Qui est cette brunette?

Step into my world of wanderlust.

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Take me away.

Titanic may be the most romantic movie of all times, even though it didn’t have the end that everyone expected. We are so used to those ‘happy endings’, that we can’t see the beauty of it. Not everyone has an ending that could be compared to fairy tales. Jack and Rose maybe didn’t have it, but those few days they spent together were fairy tale, for sure. It’s not the love that hurts, it’s expectations.

Take me to the stars and I’ll make your life the brightest sky that anyone ever saw.

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What is your next choice?

There comes a time in your life when you find yourself on a crossroad of choices. Whichever the choice you make, you will hurt someone. The choices I usually made were the wrong ones, maybe. I was trying not to hurt anyone else beside me, but I, obviously, always hurt someone else, too. I guess I’m not that good in picking the right choices. I’m strong enough to take anything, because I’m used to it. It would be weird for me not to take the blame for something or take someone else’s pain, including mine. But, the even weirder part is that I don’t feel pain anymore. I can’t feel those kinds of strong emotions... I feel totally empty for a quite long period. Like, almost 3 years. Nothing hurts me, nothing hits me that hard to show that I feel something. Sometimes, I really start to worry about myself, because I can’t express anything. Anything at all.

That’s what makes me feel the fear... the fear of my next choice.

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Sort of...

There’s a lot of stuff going on right now in my life, but the truth is.. I actually sometimes miss this. Liking someone. And, that someone likes me back. And, just being obvious about it, not trying to hide it. Simply, you like someone and you’re so proud of it that you don’t want to let go of that sweet feeling.

I miss it, sort of...

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Secret garden.

In this great world of ours, there are some places that you’ve heard of, that you’re thinking of visiting, that you desire to see it since long time ago. Maybe that place was one of the seven wonders of the world, maybe it was a country that you’ve wanted to visit since you were a child, maybe it was a town that you just discovered on TV or maybe it was a beautiful garden that got you interested in. I think the most beautiful gardens of the world have never been seen by a man. Gardens and flowers have a way of bringing people together. If you try hard enough, maybe you’ll find the most beautiful garden that you’ve ever seen. It is up to you. But, when you find it, it will be hard to get into it. If you succeed, remember how it looked for the first time you saw it. Don’t let anyone destroy it and don’t tell anyone where you found it. Take care of it, like the little prince took care of his rose.

And the roses are so fragile beings... 

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Dear me...

So, about that stress thing...

I’m studying Mechanical Engineering. I think it’s alright to be stressed, don’t you think?! Yup, it’s not easy... But hey, if anyone’s optimistic about that, I am, no matter how realistic person I am through all these years. I love that damn thing and that’s the main reason I’m not giving up. NEVER. EVER. One day, I’ll prove to myself and everyone else who doubted me that I can do this. It’s a rough time and life rarely brings candies. Only those who are persistent and believe in better times are winning. Never lose hope, even if it is as small as poppy seed. We must believe that we are gifted for something. If life was easy, where would all the adventures be? You have to fight through some bad days, to earn the best days of your life. The best is yet to come, and it’s just around the corner, if you believe enough. So...

Dear me, one day I’ll make you proud.

[whoisthatbrunette]

Wanderlust.

How is it possible that a person can be so obsessed with traveling around the world? Well, here I am. That feeling the night before, when you can’t sleep knowing you’ll go somewhere special tomorrow, gives you chills and you feel so excited that you spend sleepless night and you ask yourself tomorrow: What the hell was I thinking the whole night?! But again, you can’t wait to sit in the car, bus or plane and drive away. And when you go, you feel like you don’t wanna come back anymore. You feel like that’s all you need in your life and you’ll even survive without food and water. 

That traveling magic makes you go nuts.

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Colorful life.

A day without a flower is day wasted.

I am, truly, a person who enjoys small things, such as flowers. I heard a long time ago that after woman, flowers are the most divine creations. Indeed, they are, I couldn’t agree more. And, maybe it sounds shabby, but... I am one of those who’d rather wear flowers in my hair, than diamonds around my neck. You can’t surprise a woman with diamonds every day, but with flowers you certainly can. It’ll drive her crazy, I promise. 

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That peaceful thing called tea.

Whoever came up to their mind to mix some herbs, flowers or dried fruit and water it with hot water, should won The Nobel Peace Prize. I don’t know what should I do without it on my worst days, when I don’t feel like I can take another day. When you need a vacation that lasts and hour, I have a solution. Go to kitchen, boil some water and make yourself a cup of tea. Open the window, smell the fresh air, let the wind touches your hair and weary face and take a deep breath. Sit down on your favorite chair and take your cup with both of your hands. Bring it near your nose and smell that flavor that carries you wherever you want to. Every flavor has its own place where it takes you. That winter flavor of apple and cinnamon takes you to mountains full of snow, into small cottage, by fireplace. The one with maroon cherries and vanilla carries you to those summer mornings in Italy, that take your breath away. You wanna know how it tastes autumn in Paris? Try some black currant and berries or lavender. And one of my favorites, the one with mint and mountain flowers takes you to Alps, to the green fields full of those herbs, bathed in the morning spring sun. Trust me, you are just one sip away, if you truly believe it. You fly, and in a few seconds, you’re there. And you don’t wanna come back to reality. 

That’s how I feel every time I taste that piece of heaven.

[whoisthatbrunette]

It’s official.

My first post here... what should I say? Good luck with the next one, I guess! I don’t feel like I should write dear Diary, so here it goes.

There was this night when I couldn’t sleep for hours... I’m pretty much stressed these days, so it’s not a weird thing. I was overthinking and this idea crossed my mind: Maybe I should start again? I used to write almost every day in my diary for years, but I stopped with that few years ago and I don’t know why. Maybe it was because I got tired of it, maybe I didn’t know what to write anymore, maybe my inspiration was gone... who would've known. Anyway, I couldn’t let get go that idea of writing again, so I decided to take another chance with it. Only, this time I’ll be a bit modern, if I can say. It’s not always pretty safe to have a diary that you have to write by pen, even though it’s more emotional. Every page of it feels the pressure of your hand and if paper could talk, I’m sure it would’ve say a lot more than my laptop; if your hand shaked while you were writing or if you were so calm that you could listen the sound of graphite that cuts into the paper or if you wrote something that you almost teared the paper out of fury and wildness. This way people can read it, but nobody knows who you are (just kidding, if someone gets that much interested in my writings, he/she will make an effort and find out who am I). So, my goal is just to take out everything that I’m thinking of today and any day after this one. I’ll need a lot of patience and strength to do that. 

Let the games begin.