no getting through without you

Rapha | she/her | in my 20‘s somewhere on the scale I guess Larry and Ot5 + random shit I love atm

[rozrozhollander]

Shane laughed, which made Ilya’s heart race. What if he’d never heard Shane’s laugh again?

[themoonandmyman]

#myshane couldn’t give less of a fuck about queer culture he just likes dick in his ass and he loves a Man. If you asked him about Stonewall he’d think it was the name of a tech startup.

#myilya is a fag and he loves it. him and harris watch queer movies once a month with Harris’ mom and they drink margaritas with little umbrellas in them.

[sergle]

u good?

girl obviously not

[whites-and-pinks]

Reselling Harry Tickets for Amsterdam

I, like so many others, panic bought Harry Tickets thinking I could just easily resell them later. Well, that‘s not happening. Even listing them on Ticketmaster for a lower price doesn‘t work, as Ticketmaster still only shows their own tickets at full price…

So if you are still considering adding another concert or know someone, feel free to reach out!!

They are all general admission standing in the rear. All bought for ~ 140€.

Dates are:

1x 26.05.

2x 29.05.

2x 30.05.

2x 04.06

[hollandar]

Hudson Williams, #1 Shane Understander

I think Shane was a character who, soon as I read him, made all the sense to me. I felt immediately a kinship and an ownership over Shane. I was like, “I need to be the only person to tell this story. I get it. I want to be the person to be Shane and I want to spend time with him.” [x]

(sources below)

PANEL 1 Out

PANEL 2 (fear/desire) The Permanent Rain Press

PANEL 3 (vegas bathroom) Numero Netherlands

PANEL 4 (tears) Harper's Bazaar

PANEL 5 (ilya inverse) Teen Vogue Image: [x]

PANEL 6 (additions) (4 gifs) Numero Netherlands Entertainment Weekly

PANEL 7 (good job) Them

PANEL 8 (dichotomy) eTalk CTV CBC News Images: [x] [x] [x]

PANEL 9 (cottage home) Variety

PANEL 10 (heart eyes) Timid

PANEL 11 (evolution) Much Image: [x]

PANEL 12 (yuna) Variety

PANEL 13 Timid Numero Netherlands Out Image: [x]

[userparamore]

where's that gif of the kid in a blue jacket and sunglasses vibing bc that's how i'm feeling listening to the new harry styles song

[userparamore]

[mrsfitzgerald]

pure tenderness ♥︎

[harrybirthdaytoya]

It makes me sad that this is what it took for people to rejuvenate their love for 1D. I’ve seen posts on other social media of people looking up 1D for the first time out of interest and realizing the quality of music is actually good (which is what this professional musician was screaming into the void a decade ago).

Liam is gone, and his death has made people appreciate him more, and the sad irony is that if he’d seen that appreciation consistently he might still be here. He would have loved this revival.

[mutipleobsessions-deactivated20]

Please. Please. Please. Read Escapade if you haven’t yet because it is perfection.

I cannot stop laughing at this meme 😂😂

< credit to creator >

[fairycosmos]

does anyone else feel sooooo crazy and insane but in the most boring way possible

[dreamgirlvibes]

[fortunatelyseveredreamland]

What a week…

It’s so weird to be back here. I am sad I deleted my blog so many years ago and forgot what it was even called. I knew I’d come back eventually if something big were to happen. Never thought this exact thing would be the reason.

I was at work on Wednesday when I found out. My hands immediately shook and my heart sank. I couldn’t wait to leave to get home and be able to know more and mourn. As soon as I got in the car, I started crying.

It’d been such a long time since 1D took up this much space in my brain. It feels like a lifetime ago, sitting on tumblr from night to morning. Rewatching the video diaries and music videos millions of times. Making my friends and followers one shots and photoshopped texts. Plastering my entire room with posters from every magazine I could find. But somehow, it also feels like yesterday?

It felt weird to have my mind immediately transport back to being in my room and only caring about the boys. Sleepovers with my bestie revolving around their music.

I don’t think I have ever loved something as much as I love One Direction. The feeling of hanging out with you all and loving the boys so very much. I wish I could feel that way right now without the overwhelming amount of guilt.

I had to come back here with a brand new account and feel this community’s embrace again. The only people that will ever truly understand this feeling. And I’m so glad I did. While everyone is speaking how they feel, they are also sharing old posts, and funny ones. Ones that make all of the good memories come rushing back like a rough river. It’s like I never left. And in some way, I don’t think I ever truly did. I left my heart on this website and in One Direction and now I feel like there is a part of my soul that is never coming back. But maybe in due time, he can live in that void for the rest of time.

I have seen a lot of posts about inner child. But to be honest, I don’t think my inner child is crying. My full adult self is crying. The part of me that would spend all of my life savings on a ticket to an ot5 reunion. The little girl inside of me left long ago, but the adult 27 year old woman who has nothing to look forward to now feels like she’s actively dying inside. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. They were supposed to live until they were 90. It’s just unfair and too soon.

I’d like to say that I hope all of you are doing well. This is the first day since the news that I haven’t been a full puddle of tears, but I also keep waking up and hoping this is a nightmare. I took a shower and blasted take me home. I cried a little bit it was cathartic. It made me feel that all of those memories are worth so much to not only me but to the boys and their families.

I’d like to round this off with my letter to Liam.

Hey Leeyum,

I miss you like crazy already. Which pains me to say because I could’ve been a more active fan for you in the last few years. I knew what had been happening, but always felt like you were going to come out on the other side, stronger. I wish we all could’ve saved you.

Thank you for being you. Thank you for writing songs that helped me through my teenage and early adult years. They still do. Thank you for making us laugh. Thank you for making us proud. I know you wouldn’t want us to wallow in sadness for you. You’d want us to talk about the memories.

The boys love you so much and I hope you knew that. There was no One Direction without you. You were the glue that held it all together. You deserved more public love than you were ever given. I just hope you know how much the 1D family cares and loves you.

I’m so sorry this was the way your story ended. You deserved so much more than life gave you. I will love you until the end of time, sweet boy. <3

I love you all. Please take care of yourselves. I plan on sticking around a while. Hope to see more names that I recognize on my feed.

[yourdaysinthesun]

fans using their hands and bags to block paparazzi from photographing liam payne’s dad, who arrived at the scene of liam’s hotel.

there’s a lot that can be said about celebrity culture and all that but FANGIRLS MAKE SHIT HAPPEN

[holyshit]

Danielle peazer’s new tribute has me sobbing , he was really reaching out to everyone and being kind

gosh :(

[theysharethat28]

soo today there was a liam memorial in my city and let me tell you, i haven't cried this much in a long time

it was beautiful, it was painful, it was awesome - the connection we all had with each other was incredible

be prepared to cry ❤️🕊️

[haztobegood]

Just after sunset during the Minneapolis memorial for Liam, someone released five red heart balloons. As they rose up together, one balloon rose higher and faster while the other four seemed to hang back sending it off. To me, the moment felt like these lyrics

You will find me In places that we've never been For reasons we don't understand Walking in the wind

Liam may be gone, but we will continue to find him in many ways as we carry on his memory.

[fadeintolight]

I wish for nothing more at this point than for Liam's soul to find peace and for his family and the boys to have absolute privacy to grieve. To anyone harassing them, fans begging for statements, or the media getting ready to exploit their pain — I hope you rot in hell.