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And now I'm out of a home

Do you realise what you're driving me towards?

I know I'm not good at anything but for you to not notice where I am, I must be good at hiding it

Or you just don't care

At this point, I'm too tired

I'm tired of putting effort into life and not getting even a little, or any, in return

At this point I don't even think you'll notice when I'm gone

After all you didn't see me struggle, you won't see me missing

But how will I know? I'll be dead

I'm crashing and burning, but I never knew what it was to soar,

All I know is how to fall, and I have to wonder,

Will you notice when I fall for the last time?

I feel so useless

And like everything is my fault

But I know I'm not that important

And that some things just happen

But it still feels like I'm the reason anyway

And that I can't do anything

But also that I'm just not trying hard enough

And I know that I'm just human

But if not me, then who else is to blame?

Apparently!

Any idea I have is STUPID!

And wrong.

So why do I bother speaking at all

Matter fact!

Why do I bother existing!

Trust me I wish I didn't either!

YOURE NOT SPECIAL HEATHER

I wanna go home but its hard when you don't have one

I wish I didn't cry so easily

I feel so pathetic

Once again I learn that showing any part of myself, even little non important bit, have consequences

Once again I'm reminded that I don't get an opinion

And if I do have one I'm lectured about how I'm wrong and oh look! Here's why!

I fucking hate it here

And I hate how I can't acknowledge it, because. If. I. Do. I'm an asshole!

And he did nothing wrong, he was just expressing his opinion! Because all of a sudden its ok to have differing opinions!

You ever feel like you want to go home? Or to a safe space?

I wanna go home

why me?