Purple scarf

You are safe with me.

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I can be sad, depressed, and hopeless about life, sometimes, all the time. But I realize I usually end my Tumblr posts on a positive, hopeful note. I don’t think that’s an attempt of mine to force myself to be more positive, to deny the darkness inside. I guess that little light of hope actually exists in me, always, just like the dark part. 

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Đường yêu đương vẫn như shit

hay là đi biệt xứ nó luôn cho đỡ buồn tình.

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When I go to work at La Défense, I often feel overwhelmed and stuck for no reason.

When I go to our clients, I feel empowered, confident, smart, I know what I'm doing, I speak eloquently and I smile all the time.

Maybe I just can't stand Parisians that's all.

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how to be emotionally abused

Omg you are so smart so kind so generous you are one in a million I have never met anyone like you before I don’t know how to thank you enough for everything you did for me what do we do without you I’m not good enough for you you are awesome amazing I love talking to you 

but I only love you as a friend :)

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and the mermaid was turned into bubbles. 

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The purpose of a relationship is not to be loved perfectly, or forever. It is not to have our every whim and wish met and fulfilled. It is not to be comp...

"Our life partners are the people who come after the love that opens us. Our big loves are the loves that emerge after we think we’ve lost them already. They come after we’re ready, after we’ve already cleared out the damage and debris, only after we’ve learned what it means to love ourselves. It is in this we realize that love is sharing what we already have, not relying on someone else to give us something to supplement. It is in this we realize how crucial it was to love the people who could not love us back. They were never meant to, and the rest only depends on how long it takes us to realize this."

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Daniel said

My bf came to the school library. She asked him where he was, and he said he was there. But she didn't want to see him. But then the waiting was torturing her, so she took a deep breath and sent me to see him. I greeted him with a smile, and asked him what he was working on. Then I gave him back the books he'd lent to my bf. We talked about classes and my bf's job at KP. I showed him what she's been working on, and told him how happy she was at work. I asked him about his applications for internship and all. It's kind of easy to talk to him. He could have been a great friend of mine. But I'm devoted to my bf and this is a case of conflict of interests. So I kept a distance, while being friendly, detached, witty. I think my bf would have done just the same.

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Mình đang ngồi ở bậc thang gần trường để chờ gặp Alassane. Một lúc mình ngẩng đầu lên, thì thấy G đang đi về cùng hai đứa bạn cùng lớp. Nó mặc áo màu xám, đi đôi giày trắng, tay đút túi quần. Và ừ tất nhiên là nó không nhìn thấy mình rồi. Mình nhận ra là con người ta có thể trở thành người xa lạ dễ lắm. Mình nhìn theo nó cho đến khi nó ra khỏi vùng nhìn rõ của mắt mình, và tự nhủ không biết là mình không cảm thấy gì, hay là cái mình cảm thấy là nothingness.

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when my tears are dry

Today I had my first day of internship. We have security badge, personal computer, encrypted usb, security lock for computer, headphone for skype. So damn corporate. 

I feel nothing when I socialise, when I walk, talk, and smile. This feels so scary but so damn good. I’m completely numb, when I realize that I walk alone again. There’s no false hope to wake up to in the morning anymore. No person to please, no question to ask, no good thing to try. Just make my body function, and pretend that I live. 

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- Why do they attack me ?

- Because they are afraid of you.

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Nhân tiện, hôm nay mình nghĩ k biết là tình yêu có giết chết tình yêu hay không. Nghĩa là nếu hai con người chỉ là bạn thân thì có thể chia sẻ tỉ thứ với nhau mà k phải ngại gì. Nhưng hai người bạn thân mà trở thành couple thì sẽ ở trong trạng thái vulnerable, và kiểu gì cũng sẽ phải thận trọng hơn, giữ mình hơn. Sự yêu nó k pure như con người luôn mơ mộng nữa. Still, đối với G, mình luôn muốn giữ sự trong sáng của bọn mình, tức là mình yêu nó và chả bao giờ nagging. Kết quả là bị friendzoned :D

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I saw the moon.

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Đường yêu đương như cứt, nhưng bù lại mình có bạn tốt vãi.

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Đang ngồi nhà vệ sinh thì con nô nó nhảy phóc lên đùi mình nằm loaf. Dm con.

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Je m'excuse pour ma réaction irrationnelle

Je t'aime parce que tu avais toujours été là, parce que tu avais toujours répondu à ce que j'avais eu à te dire. Mais ce jour-là j'ai eu le sentiment que je te dérangeais. Même si ce n'était pas de ta faute. Ce n'est rien de grave, mais cette fois-ci je fuis avant d'être blessée. I'm not as young as I used to be, je ne pense pas que je pourrai revivre cette expérience, être la personne qui est plus dépendante que l'autre. Je m'étais dit que c'était pas grave si on était différents tant que tu me parles. Mais je ne sais plus où tu es.

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Don’t say words you don’t fucking mean.