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🌸Recovery is always an option. You deserve to eat and to love yourself.🌸 (My blog only exists to vent, cuz I don't have anyone to talk about these things in real life.)

[whyamm-ihere]

[oihoney]

me? anorexic? first of all, i still get my period

[enby-life]

What if, and hear me out, people DO love you

Your coworker who loves when they get to work a shift with you, even if you don’t talk

Your cousin who’s relieved when they see you at family gatherings, who thinks you’re “the cool cousin” but hasn’t said anything out loud

Your classmate who thinks you have great taste, even if they’re too shy to speak up about it in class

Your childhood friends who remember you fondly

The waiter you tipped during a busy night

That person you complimented on the street

The little kid you waved to

The old woman you made small talk with

People love you, because you’re lovable. And you’re worthy of love. Even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes

(Self depreciating comments will be removed at best, bluntly and remorselessly told to shut the fuck up at worst. Fuck around. I dare you.)

[lucky0logic]

DANGEROUS SYMPTOMS

CAUSED BY EATING DISORDERS

Liver – white nail beds – nausea – itchy skin – swollen abdomen – yellowing skin/eyes – fatigue – confusion – pale / clay-like / bloody / tar-like stool – vomiting – pain in the upper, righthand abdomen – joint pain – spider angiomas (coloured skin spots that resemble spiders, due to clotting issues) – dark urine – swollen legs / ankles – bruising easily

Heart 

– tachycardia (fast resting heart rate, over 100 beats per minute) – bradycardia (slow resting heart rate, under 60 beats per minute) * note that a very high fitness level can cause a lower heart rate – irregular heart rate – if your heart rate is under 40, you could be in immediate danger, and remember that your heart rate will drop even further in sleep – shortness of breath / shallow breathing – chest pains – fatigue – dizziness – swelling in ankles / feet / legs – swollen abdomen – choking sensation – coughing up pink liquid / goop – unable to concentrate – sudden weight gain – fainting – palpitations – feeling your own heart – hearing your own heart – chest / arm / sternum pain – anxiety – sweating – vomiting – lack of energy – coughing up white

Kidneys

– vomiting / general nausea

– changed sleeping patterns / problems sleeping

– fatigue

– swelling of ankles / legs / feet / just general swelling

– hypertension (high blood pressure)

– shortness of breath

– itchiness

– chest pain

– metallic taste in mouth

– muscle cramps

– hyperkalemia (high levels of potassium)

– stiff joints

– less urinating than usual

– bloody / dark / foam-like urine

– confusion / mental fuzziness

– rashes

– leg pains

Osteoporosis (severe bone weakness)

– back pain

– bad posture

– weak bones (weak grip / bones fracture easily)

– receding gums and bone loss in jaw

– general pains in muscles or even bone

– dropping fitness levels

Cathartic colon (from laxative use)

– bloating

– abdominal pain

– chronic constipation

– intense feelings of fullness

– incomplete bowl movement / ‘fecal evacuation’

Hypokalemia (low potassium levels)

– weakness in limbs, especially the sort that causes numbness or cramping

– nausea

– vomiting

– bloating

– abdominal pain

– low blood pressure

– fainting

– physical numbness

– emotional changes

– palpitations

– excessive urination

– constant thirst

Other common side-effects of EDs

– muscle spasms, weakness or twitching (electrolyte imbalance– very common in bulimia, and can be very dangerous)

– anemia

– irregular menstrual cycles / infertility in women

– low blood sugar

– depression and other mood disorders may develop / worsen

– insomnia

– eye damage and diminishing vision

STAY SAFE. A COUPLE OF SYMPTOMS MAY NOT BE LIFE-THREATENING, BUT HAVING MULTIPLE FROM THE SAME ORGAN CAN BE. 

[mellowgf]

i am not even a person i m just sadness n anxiety w legs

[stay-ana-deactivated20200814]

Someone: You know diets don't work right?

Me: Ma'am, this is an EATING DISORDER

[lolibones]

[whyamm-ihere]

i am back to the weight i started at three years ago and i really fucking want to die

[raines-scale]

Me when I figure out how to starve even through my father's monitoring of my food intake:

[rosies-off-her-rocker]

"Wow! You've lost so much weight, what's your secret??"

[theirdelusion-deactivated202106]

[shaynor]

Me:

My body dysmorphia : you look like this

[boysnbones]

i lowkey wanna make my phone like thinspo or whatever but then ppl who look at it will be worried

not actually pro ed, just tags

[the-depression-memery]

[brokeprincessa]

I just fucking wanna die and disappear from this world. 

[stotheatothed]

me trying to figure out what right my stomach has to growl after making me gain 0.4kgs in the last two days while restricting

[nicotine-angel-deactivated20220]

me: i don’t have an eating disorder

also me every time i eat: