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[whotfisjayden]

☁︎About me ☁︎

Hi y'all! I'm Jayden, I'm 21 and I'm a genderfluid person i go by any pronouns.

I will use this blog as a safe place i will post/reblog some meme about ed and obviously i will talk about me, my "progress" ecc..

Sw= 93 kg / 205lb

Hw= 105 kg/ 231lb

Cw=

Gw= 48 kg/ 105lb

Ugw= 42 kg/ 92lb

I'm not pro ana i think every one here are valid and deserve recovery I'm also a femminist, and i belive in equal human being rights no matter what...be kind <33

[whotfisjayden]

29/11/2023

Yesterday was really good, i start to go walking and After i came home i did 15m upper body cause i have a lot of floppy arms...im fasting till 15pm then i ate pretty normali trying to Always choose the healthyest option and stop eating when my body feels to stop and not listening to my mind that keep telling me shit like "it remains just few bites" "but it's soo good" that's bullshit. u will be surprised about how mach fast u can get full and that you actually dont need all that food.

Somone are may saeing Who i know when my body feels full? Well...

I don't know if it only happens to me but in any case I try to explain myself...do you know that sigh you make at a certain point while eating? here is the signal to stop, it means that you are almost full and that if you continue everything you eat will be superfluous and will end up being too much consequently giving you that feeling of uncomfortable fullness

[whotfisjayden]

Helloooo

guess who's back? damn it's been almost a year since my last post but I see that the old ones are still going strong I don't know how honestly lol. btw winter is back and Ana promptly returns to knock on the doors of my thoughts, I've also gained 10 kilos since last year and I definitely want to lose it, that's why I'm here again, don't expect posts every day (even if I doubt that anyone still really follows me) in any case I will delight you with my outbursts and blablabla the usual shit every year see yaaa<333

[whotfisjayden]

18/01/2023

Hi people here is some updates...

The first week it went super good i did everything right i did al my work out and everything but then it comes the weekend and my bf come over and at the start i was doing ok but one point i let myself go and i end up to bing Infront of him, it was so embarrassing and i felt so disgusting fortunately he know and understood the situation so that helped a lot but i promised to him that it will never happen again. Then he had to change go back home and i had another like 3/ binge episode...this is so exhausting...my head it's screaming at me to broke up with him so maybe i can be more in control of my body but i dont want to, i love him so much and he is so supportive I can't accept that this shit ruin my relationship... I'm starting to think to ask for help but I'm really afraid to do that I don't think I'm ready to do this..i already went through a lot ne last year trying to heling from my trauma and now i need some peace from everything...at the same time i can't watch my self in the mirror and see all my clothes star to fit les day by day it's so frustrating damn

[whotfisjayden]

04/01/2023

Today i officially started my diet and it went super good this morning i weight myself and I'm 77.3kg it's a lot i know but I'm gonna trust the process and i give myself 6 months to achieve my goal that is 48Kg i just can't wait to my period stop so i can start exercise, fortunately tomorrow I will go to Venice so I will walk all day and I am really happy for that

[whotfisjayden]

03/01/2023

Y'all i get the secret for losing weight...i mean it's not a secret but i guess i found what probably can work for me and I'm talking about a insulin resistance diet, its about reduce the insulin as much as possible so the body start to burn fat, I'm not wanna go down to the details because i don't want people use this as some kind ana diet... my bmi it's actually on a light obese state so I'm gonna do ths for give a boost to my metabolism, I'm so excited that i decided to start from now not wanting the epiphanie(07/01) I'm also on my period so i will wait it to be done for star to work out meanwhile my body can get used to the new diet... wish me luck 🤞🏻

[whotfisjayden]

30/12/2022

Hello there today it didn't go well at all...i binged and i already know that tomorrow it will get worse as Italian we celebrate the star of the new year like Thanksgiving so there's a lot of food, fortunately it will happen at dinner as my boyfriend come over in the evening. the menu it's gonna be some mixed appetizers and then roast turkey with oven potato's and as dessert my bf already told me that he want to eat with me pandoro and nutella and ice cream while waiting the midnight... honestly I'm shitting in my pants for me that's a lot...i know that I'm gonna lose the control and the day after i will be depressed af but i don't know how to help it so i guess I'm gonna wait after epiphany to start actually dieting...i feel such a failure.. I'll try to stay more focused on my boyfriend and don't think too much about everything else.... happy new year my friends i wish to everyone an amazing year and positive vibes ily<3

[whotfisjayden]

Heeree we goo well today it went really good as a start. Talking about food I don't count calories because my ass don't trust anyone even on calories app so i decided to start easy just for letting my mind and body to get used to it and then start to restrict every time a little bit i also started a 21 day toned challenge of pilates just to see how it goes... tomorrow I'll weight myself after a week that I don't and I'm scared honestly but that's ok it's just the beginning my friend see ya tomorrow ly<3

[whotfisjayden]

Hii idk if some of u remember me... I don't think so but any way it's not important... what is important is that I'm come back I don't wanna annoy you with what happened in this month's I'm just gonna say that it happened a lot and one of those things is that i gained weight. Fortunately I'm not into the 80kg but I'm still far away from my goal so i decided to come back here where everything started and restart once again, I'll write everything, what I'm gonna ate every day, what exercise I'm gonna do, all the progress and thoughts for keep me motivated i have 6 months to arrive at 48kg and god I'm gonna do this with all my soul...i wanna precise that I'm not here to teach anything to anyone or trying to be some kind of idol not at all... I'm just here to let my mind free for a moment and feel understood. So y'all if u don't care or think that this profile is toxic for u please go away or block me I don't care about how many followers i have i just wanna free my mind a lil bit peace and love

P.s sorry for my horrible English but I'm Italian and i just try my best <3

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[whotfisjayden]

Sice i started to take my madication's again for some reason i feel very nauseous but the good thing is that thanks to the nausea I can not eat, i already lost 1kg sice i started but last night i had a bong session with my bff and when i come back home i binge on milk and cookies...i feel sick af and i look horrible

[whotfisjayden]

I Just need to find the things that keeps me motivated even when I'm high, especially in that moment

[whotfisjayden]

I wanna share this easy recipe that i casually made yesterday night for dinner, I don't know how to call them, salt pancakes ig...

What u need:

- 2 eggs

-1 little zucchini

-salt, pepper and all the seasoning u like (i used curry, chilli powder, and turmeric)

- rice flour

- a bit of onion

- cheese little stik optional)

Well let's get into it...

Mix all the ingredients till it's kinda thik(?) And then cook them like pancakes and add the cheese sticks on top and let them melt and that's it. It's very easy to make and the most important thing they are light and makes feel full after just 3 of them.

[whotfisjayden]

Do y'all think it's possible to lose 20/30 kg in a month? Cause i wanna try it, my biggest problem rn is that my depression it's getting daily worse and makes me not able to work out soo....yeah its a problem

[whotfisjayden]

I miss my Ana honeymoon phase:")

[whotfisjayden]

I really really need to get out from the tunnel of 70kg i need to go down as fast as possible I've try everything and I don't trust no more of calorie counter they are never 100% specific and that trigger me af, i Need some advice for unlock this situation plz i really really need this

[whotfisjayden]

Do you ever feel a sense of uneasiness that haunts you despite there is nothing around you that causes you to fear, and I'm not talking about anxiety or panic attacks but a real discomfort as if you were living in a horror movie of you already know the plot and how it will end and you are not afraid of anything but only restlessness... what is that mean?