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The silence wakes me

I shake quietly

waiting for the drug to wear off

wishing I could rip my clothes off

violently

hoping ill be bare enough to see myself

naked

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Everyone has their own identity of themselves and of the world

Thus we see everything as a reflection of this and set definitions based on this identity

When you don’t fit the identity someone else has created, they may try to change you or mold you to help them feel better. To help them feel more at peace with their world view.

You do not need to conform your world view or identity to fit someone else’s mold.

Allow yourself to live independently and to create a world of your own. You don’t need to be what others need you to be. You also can’t expect others to be who they aren’t. All you can do is be present and open to the expansion of your world, chose what you are willing to accept and reject. Only you can set the definitions for who you are. Accept your freedom.

It’s like I have so much to say but I can’t find the right words

and every day I hope that I will find what to say

that somehow I’ll paint the picture that I couldn't yesterday

the image of darkness

or the image of love

does it even matter to any one

The fear that nothing I will ever say will make any difference

that I’m settling in a foreign shape of existence

with a pattern of destruction

that overtakes my mind

and tells me to be afraid of love that makes you blind

I step into the comfort

of the unknown

and find a distraction

whenever I’m alone

I step into the body that lies beside mine

and look into her eyes for some hope

but she never awakens and I’m left on my own

i woke up in the middle of the night

in a foreign land

a garden of eden with my friends

travelled across the hill and found

a field of fruit trees

blossoming

You say your sorry

that you want me back

what do you want me to do

im tired of complaining

trying to change

the person that I am for you

look at your text

I can't respond

theres nothing I’ve got to say

I was a fool

to think that a song

would wash all the pain away

my words hold power

and my heart only speaks the truth

the wine has gone sour

and I don't want your forbidden fruit

free

my private space

a sunken place

to let my truth shine

LET FREEDOM RING

un reign the king

with words from the divine

currents

I fucking hate trying so hard when you lie to me and make me feel like im unjustified for my qualities my worth is degraded turning jaded loosing the charm and the drive because of a current that swells within me wondering if ill survive is any of this purposeful if i lose myself will i lose you youre the only one i have to turn to and im scared that i wont be able to ever get better ever improve im afraid of the unknown but what do i have to lose other than to settle on that was good enough but i know i can do better and now its just keeping it up

the comedown of learning and growing reaching the turning point ive faught for so long for something and now its coming and im afraid to disappoint but what it is LIES INSIDE ME the truth of my soul LET IT SHOW im afraid of lying and to let my life go.

Everyone is so afraid for me but i dont need to carry the weight of the fear and let it stay beside me when its always been crystal clear i know my path hasnt ended its only just begun i CANT GIVE UP NOW cause then i would have let you won.

feeling a little uneasy

i want to change

separate

from who i used to be

think its time

but is this the right name

to fit my identity

and what is a name

cause i can give a meaning

to anything that i decide

its time i change

and find a color