tw//ed || active april '23

she/they block don’t report please <3 unfiltered internet diary please dni if in recovery CW: 128 lbs GW1: 120 lbs GW2: 110lbs ✨UGW:100lbs✨

[insecurexaf]

I want to say this again. Do not report a blog unless they are actually doing something super bad. You have no idea how much that blog could be helping someone. It may be their only place to vent. If you are upset by their content or worried for them message them. Actually talk to them instead of reporting them first because if their blog gets terminated it could make them worse

[toothistired-deactivated2024092]

[sadwannnabesmallgirll]

LMFAO

[black-coffee-and-boness]

so lemme get this straight:

when he does it its a cool challenge video, but when i do it, its an ”eating disorder” 🙄

[whimsicalfl0wer]

hey guys i was gone for a bit but i’ve low key relapsed so i’m back :/

[whimsicalfl0wer]

anyone know good fasting apps? im using my fitness pal to track cals but i wanna track my fast aswell

[whimsicalfl0wer]

physically im here

mentally im on my bathroom floor

[alkyd-deactivated20210515]

[connormurphweed-deactivated2018]

just a heads up

if you’re an active follower of mine, i do recognize your username and/or icon. i smile when i see it in my activity. i get excited when you add funny tags to things. i get really happy when you reblog my op posts. so thank you, i appreciate you massively.

[100493503004422]

honestly if I survive the next 3 years of my life I will be impressed with myself

[whimsicalfl0wer]

i don’t know what do anymore

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[viinnttaaggee]

Just found out sleeping does not erase all my problems. Shocked and upset

[tiny-rainy-deactivated20220606]

i hate when non-ed ppl talk about ppl with eds as if they know anything like. saying "she used to look so much better" on eugenia cooney's old vids. that doesn't help at all

it's always "your beauty standards as an eating disordered person are wrong, you should conform to the more popular beauty standard instead!" which is so stupid. popular beauty standards are no more healthy, realistic, or attainable than those of someone with an ed.

or "get your tits and ass back, be thicc" instead of "learn to love yourself and your body in whatever state it is in and disregard beauty standards altogether." my goal for recovery should not be to look more appealing to you or anybody else

but all this is because normal people don't actually care about our health, they literally just care about how aesthetically pleasing we look to them. if you are severely underweight but still have the relatively desired shape people will not give you as much shit as if you looked like eugenia cooney

non-ed people will shame people with eds for how they look as if that sort of shit isnt the exact same thing that got us here in the first place. and then they have the audacity to accuse us of being pro-ed. fuuuuck.

[whimsicalfl0wer]

how can i want to be skinny and not stop eating… make it add up

[there-is-no-enough]

I hate this

I hate feeling full

I hate the feeling of food in my stomach

I hate the feeling of my pants feeling tight

I hate my reflection

I hate the feeling that the skin I’m in isn’t my own anymore

I hate my body even when I pretend to like it

I hate feeling all the fat on my face chin stomach thighs hands arms ect

I hate calories

I hate not knowing weather I’m fat, chubby,or average 

I hate not being in control

I hate not feeling in control

I hate not having enough control just to not shove food down my stupid throat

but most of all I think I hate myself.

[whimsicalfl0wer]

i hate being sick but at least i don’t have an appetite

[apollorexic]

what did i do to deserve a slow metabolism?