Where you invest your love, you invest your life

Liz. 27. Lesbian but very taken. Manager at WaltWorld. Got locked out of my original blog livesstillposed. Disclaimer: Anything I post here is a personal account of my life and does not reflect the views of my company.

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Sometimes I read my old blog

It shows up as livesstillposed-blog.tumblr.com

It’s crazy looking back on things. I get reoccurring dreams frequently that I’m starting my last year of college and have this sad empty feeling of the fact that it’s going to be over quickly in the dream. I really miss having such a big community of people who have the same personality, I’ve never had that again or felt that sort of sense of belonging.

It’s also weird looking at dates for old things. I was at my first ever “dance dance” the day my now step son was born in 2009. My “gay birthday” when I came out to my parents 12 years ago is pride in Orlando this year. I constantly said I had no idea what I wanted to do for a career with my major; my career has nothing at all to do with my major.

I really hope more than anything I can find something to get involved in around here that makes me feel like I have a group of musical theater friends again, I’ve been trying but it’s tough!

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Hi!

Is anyone else overwhelmed by how insanely fast time flies? It’s crazy to read old posts. Anyway I hope you’re all doing well if anyone still uses this site at all!

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Just here to uodate that I have a puppy and he looks fake he’s so cute. 😭 he’s a goldendoodle

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Since it gives you the ability to name your roomba, it really does feel like a pet we need to yell at when it eats cables and stuff. hahaha

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Hi! I love your blog and I’m always glad to see you posting again. I’m in FL for the summer (space coast area) and it’s been feeling very straight and conservative in ways that make it hard to breathe sometimes. I was wondering if you had any advice of gay-ish things to do in the area/where to meet people/anything at all, since I assume you know the broader Orlando area pretty well by now. Thanks!

I STILL HAVE ANONS? HI

That’s crazy that you’re in an area that feels conservative, it’s SO gay in Orlando and the space coast area is not far. For real though, we have multiple months of pride at different times. (Pride month, Disney’s gay days, and October for coming out month has a lot going on for instance)

Honestly I wish I could help more, I’m really into restaurants/breweries/everything in the downtown Orlando area, but honestly don’t know much of anything about the gay scene around here...or about meeting people, if anyone remembers my dismal dating life posts before I was with my wife. hah

If you want to chat though, feel free to message me off anon! 

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Andrea is moving :(

I legit have like 2 friends left in Florida because everyone moved.

One of them asked if I wanted to get drinks because she gets out early at 9pm

I was like THATS LATE AND BASICALLY BEDTIME! This is why I have no friends. Hah

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Full ring set now 😍

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Hello there! You messaged me a couple years ago and I found ur new blog because I was cleaning my inbox, and I would like to say that I’m so happy that you’re having your happily ever after :))) much love! xoxo

Thank you!! ☺️❤️ I definitely feel extremely lucky and grateful

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I’m married!

For anyone who only follows me on here, sorry I haven’t been updating.

We eloped on a whim on our last vacation almost two weeks ago. I’m so happy. :)

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Guys my new job is amazing

I have exactly the schedule I want with early shifts and the same weekend I had before, unlimited paid time off which I already got my trips approved for, everyone there is upbeat and fun and driven, there’s free food in the break room and every once in a while they do office happy hour where everyone gets free beer to hang out and drink there, they wear casual clothes, there’s things like a meditation room because they’re all from California (that seems like a west coast thing), it’s 15 min from my house, I love my boss, they gave me a cute laptop, I’m making insanely more money and also get a bonus, I legit hit the jackpot and I’m so happy. Leaving was such a good idea.

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Just accepted a job offer.

During the interview process they said my price point was too high for the position.

On their first offer, they gave me what I wanted.

It's at least really nice to feel valued again

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I have two different final interviews next week

I want out before Star Wars ruins everyones life, also I would really like to not be beyond miserable during the holidays anymore.

Also both are way more money and one has an amazing work/life balance. So fingers crossed.

No matter what I do at Disney it will just be a lateral move because the next step above me is something they’re now pretty much only hiring from outside the company for. 

eeeeep.

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Boats and Birds - Gregory and the Hawk cover

In case anyone needs something relaxing

I did this before I had a good microphone and it was forever ago, so I re-did it.

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I’ve been reading over 2012 all night which is such a crazy emotional roller coaster, but here’s a really old video

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Just writing this down because no matter what it'll be amusing in the future

A few of the different life plans I’ve thought out. They change every hour or so.

Get a job at a network in NYC and eventually transfer out to LA

Do the Disney College Program, come back and try to get something in NYC

Randomly move to LA with a friend/friends and have a typical day job and eventually try to get somewhere good since I have a few connections there

Have a job in NYC I love, live outside of the city around this area I go to school at which I also love

Somehow have a relationship happen and ruin all my plans but it’d be fine because I’m assuming I’d like the person quite a bit

There are a million different mixed variations of this that happen in my head a lot.

I still constantly worry that I won’t actually get anywhere which is a dumb thing to worry about because I can’t control that considering I’m doing everything I can already.

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My “life plans” 5 years ago for after college.

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I got the nicest message from someone who apparently used to be one of my nice anons it made my week

Every once in a while someone will message me and say they’ve been following me for years, and it seriously means so much to me. I love that my whole journey through my crazy 20s was something so many people could go on with me on here. If anyone else is like that and kind of looking on from years ago, please don’t be afraid to say hi.

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I have never been happier ever ever ever ever.

I am feeling things I haven’t felt since my first serious relationship 6 years ago that I thought I might never feel again.

Everyone always talks about finding someone and your entire being just knows it’s right, but I just always assumed I would never know what that truly felt like.

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Also cute.

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I look at her and it scares me because time stops and I forget how to breathe and she looks at me in a certain way and everything rushes back to me at once, and I suddenly remember that breathing is important and that time doesn’t really stand still.

I just look at her and see everything I never thought I would have, and it’s terrifying.

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I wrote this on one of our first dates when she left for a moment to go to the restroom or something.

I seriously am so happy that the documentation from the beginning of the rest of my life isn't lost.