* dangerously.

[widohw]

ESPIONAGE IS SHADOW WARFARE.  COLD COMBAT.  DOES ANYTHING ABOUT THIS LOOK COLD TO YOU ? 

independent & selective natasha romanova of marvel comics.  616-based with occasional mcu-divergent influences.  lovingly destroyed by tia.  re-established 12.08.21.

    doc  ( under construction. )

[widohw]

thinking about how much natasha plays herself as a hardass, but she actually has so many feelings and cannot contain all of them

[brdiedresources]

 RANDOM QUOTES THAT I LIKE SENTENCE STARTERS             * change pronouns / tenses as needed !

i realized we’re both working for me.

i loved him, but i didn’t need him.

the world might be forever neutral, but that means hope is just as likely as despair.

sometimes it was beautiful.

perhaps my only real expertise, my only talent, is to endure beyond the endurable.

some questions will ruin you if you are denied the answer long enough.

i should have known that you were the one that stays.

i’m not untouchable anymore, am i?

there is no one with me. i am all by myself.

this was brutality for the sake of brutality.

anyone can do my job, but no one can be me.

i’ll see you in the beginning, friend.

you know the whole story.

the trees are not trees, the birds are not birds and i am not me, but just something that has been walking for a very long time.

i can, because i do.

i don’t belong here anymore.

there’s something disturbing about recalling a warm memory and feeling utterly cold.

i’m the vengeful bitch you scarred on the outside.

i should be dead. and i’m not saying that in some sort of dramatic fashion. i actually should be dead.

she has evolved. not for better or worse. she’s just different.

my blood’s not cold.

your lack of curiosity is merely an extension of your narcissism, your egotistical view of the world. the man i’m looking at right now is as good as he’s gonna get.

i feel unraveled.

i am not returning home.

you have to accept it, because it’s there.

you wanted to stand in the sun, in the bright white light. it blinded you.

you’re attracted to the truth.

what is it that is so special about you? you have so much power over him. he revolves around you.

try and stop me, you jumped up little shit.

i’m not trying to patronize you. it’s just that i care about you, and i just want to make sure that you’re okay.  so you know what?  it’ll make you feel better.  i’ll get you a plate of overpriced food, and i’ll be right back, okay?

regret is unprofessional.

[widohw]

@moltolavoro - " that's very sweet of you, and very unnecessary. "

" is that your way of saying that you don't want fresh soup after getting your ass kicked up and down the lower east side for the better part of the afternoon ? " because natasha, covered in bruises, bandages and a wrist brace, sure as shit wants fresh broccoli cheddar soup after getting her ass kicked up and down the lower east side for the better part of the afternoon. and natasha's got a lot of pride, but she's not at all too proud to be saying that.

" c'mon, old man — i sprung for the good sourdough from that one overpriced bakery, " she says, hooking a healthy serving for herself into a bowl, leaves the other two takeout containers for steve. then she collects five slices of bread — probably three more than she actually needs for the amount of soup she's got, but that's neither here nor there. " if you really don't like it, you can boil your potatoes, and i won't say a word, promise. "

[brdiedresources]

SCANDAL  SENTENCE  STARTERS   :  P5      * change pronouns / tenses as you see fit !  

did i do this to you ? or have you always been like this ?  because if it was me   .  .  .   i’m sorry.  

i will bury him, and i will dance on his grave.

if i didn’t know better, i’d say you still have feelings for me.  i saw your face.  i know you.

this is who you married.  this is who you love.

you chose love.  you chose me.  you chose your own happiness, and that’s not sitting so well with you now.  

it’s just inside, rotting deep inside you, the choice you made. and it’s not so much the choice, it’s the fact that you now know you’re capable of making that choice.  that’s what’s keeping you awake at night.

you did something.  it doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to be happy. 

they've got you under observation. i never knew what that meant until now. from what i can tell, it means a nurse will come in here every five minutes, wake you up and ask if you're resting okay.

i hate you. you left me all alone.

i don't forgive you. you are not forgiven.

oh god, you smell good. you smell like my guy.

i could picture the vegetables we would grow. i could picture the babies we would grow. now, it feels like someone else's life.

you have no idea how much damage control this requires.

i don't know what to say. i don't know how to get through to you.

i'll just sit here, and i won't run my mouth with a lot of noise that's not worthy. so you be as full on crazy as you want, for as long as you need, and i'm gonna be right here with you.

you don't dismiss me.

do you still love me ? it's a yes or no question.

i've killed kings, chief. consider it done.

i am all alone, except for you. i need you. you are all i have. you are everything.

they don't live on the dark side of the moon.

call off your puppy.

you don't want to talk about the fact that my wife moved out, and i'm alone ?

you do not summon me !

come back to me. forgive me. i love you.

i want what i asked for. nothing less.

she's not thinking like the political animal i know she can be. right now, she's thinking like someone who's hurt, has been broken one too many times.

i am here to find out what do you want ?

i have told you that i'd give it all up for you, again and again. i think you don't believe me. i think you believe that i will never choose you.

watch me earn you.

must be someone quite talented, if they got to you.

[widohw]

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[ohisms]

𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐃  &  𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐅𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄    (a  series  of  nonverbal  prompts .   mature  themes  present ,   ‘ my ’  muse  belongs  to  the  one who  posted  the  meme  -  send   “ + REVERSE ”   to  reverse  the  prompts .)

→     𝐈 .    GENERAL

❛   hush .   raise  a  finger  in  a  gesture  to  silence  my  muse . ❛   sit .   gesture  for  my  muse  to  sit  down . ❛   door .   hold  a  door  open  for  my  muse . ❛   tap .   tap  my  muse  on  the  shoulder  to  garner  their  attention . ❛   hunger .   give  my  muse  something  to  eat  /  drink . ❛   cook .   present  my  muse  with  home - cooked  food . ❛   brush .   work  a  brush  /  comb  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   read .   silently  read  a  book  alongside  my  muse . ❛   hand .   hold  out  a  hand  for  my  muse  to  take . ❛   dressed .   help  my  muse  put  on  an  article  of  clothing . ❛   note .   give  my  muse  a  note  saying :   [ content ] . ❛   amplify .   turn  up  the  music  in  the  car .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    ANGST

❛   patch .   help  my  muse  patch  up  a  wound . ❛   night terrors .   hold  my  muse  after  they  wake  up  from  a  nightmare . ❛   company .   silently  sit  with  my  muse  to  comfort  them. ❛   hospital .   my  muse  is  told  that  yours  is  in  the  hospital . ❛   revelation .   show  my  muse  evidence  of  a  lie  they  told . ❛   indulge .   find  my  muse  drinking  to  cope . ❛   downfall .   find  my  muse  collapsed  on  the  ground . ❛   console .   comfort  my  muse  as  they  cry . ❛   nurse .   give  my  muse  company  in  the  hospital .

→     𝐈𝐈 .    AFFECTIONATE

❛   wink .   wink  at  my  muse .  ❛   wrap .   wrap  an  arm  around  my  muse’s  [ shoulders  /  waist ] . ❛   caress .   gently  caress  my  muse’s  face . ❛   tousle .   mess  playfully  with  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   chest .   place  your  head  on  my  muse’s  chest .    ❛   comb .   comb  fingers  through  my  muse’s  hair . ❛   grasp .   run  to  my  muse  &  jump  into  their  arms . ❛   lean .   lean  on  my  muse’s  shoulder . ❛   tender .   kiss  my  muse  on  the  [ forehead  /  cheek  /  nose ] . ❛   abrupt .   kiss  my  muse  out  of  the  blue . ❛   chaste .   chastely  kiss  my  muse . ❛   good morning .   kiss  my  muse  the  morning  after . ❛   volumes .   gaze  at  my  muse  in  a  way  that  silently  says  ‘i love you’ .

→     𝐈𝐈𝐈 .    VIOLENT

❛   strike .   [ slap / punch ]  my muse in the face . ❛   gun .   wield  a  gun  at  my  muse . ❛   twist .   twist  my  muse’s  arm  behind  their  back . ❛   throttle .   aggressively  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   parch .   burn  my  muse  with  a  hot  object . ❛   take down .   forcefully  bring  my  muse  to  the  ground . ❛   gouge .   wield  a  sharp  object  at  my  muse . ❛  shunt .   shove  my  muse  backwards . ❛  stickup .   yell  at  my  muse  to  put  their  hands  in  the  air. ❛  shoot .   [ fatally  /  non-fatally ]   shoot  my  muse . ❛  stab .   stab  my  muse with a  [ knife / other object ].

→     𝐈𝐕 .    NSFW

❛   surprise .   send  an  unexpected  nsfw  image  to  my  muse . ❛   pin .   push  my  muse  against  a  [ wall,  table,  other ] . ❛   go down .   go  down  on  my  muse . ❛   choke .   intimately  wrap  your  hands  around  my  muse’s  throat . ❛   belt loops .   pull  my  muse  closer  by  their  belt loops . ❛   skinny dipping .   go  skinny  dipping  with  my  muse . ❛   rip .   tear  a  piece  of  clothing  from  my  muse’s  body . ❛   mark .   leave  a  mark  on  my  muse’s  body  [ specify where ] .

[widohw]

also thinking about how much touch is natasha’s love language

[widohw]

tasha > nat

[widohw]

      does anything about this feel  COLD  to you  ?      /     sel.  &  pri.  low - activity.  canon divergent.  penned  &  lovingly destroyed by tia.

[actualarchive]

gone girl starters

below are random starters taken from/inspired by the novel Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn.

❝Should I remove my soul before I come inside?❞

❝Please don’t eat anything in that area.❞

❝He is the kind of guy who carries himself like he gets laid a lot, a guy who likes women, a guy who would actually fuck me properly.❞

❝I would like to be fucked properly.❞

❝I sound quite slutty, don’t I?❞

❝You look all twitchy.❞

❝There’s no romantic present for wood.❞

❝Go home, fuck her brains out, then smack her with your penis and scream, ‘There’s some wood for you, bitch.‘❞

❝Seems lonely.❞

❝The cat was sweet, but extremely stupid.❞

❝Well you certainly take your time about it, don’t you?❞

❝So how likely is it I’ll meet someone I love, much less someone I love enough to marry?❞

❝'He’s doing what you tell him to do because he doesn’t care enough to argue,’ I think. ‘Your petty demands simply make him feel superior, or resentful, and someday he will fuck his pretty, young coworker who asks nothing of him, and you will actually be shocked.‘❞

❝Let me guess: baby of the family.❞

❝I am fat with love!❞

❝Neither of us gets stage fright.❞

❝This is how I always pictured it. This is exactly how I pictured it.❞

❝I sometimes bring my coffee and the paper and just sit.❞

❝You’re a planner, aren’t you? You don’t seem like the type to wing anything.❞

❝We call them the ‘dancing monkeys’.❞

❝I am content with letting him be himself.❞

❝I wanted to play it cool, but then I started crying.❞

❝Please don’t lay a guilt trip on me on top of it.❞

❝Not according to the prenup.❞

❝I can’t even figure out if I should be angry.❞

❝My dad isn’t someone I like to talk about that much.❞

❝I feel like something is going wrong, very wrong, and that it will get even worse.❞

❝I don’t feel like a person at all : I am something to be loaded and unloaded, like a sofa or a cuckoo clock.❞

❝I don’t feel real anymore.❞

❝I still say it’s the river.❞

❝Picture me: I’m crazy about you.❞

❝Wow your parents must really hate me.❞

I ❝Hope you like canned soup.❞

❝If there was ever a time for assisted sleep…❞

❝Just got to keep on keeping on.❞

❝I’m making the best of a really bad situation.❞

❝He/She seemed to have lost all interest in both me and said ailing parents.❞

❝Baby, why the fuck haven’t you called me?❞

❝I need to feel your hands on me, that’s all I’ve been thinking about.❞

❝Come up with me. I want to be with you.❞

❝You fucking idiot.❞

❝Sometimes, I look at myself and I think : No wonder why people around you find you ridiculous, frivolous, and spoiled.❞

❝No it’s not that, truly. I’ve never given blood. My doctor gets angry at me because I can’t even handle a yearly blood test for, like, cholesterol.❞

❝How old are they?❞

❝You’re a cheater!❞

❝It would be funnier if our sex life were as carefree as the rhyme would suggest. But last week we did… fuck? Something more romantic than have sex but less cheesy than make love.❞

❝I can’t help but wonder, what’s the catch?❞

❝You were in a screaming argument about a cat box.❞

❝He uses me for sex when he needs to.❞

❝Quiz: Your husband, with whom you shared a wonderful sex life, has turned distant and cold – he only wants sex his way, on his time. What do you do?❞

❝I’ve been indulging in toddler therapy.❞

❝Well, now might be the right time. To start a family. Try to get pregnant.❞

❝I m cracking under the pressure. I will snap.❞

❝I didn’t realize until I was almost there that it was Valentine’s Day. It was Valentine’s day and I was going to buy a gun and then cook my spouse dinner.❞

❝I just would feel safer with a gun.❞

❝I don’t know what would be good luck : plus sign or minus sign.❞

❝This man might kill me.❞

❝Picture me : I’m a girl who is very bad. I need to be punished, and by punished, I mean HAD.❞

❝I’ve told you, I’ve told you so many times!❞

❝To start: I should never have been born.❞

❝Is she still alive?❞

❝I was the girl/boy who battled oblivion and won.❞

❝I ruined my mother’s womb in the process.❞

❝I’ve always been better than the rest of them. I was the one who made it.❞

❝They get to be perfect without even trying, without even facing one moment of existence, while I am here on earth, and everyday I must try, and every day is a chance to be less than perfect.❞

❝That’s because you loved a person who didn’t really exist.❞

❝Being the Cool Girl means you are a hot, brilliant, funny woman who adores football, poker, dirty jokes, and burping, who plays video games, drinks cheap beer, loves threesomes, and anal sex.❞

❝Men actually think that girl exists.❞

❝The Cool Girls are even more pathetic. They’re not pretending to be the woman they want to be, they’re pretending to be the woman a man wants them to be.❞

❝It’s tempting to be the girl every guy wants.❞

❝They never taught me how to be happy.❞

❝I would always try to figure out why this is fun.❞

❝If you let a man cancel plans or decline to do things for you, you lose.❞

❝What a cunt.❞

[widohw]

THIS LOOK. THIS LOOK

[widohw]

@barnaes  gets kisses too.

    ‘  you look like shit.  ’   it’s an attempt to lighten the wash of worry she’s felt off of him since she heard the key turn in the lock from across the apartment  —  it’s joking, because if he looks like shit, then there’s not a word for how  she  looks, and one done in vain at that.  and she gets it, because no matter how many times either of them has outsmarted death in near circumstances, the underlying fear remains.  please  don’t  go  where  i  can’t  follow.  

   a wet hand emerges from the tub, and that movement is all ache in a dislocated shoulder and bruised, broken ribs.  it receives him, five o’clock shadow and the gentlest weight of the curve of his cheek  —  from him, she also takes a greeting kiss that strains a split lower lip, but, she hopes, will reinforce that she is  alive.    ‘  sam made it sound worse than it is, ’   natalia says, sinking her aching limbs further into the depths of the tub.  that’s a lie, she imagines  —  sam’s not one for exaggeration, but there’s nothing on her that won’t be healed in a day or two.  she takes another kiss, then, and this one is a little less panicked, a little more resounding, a little more at ease.  she smiles then, thumb curving across the angle of his jawline.   ‘  you didn’t have to rush.  ’   

[widohw]

thinking about Her*

[leneemusing]

nsfw prompts that don’t sound like a bad porno

i’m always tired of seeing the cringiest sentence starters for smut so i’m back at it again kids. feel free to adjust sentences or specify who does the action. 

ACTIONS: 1. for one muse to give the other oral 2. to skinny dip with my muse 3. to shower with my muse 4. to take a hot bath with my muse 5. for sex in public 6. for sex in the car 7. to catch my muse naked 8. to undress my muse 9. for sparring to turn into sex 10. for an argument to turn into sex 11. for make up sex 12. for friends with benefits sex 13. to tie up my muse 14. to blindfold my muse 16. to make one muse watch the other masturbate 17. for a threesome (specify muses) 18. for one muse to wake the other by fingering them/giving a handjob 19. for one muse to deny the other orgasm 20. for angry sex  21. for break up sex 22. for sex after a near death experience  23. for after battle sex 24. for sex to get revenge on an ex 25. for one muse to give the other a lap dance or strip tease  26. to make my muse whimper 27. for one muse to take the other from behind 28. for sex against the wall 29. for sex on a table/counter/desk 30. for sex in a pool/hot tub 31. for one muse to choke the other 32. for rough sex  33. for our muses to try a new position 34. for our muses to try a new kink together 35. for one muse to use a toy on the other 36. for one muse to sit on the other’s face

WORDS:  “touch me.” “kiss me here.” “you have to be quiet if you want to cum.” “say my name.”  “oh fuck-” “i need you so bad.” “i’m so wet right now.”  “i want you to touch yourself for me.”  “let me hear you, baby.”  “come for me.” “i want to hear you cum.” “harder.” “i need to feel you.” “i want you.” “you’re so hot.” “can i come yet?” “please, baby—” “i’m so close.” “i told you to be quiet.” “i told you to stay still.” “are you gonna be good for me?” “i promise i’ll be good.” “i’m not done with you yet.” “i’ve been waiting all day…” “you’re all i want.” “just kiss me, i can’t take this anymore.” “just shut up and fuck me.”  “i’m gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop.”  “say please.” “i could’t stop thinking about you all day.” “your fingers feel so good.” “your mouth feels so good.” “i want your fingers inside me.” “i want it to hurt.” “more—” “i want you to forget everything and everyone else but me.” “make me forget.” “i just want to feel something.”  “make me.” “be quiet.”  “they’re gonna catch us—” “yes— right there.” “that feels so good.” “does that feel good?” 

[widohw]

thinking about....natasha with big hoop earrings and wide leg jeans.

[sundaynightfilms]

Scenes from a Marriage, 2021