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[sjukpojke]

sorry [6-19-2020]

[exhaustedborderline]

[cowpokeprose]

You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it. 

[traumaqenics]

[if no one but you is hurt, this is okay]

[you deserve this]

[constant-state-of-gay]

My thoughts throughout my childhood

[traumania]

[seeking-great-perhapses]

[it-wasnt-that-bad]

I feel like a ticking time bomb

something is going to happen and I'm just going to break down sobbing hysterically and completely fall apart and not be able to stop it

I can feel it just beneath the surface

Like a baby chick inside an egg tap tap tapping on the shell and at some point it's going to break out

[stupiddangel]

how does this happen?????

[c-ptsdrecovery]

In case nobody has ever said this to you before:

It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be upset. By ANYTHING. It doesn’t matter if it’s a small thing or a big thing. It doesn’t matter if anybody else understands why you’re crying or not. It doesn’t matter if you’re the only one crying, or if everybody’s crying. Being upset or sad is a natural process and a human right. You are always allowed to cry.

[primulaceas]

Jenny Slate, Little Weirds

[it-wasnt-that-bad]

I feel like I'm a child curled up in a ball sitting on a cold concrete basement floor all alone, crying. I am in the center, slightly illuminated, but surrounded by total darkness. Somehow the space around me stretches on forever, completely empty except for the floor and me. I'm sobbing, but no one will come to comfort me. I'm supposed to comfort myself. I want someone to be there, to hold me, but I'm all alone and I have to wrap my own arms around myself in some semblance of a hug and rock myself back and forth, and have that be enough.

[kitten-puke-deactivated20260418]

[metempsychosiis]

[alexlove1994]

One day ill be dead. One day ill be killed by my own hand, by my own mind. Noone will care noone will know. One day ill be free of this pain one day itll all be over. One day its won't hurt anymore. One day people will realize im gone. Maybe they won't care but why should I care. People are for themselves no matter what. Ine day we'll all be dead. One day itll be okay, one day itll be the best day ever

[sickteeth-archive]

SHUT UP

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