a couple weeks ago i said that i wanted to start mental health mondayās on my instagram. posts where people tell their stories, their struggles, and their triumphs with mental health. i thought this would be a good way to finally spark some conversation and bring some light to how IMPORTANT mental health is, even though in todayās society we donāt really talk about it.
so iām kicking the first mental health monday off by telling my story.
Iām 22 years old and iāve suffered with depression, anxiety, and PTSD for as long as i can remember. I was also recently diagnosed with bipolar 2. I spent so many years of my life feeling so alone, so low, so crazy, so broken. When i was a kid no one talked about mental illness, it was the dirty little secret you swept under the rug, never to be brought up again. When i was only 19 years old i hit my lowest point, and i tried to take my own life. It was my breaking point and i was at rock bottom. That day changed my life. It was when i realized i couldnāt do it anymore, realized i wasnāt crazy, my brain just doesnāt make the same chemicals that others do, I had to learn to accept help, i had to WANT to get better.
This, this is what mental health looks like for me. it looks like having my meds changed so many times iāve lost count. it looks like the t-shirt i sleep in on my worst nights, it looks like the journal i write in nearly every day. In the last three years iāve had to learn what works for me, what helps me, what calms me. therapy works for me. meds work for me. writing works for me.
iāve spent the last three years building myself back up from rock bottom, learning to love myself again, to love and to appreciate the life i get to live. I am so thankful for the last three years, for every person i have met, for every laugh i have had, for every memory iāve gotten to make. So if you are struggling let this be a sign to you, it gets better. i promise you that. you are valid, you are important, and you are not alone. Happy #mentalhealthmonday š§
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