now. i wrote all the hit songs, i was the hot one in the band and i was the one with the artistic vision. but fuck it and fuck ‘em. my solo shit is going to blow them out the water!” xavian caught the other’s gaze and shrugged. “want a cig?”
“your solo shit would blow anyone out of the water,” ivy’s small frame slid in to fit beside the boy on the bench, her eyes watching him as he offered a cigarette. reaching to take it from him, ivy’s voice chimed through the wind. “so, what do you want to get into to make them realize they lost the most PR they’ll ever get when they lost you ?”
“surprise! i’m still alive after partying a little too hard at new years.” delilah laughed, “everything after 9:30pm on new years eve is a total blur like did i kiss my boyfriend at midnight? i don’t know. did i make a fool out of myself? oh 100%. anyway, how was your new years?”
“i’m surprised any of us are alive, i’m not gonna lie to you.” ivy let out a chuckle, thinking back to her near two-day hangover, “hell, you don’t remember & neither do i. i don’t even know if i brought home a guy or a chick, i just know someone had a pair of joggers they left behind on my floor.”
“Yo, tell me why they got these Valentine’s Day decorations up right now, damn, they really waste no time with these commercial holiday shits. So it’s about to be cuffing season and take your hoodie season so my question is should I wife up some girl and get her some shit for Valentine’s Day or just sit this one out?”
“truthfully i’ve heard the best parties to go to on valentines are the ones for people who have nobody to spend it with. singles everywhere you look, someone wanting to spend the night with someone else... fuck getting into a whole relationship, find your girl the night of. then maybe you’ll get lucky enough that she’ll be worth keeping around.”
“Ow… ow…” Cassia stepped onto the sidewalk, rubbing her neck as she looked for a good coffee spot. “For the love of God, I do not recommend sleeping on a cement floor. You are so welcome for that advice.”
“Been there, done that, and no, I would not recommend it either. But.. why were you there in the first place? It’s been forever since I’ve had to stoop that low.”
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