fucked up

wanna be skinny | skinny wannabe

[whersmymnd]

i’m still closer to being overweight than to being underweight and i f-ing need to change that

[sweetnothing1]

Reasons not too push yourself too far with your weight loss:

-if people notice you are sick, they will make you gain it all back

-if you die or hurt yourself, no one will ever see what a skinny legend you became. It would all have been for nothing

-you will be too miserable to enjoy your weight loss progress

-people care about you even if you don’t think they do

-ana is already hardcore, you don’t need to go too far to see great progress

-you will slow your metabolism too fast and you may gain more

-you will be too weak to work out

-you are losing the weight so you can love yourself, and hurting yourself is not the way to get there

-even if you are finally skinny, you have to still cover up because of scars

-you don’t deserve to be hurt

-ouch

Please repost, share, and think about this. No one deserves to hurt themself. Please take care of yourself even if you are extreme dieting. It doesn’t ruin your progress, it saves you from ruining yourself. You are all strong and worthy.

[whersmymnd]

i can‘t believe i really did it.

i started out with 72kg in november

i‘m at 60kg now and have a bmi of 22.6.

i am so happy but still i have to keep going. consistancy is the key! my ugw is 55kg

here is a before and after:

[whersmymnd]

new challenge: i won’t weight myself for three weeks now and still keep on eating as little as now. i want to be surprised. and also maybe change my perspective of my body. let’s see, i’ll be back with the results on 26th of february

[whersmymnd]

I can't wait for the lockdown to end and for gyms to open again

[whersmymnd]

| just want to talk to someone...

[whersmymnd]

I'm at the point where I would want to go back to being healthy and losing weight healthily, but it already seems like there's no way out and I'm helpless. I feel like crying

l had some beans and butter today which is about 250 cal. Why do I still feel so goddamn fat?

Also I already lost 9 kg, still I feel like I've never been fatter. I want to die, man...

[whersmymnd]

before binge: 63kg

after binge: 64.3kg

[whersmymnd]

of course it had to happen....

....i binged. i have to try to eat something during days so i won’t get bad cravings in the evening.

the binge was not quite as bad as i’m used to.

i ate 928 calories, went for a walk and burned 221 calories so in the end i’ve got 745.

which is still a lot but i’m just glad it’s not more.

i am trying to sound optimistic but i am about to start to cry and i want to puke my whole stomach out (which i won’t do, my flatmate is home).

[whersmymnd]

i love the feeling of walking through the city and people not knowing i’m starving myself. somehow gives me power

[whersmymnd]

does anyone else have the “problem” of their skin becoming greyish? like, i know it’s not good for me but i’m still so proud of it.

[whersmymnd]

To everyone that wanted tips on how I lost weight

About my last body check: I do know it was a very unhealthy way of doing it so i don’t want to support it or make other people live as unhelthy as I do.

But I can at least give some little tips that helped me:

- drink LOTS of water (before I only drank like 1 liter a day, now it’s about 3)

- don’t eat anything in the evening

- no alcohol 

- try to be vegan, it really helped me not to binge reeally unhealthy food and it makes it easier to excuse yourself for not eating (or just not as much) in front of family and friends

I know all those are standard tips and I#ve even read them about 100 times. But they do help if you stick to it.

Also I think my only “secret” or big achievment was that I managed not to binge at all in that month. 

Stay safe people! 

[whersmymnd]

can i get a vaccination during a fast?

i’m getting a vaccination on friday and i’m actually not planning to eat anything. does anyone have some experience with it? will i be able to work afterwards?

[whersmymnd]

went from 72 kg to 63.5 kg in a month and i’m so proud but it’s still not enough. i have to keep on working

[whersmymnd]

getting skinny

i’ve been trying to lose weight in so many different ways for so long until i came to the conclusion - everybody who’s skinny and i look up to does this. starving is the key. just eat less wtf. i don’t know why i hesitated on this haha

[whersmymnd]

daily weight in

27.03.2020

- 148,5 pounds | 67,4 kilos

i see a lot of progress coming. i am optimistic. i have athe will to not eat at the moment so... 

wish me luck 

[whersmymnd]

so fat

so i’m going to revive my blog now that i have time during quarantine. i don’t know wat happened to me. last summer i was at 127 pounds, which was a huge achivement for me. now i’m back to 150. i’ve lost control over everything. i just need ana again. i don’t know why i pushed her away from me. 

please help me.

i cut down to only one meal a day and it’s helping. i’m drinking a lot and i try to keep myself busy which is actually working mostly.

i’ll be posting my results over the next few weeks on here.

stay safe xx