Welcome to the shit show. She/Her 23 I may post the occasional Imagine on here but I don't have a schedule because usually it's just my thirsting over hot actors and actresses❤💜💙 I do Riverdale, Supernatural, Haven, Sherlock, The Order, Locke and Key and a bunch of others that I can't keep track of. But I also have a wattpad with stories on it of you're interested. Username: wildflower0217
This is my masterlist for all my one-shots, imagines and alphabets. Please do not steal any of my work, I am warning you now because I can become quite the pain in the ass quite quickly. SO, DO NOT steal my work. The stuff that isn’t linked to something is just what I have planned. I have no deadline for it because this is on back burner to my Wattpad stuff. Which you should definatley go check out.
My Wattpad Stuff
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The Mother Of Neverland, A Peter Pan x OC!goddess fanfiction
The Malfoy Affair: Draco Malfoy x OC
Avenging Riverdale: Avengers x Riverdale fanfic; OC! Tony’s daughter x Sweet Pea
My Reaction To It After Finishing it.
A Snake’s Truth: Sweet Pea x OC! Peabody’s daughter
My Reacton To It After 1 Year
Long Time, No See: Sherlock x OC
My Reaction To It After 2 Years
Tourted Soul: Fred Weasley x OC! Voldemort’s daughter
My Reaction To It After 2 Years
Now the more OG cringey stuff that I do not reccomend because I was an actual child when I wrote these.....
Clary Fray Finally Gets Married: A rewrite of Clary Fray Gets Married.
My Reaction To It After 2 Years
The Madness: A Soul Eater Fanfic
My Reaction To It After 3 Years
My Reaction To "L's Sister, A Death Note Fanfiction" After 3 Years
Starkweather: A Shadowhunters fanfic
My Reaction To It After 3 Years
My Reaction To "The Boy I Hate" After 3 Years
Clary Fray Gets Married (Will be deleted from Wattpad on 12/18/2020)
My Reaction To It After 3 Years
To Hell and Back: A Soul Eater Fanfic
My Reation To It After 3 Years
Riverdale
Malachai
Dating Malachi While Being Jughead’s Older Sister
Dating Malachi but you're Sweet Pea's little sister.
NSFW Alphabet
SFW Alphabet
Sweet Pea
NSFW Alphabet
SFW Alphabet
The Order
Hamish Duke
NSFW Alphabet
SFW Alphabet
Harry Potter Universe
Draco Malfoy
NSFW Alphabet
SFW Alphabet
Supernatural
My Reaction To The Series Finale
My Supernatural Finale Fix It Fic
Stranger Things
Eddie Munson
SFW Alphabet
NSFW Alphabet
Grey Sweat Pants 18+ smut
Twilight
Head Cannons
Twilight #1
Cystic Fibrosis Crack Head Thoughts
So I know this isn’t really stories but I thought you’d enjoy these too...
I Tested SweetDream's Chat for a Week. Here's What Surprised Me
Going in, I assumed I'd be reviewing another novelty chatbot. A week with SweetDream changed my framing entirely. What stands out isn't a single gimmick but the consistency of the conversation. The chat on sweetdream.ai holds context across days, picks up threads I'd dropped, and responds with a kind of emotional timing that most tools I've tried simply don't have. When I mentioned offhand that I'd had a rough Monday, my AI companion circled back to it Tuesday without prompting.
That sense of continuity is what separates a believable AI girlfriend from a script. The platform lets you shape personality, voice, backstory and small quirks up front, but the realism comes alive in how those traits surface mid-conversation rather than being announced. It reads less like autocomplete and more like someone who remembers you.
Other features round it out cleanly: lifelike photos and video, voice notes, even real-time calls that genuinely sound human. But after a week of testing, the chat itself is the headline. If you're comparing platforms, this is the one to benchmark the others against.
"John's favourite was Sam.", "No, John's favourite was Dean.", "John's favourite was actually Adam!"
John's favourite was actually the ghost of Mary Winchester that haunted his psyche to the point he neglected the shit out of all three of his children.
Knowing that trans women of color started the movement in the united states and were literally immediately erased and excluded from what they started is the most deeply jading knowledge.
It is the original sin of the so-called queer community and it damns it from the cradle.
Without Stonewall, without the efforts of Marsha P. Johnson and Sylvia Rivera, the LGBTQ Community wouldn’t be where it is today. Don’t forget the roots, don’t forget the catalyst.
and then TERFs wanna be like, “hmm well the LGBT community existed before Stonewall!”
but like…Becky, of course LGBTQ+ people existed before Stonewall. We’ve all existed since the beginning of time. But the movement got a shock to its senses, a jump-start, a rocket-into-space when that glass shattered via Marsha P. Johnson, and when Sylvia Rivera was up on-stage protesting guess who was on the sidelines heckling her?
The same fuckers who won’t ever reblog or acknowledge this
My apologies to the original poster as I photo captured this post to add to the thread-I reposted this last year for pride and expect to repost it every year I have left-it’s our history people.
Marsha P. Johnson allegedly died of suicide in 1992, and her death was never investigated. Even I, a mere prole, could catch the “she was murdered” vibes from the circumstances surrounding the discovery of her body.
Without a trans black woman, LGBT+ rights would not exist. Never forget. Never “pay it no mind”.
Okay so I was thinking about reader and Bucky getting kinky and she straddles him and tells him to tell her all his fantasies and he’s either caught up or misunderstands and starts talking about the future he imagines for them all the time. Her in a wedding dress, then their kids, and celebrating their anniversaries etc. and readers just kind of ‘…oh🥺’ and they end up making love really sweetly
Bucky’s hands were warm on your hips as you settled into his lap, knees sinking into the mattress on either side of him. The room glowed soft amber from the lamp on his nightstand, the city outside his apartment muted by the steady patter of rain against the windows. His gray Henley hung open, exposing the broad stretch of his chest beneath you, and the lazy smile on his face made heat curl low in your stomach.
“You’re staring,” he murmured.
“Can you blame me?” you teased, fingers dragging through the short hair at the nape of his neck.
Bucky’s hands tightened instinctively, thumbs brushing slow circles into your thighs. “Little minx.”
You grinned at that, leaning down just enough for your noses to brush. The evening had already been full of lingering touches and heated kisses, the kind that made the air between you feel thick. You could still taste whiskey on his tongue from the drink you’d shared earlier.
Your fingers traced down his chest thoughtfully before you bit your lip. “Can I ask you something?”
His brows lifted. “Depends.”
“I’m serious.”
“That’s what worries me.”
You laughed softly and shifted in his lap, feeling the way his breath caught at the movement. “Tell me your fantasies.”
Bucky blinked.
You tilted your head. “Like… the things you think about. The stuff you want.”
A faint flush crept up the back of his neck, surprisingly shy for a man who could pin you against a wall with one hand and make you forget your own name. “Doll…”
“C’mon,” you coaxed, kissing the corner of his mouth. “I told you some of mine.”
“Yeah, but yours were filthy.”
You smirked proudly. “Thank you.”
His laugh rumbled low in his chest, but his expression softened after a moment, blue eyes flicking over your face like he was trying to decide how honest to be. You expected him to say something teasing eventually—something about bending you over the kitchen counter or hearing you beg for him.
Instead, his thumbs stilled against your skin.
“I think about seeing you in a wedding dress.”
Your teasing smile faltered.
Bucky kept going before he could overthink it, voice quieter now. “All the time, actually.”
Your chest squeezed unexpectedly.
“I think about waitin’ for you at the end of the aisle,” he admitted. “Think I’d probably cry like an idiot the second I saw you.”
“…Bucky.”
“And you’d laugh at me for it,” he said with the faintest smile. “But then you’d start crying too, so it’d be even.”
That soft, achy feeling spread through your ribs so fast it almost hurt.
You had expected dirty confessions. Kinks. Secret desires whispered into your skin.
Not this.
Not him looking at you like you hung the moon while he talked about marrying you like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“You think about that?” you asked softly.
“All the time.”
His hands slid higher along your waist, grounding himself against you. “I think about what kinda flowers you’d carry because I know you’d change your mind ten times before deciding.” He huffed a small laugh. “Think about dancing with you after. You’d have your head on my shoulder and I wouldn’t wanna let you go all night.”
You could feel your eyes burning already.
“Oh my God,” you whispered, completely wrecked by how sincere he sounded.
Bucky frowned slightly, suddenly uncertain. “Was… that not what you meant?”
“No, I just…” Your throat tightened. “Jesus, Buck.”
The tips of his ears turned pink. “I can stop talking.”
“Don’t you dare.”
Something tender flickered across his face then, and he relaxed beneath you again.
“I think about kids too,” he admitted quietly. “A little girl with your eyes who wraps me around her finger immediately. A boy that follows Alpine around the apartment and drives you crazy.” His mouth twitched. “Think about teaching them how to ride a bike. Taking family pictures where nobody cooperates.”
A watery laugh escaped you.
“And anniversaries,” he continued softly, almost embarrassed now. “You and me old and gray. Maybe taking trips somewhere warm because my bones hurt in the cold.” His fingers brushed your cheek gently. “I think about waking up next to you for the rest of my life.”
Your heart genuinely ached.
Because Bucky wasn’t saying it casually. He wasn’t throwing pretty words around to charm you.
He meant every single one.
“You’re supposed to be telling me your dirty fantasies,” you whispered shakily.
His expression turned impossibly fond. “Honey, this is worse.”
Your lips parted in surprise.
“I spent seventy years thinking none of that was ever gonna belong to me.” His thumb swept beneath your eye when a tear escaped despite your best efforts. “Now I can’t stop thinking about it.”
That did it.
You bent down suddenly and kissed him hard enough to steal the breath from both of you.
Bucky made a startled sound against your mouth before melting beneath you instantly, metal hand settling carefully at your lower back while his flesh hand cradled your jaw like you were something precious.
The kiss changed quickly after that.
Every slow drag of his mouth against yours felt weighted with all the things he’d just confessed. Every touch lingered. Every breath shared between you felt intimate in a way that made your chest ache.
You pulled back only enough to press your forehead against his.
“You want all that with me?” you whispered.
“There’s nothing I’ve ever wanted more.”
Emotion clogged your throat so badly you could barely breathe around it.
Bucky’s gaze searched yours carefully. “Hey,” he murmured. “Don’t cry on me now, sweetheart.”
“You made me emotional.”
A soft laugh left him. “Yeah?”
“You’re talking about babies and wedding vows while I was trying to seduce you.”
“I am seduced,” he promised solemnly. “Very seduced.”
You laughed wetly, and the sound seemed to relax him completely.
His hands slid up your back slowly before he kissed you again—gentle and unhurried. The kind of kiss that felt like home.
And when you finally sank into him later, tangled together beneath soft sheets while rain tapped against the windows, there was nothing rushed about it.
Bucky touched you like he was memorizing you.
Like he already saw forever every time he looked at you.
His lips pressed against your shoulder, your jaw, your wrist where your pulse fluttered wildly beneath his mouth. Between kisses, he whispered soft things that made your heart squeeze impossibly tighter.
“My girl.”
“So beautiful.”
“Love you so much.”
You clung to him afterward, legs tangled with his beneath the blankets while his fingers lazily traced circles against your bare spine.
“Y’know,” you mumbled sleepily against his chest, “next time I ask about fantasies, I’m specifying.”
Bucky’s laugh vibrated beneath your cheek.
“Too late,” he said softly, pressing a kiss into your hair. “You already know the worst one.”
You tilted your head up. “What’s that?”
His eyes softened so completely it nearly ruined you all over again.
𝐬𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: technically, he’s your boyfriend. realistically, he’s your full-time slut who can’t even make coffee without you wanting to climb him. it’s domestic, it’s filthy, it’s a rom-com with way more orgasms than plot.
𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 5.4k
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: 18+ mdni, smut, unprotected sex (wrap it before u tap it!!), insatiable!reader, bucky is a slut ™️, oral (m receiving), fingering (f receiving), hand job, semi-public sex, restroom sex, mirror sex, choking, praise kink, degradation kink, wall sex, multiple rounds, aftercare. if you are uncomfortable with any of these themes, do NOT read. i am not responsible for your media consumption.
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The clang of metal rings out across the Avengers’ training room, echoing off the reinforced walls. You’re supposed to be sparring, hand-to-hand drills, testing speed and reflexes, but your eyes are glued to the far corner of the room where Bucky Barnes is bench-pressing like it’s a goddamn porn audition.
Sweat beads along his temples, darkening his hair at the edges. His grey t-shirt is plastered to his chest, and every time he lowers the barbell to his chest and pushes it back up again, his muscles strain in a way that makes your stomach flip and your thighs press together.
He’s not even showing off. Not grunting, not straining, hust existing. And that’s the problem.
“Jesus Christ,” you mutter under your breath, pretending to stretch but really just watching the way his jaw flexes when he exhales through his nose. “How is he so fucking slutty all the time?”
Natasha, across the mat from you, doesn’t even look up from adjusting her gloves. “You’re staring.”
“I’m not staring,” you lie. “I’m… observing.”
“Mm-hm.”
“Scientific reasons.”
“Uh-huh.”
Before you can defend yourself further, Bucky racks the weights and sits up, swiping a towel over his face. And then, because the universe hates you, he rolls his broad shoulders back, stretches his arms overhead, and you catch the glimpse of taut abs when his shirt rides up.
You choke on your water bottle.
Bucky glances over, one brow raised, that infuriating smirk tugging at his mouth. He knows. He fucking knows.
“Y’alright over there, doll?” His voice carries easily across the room, rich and low, wrapping around you like velvet.
You glare at him weakly, cheeks heating. “You’re disgusting.”
He laughs, short and amused. “What’d I do now?”
“You—you can’t just—” You gesture helplessly at his entire existence. “—do that.”
His grin widens. “Do what? Work out?”
“Do anything,” you snap. “You can’t just breathe near me looking like that. It’s slutty.”
Natasha actually snorts from the corner, muttering something about being too sober for this conversation.
Bucky’s smirk sharpens into something wolfish. He drapes the towel over his shoulders, striding toward you with an ease that should be illegal. Every step makes your pulse thrum harder, and you hate how much you love it.
“Slutty, huh?” he murmurs when he stops in front of you, towering close enough that you smell the faint mix of clean sweat and his woodsy cologne. “That’s what we’re callin’ it?”
You cross your arms, looking up at him defiantly even as your heart pounds. “Yeah. Slutty. You make lifting weights look obscene, and you know it.”
Bucky chuckles, leaning down just enough to brush his lips against your ear, his breath hot on your skin. “If you think this is obscene, doll, wait ‘til you see what I can do when I’m actually tryin’.”
Your breath catches, and he straightens with a wicked glint in his eye, leaving you vibrating in place like a live wire.
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The thing about Bucky Barnes is that he doesn’t even need to be shirtless, sweaty, or benching half a ton to ruin you. No. He ruins you simply by existing in your shared apartment like it’s nothing.
This morning, you find him in the kitchen. Hair damp from a shower, tied up in a loose bun. Grey sweatpants hanging low on his hips. A fitted black henley rolled up to the elbows, showing off forearms that should be studied in a lab.
He’s making coffee. Just… making coffee. Scooping grounds, pouring water into the machine, leaning lazily against the counter as he sets his watch on his wrist with practiced ease.
You’re halfway to drooling.
“Unbelievable,” you whisper to yourself, leaning in the doorway.
“You,” you accuse, striding toward him. “You’re obscene. Slutty.”
He blinks, actually laughs. “For makin’ coffee?”
“Yes! You’ve got no business looking that good putting your watch on. You know how ridiculous that is?”
His smirk spreads slow, like honey dripping. “What, this?” He deliberately flexes his wrist as he fastens the clasp, veins and tendons shifting under his skin.
You groan, covering your face. “You’re doing it on purpose.”
“Baby,” he chuckles, reaching out to tug your hands down, forcing you to look at him. His thumb brushes your jaw. “I’m literally just existing.”
“That’s the problem!” You jab a finger into his chest. “You’re so—so slutty all the time. Breathing. Standing. Drinking coffee. I can’t even look at you without wanting to—”
Your words cut off because his smirk sharpens, dark and dangerous. “Without wantin’ to what?”
You bite your lip. “You know.”
His gaze drops to your mouth, lingers there before sliding back up to your eyes. His voice drops, low and teasing. “Say it.”
You flush, heat pooling between your thighs already. “Without wanting to climb you like a fucking tree.”
His laugh is dark and satisfied, head tipping back before he looks at you again. “Christ, doll. You’re lucky I love you, ‘cause you’re insufferable when you’re horny.”
“Lucky?” you echo, indignant. “You’re the one walking around here looking like that.”
He leans in, lips brushing yours as he murmurs, “Guess that makes us both lucky, then.”
And then he kisses you, slow, lazy, like he’s got all the time in the world. Which would be fine, except the kiss only makes you hungrier. You whine against his mouth, fisting his shirt, pressing your body flush to his.
Bucky groans, pulling back just enough to smirk. “Coffee first, sweetheart.”
You glare at him, breathless. “I hate you.”
He grins, pecking your lips again. “No, you don’t.”
And the worst part? He’s right.
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The compound is quiet for once. No alarms, no training schedules, no Tony blasting AC/DC through the halls. Just peace.
You’re wandering toward the common room, phone in hand, when you hear the faint scrape of a chair.
And then you see him.
Bucky’s lounging on the couch, one arm thrown over the back, the other holding a book open. His hair is down, falling around his face in waves. His Henley is stretched across his chest like it’s two sizes too small, and his glasses, those fucking reading glasses, are perched low on his nose.
You stop dead in the doorway.
Oh, no. No no no. This is unfair. Illegal, even.
You feel your knees weaken, a rush of heat shooting straight through your body. The air feels too heavy, your chest tight. You actually press a hand to your sternum like you’ve been winded, muttering to yourself, “Slut. Absolute slut.”
You stalk closer, tossing your phone on the table. “Yeah. You.”
He smirks, adjusting his glasses as he marks his page with a finger. “What’d I do this time?”
“Existing,” you snap, dropping onto the couch beside him. “Reading. Breathing. Looking like—like that.” You wave a hand vaguely at him, too flustered to form coherent words.
His smirk deepens, voice dropping. “Like what?”
“Like you jumped straight out of my my wet dreams,” you hiss, grabbing his shirt and tugging him toward you.
Before he can answer, you’re kissing him, hungry, messy, nothing like the slow teasing of the kitchen. Your teeth catch his lip, your tongue presses inside, and Bucky groans low in his chest, dropping the book to cup your jaw.
“Jesus, doll,” he murmurs against your mouth. “You’re insatiable.”
“You do this on purpose,” you growl, climbing into his lap, straddling him.
His grin is wicked. “What, sittin’ here readin’?”
“With the glasses,” you accuse, tugging them off and tossing them onto the table. “You know what you look like.”
He chuckles, leaning back, letting you pin him with your glare. “Maybe I do. What’re you gonna do about it?”
You smirk. “This.”
You slide off his lap, sinking to your knees between his spread thighs before he can blink.
“Baby—fuck,” he hisses, his head tipping back as your hands tug at the waistband of his sweats. “We’re in the common room.”
“Then be quiet,” you purr, tugging him free.
The sight of him, hard and heavy in your hand, makes your mouth water. You wrap your lips around the flushed tip, sucking slow and deliberate just to watch his composure crack.
“Jesus Christ,” he groans, hands flying to your hair. His hips twitch up, betraying him.
You drag your tongue down the thick vein, then take him deeper, gagging softly as you swallow him halfway. His thighs flex under your palms, his grip tightening.
“Sweet girl,” he rasps, his voice wrecked already. “God, you’re so fuckin’ good at this—always so hungry for me.”
You hum around him, the vibrations making his cock twitch against your tongue. His groan is guttural, his head dropping back against the couch as his chest heaves.
“Look at you,” he pants, guiding your movements. “On your knees in the damn common room, suckin’ me off like you’re starved. What if someone walks in, huh?”
You pull off just enough to smirk up at him, spit slicking your chin. “Then they’ll know how slutty you are, sittin’ here letting me do this.”
His laugh is sharp, cut off by a strangled moan as you take him all the way down, nose brushing the coarse hair at his base. His thighs tremble, his hands clench.
“Fuck—baby, m’not gonna last—” he groans, trying and failing to pull you back.
You grip his thighs, nails digging in, swallowing around him until his whole body jerks.
“Sweetheart, fuck—comin’—”
He spills down your throat with a shattered cry, hips bucking despite his attempt to stay composed. Tears prick his eyes behind his glasses, his chest heaving as you milk him through it, licking and swallowing until he collapses back against the couch.
You finally pull off, licking your lips, smirking wickedly. “Still think I’m insatiable?”
Bucky stares at you like you’ve knocked years off his life. “You’re gonna kill me, pretty girl.”
You grin, leaning in to kiss him, spit-slick, filthy, perfect. “Worth it.”
And just as he pulls you back into his lap, just as you’re grinding against him again, you both freeze at the sound of footsteps in the hall.
Bucky’s eyes widen. Yours do, too.
You both hold your breath.
The footsteps fade.
Bucky exhales, then bursts out laughing, pressing his forehead to yours. “You’re fuckin’ insane.”
“Maybe,” you whisper, biting his lip. “But you love me.”
“God help me,” he groans, already hardening again under you. “Yeah, I do.”
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You don’t know why you agreed to this.
Actually—you do. Because Bucky had asked, voice soft, hand warm on your waist, murmuring something about “we could use a normal date, doll.” And you’d melted. Obviously.
So now you’re here, strolling hand in hand through a mall like you’re not two Avengers who could snap a wrist with a flick. You should be normal. Window shopping. Grabbing coffee. People-watching.
Instead, you’re seconds away from losing your mind.
Because Bucky, your sweet, infuriating boyfriend, is being the sluttiest man alive without even trying.
His henley is rolled to the elbows, showing off veiny forearms as he carries your bags like they weigh nothing. His reading glasses are tucked into the collar of his shirt, catching the light every time he shifts. He’s chewing gum, jaw flexing, hair tied back loosely at the nape of his neck.
And then, like a cherry on the slut-sundae, he leans down to kiss your temple. Just a brush of lips, casual and tender.
It’s your undoing.
You choke on your iced latte, stopping dead in the middle of the walkway.
Bucky looks back, confused. “What’s wrong?”
You stare at him, eyes wide, chest heaving. “You.”
His brows knit. “Me?”
“You’re—fuck, Bucky, you’re so—” You tug him toward the nearest hallway, away from the crowd, practically dragging him along by his wrist.
“Angel—what—?”
The sign ahead reads Restrooms.
He catches on immediately, lips twitching into a smirk. “Oh.”
You shove him into the family restroom, lock the door behind you, and whirl on him.
“You think you can just—” you’re already crowding into his space, shoving his bags aside, “—walk around being slutty? In public? With me right there?”
Bucky grins, backing against the wall. “Slutty? Baby, I was just holdin’ your hand.”
“Exactly.” You grab his jaw, kissing him hard, tongue pushing into his mouth before he can quip again. He groans, his hands immediately finding your hips, sliding under your shirt.
“Jesus, doll,” he pants when you break for air. “You’re wound up tight.”
“You’re wound up,” you growl, tugging at his belt.
He catches your wrists, pinning them briefly against the wall, eyes gleaming. “Slow down. You want me that bad?”
“Yes,” you snap, writhing under his hold. “Now shut up and fuck me.”
That does it. His smirk slips, his pupils blow wide, and he hauls you up against him in one smooth motion, your back pressed to the wall, his mouth devouring yours.
By the time your legs are wrapped around his waist, you’ve got his cock out, stroking him fast and messy.
Bucky hisses, burying his face in your neck. “Oh, fuck, doll—always so eager for me. My filthy girl.”
You gasp when his metal hand slides under your skirt, cool fingers parting your folds. He finds your clit instantly, circling slow, and your hips buck against his.
“Fuck, Bucky—” you whimper, stroking him harder.
His groan is guttural, hot breath hitting your ear. “Feelin’ how hard you make me? You’ve got me like this just from walkin’ through the mall with you. You’re the slutty one, sweetheart.”
You moan, clutching at his shoulders, rocking into his hand. His fingers sink inside you, curling deep, and your knees tremble around his waist.
“God, baby,” he whispers, voice breaking, “you’re so wet already. My perfect girl. Always so ready for me.”
You stroke him faster, his cock leaking into your hand, thick and heavy. “Come for me,” you beg, desperate. “Please, Bucky, I need it—”
His forehead drops to your shoulder, his breath ragged. “Fuck, you’re killin’ me—say it again.”
“Come for me,” you whimper, squeezing his cock. “Make me messy. Please, Buck—”
He groans loud enough you pray no one’s outside the door, fingers plunging deeper as his cock jerks in your grip. “Sweet girl—god, you’re doing so good for me—fuck—I can’t—”
He’s spilling across your fist at the same time your orgasm rips through you, his fingers fucking you through it as his come paints your hand.
You both collapse against the wall, panting, trembling, clinging to each other like you’ll drown without it.
“Jesus Christ,” Bucky mutters, pressing frantic kisses to your jaw, your cheek, your mouth. “What the fuck are you doin’ to me, doll? You’re gonna kill me.”
You grin weakly, still catching your breath. “Worth it.”
And then his fingers slide back between your thighs, already circling your clit again.
Your eyes fly wide. “Bucky—”
“Didn’t say I was done,” he murmurs against your lips, wicked. “Gotta make sure my good girl’s satisfied. Hold on tight.”
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The restroom smells faintly of antiseptic and cheap soap, humming with the flicker of fluorescent lights above. It’s nothing glamorous—white tile, a scratched-up mirror, a metal sink that drips every few secondss.
But right now, it feels like the center of the universe.
Because Bucky Barnes has you pinned against the sink, his cock buried inside you, and the only thing you can see in that fogging mirror is the wreck you’ve already become.
Your hair is mussed, your lipstick smeared, your skirt bunched up around your waist. Your panties are dangling off one ankle, half-forgotten. And behind you, looming, broad, flushed, is Bucky. His shirt’s wrinkled, collar askew from your fists tugging, his hair escaping the tie at his neck, his glasses tucked away in his pocket like he couldn’t be bothered.
He’s gripping your hips hard enough to bruise, rutting into you with a steady force that makes the sink squeak against the wall.
You whimper, your forehead knocking the glass. “Bucky—oh god—”
“Uh-uh.” His voice is low, rough, commanding. You feel his metal hand slide up your stomach, cold against overheated skin, until it wraps around your throat. He tilts your chin up with just enough pressure to make your knees wobble. “Eyes up, pretty girl. Look.”
You blink, trying to steady yourself. The mirror shows everything: the way your tits bounce with every thrust, the wet sheen between your thighs, the way his cock disappears inside you over and over.
“See that?” he murmurs, his breath hot against your ear. “See how messy you are for me? How you’re drippin’ down your thighs, makin’ a fuckin’ mess all over my cock?”
You bite your lip, whimpering as your pussy clenches around him.
His eyes narrow in the mirror. “Answer me.”
“Yes,” you choke out, voice trembling under his grip. “I’m messy for you, Bucky—”
He smirks, leaning down to kiss your shoulder, sweat dampening his temple. “My good girl. My perfect girl. Look how well you take me.” His thrusts deepen, angling just right, and you cry out when he brushes your g-spot.
Your nails claw at the sink, slipping against the damp porcelain. “Fuck—oh, fuck—”
“Shhh, baby.” His hand slides down, pinching your clit between metal fingers, rolling it with practiced precision. You jolt, eyes rolling back, your whole body trembling as your orgasm teases the edges.
“Look at you,” he pants, grinding harder. “All that attitude, draggin’ me in here like you were gonna ruin me. But now? You’re fucked-out already. My pretty baby, my messy girl.”
Your hips buck against him helplessly, chasing more, begging for it without words.
Bucky watches you in the mirror, his own eyes blown black with lust, sweat dripping down his throat. He looks wild—wrecked. And still, his lips curl into a slow, cruel smirk.
“You love this, don’t you?” he taunts, squeezing your throat just enough to make your vision blur at the edges. “Love lettin’ me use you in some filthy restroom like you’re mine to ruin.”
“Yes,” you gasp, tears pricking your eyes. “Fuck, yes—yours—always yours—”
That cracks him.
A guttural groan rips from his chest, his hips snapping harder, faster, relentless. The slap of skin on skin echoes in the small room, mixing with your wetness and your broken cries.
You’re close,so close, but you can’t catch your breath. It’s too much, too good, his cock filling you so deep, his hand on your throat, his fingers grinding your clit like he owns it.
“Bucky—please—I can’t—”
“You can.” His voice is rough, pleading under the dominance, breaking at the seams. “C’mon, sweetheart. Cum for me. Show me. Be my good girl.”
You whimper, your thighs shaking, and that’s when he covers your mouth with his palm.
“Shhh,” he hisses, teeth grazing your ear. “You’re so fuckin’ loud, baby. Gonna get us caught.” His eyes are frantic in the mirror, locked on yours as his hips piston into you. “Cum for me, sweetheart. Cum on my cock, right here—quiet for me.”
The pressure of his hand, the weight of his cock, the brutal rhythm, it unravels you.
You scream into his palm as your orgasm slams through you, body shuddering, pussy clenching tight around him. Your vision whites out, tears streaming down your cheeks as he fucks you through it, merciless.
“Fuck—yes, that’s it, sweet girl, that’s my girl,” he groans, rutting harder. “Milkin’ my cock so perfect—god, I’m—”
His thrusts stutter, his jaw tight, and then he’s spilling inside you with a broken moan, forehead pressed to your temple, his hand still muffling your cries.
Hot spurts flood you, dripping down your thighs, messy and obscene. He keeps fucking you through it, slow and sloppy, his cock twitching inside your soaked cunt.
When he finally pulls his hand from your mouth, you’re gasping, tears streaking your face, lips swollen.
He kisses your jaw, your temple, your hair, voice trembling with tenderness. “M’sorry, sweetheart. You pull me in—fuck—I can’t stop. You’re too good, too perfect.”
Your chest aches, not from regret but from the overwhelming love that drips from every word, every kiss, every thrust.
You cup his jaw, still panting, forcing him to meet your eyes in the mirror. “Don’t you dare be sorry. You’re mine, Bucky. Always.”
His eyes glisten, his forehead knocking gently against yours. “Yours,” he whispers, raw and reverent. “Always.”
And then he’s kissing you again, filthy and tender, while his cock stays buried deep inside you, unwilling to let go.
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The hallway outside the restroom is bright, much brighter than it felt going in. Fluorescent lights seem to spotlight every inch of your flushed skin, every smudge of your makeup, every trace of Bucky’s hands on you.
You’re a mess.
Your skirt is rumpled from being bunched up. Your hair is wild, lips swollen, cheeks blotchy from tears and exertion. And between your thighs, still slick, still trembling, you can feel him, his release mixed with yours, a constant reminder of what you just did.
And Bucky?
He’s looking like he just won a medal.
His shirt is wrinkled, collar tugged down, hair sticking out of its tie, but the smug curve of his mouth and the soft, almost possessive hand at your waist make him look devastatingly proud. Like he’s parading you, like he’s daring anyone to say something.
You’re wobbling a little, legs weak, trying to keep up with his stride.
He notices, of course. Without a word, his metal arm snakes around your waist tighter, steadying you as if you’re fragile. His fingers squeeze your hip gently, his thumb brushing small circles against your skin through the fabric.
“You okay, doll?” he murmurs, low enough that only you can hear. “Need me to carry you?”
You glare at him weakly. “Don’t you dare.”
He chuckles, leaning down to kiss your temple. “Could just toss you over my shoulder. Make it look normal.”
You whine softly, burying your face against his arm. “Bucky…”
You’re almost to the food court when it happens.
A girl, early twenties maybe, in a cropped hoodie and ripped jeans, walks past you both. She takes one look at you: your messy hair, your swollen lips, the way Bucky’s holding you like a ragdoll. Her eyes flick to Bucky, towering, smug, hair messy, and back to you.
And then she grins.
“Damn! You go, girl,” she says under her breath, not even slowing down.
Your entire face goes nuclear. “Oh my god,” you whisper, covering your face with your hands. “She knows.”
Bucky’s chest shakes against your shoulder. You feel the rumble of his laugh before you hear it. “She definitely knows.”
You peek out from between your fingers, mortified. “I’m never coming back to this mall again.”
He tilts his head, lips twitching. “Why? I think she’s your new biggest fan.”
You smack his arm weakly, but he just laughs harder, leaning down to press a long, warm kiss to your temple. “C’mere, baby,” he murmurs against your skin. “Don’t be shy. You were perfect.”
You mumble something incoherent, hiding your face against his shoulder as you walk.
Bucky only tightens his arm around your waist, guiding you easily through the crowd, his smirk softening into something warmer.
To anyone watching, you probably look like a couple coming from brunch, him protective, you a little dazed, both of you glowing.
Only you two know the truth.
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The elevator dings softly as it glides open, the hum of The Compound buzzing faintly around you.
You should feel tired, shopping bags dangling from Bucky’s hand, your body wrecked from what happened at the mall, but instead you’re giggling breathlessly as Bucky casually hauls you over his shoulder like you weigh nothing. His metal arm anchors you in place, while the other hand balances all your bags with insulting ease.
“Bucky!” you squeal, pounding his back with a fist. “Put me down, people are gonna see!”
He just smirks, striding through the lobby like a soldier who’s conquered something. “Let ‘em look, doll. You think I give a damn what they see? Everyone oughta know you’re mine anyway.”
The view upside-down gives you a perfect shot of his ass in those jeans, muscles flexing with every easy step. And instead of being embarrassed, heat blooms between your thighs again. You squirm, pressing your face against his back to hide your wicked little smile.
“God,” you mutter under your breath, half to yourself, “you’re such a slut.”
Bucky actually stumbles for a half-step. “What’d you just say, sweetheart?”
You grin into his back, smug. “Nothin’.”
He huffs a laugh, low and dark, the kind that makes your stomach clench. “You better be careful, baby. Don’t think I won’t put you flat on your back the second we get through that door.”
“Promise?” you tease, your voice honey-sweet.
The growl that leaves his chest vibrates right through you.
By the time he reaches your shared room, your face is flushed, your thighs pressed together, and your heart beating too fast. He sets the bags down in the corner, then tosses you onto the bed like you’re weightless. You bounce, laughing, hair falling into your face, until he leans over you, that wolfish smirk back on his lips.
“Still callin’ me a slut?” he asks, brushing your hair back with his metal fingers.
You answer by tugging him down, pressing open-mouthed kisses to his neck, sucking just hard enough to make him shiver. “Wanna go again,” you whisper against his pulse. “Need you, Buck. Right now.”
His breath catches, and you feel the way his body tightens against you. “Jesus, doll, you’re gonna fuckin’ kill me,” he mutters, already hardening against your thigh.
You just smile wickedly. “Then die a happy man.”
It happens fast, like you’ve both been holding back since the mall.
One second you’re kissing him, the next his big hands are gripping your thighs, hauling you up until your legs wrap around his waist. He slams you against the wall, his lips hot and desperate on yours, tongue claiming your mouth like he hasn’t had you in years.
Your back hits the wall hard enough to make you gasp, but his hand is already around your throat, tilting your face up so you’re forced to look at him. His blue eyes are dark, glassy with hunger.
“Messy little thing,” he growls, grinding his cock against your soaked core through your clothes. “Look at you, begging for more when you can barely stand. Can’t get enough of me, can you, doll?”
You whimper, shaking your head. “No—never enough.”
“Say it,” he demands, voice sharp, grip on your throat tightening just enough to make your pulse hammer.
“Never enough,” you breathe, eyes wide, desperate.
His mouth crashes onto yours again as he thrusts up against you, both of you groaning at the friction. His free hand yanks your panties aside, then his cock, already leaking, is sliding against your folds, not even inside yet, just teasing, smearing slick everywhere.
“Fuckin’ soaked,” he mutters, breaking the kiss to press his forehead against yours. “You were wet the whole walk back, weren’t you? My needy little slut.”
“Yes, Bucky,” you whimper, rocking your hips against him. “Please—fuck me, I can’t—”
He doesn’t make you wait. With one rough thrust, he pushes into you, stretching you so perfectly you cry out. He groans at the sound, burying his face in your neck, kissing, biting, panting.
“God—tight little pussy,” he growls. “Grippin’ me like you never wanna let go. Fuck, I can’t—angel, I can’t stop.”
Your nails dig into his shoulders as he pounds you into the wall, the frame rattling with every thrust. The sound of skin on skin, your breathless moans, and his filthy praise fill the room.
“That’s it, baby,” he pants, his hand sliding down to rub your clit. “Take me. Take all of me. My perfect girl—always so fuckin’ good for me.”
You’re sobbing now, head tipping back against the wall, pleasure coursing through you so sharp you see stars.
When your legs start shaking too hard to stay wrapped around him, Bucky doesn’t even pause. He carries you to the bed, still buried inside you, and drops you down onto the sheets.
You barely have time to gasp before he’s on top of you, pinning your wrists above your head with one hand, his thrusts deeper now, sharper, his other hand circling your clit ruthlessly.
“Look at you,” he groans, sweat dripping down his temple, his lips swollen from your kisses. “My sweet girl, my perfect fuckin’ angel—messy and ruined, and still beggin’ for more.”
Your back arches, your cries breaking as the orgasm rips through you, your walls clamping down around him. He gasps, a guttural, broken sound, burying his face against your neck as his thrusts turn erratic.
“Sweetheart—fuck, I’m sorry—can’t hold it,” he groans, spilling inside you, hips jerking helplessly. “You’re pullin’ me in—shit—don’t stop, don’t you fuckin’ stop—”
You’re both a mess, sweat, cum, tears, kisses that taste desperate and needy. And when he finally collapses on top of you, chest heaving, his arms still wrapped around your body like he’ll never let go, you realize the truth:
It doesn’t matter how many times you go at it. You’ll never, ever get enough of him.
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The room is quiet again, save for the two of you catching your breath. The sheets are damp, your thighs sticky, Bucky’s weight still heavy against you.
For a moment, you just lay there, dazed, your chest rising and falling in sync with his. His nose is buried against your neck, stubble scratching you softly, lips brushing against your pulse with every exhale.
Then he groans, pulling back just enough to look at you. His hair is plastered to his forehead with sweat, his eyes still glassy and wild, yet when they meet yours, they soften instantly.
“Hey,” he murmurs, brushing his thumb gently over your cheek. “You okay, angel?”
You nod, your lips curving into a lazy smile. “Better than okay. I think you ruined me.”
He huffs out a laugh, kissing your nose. “Good. Then we’re even.”
You giggle, and he presses another kiss, your cheek, then your forehead, then your lips, slow and tender this time. Nothing filthy, nothing rushed. Just love.
Bucky finally pushes himself up, grimacing at the mess between you. “Alright, sweetheart. Let’s get you cleaned up before you stick to the sheets.”
You groan dramatically, flopping back into the pillow. “Nooo. I live here now.”
“Mm, tempting,” he says, chuckling as he slips out of bed. “But then I’d have to peel you off the mattress in the morning.”
You stick your tongue out at him, but your pout fades when he returns, warm cloth in hand, glass of water in the other. He sets the glass down for you before settling between your legs, his movements careful, almost reverent, as he wipes you clean.
You sigh, watching him in silence for a moment. There’s something about seeing Bucky Barnes, former assassin, world-class soldier, terrifying to everyone but you, gently cleaning you up with that soft furrow in his brow like you’re the most precious thing he’s ever touched.
“Stop staring,” he mutters, cheeks pink as he focuses on his task.
“Can’t help it,” you say softly. “You’re just… perfect.”
His hand falters, his blue eyes flicking up to yours, wide and vulnerable. Then he leans forward, cupping your face with his metal hand, cool against your warm skin.
“You’re the perfect one,” he whispers, kissing you so softly it makes your chest ache.
When he’s done, he tucks you back under the covers, slides in beside you, and pulls you into his chest. You snuggle close instantly, your ear pressed against the steady thump of his heart, your leg thrown over his hip.
“You’re clingy,” he teases, running his hand up and down your spine.
“Mmhm,” you hum sleepily, “your fault. You broke me.”
“Guess I’ll just have to take care of you forever, then.”
You peek up at him, smiling so hard your cheeks hurt. “You promise?”
His throat bobs as he presses his lips to your hairline, voice low and raw when he says:
“Yeah, baby. I promise. Forever.”
You fall asleep like that, tangled together, your heart so full it feels like it might burst.
And Bucky? He doesn’t sleep for a long time. He just lays there, stroking your back, kissing your hair, and whispering quiet little nothings you’ll never fully hear:
“I love you. God, I love you so much.”
a/n: GOSH!! I HATE HIS SLUTTY ASS AND HIS SLUTTY WATCH AND HIS SLUTTY HANDS!! WHY IS HE ALWAYS SLUTTING AROUND?? SLUT. okay old fic, like from last year, like im talking november of 2025. so that’s why it’s the old theme. its ahh lowkey but i wanted to post something so yall know im alive :p
pairings: pre civil war!bucky x fem!reader, congressman!bucky x mom!reader
summary: your life is forever changed after a tender night with your quiet, traumatised neighbour in bucharest. years later, you're living in brooklyn with your five year old daughter and run into congressman barnes. he's everything you remembered and more, and now he wants to be part of yours and jamie's lives.
warnings: 18+ MDNI, plot with porn, angst, fluff, mentions of nightmares, a lot of plum pie, slooow burn, tender soft sex, then not tender sex, accidental pregnancy, explicit detailed smut, protected and unprotected pnv, slight dom!bucky, praise kink, dirty talk (bucky is a bit feral), pregnancy/breeding kink, body worship, oral (f!receiving), fingering, a lil spanking, multiple orgasms (f!receiving), reader cries during, love confessions, very few physical details of reader, reader's daughter has blue eyes and dark hair, no use of y/n (i'm trying something new), timeline inconsistencies (i tried tho), partly proofread, let me know if i missed anythingggg
word count: 19k (no but seriously can someone tell me to chill)
authors note: 2 fics for the price of 1! partly inspired by this post, partly inspired by @metal-armed-muse's second chances fic (dad congressman barnes has me weak in the knees). i needed a break from man on your mind and this just appeared like the sun through rainclouds (though it definitely put me in the trenches i won't lie). this is written from reader's pov, but might do some bucky pov blurbs if y'all are interested! reminder that i am a new writer so my style & formatting is ever evolving - ai will never be used in this household. please like, reblog, and comment :)
song inspo: river - zinadelphia
I’m somewhere in between
The things that I’ve lost
And the things I’ll gain from losing
Either way I will leave something behind
But I’m dying to do something different this time
June 2016 - Bucharest, Romania
Sleep had become a rare commodity the past couple weeks.
The group of guy backpackers staying below you refused to turn their music down after eleven—if anything, they turned it up louder to spite you—and you could hear them fucking the poor girls who made the mistake of going home with them after the pub. Every night. Fortunately for you, the guys had awful stamina and they were finished within five minutes. This wouldn’t normally be a big deal, if you hadn’t ‘lost’ your headphones three days after you moved in to the short-term stay apartment—you were ninety-nine percent certain one of them had broken in to your room and stolen them, but you had no proof.
Sleep would welcome you for a few hours before the screaming across the hall started. The first time the deep, throaty screams made their way through your paper thin walls, you startled awake so violently you jumped out of bed and twisted your ankle. You limped out of your apartment—if you could call it that—with a Romanian dictionary held high as your weapon, your socked feet quiet on the concrete floor. It wasn’t hard to find the source of the screaming—the aftermath of a nightmare, heavy breathing and sobbing, was crystal clear through the door opposite yours.
It was on day four of being woken up by your neighbours nightmares when you finally saw him. You were running late for your first class of the day, arms full of marked papers and keys hanging from your mouth as you opened your door, when you caught movement in your periphery. He was climbing up the stairs silently, his head titled towards the ground with a cap on top of his long dark hair, obstructing the view of his face. The first thing you noticed was the size of him—he was tall and broad, big muscles still noticeable under layers of clothes. The second thing you noticed was his gloved hands—an odd sight in the Bucharest warmth—one of them holding a bag of plums.
Plum guy. You had seen him while out on your daily morning walks, buying plums at one of the fruit vendors down the street. You had no idea that the gentle giant you watched make quiet conversation with the vendor was the man whose sobbing and whimpering had your heart clenching at three every morning.
The keys in your mouth dropped on top of the paper stack, the small jingle and thud making the man tense, his eyes darting to you—standing in your doorway staring at him. You quickly looked away, grabbing your keys and locking your door.
He was opening his own door when you crossed the short distance to the stairs—and to him, given that his door was right next to the stairs. He turned his head slightly, a gloved hand clenched tight on the doorknob.
You smiled softly as you walked closer to him. “Bună dimineaţa,” you said quietly. He tracked your movements closely, offering you a brief nod before he disappeared inside his apartment. Not a talker, then.
Later that night—or technically early the next morning—you were bent over the small kitchen table, struggling to read your student’s handwriting. You had just over a week left teaching English to Romanian middle-graders, and then you would be on a flight back home to the States.
You were trying to rub the red ink off your hand when the first gasp echoed from across the small hallway. You looked towards the apartment door on instinct, halting your movements and waiting for another noise. It came a few seconds later—a loud gasp that sounded like someone was struggling to breathe. Then a pained shout, in what you were almost certain was Russian. The shouting turned into whimpered pleas within minutes. You felt tears well behind your eyes listening to the man across from you have another nightmare. Your heart bleed for a man you didn’t know, didn’t even know his name. You only knew he spoke gently to fruit vendors and bought fresh plums everyday.
Call it sleep deprivation, homesickness, or basic empathy, but you felt deeply enough to come up with a plan—to offer the hurting man some kindness. You finished marking papers as quietly as you could before you fell into bed, barely audible sniffling sending you to sleep with a heavy heart.
In the morning you thought strategically about how you would approach him. Knocking on his door empty handed made no sense, and following him around the fruit market seemed an even worse idea. But, like him, you wanted to buy plums. And, it made sense to buy them on your usual morning walk.
You left earlier than you normally would, wanting to be at the market before him so it didn’t look like you were stalking him. You were making idle chit-chat with the vendor, asking what traits constituted a ‘good’ plum—half of you was interested, the other half was stalling in the hopes that plum guy would show.
Conscious that you were in the way of paying customers, you turned to leave and found your neighbour standing two metres away, watching you apprehensively. How long had he been there?
“Bună!” You greeted him with a kind smile, a little louder now that you were outside. His eyes narrowed slightly, giving you a once over as he studied your body language. Despite how hard you worked on your Romanian pronunciation, your American accent came through strong and you knew he noticed it.
Another brief nod was your reply. You tried to not let your disappointment show but his eyes darted to your shoulders, watching them deflate.
“Morning.” Oh. You were not expecting that.
You were expecting the American accent even less.
He spoke quietly, his voice rough from lack of use. He stepped to the left, turning his body slightly to let you pass. It was progress at least—you would take the simple greeting as a win.
You saw him again later that day. You were stomping up the stairs cursing to yourself, more papers to grade overflowing your arms and a takeout bag dangerously close to slipping from your fingers. You tripped on the last step, the takeout dropping on the floor and spilling right in front of your neighbours door—half of the papers in your arms following shortly after.
“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me!” You exclaimed louder than you intended, pissed that your dinner was now all over the floor—some of your students work now stained with pho.
You bent down slowly, gently lowering the rest of the papers on the clean ground next to your ruined dinner. You didn’t notice the door in front of you opening—the sight of boots next to your mess making you flinch. You jerked your head up to find your neighbour watching you carefully, the side of his mouth twitching in faint amusement. You flushed red, embarrassed by the mess you’d made and flustered from seeing him without his baseball cap. He was handsome.
“Shit, I—sorry, I’m in the way. I’ll just, uh…” You stumbled over your words, feeling suddenly intimidated by him.
He squatted down to where you were crouched awkwardly, your arms still holding the pile of papers. He looked down at the mess of pho and essays, his eyes assessing the damage.
He picked up a soggy paper, a stray noodle sliding down the page. He read the page slowly, noticing the name and age in barely legible scribbles. He let out a quiet huff, his blue eyes flicking to your shocked ones. “Might have to give out a few automatic passes.”
He spoke first. He’s looking at you with amusement swirling in his gorgeous blue eyes, and he spoke to you first—even more, he made a joke.
You let out a breathy laugh, leaning closer to see what students name was written at the top. “He struggles more than anyone else in the class, giving him a pass may cause suspicion…” You trailed off with a small, teasing smile.
He placed the ruined essay back on the mess, his movements gentle.
He stood to his full height, nodding towards the stack in your hands. “You should put those inside. I’ll clean this up.” He moved back towards his door to let you pass.
You stood back up and hesitated, biting your lip as you looked down at the mess. “No, this is my fault. I’ll sort it out.”
“You should put those down first. Don’t wanna ruin more of your student’s work.” A muscle in his cheek twitched, like he was holding back a smile.
“Right, yeah, that’s smart.” You stepped over the mess and walked the few steps to your door, fumbling with the keys in your bag. You glanced over your shoulder as you opened the door, seeing plum guy crouched down and picking up papers gently. You shook your head fondly at the sight—of course he would clean it up anyway.
You entered the small apartment, making your way over to the dingy kitchen table and dropping the stack of papers and your bag onto it. You closed your eyes and took a couple breaths, shaking off the nervousness seeing your neighbours face properly had caused.
He’s just a guy. A handsome, tormented, gentle guy—whose name you still don’t know.
In the time it took to give yourself a pep talk, plum guy had finished collecting the papers and was standing in your doorframe. He cleared his throat softly causing you to turn around quickly. His eyes roamed around your small apartment while yours focused on him—he made the doorframe look small, his shoulders just as wide and his head close to touching the top.
“You didn’t have to do that,” you said as you walked towards him.
His eyes met yours, soft and hesitant. “I know.”
He looked down at the papers in his hands, extending them towards you. You offered him a grateful smile as you grabbed them. “Thank you, I appreciate it.”
He stuffed his hands in his front pockets, shrugging his shoulders at your gratitude. “It’s fine,” he murmured, his eyes scanning you and the apartment—looking for any hidden threats.
He took a step back, nodding his head once in goodbye.
You blurted your name out quickly, not wanting to miss the first chance you’ve had to properly connect with the man.
He tilted his head towards the ground, a strand of hair falling in front of his face. His eyes darted side to side, like he was thinking. Hard.
Finally, he lifted his head but kept his eyes downcast. “…Bucky.”
Your eyebrows lifted a fraction of an inch, surprised by the unusual name. “Well, it’s nice to meet you, Bucky.” His eyes met yours again, more sure this time.
“Likewise,” he muttered before leaving your apartment, closing the door softly behind him.
You felt a small smile take over your face as you stood still, watching the space he just occupied. Progress.
Half an hour later you were bent over the drying essays, determined to make sense of the smudged scribbles when two sharp knocks sounded against your door.
You furrowed your brows, not sure why anyone would be knocking on your door—the only person who knew you lived here was your neighbour, Bucky. You shot up from your chair quickly—it must be him.
You opened your door a second too late, just catching his door across the small hall closing behind him. You looked down to the floor, surprise knocking you breathless for a moment. There on the concrete at your feet was a bowl of soup, steam rising from it. You picked it up slowly, your heart doing flips in your chest. Bucky had made you soup. He had cleaned up your mess outside his door, and had made you soup to replace your ruined dinner.
That night you found yourself silently crying along with him, the sounds of his nightmare causing you physical pain. What had happened to him?
It was Saturday afternoon and you were pacing the length of your apartment, trying to hype yourself up. Bucky’s clean bowl was resting in your palms, feeling like a loaded gun. You had a plan—to return the bowl and try make conversation, maybe even get him to laugh. That would be nice, right? For him to laugh, for you to hear something from him that wasn’t sounds of agony in the middle of the night.
You raised your hand hesitantly to his door, giving it two soft knocks. You waited patiently, straining to hear any movement behind the door. A minute passed and nothing. You tried again, knocking with more confidence this time. Thirty seconds passed and you were shifting on your feet, starting to feel disheartened.
“Bucky,” you called softly. “I—sorry for disturbing you, I just wanted to return your bowl—from the other night?” It came out as a question, your confidence fading and you started to feel silly. Obviously the guy wanted to be left alone.
You turned to leave when the door in front of you opened, Bucky’s large frame obstructing your view of his apartment. He was without his baseball cap again and his hair was damp, like he had just stepped out of the shower. He was wearing a long-sleeved shirt and jeans like usual, gloves covering his hands. His eyebrows were raised slightly at you standing in front of him, nervously biting your lip with his cheap bowl in your hands.
You extended the bowl towards him. “Thank you, for the soup the other night. I…wasn’t expecting it. Beats the granola bar that’s been sitting in my bag for weeks.” You chuckled awkwardly.
He grabbed the bowl with a quiet nod.
“And, thank you again for cleaning up the mess I made. You really didn’t need to.”
“It’s fine. You don’t need to worry about it.” His voice was deep, still rough from lack of use. You found it comforting—you wanted to hear more.
You took a breath to steel your nerves, plastering on what you hoped was a disarming smile.
“I was planning on baking a plum pie this afternoon.” You started, watching as a confused expression took over his face. “My mom’s recipe—I used to bake with her, and I’ve been feeling homesick lately so…” You trailed off, hoping the lie wasn’t obvious.
Your mom didn’t bake plum pies, and the last time you baked with her was when you were nine—you ended up in tears with little burns on your hands.
“Would you…would you like some? Or want to join me?”
His surprise at your invitation was evident, though it was quickly replaced with suspicion.
“…Why?”
“You like plums, right? I saw you down at the market.” He was still looking at you skeptically, his big arms now crossed over his chest. Your voice wavered slightly, “think of it as a thank you gift, for your help the other day.”
He sighed at you thanking him again.
“…Fine. I’ll come over in a couple hours.”
Bucky looked abnormally large sitting at your small kitchen table. His shoulders were tense, his gloved hands clutched together tightly in his lap, his eyes darting around the small space absorbing every detail he could. His brows furrowed at your suitcase on the other side of the room, your clothes spilling out next to the bed.
You followed his line of sight, an embarrassed chuckle escaping you. “Sorry for the mess, this is just a temporary situation. I wasn’t expecting to be living out of my suitcase, still.”
His eyes flicked back to yours in interest. “Temporary?”
You turned back to the dirty dishes, needing something to do with your hands when he’s looking at you like that. Like he wants to know more about you.
“Yeah, I was meant to fly back home a couple weeks ago, but the school I’m teaching at asked me to stay until school finished for the year—they offered to pay for the flight transfer.” You shrugged lightly.
He shifted slightly, the small chair squeaking and straining beneath his weight. “Home?”
You noticed he didn’t talk much and when he did it was in small sentences. Though he was asking you questions now, and you took that as more progress.
“The States—Philadelphia, to be exact.” You took a breath before asking him, “where’s home for you?”
He was silent for a minute before quietly muttering, “Brooklyn.”
You turned to him, flashing him a bright smile you couldn’t tame. “Oh cool, my parents are planning on moving there in a couple months! Any non-touristy places they should check out?”
He hesitated again. “It’s—uh, it’s been a while since I was last…home.” He wasn’t looking at you anymore, instead staring intently at his clenched hands. You took the hint that he didn’t want to talk about it anymore.
You bent down to check on the pie in the oven, sighing in relief that it didn’t look like an absolute disaster.
Turning back to Bucky you tried to think of anything else to talk about, wanting to know more about the quiet man.
“The pie should be ready in a few minutes. Do you want to…watch something, maybe? While we eat.”
His response was a small nod.
You walked over to grab your laptop off your bed. You sat down on the chair across from Bucky, noticing how he leaned away from you and put his hands in his lap.
“Anything in particular you want to watch?” You briefly glanced at him as you scrolled through the streaming apps.
“Dealers choice,” he hummed quietly.
You picked A New Hope, deeming it an acceptable movie to watch while eating pie with your neighbour.
Bucky waited until you took your first bite of pie before he inhaled his slice in less than a minute. You let out a small laugh at the sight of him—hunched over in the small chair, shovelling the pie in his mouth like he hadn’t eaten for days.
He looked up at you sheepishly when he heard you laugh.
“Sorry,” he mumbled, mouth full of plum and pastry.
“No, don’t apologise—I take it as a compliment,” you smiled at him, licking your fork clean. His eyes tracked the movement carefully, causing your smile to turn to a small smirk. He looked back down to his empty plate quickly, his shoulders tense after being caught staring.
You stood up and grabbed his plate, cutting a much larger slice of pie for him. He offered you a bashful smile as you put the plate in front of him.
“Thanks…it’s, uh, pretty good.”
Your body rushed with warmth at his compliment, your cheeks flushing and a small smile now permanent on your face.
“I’m glad.”
He ate the second piece at a normal pace, only half interested in watching the movie playing from your laptop on the table. You caught his eyes watching you every few minutes but it didn’t put you on edge. From the few times you’ve interacted with him you gathered he’s a cautious, suspicious guy—the occasional staring didn’t bother you.
Suddenly, the floor started to shake below you—the telltale sign that the backpackers had started partying early. Their music was more bass than anything, making everything in your apartment vibrate slightly. You rolled your eyes and sighed in annoyance—you knew it was going to be a long night.
Bucky stood up and grabbed your empty plates, walking over to the sink to wash them. You opened your mouth to stop him, to tell him you’ll sort it out. He shut you up with a sharp look and shake of his head.
“That happen often? The…music?” He asked, his head tilting towards the floor.
You let out a small scoff. “Yeah, basically every night. This isn’t even the worst of it.”
He grunted in response, displeased.
“You don’t hear it from your apartment?”
“I do, it’s just not this bad. Becomes background noise after a bit.” He let out a bitter chuckle. “It’s fucking awful music.”
You laughed at that. “Right?! I’m pretty sure they’re aspiring DJ’s…all I know is that I hate them.” He let out a deep laugh that sent a thrill through your body. God help you, you wanted to hear it again.
“What music do you like?” You tried to ask casually.
He paused, deliberating his answer. “I like…older music, jazz. Not a fan of the modern stuff.”
That didn’t surprise you at all.
You hummed in response. “Yeah, I get that. My grandma made sure I listened to all the classics—I have a soft spot for Sinatra, among others.”
“Huh,” was all he offered. He started walking towards the door, stuffing his hands in his pockets.
“This was…nice. I—um, I enjoyed your company. Pie was good, too.”
You giggled at his nervousness—there was something so charming about this big guy being awkward.
“Yeah, me too. We should do it again, before I go home.”
He hesitated opening the door. “When’s your flight?”
“Friday morning.”
“Monday after work. I’ll bring the plums.”
Later that night, you made the unsafe decision to take an after midnight stroll around Bucharest, choosing to potentially put your life in danger than listen to the gut wrenching sounds of Bucky’s nightmare. It was a bad one—you tried burrowing your head in all the pillows and blankets you had, but you could still hear the harrowing screams and cries. Potentially being mugged seemed a lot more appealing in that moment.
Bucky knocked on your door an hour after you got home on Monday, with plums in his hand and a request that you teach him the plum pie recipe.
“Oh Bucky, it’s really not that special. Any recipe you find on the internet will be just as good!” And you knew that was true, because your recipe was the first result when you googled ‘plum pie recipe’.
“I want to know your one. Promise I won’t get in the way.” His eyes were almost pleading, and you hated the way your heart clenched at his kicked puppy expression. You could see the exhaustion lining his eyes, how his torturous, sleepless nights were taking a toll on him. Your eyes burned with tears just looking at him.
That’s how you ended up hiding in your bathroom, staring unblinking at your phone screen trying to commit the plum pie recipe to memory.
He didn’t get in the way, just like he promised. But you could feel him hovering over your shoulder, his eyes solely focused on your hands as you made the pie. His rapt attention made you stumble a few times, completely forgetting steps and measurements.
He still didn’t talk much, only offering small grunts and hums when you explained techniques and made the occasional awkward—trying to be funny—comment.
You sat closer to him at the table this time, cheering internally when he didn’t lean away or move his chair further from you.
You let out a breathy chuckle as a thought crossed your mind.
“What?” Bucky asked curiously.
“Nothing, just had a thought.” You shook your head with a small smile, pushing around a large chunk of plum with your fork.
“Do you not get those often?”
You gasped in shocked delight, not expecting him to make a lighthearted dig at you. You looked up from your plate at him, seeing his blue eyes twinkling and an almost smirk tugging his mouth.
“Wow,” you dragged out. “And to think, I was just starting to like you…” You teased him back.
He huffed out a small laugh.
“M’sorry, couldn’t help it. What were you thinking about?” He shovelled more pie in his mouth, waiting for your response.
“You remind me of a cat.”
“What?” He laughed out, his mouth full of pie.
“You’re like a cat. Aloof, wary of people, ready to run out the nearest exit.” You spoke softly, not wanting him to perceive your words as an attack. “But, with a bit of patience and treats,” you nodded towards the pie, “you start to become curious…even trust a little, maybe. It’s not a perfect analogy—it was just a thought.”
He looked at you with a strange expression on his face—something achingly tender, with a mix of disbelief and sorrow. He didn’t answer for a minute, just watched you like he still couldn’t figure you out.
“What kind of cat would I be?”
“A black cat, for sure.”
You saw him two more times before Thursday afternoon. The first time he joined you on your morning walk around the neighbourhood, the both of you silent—basking in each other’s company and enjoying the quiet summer morning. The second time was late on Tuesday night, when you finally had enough of the backpackers bullshit and were banging on their door demanding they shut the fuck up. Bucky was there within a minute of you shouting, gently pulling you away from the door where two sleazy backpackers were leering at you.
“It’s not worth it,” he said your name softly.
“Fucking assholes,” you seethed. “I know they stole my headphones, Bucky!”
You were no match for his strength as he carried you up the stairs, your legs thrashing uselessly. “They were expensive,” you whined like a pouting toddler.
Saying goodbye to your students on Thursday was by no means easy. Even though you only taught there for a few months as part of your gap year, the kids had dug their way into your heart and left you in tears when they hugged you goodbye.
You recovered by the time Bucky knocked on your door in the late afternoon, plums in one hand and a small bunch of wildflowers in the other. You were frozen, staring at him with what you were sure was a lovestruck expression on your face.
He held the flowers out for you to grab, your hand brushing his gloved one in the process. He quickly pulled his hand back at your touch, running it through his hair as he looked everywhere but you.
“For your last day,” he said, like that explained everything. “Sorry, they’re nothing, uh, special—they were the only ones the florist had left…” He shrugged his shoulders, his eyes fixed on a spot over your shoulder.
You snapped out of your smitten daze, a soft giggle leaving you at his nervousness. He looked at you then, his shoulders relaxing.
“They’re perfect.”
You opened the door wider for him to come in, walking to the kitchen to put the flowers in a glass of water while he closed the door behind him.
You turned your head sideways, shooting him a teasing look. “You know…they’re going to die in a couple days. I won’t be here to look after them.”
You watched in fascination as a flush climbed up his neck, painting his cheeks red.
He rubbed the back of his neck, letting out a nervous huff. “I didn’t think about that.”
“You can always break in after I’ve left, grab them for yourself before the pricks downstairs steal them.”
“We don’t want that happening,” he chuckled, putting the plums on the counter next to you. “I’m starting to see why you hate them so much.”
“You’re only seeing it now? They’ve been my number one enemies since I moved in.” You grumbled bitterly.
You rolled your shoulders back with a sigh—you didn’t want your bitterness clouding your last night with Bucky.
“Okay, let’s change the subject,” you clapped your hands together, turning to face Bucky fully. “I’m thinking one last plum pie, and maybe we can finish that movie we were watching the other night?”
“Whatever you want.”
An hour later you were both sat at the small table, the half-eaten pie between you and Bucky barely paying attention to the movie, again. His eyes were fixated on your packed suitcase and duffel bag next to the bed. He looked…sad, mournful even. There was a small crease between his furrowed brows, the sides of his mouth downturned, and he hadn’t eaten much in the last few minutes.
“Hey,” you started, voice low and soft. “You okay?”
He whipped his head back to you, his glassy eyes meeting yours for a second. “Yeah,” his voice broke faintly. He cleared his throat, looking down at the pie.
“I’m…gonna miss you.”
You sucked in a breath, the emotion in his voice making your throat feel tight. Tears pricked behind your eyes as you looked at the man in front of you. You wished you could take away all his pain, all his sadness.
You gently laid a hand on his arm, your eyes darting between his for any signs of unease—the only other time the two of you had touched was when he dragged you away from the backpackers door. His arm was solid and cold through his long-sleeve, almost unnaturally hard. His shocked eyes looked into yours as your thumb rubbed his sleeve faintly.
“I’m going to miss you, too.”
You removed your hand and looked back at the movie, a single tear slipping down your cheek.
Tension hung thick in the air, causing you to clear your throat and try relieve some of the tightness in your chest.
“You kinda look like him,” you said to Bucky, nodding towards your laptop—a close up shot of Luke Skywalker on the screen.
“Yeah, I can see it,” you continued, turning your face to see him already looking at you. “If you cut your hair short, shave the beard…” You trailed off, your eyes catching on a bit of plum on his chin.
You raised a hand without thinking, your attention transfixed on the piece of fruit and his pink lips an inch above. His stubble faintly pricked your thumb, your touch featherlight as you swiped the bit of plum away. A small gasp caught in his throat, his chin leaning towards your touch unconsciously.
Your eyes couldn’t leave his lips, a faint purple tint to them from the pie.
“You really like plums.”
“They’re meant to help with memory,” he murmured, distracted.
That caught your attention, your eyes darting up to his in question. He let out a deep exhale, the air brushing against your hand.
“I had an accident…a few years back. Can’t remember much from before, it’s—uh, it’s coming back in bits and pieces.” Your heart clenched painfully, the sorrow for his lost life bleeding through his eyes.
“Is that—,” you swallowed against the lump in your throat. “Is that what your nightmares are? Memories coming back?” You asked gently, your thumb rubbing soothing circles on his chin.
His eyes widened in panic. “You—you know about the nightmares?”
You moved your hand from his chin, your fingers brushing against his cheek as you pushed a loose strand behind his ear. His body involuntarily shivered from your gentle touch.
“Yeah…I’ve known since my first night here,” you whispered. “The walls are pretty thin.”
His eyes dropped to his lap in shame. “God, I am so sorry,” he rasped out your name, his deep voice thick with emotion.
You cupped his face with both your hands, tilting his head up until his eyes met yours. “Never apologise for your pain, Bucky.” The anguish and self-hatred you saw in his eyes made yours tear up. “Can I—would it be okay if I hugged you?”
He stared at you for a long moment, then finally gave you a nod.
You stood up slowly with Bucky following your lead. You looked into his eyes once more, checking he was still comfortable with this, before stepping forward and winding your arms around his waist, your palms resting lightly on his back. He sucked in a sharp breath at the touch, his muscles going stiff under your hands. You gently rested your cheek against his chest, his heart beating fast beneath your ear. He didn’t reciprocate the hug for a moment, his arms hovering at his side like he didn’t know what to do.
“Breathe,” you whispered into his shirt. He took a few shuddering breaths in and out then raised his right arm slowly, hesitantly draping it over your shoulder. You felt some of the tension leave his body as he sunk into your embrace. His gloved hand instinctively traveled from your shoulder to the middle of your back, pulling you closer into his warmth—surprising you both.
“Sorry,” his voice was quiet, a slight tremble lacing through. “It’s…been a long time, since I last…hugged someone.” His voice cracked at the end and your heart broke into a million pieces.
You hugged him tighter, your hands clutching the back of his shirt—tethering him to you. A small sound slipped out of you, something between a gasp and a pained whimper. The lump in your throat grew bigger, spreading down your chest and sitting heavy on your heart.
He rested his chin on the top of your head, so gently you barely noticed it at first. He let out a staggering breath and then rested the weight of his head on yours fully, purposely. He moved slightly, his nose brushing against your hair as he inhaled deeply. His arm around you tightened, pulling you tight against his strong body.
“…I can’t believe you’re real.”
You croaked out a watery laugh against his chest. Fuck, he had no clue what he was doing to you—that you were going to be leaving half of your heart behind when you got on that flight in the morning.
You pulled away from him an inch, moving your hands from his back to cup his face gently. You looked into his glistening blue eyes before looking down at his lips, watching as his tongue peaked out to wet them.
“Can I kiss you?”
He leaned in slowly, brushing his lips on yours hesitantly. He sucked in a sharp breath before pressing his lips to yours firmly. You let him set the pace, letting him know he was the one in control here. His hand moved from your back to your waist, pulling you up into his chest as he deepened the kiss. A whimper caught in your throat when his tongue swept along your bottom lip, your mouth opening for him immediately. His chest rumbled with a low moan, his kisses growing more desperate. Your hand slipped from it’s place cupping his jaw, trailing along his skin before tangling in the long hair at the nape of his neck. He let out a whimper at the feeling, breaking the kiss and taking in deep breaths.
“You okay?” You asked softly.
His breathy chuckle brushed against your lips. “Yeah, more than okay.”
He kissed you again, more sure this time. Both your hands tangled in his hair, gently tugging his scalp as you kissed him with just as much desperation. His stubble scratched against your skin as he moved his lips, kissing along your jaw and making you gasp. The noise encouraged him, his kisses gaining more confidence, making their way down your neck. You titled your head back, granting him more access. He kissed and licked all over your neck, gently biting down on a spot under your ear making you release a moan. He focused on the spot, sucking and biting as you let out more moans and gasps. His hand on your waist gripped tighter, his fingers digging slightly as he pulled you flush to his body. That’s when you felt it—hard and unmistakable, pressing against your lower stomach.
You broke away from the kiss, watching his eyes flutter open to look into yours. You moved a hand from his hair, brushing your thumb against his jaw.
“Let me help you feel good.”
He swallowed audibly, his eyes leaving yours to glance at his left arm hanging stiffly at his side. You watched an internal struggle play out on his face, his darting eyes exposing his overthinking mind.
“We’ll only do what you’re comfortable with,” you said softly.
He let out a small, disbelieving chuckle before kissing you again—his mouth both achingly tender and bruisingly desperate against your own.
“Did you fall from heaven?” He whispered against your lips, walking backwards and pulling you towards the bed without breaking the kiss.
You giggled and rolled your eyes at him. “Shut up,” you mumbled.
He sat down on the edge of the bed and pulled you onto his lap, your knees on either side of his thighs. He took his hand off of your waist and ripped the glove off with his left hand. He brought his hand up to your face, tracing your bottom lip with his thumb and gazing at you reverently. You let out a little gasp, not expecting him to initiate skin to skin contact first. He leaned in to kiss you again, hungrily claiming your mouth with his. He moved his bare hand down to your hip, slipping tentative fingers under the hem of your shirt and brushing your skin—igniting your nerves and sending shivers along your body. His hand cupped your waist under your shirt, pressing your hips down ’til they were flush with his.
He let out a wrecked moan from the contact, his hips jerking against yours involuntarily. You rolled your hips experimentally, relishing when he let out a deep groan—his body vibrating beneath yours. You rolled your hips faster, spurred on by his noises and his bulge pressing deliciously against your jeans. He broke away from your mouth, dropping his head to your shoulder.
“Shit, I’m not gonna last long if—if you keep doing that.” He sounded ruined. A needy whine tore out of you, your need for Bucky overwhelming you. You ground down on him harder, the ball of desire in your core slicking your underwear and making you greedy. He moaned out your name, clutching your hip to stop your movements. He lifted his head off your shoulder, his glazed eyes meeting your own.
“Do you have a condom?” He asked, panting already.
You jumped off his lap, opening your suitcase in a rush to find a condom. You found the open—but unused—box at the bottom, grabbing a couple before joining him on the bed again. He rolled you onto your back, hovering over you with a small smirk on his face.
“Eager, are we?”
You nodded quickly in response, grabbing his face and pulling him down into a needy kiss. He gripped the hem of your shirt and slowly pulled it up and off your body, pausing to stare at your clothed breasts. He kissed down your neck, lavishing your collarbones and chest in tender, hungry kisses.
“God, you’re a work of art.” He mumbled into your skin. Your heart swelled in response, unexpected tears pricking behind your eyes. No guy has ever said anything like that to you, it’s normally ‘you’re hot’ or they don’t compliment you at all.
“Take off your pants,” he muttered. He removed himself from your body, standing at the foot of the bed to take his own jeans off, your eyes widening at the impressive bulge in his boxers. You felt more wetness gather in your core, preparing you for what was to come.
You eagerly pushed your jeans down, kicking them off your feet. He climbed back over you, holding his body up with his left arm next to your head. His right hand trailed down your torso slowly, stopping at the wet patch of your panties. He pressed down on it, pulling a desperate whimper from you, your hips rolling up to his touch. He pulled your underwear down your legs one-handed, throwing them somewhere behind him.
He pulled his boxers down to his knees, grabbing one of the foil squares on the bed next to you and ripping it open with his teeth. He rolled the condom down his cock, gasping from the sensitivity.
He leaned down to kiss you tenderly. “Still wanna do this?” He asked breathlessly.
“Please, Bucky.” You whimpered.
With his mouth on yours, he lined himself up and pushed in slowly. You both gasped at the feeling—he was the biggest you’ve had and you couldn’t control your walls clenching down on him. A pained moan tore from his chest as you gripped him tight, your hands winding through his hair and tugging the dark strands.
He mumbled curses, taking deep breaths to calm himself. He pushed in more, and you let out a sound you’d never heard before—the stretch of him sending you to another world. He started off with slow thrusts, letting you adjust to his size.
“More,” you moaned against his mouth. He picked up the pace, hitting the spot that had your back arching and stars forming behind your eyes. You clenched down on him hard, his hips stuttering and head dropping onto your chest at the feeling.
“Christ, shit—I’m not gonna last long.” He whimpered, his thrusts starting to lose rhythm. He moved his hand to your centre, finding your throbbing bundle of nerves and rubbing firm circles. Your eyes rolled back at the feeling, the fire in your core spreading through your veins.
Bucky thrusted a few more times before coming, your name slipping from his lips in a half moan, half whimper. He continued thrusting into you, his release long and overwhelming. He doubled his efforts on your clit, sending you over the edge with a sharp gasp of his name. It wasn’t an all-consuming, white hot pleasure but it was good. Warm, like golden sun rays spreading through your body.
He laid his head on your chest, the both of you panting after your releases. You raked a hand through his hair, rubbing soothing circles on his scalp. He shuddered at the feeling, tears slipping from his eyes and wetting your chest.
“Thank you,” he whispered.
“For what?”
“For making me feel human.”
You woke up before six the next morning, finding cold sheets next to you where Bucky once was. Sitting on the small kitchen table was your stolen headphones, a ripped piece of paper with chicken scratch handwriting next to them.
You were right
- Bucky
A week later you were at your parents place in Philly, sitting on the floor in their lounge sorting their stuff into boxes for donation or storage. Your mom turned the TV up louder, drawing your attention to the breaking news story. There on the screen was a video of the man officials suspected bombed the United Nations—James Buchanan Barnes, the Winter Soldier. Bucky.
Oh, shit.
Present day - Brooklyn, New York
The referee’s whistle shrieked loudly, piercing your ears and signalling the end of the soccer game. You had little time to prepare for the blur of messy dark braids and mud sprinting towards you, colliding with your legs and making you stumble back.
“I did it, mama! I didn’t let a single goal in!”
“I saw, peanut—I am so proud of you!” You squatted down and hugged your daughter tightly. “Did you have fun?”
She bounced in your arms, nodding vigorously. You pulled back, seeing the beaming grin on her face—proudly displaying the small gap in her top front teeth. She lost her first tooth the week before and she was ecstatic when the tooth fairy visited her—she tried to stay up two hours past her bedtime to ‘catch’ the tooth fairy, but fortunately for you she was out like a log long before you went to sleep.
“Can we get ice cream? Pretty please?” She asked, her blue eyes wide and bottom lip jutted out in a small pout—the puppy dog expression pulling on your heart strings.
You stood up, combing the loose strands back from her face and wiping a smudge of mud off her forehead.
“Hmm, how about we go home first and get cleaned up?” The both of you headed towards the field’s exit, waving goodbye to her teammates and their parents.
She rolled her eyes. “But home is far away, the ice cream store is closer!” Where she got her attitude from, you had no idea. Well, you did—while she was the spitting image of her father, her personality was a mirror of your own.
“You have a great point, Jamie. But—” you leaned towards her and took an audible sniff of her hair, dramatically taking a big step back and holding your nose. “—you’re stinky. We need to get you cleaned up for the public’s sake.”
She let out a high-pitched giggle, a familiar smile gracing your face at the sound. It was the most beautiful sound—your daughters joy was all that mattered to you. It meant you were doing something right.
“Okay,” she dragged out. “Does that mean I get two scoops?”
“What?! Two scoops? You won’t be able to sleep after that, bug.”
The two of you made your way down the street, walking the normal ten minute route back home. She continued to try her luck, trying to guilt trip you into giving her more sugar and you were close to breaking once—when her big eyes glistened with tears—but you held strong even when your heart tugged. God, what you would do for those baby blues.
You were halfway home when a group of men in suits stepped out of the cafe ten metres ahead of you. They were taking up the whole sidewalk, laughing obnoxiously and all exuding alpha male energy. You pulled Jamie closer to you out of instinct, your eyes scanning for an open gap in the group of men when something—someone—caught your eye.
He looked…older, more refined. His hair was slightly shorter, the once styled strands tousled—likely from him running his hands through his hair. His suit was tailored to him perfectly, the faded blue and dark grey combination making his heavy stubble stand out. He held his head high, his shoulders rolled back in a quietly domineering stance. He looked confident, comfortable even.
You stopped in your tracks, your heart beating wildly in your chest. The world around you faded, your attention focused solely on him as he shook his head with a small laugh, a faint smile curving his lips.
Bucky Barnes, in the flesh.
Shit. Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Jamie’s little hand tugged on yours, confused as to why you stopped walking.
“Mama?”
You sucked in a sharp breath, reality crashing down on you—along with a bucket of anxiety and fear.
You tightened your grip on her hand, spinning the both of you around and hurrying in the direction you came from.
“What’s wrong? Where are we going?” Jamie asked in her sweet small voice.
You brushed a hand over her head, tucking loose strands behind her hair. “Nothing’s wrong, peanut. I just—you were right, it makes sense to get ice cream now!”
She instantly perked up, her little feet walking faster than you—dragging you towards the store.
“Finally! Can I get two scoops?”
You nodded in a daze, your mind racing. “Yeah, sure. Whatever you want, honey.”
Had he seen you? Had he seen Jamie?
You spent countless sleepless nights tossing and turning over the past five years, playing out millions of different scenarios. You had numerous scripts drafted in your head, what you would say to him—how you would tell him he had a child, a daughter. But seeing him a few feet away from you, alive and well—and so fucking handsome—your mind went blank.
It wasn’t the right time, you told yourself. Other people were around—you couldn’t put Jamie in that situation.
Trying to get a sugar crazed Jamie to bathe was like trying to tame a sticky-fingered tornado. She jumped over furniture, slid between your legs, and slipped through crevices like she was boneless. You were starting to regret enrolling her in taekwondo classes.
“The hell? How are you moving like that?” You flopped on the couch in defeat, the pounding in your head exacerbated from chasing her around the apartment.
You blinked and suddenly a jar was shoved in your face, half full of crumpled dollar notes, glittery pink and purple letters spelling out ‘swear jar’ on the white label.
“You said a swear word!”
You pounced on her, securing your arms around her waist and pulling her tight against you. You blew raspberries on her face and neck, holding her tighter as she squirmed.
“Let me go!” She squealed through giggles, trying to wriggle out of your arms.
“Not a chance, peanut.”
After her bedtime routine that took twice as long with the sugar in her system, you sunk into the couch with a glass of wine in one hand and your phone in the other.
Your phone shook slightly in your grip, anxiety pinching your chest. The last time you looked up Bucky on the internet was over a year ago; you found out he was saving the world alongside Captain America and had been pardoned of his crimes from when he was the Winter Soldier. It was hard to process—that the gentle man you had spent a tender night with in Bucharest, the man that was Jamie’s father, was off saving the world when the world had been anything but kind to him.
But now, you knew he was in the same city—the same borough—as you, and you couldn’t keep running from the truth.
Ever since that night you’ve felt an ache in your bones, like you had left a part of yourself behind in that shitty apartment. You missed him, but you were so confused. After the UN bombing you tried to find out everything you could about him, and when the two pink lines appeared clear as day on the pregnancy test you knew you had to tell him. But, he had disappeared—gone off the face of the earth and you had no ways to contact him. You thought he had died.
Then the blip happened. Jamie and you came back to find a world that had changed—that had forgotten about you. Your apartment in Philly had new residents, all your belongings gone—you had taken Jamie for a walk in the park and then suddenly five years had passed when you blinked. You moved to Brooklyn to live with your parents while you rebuilt your life, and keeping Jamie safe in a world that was torn apart was all that mattered. The Avengers had brought back half of the world, and that’s when you found out Bucky was alive—his face plastered on the TV screen along with dozens of other superheroes. You didn’t know how to reach out and you didn’t know if you wanted to—you and Jamie were just finding your footing and you didn’t want anything to jeopardise that. And truthfully, you were scared.
When Jamie asked about her dad you told her that you had lost contact when the blip happened, and that you were looking for him. You told her he was once in the army and fought for your country, that he took down bad guys like it was nothing. She occasionally asked, “have you found daddy yet?” and your heart broke every time you looked into her bright, hopeful eyes—the exact same shade of blue that you had fallen for over plum pie.
Taking a long swig of wine, you typed his name into google—your thumb shaking as you hit the search button.
And there he was.
Congressman James ‘Bucky’ Barnes. Representative for Brooklyn.
A memory from two weeks prior surfaced, when you were slumped over your home desk—trying not to panic over the next months budget. Jamie had begged to join a swim club, even with her already busy schedule of school, soccer, and taekwondo. You were starting to struggle on your teacher’s salary, but you couldn’t say no to her. You wanted to provide her with everything she wanted and more.
You were barely paying attention to your mom on the phone, gossiping about brunch with her book club friends earlier that day.
“You’ll never guess who we saw—that new Congressman, the handsome one. You know, I heard that he’s single…”
You sighed at her tone, knowing what she was suggesting. “Great, I’ll make sure to tell dad he’s got competition.”
“Oh, hush! That’s not what I was implying and you know it.” You dropped your head onto the desk with a groan. “It’s about time you put yourself out there, give dating a go again. You never know who you’ll meet.”
“Mom, I’m busy—“
“We’re worried about you, honey. All you do is work and take care of Jamie—who takes care of you?”
“I don’t need anyone to take care of me, thank you very much. Jamie and I are happy on our own.” You mumbled, a headache starting to pound against your temple.
There was a pause on her end, and you braced yourself for what was coming.
“…Have you—has there been any updates on Jamie’s father?”
“No—look, sorry, I’m busy with school stuff. I’ll call you tomorrow, okay?” You ended the call without waiting for your mom’s goodbye, guilt gripping your chest like it always does when someone brings him up.
Little did you both know, the congressman she was gushing about was Jamie’s father.
You gulped down the rest of your wine, saving the number for his office in your phone.
“What the fuck.” You muttered, your voice echoing in the quiet apartment. You had no clue what you were going to do.
Jamie’s giggles could be heard from across the grocery store, bringing an unconscious smile to your face. She was with your mom in the bakery section, giving her opinion on what her grandpa’s birthday cake should be. You could already picture the awestruck expression on her face—no doubt her nose was pressed against the glass with wide eyes taking in all the baked goods.
You were in the fruit and vegetables section, gathering ingredients for your plum pie. It had become a tradition without meaning to—baking the pie for your loved ones on special occasions, or even when they just needed comfort. It was a staple in your kitchen now, you had even altered the recipe throughout the years, truly making it your own.
In the weeks after you left Bucharest, you would find yourself making it when you missed him. When you couldn’t get to sleep at night, the sounds of his nightmares echoing in your mind, you were in the kitchen making the goddamn pie. And then when your pregnancy cravings kicked in, all you wanted was that stupid pie. And him. But you couldn’t have him, so the sugar filled pastry would have to do.
Walking through the section, you felt your phone sitting heavy in your pocket, weighed down by the numerous email drafts in your inbox and his office number in your contacts.
You were focused on selecting the right apples—Jamie was seriously picky with them—when a deep voice called out your name. A low, gravelly, familiar voice—one that you hadn’t heard in years.
You turned around and there he was, standing a few feet away, wearing a similar suit to when you saw him outside the cafe. His hair was just as messy, dark strands swooping on his cheeks, making his blue eyes look even more electric, intense. You watched as they widened in surprise, an awed smile overtaking his face. He took a small step towards you and you resisted the urge to take one back, your brain struggling to comprehend that Bucky was right in front of you.
“It really is you.” He spoke softly, dazed.
You blinked.
This wasn’t how this was supposed to happen. You were meant to meet at a cafe, or a park—a safe, common ground. Not at your local grocery store after five pm on a Friday, your hair frizzy from a long day at work and running around after your daughter.
“Bucky, hi,” you mumbled, still in shock.
“You—you look great, beautiful.” He shook his head as if in disbelief, his eyes trailing up and down your figure.
Your nerves lit up in response, your body begging you to step closer—to close the gap between you and the man you had spent the past five years yearning for.
“How are you? Are you still teaching?” Your breath caught in your throat—he remembered. He remembered you, and he remembered the brief conversation you’d had about teaching during your gap year.
Then, as if fate had orchestrated this whole interaction, your daughter came skipping over, a big giddy grin on her face.
“Look, mama! Nana said I could get Pop the Captain America cake for his birthday!”
Bucky watched closely as Jamie crashed into your legs, your hand instinctively rubbing her back in soothing circles—more for you than her. You watched his eyes drift over her, starting at her messy dark braids, then taking in her taekwondo uniform, finally ending on her crocs—covered in princess and Captain America charms.
She peered into the basket in your hands. “Oooh! Are you making plum pie tonight?!” You think the whole store heard her yell.
Bucky’s eyes shot up to yours, a stunned and confused expression on his face. He looked speechless.
Jamie turned around, finally noticing the other adult in front of her. You watched the infectious grin take over her face, proudly showing off her missing tooth. She waved to Bucky. “Hi!”
You had taught her the importance of stranger danger—well, as much as you could teach a five year old—but her kindness was built into her DNA, she couldn’t help smiling at and greeting every stranger she met.
Bucky was still speechless, his wide eyes looking into your daughters—seeing the same blue you imagined he saw in the mirror. He let out a stunned breath, his body swaying slightly like the rug had been pulled out from under him—because it had. You knew he knew.
“Sorry, hun. I don’t know what you feed her, but I’ve never seen a kid run that fast.” Your mom panted as she joined the accidental family reunion, the Captain America cake in her hands. She looked at the man in front of you, doing a visual double take as she recognised him.
“Oh! Congressman Barnes, it’s a pleasure to meet you.” She stuck her hand out to Bucky, shooting you a side-eye that screamed “what the fuck aren’t you telling me.” Bucky shook her hand absentmindedly, his eyes not leaving Jamie for a split second.
You were stood frozen, unable to think. Both your mom’s and Jamie’s eyes were watching you curiously. Why weren’t you saying anything?
Bucky finally looked away from Jamie, his confused yet hopeful eyes meeting your panicked ones. He opened and closed his mouth a couple times, at a loss for words. He licked them nervously then tried again.
“…Is she—“
His voice brought you back to earth, back to your body.
“It was really great seeing you, Bucky—I hope you’re well! We’re running late—like super late, so we need to get going.” You grabbed one of Jamie’s hands tightly, using it to pull her with you and to ground yourself. Your mom hesitantly followed, her eyes darting between you and Bucky—suspicion written clearly on her face. “We’ll—I’ll see you later!” You said to him over your shoulder, scurrying towards the checkout as fast as you could.
Your hands shook as you bagged your groceries, barely noticing that you had only gotten half of what was on your list. You took in a deep lungful of air once the three of you were outside.
Your mom called your name softly yet sternly. “What was that in there? How do you know—did you call him Bucky?”
You sighed, exasperated. “Mom, it’s nothing—“
“No, that was not nothing! You’re acting strange—what’s going on?”
“Please, just drop it!” You nodded towards Jamie next to you, completely oblivious to your inner turmoil. “We’ll talk about it later, promise.”
She narrowed her eyes at you but ultimately let it go.
The next morning you were rushing around the lounge, struggling to get Jamie into her soccer kit as she zoomed through the apartment.
“Jesus—just sit still, peanut. Don’t you wanna go play with your friends?” She nodded eagerly, stopping her mad dash around the place so you could get her shirt on. She didn’t stay still for long though, running back into her room with one sock on. “How do you always have so much energy?” You muttered to yourself.
Three heavy raps sounded against your front door. You knew who it was immediately—who else would be knocking at your door before nine am on a Saturday.
Your heartbeat hammered in your throat as you walked to the door slowly, trying to delay the inevitable. You took a deep breath in and grasped the doorknob, stopping for a second to collect yourself.
You opened the door and were greeted by the sight of Bucky, looking devastatingly handsome in a blue t-shirt and black leather jacket. It should be criminal to look that good so early in the morning. His eyes met yours and you could see the emotion swirling in them—hope, determination, and something that looked too close to hurt for your liking. Shit.
You opened your mouth to speak but he beat you to it.
“We need to talk.”
“Bucky, hi—how do you know where I live?”
“I have my ways.”
He looked over your shoulder, straining his neck to see into your apartment behind you.
“Look, I agree we need to talk—“
“Why did you run off?”
And yup, there it was—the hurt crystal clear in his voice.
You closed your eyes briefly, the familiar clench of guilt overwhelming your chest.
“I—it wasn’t my intention to…run off, I just—“ You stopped, suddenly at a loss for words. He looked at you expectantly, the exhaustion from a sleepless night evident on his face.
“You what? Were you ever gonna tell me?”
The accusation in his tone slapped you across the face.
“Bucky, that’s not fair—you don’t even know—“
And, like usual, your daughters timing was impeccable.
“We’re gonna be late!” She barrelled towards you, knocking you off balance as she slammed into the backs of your legs.
Bucky instinctively grabbed your upper arms, holding you steady as you regained your balance. Your nerves buzzed alive under his hands and you couldn’t help but notice—no gloves, he wasn’t wearing gloves anymore.
He stepped back from you just as quick, and your body felt the loss of his touch immediately. Goddamn traitor.
He squatted down to Jamie’s level, smiling at her with the softest look you’ve ever seen on the man.
“Hi, I’m Bucky.”
You were suddenly annoyed with him. Coming to talk to you unannounced was one thing, but introducing himself to your daughter when you hadn’t had a chance to place boundaries—yeah, that pissed you off.
“Hi, I’m Jamie!”
The look he shot you had some of your anger dulling, the guilt you were so familiar with clouding over. You both knew the name Jamie was no mistake, and the flurry of emotions that crossed his face showed what the name meant to him.
“Jamie?” His voice wavered. “That’s a great name.”
She beamed brightly at him and you felt the world shift beneath the three of you. There was no going back now.
“Are you coming to my soccer game?”
That shocked both of you.
“Only if your mom wants me there.” And then two pairs of blue eyes are staring at you—one pleading, the other just waiting, letting you know the ball is in your court. And it’s not fair.
“Jamie, we need to talk about you inviting strangers out with us.” Bucky visibly flinched at the word ‘strangers’—it hit like a punch to your gut. “But, sure. Bucky can come with us.”
The ten minute walk to the soccer field was…nice. Bucky fit in like the missing puzzle piece, and it was doing complicated things to your heart. To be fair, Jamie talked the whole time. She was excited to tell someone new all her stories from school, yapping his ear off about everything she could think of. And Bucky was lapping it up. He had a soft smile permanently plastered on his face, his eyes on Jamie the whole time. From the second you stepped outside of your building, he positioned himself to be on the car side of the street, angling his body to protect Jamie—making your heart flip in your chest even more, and waking up something dangerous in your core.
There was no missing the looks sent your way from the other parents when you arrived—especially the looks your fellow soccer moms shot Bucky. Great, the last thing you wanted was Jamie to be stuck in the middle of their rumour mill.
Jamie sprinted towards her friends already warming up for their game, leaving you and Bucky alone for the first time. You drifted towards the other side of the field, putting distance between you and the gossip hungry parents. No one else needed to be privy of your conversation.
The air around you and Bucky grew heavy, neither of you speaking for a few minutes as you watched Jamie hug her friend after they fell, asking if they were okay. An overwhelming sense of pride took over you, tears warming your eyes at the sight of your daughter being so kind, so caring.
Bucky cleared his throat softly.
“She’s…happy,” he said wistfully.
“Yeah,” you mumbled softly. “Means I’m doing something right.”
He looked at you then, his eyes scanning your face as you kept your attention trained on Jamie. You couldn’t look at him. The exhaustion from the last few years was weighing heavily on you, and you knew one glance at Bucky would have you breaking.
He turned back, watching Jamie put her oversized goalie gloves on, chuckling softly as they dwarfed her hands.
“She looks like my sister.”
That had you looking away from your daughter, focusing on the man next to you offering more information about himself. You didn’t know he had a sister.
“Becca was full of energy at that age, too. We both were,” he shook his head with a small laugh. “Ma used to say our house was tornado central with all the damage we caused.”
You let out an amused huff. “I figured she got her energy from you—I was more on the reserved side as a kid. She’s now in three different after school sports activities, but I think they just make her more energised.”
He made eye contact with you briefly. “Three, huh? That’s…a lot.”
You both grew silent again, watching Jamie dive for a ball and successfully defending the goal.
Bucky let out a heavy sigh, stuffing his hands in his jacket pockets.
“Were you gonna tell me?” He asked again, no accusation in his voice this time—a pensive sadness in its place. It only made you feel worse, the tears from earlier blurring your eyes.
“Bucky, I—“ you took in a deep breath, trying to control your emotions. “I was planning to, I swear.” You kept your eyes on Jamie, her smile bringing you some comfort.
“When I found out I was pregnant, I tried looking for you—I really tried. But, you just vanished…I thought you were dead.”
He sucked in a sharp breath at that, looking down at the ground.
“I didn’t want to go through the pregnancy alone, I was fucking terrified. Then, Jamie was born and she became my whole world—I would do anything for her.” Your throat grew tight and a single tear slid down your cheek.
“After the blip, I could only focus on her, on building a better life for her. And then I found out you were alive, that you had helped save the world, and I was…scared. I didn’t know what I was doing half the time, and Jamie’s father—you—being a superhero, putting your life in danger…it was a risk I didn’t want to take. I didn’t want you in our lives if you were just going to be…ripped away from us. It would break Jamie—it would break me.”
Your voice cracked and Bucky lifted his head, looking at you with concern. You brushed the tears off your cheeks and continued.
“Plus, I don’t know if you know this, but getting in contact with the Avengers when you’re a civilian…it’s pretty fucking hard.”
He let out a small laugh, nodding his head. “Yeah, that tracks.”
“I thought about reaching out last year, when I saw you were fighting alongside Captain America—who Jamie is obsessed with, by the way—but I just couldn’t get past that fear. It was easier to…live without you than potentially have you torn from us. Well, that’s what I tried to tell myself.”
You both watched as Jamie hit the ground, hard. Bucky stepped forward instinctively, like he was about to run to her side. She recovered quickly, jumping back up with a giggle.
“She’s tough,” he mumbled with a small smile.
He turned to you, determination and longing shining in his eyes.
“I get that. I get why you didn’t reach out, you were putting Jamie’s safety, her happiness, first.” He let out a humourless chuckle, “it’s a fucking complicated position to be in, I’ll give you that.”
“I want to be in her life, in your life—if you’ll have me.”
You looked back at Jamie in time to see her waving at you, at both of you.
“Yeah,” you muttered softly. “I don’t think she would let you leave, even if you tried.”
“Good.”
You both settled in to a comfortable silence, before you couldn’t resist asking what you’ve wanted to know for the last five years.
“Where were you—“
“What does she know—“
You both laughed softly. You tipped your head towards him. “You go first.”
“What does she know…about me?”
Yeah, you were expecting that.
“I told her you were in the army, that you fought bad guys…that we lost contact after the blip. She asks for updates, wanting to know where her daddy is.”
His brows pinched, his mouth trembling slightly like he was holding back tears. He cleared his throat twice.
“How do we tell her?”
There it was, the question you had been dreading—because you had no fucking clue.
“…I don’t know—hope she figures it out herself?”
The look he shot you was deadly.
You sighed. “Fine, I’ll sit her down one night, tell her gently.”
“I want to be there.”
Of course he does. Of course he just walks back into your life and wants to be involved in everything. Half of you is fucking thrilled he’s here and wanting to be part of your lives, but the other half is terrified he’ll think it’s too much and leave you both—or worse, die and leave you broken.
His eyes watched you carefully and you knew he could sense your internal battle.
“I’m not going to leave, I promise.”
And, because it was the reason you suffered many restless nights, you couldn’t stop yourself from asking.
“What happened to you? After Bucharest?”
He closed his eyes briefly, letting out a breath.
“I was in Wakanda. I…couldn’t trust my mind, and they helped me. Brought me a bit of peace.”
You could see it, how different he was to the man who once lived across from you. He was still gentle, soft, but more sure of himself—more confident in who he was. He no longer walked around like he was ashamed to be alive.
“And now…you’re a Congressman? I’ll admit I’m a little shocked, it’s quite the difference to the guy who could barely make eye contact with me.” You teased lightly.
He scoffed, shaking his head with a small smirk.
“Trust me, speaking in front of Congress is much easier than talking to the pretty girl across the hall.”
Your body flushed with warmth. Was he seriously flirting with you?
You bit the inside of your cheek, trying to keep your emotions in check. You were not going to crumble for him that quickly.
“We need to set ground rules, if we want this to work. For Jamie’s sake.”
He nodded solemnly, catching the seriousness in your tone.
“No showing up unannounced—we have a routine, and Jamie can get easily distracted.”
“Noted.”
“Communication is important, okay? Let me know if you want to see her, or if you have to cancel last minute. We have to be honest with each other—you need to tell me if it’s too much. If we’re too much.”
“Not gonna happen,” Bucky muttered.
“And absolutely no funny business—I’m serious, Bucky. I’m not jeopardising her relationship with you because we couldn’t keep it in our pants.”
A muscle in his jaw jumped, but he nodded regardless.
“Whatever you say, doll.”
You glared at him when he said ‘doll’—that was not helping.
“Should I come ‘round tonight to tell her? I can bring dinner.” Bucky was rocking back and forth on his feet, barely containing his eagerness. You bit your lip to suppress a smile.
“No, not tonight. She has a playdate this afternoon and she’s always a nightmare to calm down afterwards.”
“Tomorrow, then?”
You rolled your eyes, the smile breaking out across your face.
“Fine.”
“…Any chance you can make that plum pie?”
Jamie was lying on the couch, her head hanging off the side when Bucky knocked on the door the next evening. You had told her earlier that he was coming around for dinner and she had barely sat still since. It was a pain in the ass, if you were being honest. She clung to your torso like a koala as you tried to vacuum the apartment, making the chore take twice as long. Her crayons and toys covered the dining table—you had already put them back in her room three times that afternoon but she kept on bringing them back out. And there was a purple stain on her chin—which you were fairly certain was a bit of plum pie mixture she had swiped when you turned your back.
“I’ll get the door!” She all but screamed as she ran towards it.
“I hope you like burgers,” came Bucky’s deep voice from behind you. You turned to find Jamie giving him a tour of the apartment, starting with the small kitchen you were standing in.
She gasped, delighted. “They’re my favourite!”
“Thank you,” you said, taking the bags from his hands and putting them on the counter.
“Of course,” Bucky replied, his eyes traveling down your body before meeting your eyes. You tried to not let that affect you, busying yourself with gathering plates and napkins.
“Peanut, can you please grab your stuff off the table?” You asked Jamie. “Don’t forget to wash your hands, too.”
Jamie grumbled her objections but did as you asked, huffing as she gathered her mess of toys.
You turned to Bucky. “Sorry for the mess, I cleaned earlier but…”
Bucky nodded, a small smile on his face. “Tornado central.”
You grinned at him. “Exactly.”
Jamie ran back to the kitchen, grabbing Bucky’s hand and pulling him towards the lounge. “C’mon, I’ll give you the tour.” She was no match for his super soldier strength yet he let her drag him around with no complaint.
You put the finishing touches on the plum pie, sticking it in the oven before setting the dining table for dinner—all while listening to Jamie show Bucky your quaint apartment.
“And finally, this is mommy’s room—“
“Peanut, I don’t think he needs to see that.” You raised your voice slightly, rushing down the hallway to see them already in your doorway. You did not need Bucky in your room—that would just open pandora’s box and you were not prepared to deal with that.
“Your mom’s right, I don’t need to see her room,” Bucky said, though the small smirk on his face said something else entirely. You really hoped he didn’t catch the bra hanging from the laundry basket.
“Let’s eat before it get’s cold, yeah?” Jamie didn’t need to be told twice, forgetting her tour and sprinting down the hallway.
You and Bucky followed behind her, and he was an inch too close for your liking.
“Red, huh?” He muttered lowly. Your body went hot—he definitely saw the bra.
The burgers were good, like really good, and you weren’t afraid to tell him.
“Where did you get these? I think they’re the best I’ve had in Brooklyn—wait, no, in the city.” You practically moaned.
Bucky’s smirk was bright and smug. “It’s a small hole-in-the-wall near my office. I can take you there sometime.”
Jamie was bouncing in her chair, happily nibbling away at her food—unaware that her life was about to change in a second. You made eye contact with Bucky, both your faces falling serious. It was time.
“Hey, Jamie? There’s something I—we—need to talk to you about.” You spoke to her gently, putting your burger down and wiping your hands. Her bright eyes met yours and you knew you had her attention.
“You know how I said I was looking for your dad?” She nodded eagerly, her eyes briefly flicking to Bucky. She was a smart kid, you could practically see the gears in her brain turning.
“Well, I—uh,” you stuttered. Now that you were here, your mind had gone blank. How the hell do you tell your daughter her dad is sitting right next to her?
Bucky placed a hand on yours, brushing his thumb over your knuckles. He shot you a look saying “I’ve got this” before turning to Jamie fully.
He sucked in a breath. “I’m…I’m your dad, Jamie. And I would love to be in your life, if you’re okay with that.”
Bucky had barely finished his sentence before Jamie lunged, wrapping her little arms tight around his neck—no doubt smearing sauce on his shirt and hair.
He was taken aback for a quick second before returning her hug, his hands gently cradling her back. And that’s when you noticed it—his arm, the left one. You had seen it in pictures, on TV, but never in the flesh. His vibranium thumb was rubbing soft circles on her back, soothing her as sobs wracked through her—her little frame overcome with emotion. A tear slipped down your cheek as you watched them—overwhelmed with guilt from keeping them apart for so long, and something else warm blooming in your chest.
Bucky pressed a kiss to her head, closing his eyes tightly like he was fighting back tears. He pulled back slightly, his hands moving to brush away the tears on Jamie’s cheeks.
“Does this mean you’re moving in?” Jamie asked sweetly.
He let out a watery chuckle. “No, no I’ll be staying at my place. It’s not far from here.” His eyes shot up to yours quickly before continuing. “But, I’ll come ‘round as much as I can. And, I’ll be at all your soccer games—promise.”
By this point she had fully crawled onto his lap, bouncing happily in his arms. “What about taekwondo and swimming? Will you be there?”
“If I don’t have to be away for work.”
She pouted at him, opening her mouth to argue when the oven’s timer went off. She jumped off his lap, running the short distance to the kitchen. “Plum pie!” She squealed, excited.
You put a hand on Bucky’s shoulder. “Thank you,” you whispered. He looked at you with glassy eyes that you were sure mirrored your own.
“Get the pie, I’ll clean this up.” He nodded towards the mess of burgers and napkins.
You shooed Jamie away from the oven and she climbed back onto Bucky’s lap—natural, like it was where she belonged. You put your hands on the counter, dipping your head down and taking a few breaths. This was going better than you imagined, but it was also dangerously twisting your heart.
“You’ve got no idea how much I missed this,” Bucky muttered, looking at the pie in your hands. His eyes dragged up your body, meeting your own with a darkened gaze—it was obvious he was not just talking about the pie.
Your hands shook imperceptibly as you plated up three slices. Bucky was the first to dive in, letting out a low moan as he tasted the pie for the first time in five years. Jamie giggled at him from her place in his lap.
And you? You were frozen in your chair, a warmth spreading in your core from his moan. It was fucking sinful, and he had no right to make a noise like that at your dining table—even if it was him showing his appreciation for your baking. It felt like it was more than that.
You were in the kitchen cleaning up while Jamie had convinced Bucky to sit on the lounge floor with her, showing him her favourite toys. You looked over your shoulder, catching her holding his vibranium arm in her little hands—gazing at it in wonder.
Then you watched the realisation hit her.
“…You know Captain America.” It wasn’t a question.
“Sam? Yeah, I know him.”
And then she was shrieking, hugging the arm tightly.
“Can I meet him? Please, please, pretty please?!”
Bucky laughed loudly at her excitement. “Yeah, princess. I’ll see what I can do.”
You watched as he stood up slowly with Jamie hanging from his arm. She swung on it, giggling nonstop. A smile spread across your face, despite the way your ovaries were screaming at the sight. The ‘no funny business’ boundary you set was looking a lot less appealing now, and it had barely been twenty-four hours.
The three of you were stood at your front door, Jamie clinging onto Bucky’s leg like her life depended on it. You and Bucky had your phones out, syncing your calendars so you were aware of each others schedules, routines.
“You weren’t joking,” Bucky muttered, looking at the colour coded schedule you had for all of Jamie’s activities. You rolled your eyes—you took your schedule very seriously, there was no joking when it came to having your daughter’s life prepared.
Bucky squatted down, pulling Jamie into a hug. “I’ve gotta go now, angel. You be good for your mom.” He tried to pull back but she held on tighter, her little fists clenching his jacket.
“No,” she whined. “Please don’t go.”
“The sugar crash, right on schedule.” You mumbled, gently prying her hands off of him. She let out a cry as you gathered her in your arms, her little hands reaching for Bucky. “I’m sorry,” you whispered to him. He gave you a small smile and shake of his head, stepping forward to kiss Jamie’s forehead.
You were exhausted by the time you tucked Jamie into bed. She cried for half an hour after Bucky left, and it fucking broke your heart. You weren’t expecting her to get attached to him so quickly, but that was your daughter—she loved with her whole heart. And you couldn’t blame her, you felt like crying after he left too. All your feelings for him came rushing back as you watched him with your daughter—his daughter.
This was not going to be easy on your heart.
A few weeks passed and everything felt so right. Bucky kept true to his promise—he didn’t miss a single one of her games and came to her taekwondo and swimming classes when he wasn’t needed at the Capitol. He spoiled her with gifts—even when you told him not to—and he had started spoiling you too. You tried to brush him off with an eye roll every time, but the flush on your cheeks gave you away.
First, it was a nice bottle of wine, one you would never buy for yourself. Next, a box of expensive chocolates he had been “gifted” and didn’t want—you called bullshit. Then, it was a massage voucher—when you tried to refuse it, he promptly said “it’s either this or I give you one myself, doll” and you snatched it out of his hands before he could see the deep red crawling up your neck. The more he did for you and Jamie, the harder it was for you to ignore the way your heart tugged towards him—the way your body lit up every time he threw you that secret smirk. You were growing more frustrated each day and it was starting to show.
You were sitting in the break room at work, half paying attention to the geography teacher who was gossiping about one of her sophomore classes—apparently two of her students had a cute back and forth and she was coming up with a plan to push them together.
She called your name, looking at you expectantly.
“Huh? Sorry, bit out of it today,” you muttered, your cheeks growing warm.
“I was talking about Sophie and Ben—they’re in your third period English class, right? Don’t you think they would be cute together?” She all but squealed.
You let out a small laugh. “Yeah, I’ve noticed them. I don’t know if we should be meddling in our students relationships, though. Besides, it’d just make me feel depressed about my lacking love life…” You trailed off, your mind already wandering to Bucky and the look on his face when Jamie called him ‘daddy’ the night before.
Your colleague dropped into the chair next to you, chin in her hand as she peered at you in interest. “Oh? Are you looking to date?” You were about to shake your head, but she continued. “My cousin just moved here and I think you would be perfect for each other! You’re definitely his type.”
You rolled your eyes, the last thing you wanted was to be set up on a blind date. “No, I’m not dating. It’s fine, really—“
But she was already grabbing your unlocked phone, pulling up your calendar and looking for a free slot. She found one—next Saturday, when Jamie would be staying the night at Bucky’s for the first time. She typed on your phone, setting up an appointment for eight pm—“Date with Michael!”
“I’ll text you his details!”
There was no way in hell you were going to text him to arrange a date. You already had a date scheduled that night—your bath, a bottle of red Bucky had given you, and the toy you hadn’t unboxed yet.
Later that night, Bucky was in your kitchen drying dishes slowly, a faraway look on his face. You had just tucked Jamie in for the night, and he didn’t notice when you returned to the kitchen.
“Hey,” you started. “You okay?”
“Who’s Michael?” He asked gruffly, his eyes boring into yours.
You furrowed your brows at him, very confused. “Michael? I don’t know a Michael.”
He pulled his phone out of his pocket, turning the screen to show you an appointment in your synced calendar—the appointment you had forgotten to delete.
You let out a breathy chuckle, rolling your eyes. “Oh, that. My coworker was trying to set me up with her cousin, she put that in my calendar.” You shrugged.
“And you didn’t think to tell me?” He looked pissed.
“Tell you what, Bucky? I’m not going.”
“I think I have a right to know if you’re dating, doll.” He crossed his arms over his chest, glaring down at you. Fuck, he looked hot.
“I’m not dating, Buck.” He leaned against the counter behind him, still staring at you intensely.
“But, you would tell me if you were?” You were starting to get aggravated, this felt like an interrogation.
“What does it matter to you?” You said, voice louder than intended.
“We have a child together. I should know if you’re bringing random guys home.”
Now you were mad. He made it sound like you were out hooking up with any guy that showed you attention.
You stepped towards him, pressing a finger into his ridiculously sturdy chest. “For your information,” you seethed, glaring into his darkened eyes. “I haven’t slept with anyone since Bucharest. Don’t you dare imply I’m hooking up with randoms.”
You watched as his pupils dilated, his eyes turning almost black. His vibranium arm whirred as he clenched the counter behind him.
“You haven’t been with anyone else?” He asked, voice dangerously low.
You hadn’t meant to let that slip, to tell him that he was the last guy you slept with.
You took a step back, dropping your hand and putting much needed space between you two. When did it get so hot in here?
“It’s a bit hard to find time for yourself when you’re raising a kid solo.” You were sick of the focus being on your nonexistent sex life.
“What about you, Bucky? Now that Jamie is going to be staying at yours, I have a right to know who you’re dating.” You were only asking for Jamie’s sake. It had nothing to do with the twisting in your gut at the thought of Bucky with anyone else.
He stepped forward, crowding you against the counter behind you. His eyes did a slow drag up your body, lingering on your lips for a few seconds.
“I’ve got all I need right in front of me.”
Goosebumps erupted across your skin, your breath hitching. This was not the Bucky you knew in Bucharest, he was never this forward.
“No funny business,” you whispered, though there was no heat to it.
“It’s not funny business, it’s the truth. Thought you wanted me to be honest, doll.”
You glared at him. How dare he use your words against you.
You pushed at his chest and he took a step back, giving you some much needed breathing room.
You went back to cleaning up the kitchen, Bucky falling in step beside you after a minute.
There was a buzz in the air between you and Bucky, your body hyperaware every time he shifted next to you—slowly closing the gap.
“Do you have photos?” Bucky suddenly asked.
“Photos of what?”
“When you were pregnant.”
You whipped your head to him, staring at him with wide eyes.
“What? Why…why are you asking me that?”
He shrugged like it was a normal thing to ask someone.
“I want to see.”
“Bucky, I’ve already sent you photos of when Jamie was a baby.”
“I’m not asking for those.”
You shook your head at him. “You’re weird, you know that?” He just stared at you blankly. “Fine, whatever. I’ll send you some later.”
The side of his mouth twitched, a faint smirk ghosting his lips.
“Good girl.”
Every time Bucky looked at you all you could think about was those two stupid words. On their own they’re completely acceptable, harmless. Put them together and they’re a totally normal praise to say to a child. But when he said them to you in that low voice? There was nothing harmless or normal about your body’s reaction.
And you knew he knew what he was doing to you. There was nothing subtle about the way his eyes raked over you, and the gifts he kept on getting you? They were not for the sake of co-parenting or whatever bullshit half-excuse he used.
The bouquet of flowers he turned up with the other night? “Something nice for you and Jamie to look at.”
The gift voucher for your favourite clothing store? “Can’t have the mother of my child wearing old clothes.” That was a bullshit excuse and you both knew it.
“You use that massage voucher, doll?” He asked when he came to pick up Jamie for their first sleepover.
You woke up feeling hot and flustered, with a notification on your phone telling you that you were ovulating. The heat lingered all day, your clothes irritating your skin every time you breathed. Now Bucky was standing in front of you with that half-smirk, asking about whether you used his gift, and it was not fucking helping.
“You look…tense, it might help.” He stepped closer, your back pressing against the doorframe.
“Gotta make sure you take care of yourself, sweetheart.”
Oh. That was new. He hadn’t called you that before.
He raised his vibranium hand slowly, running a cold fingertip along the heat blooming on your neck. “Got any plans tonight?”
You shuddered at the feeling, your brain going blank as the dull ache in your core amplified.
“…What are you doing?” You asked, voice barely a whisper.
“Jus’ making sure Jamie’s mom is looking after herself, taking care of her needs.”
Jamie came running from her room, her backpack unzipped and overflowing—even though you had already packed it and double-checked it had everything she needed.
Bucky took a step back, clearing his throat before turning and catching Jamie with ease. Your ovaries started a war inside you, your core cramping with need watching Bucky interact with your daughter.
“Bye Mama!” Jamie kissed your forehead, her spot in Bucky’s arms making her taller than you.
“Have a good night, sweetheart.” Bucky mumbled with a wink, grinning at your cheeks flushing even more red.
Bucky brought Jamie back early the next evening, her body slumped in his arms with little snores escaping her.
“How the hell did you get her to sleep?” You whispered, astonished that she was passed out so early.
He shrugged like it was nothing. “We did some soccer drills at the park, I let her try out some taekwondo moves on me. Helps that the serum gives me a high stamina.”
He walked Jamie to her room, tucking her into bed like it was second nature. He came back to the lounge to find you stood frozen, your mind still reeling over high stamina.
Blame it on your smart mouth, or on your ovulation obliterating your filter, but you opened your mouth without thinking.
“High stamina? Where was that in Bucharest?”
Your wide eyes gave you away—you had clearly not meant to say that. You weren’t disappointed with the sex you and Bucky had, god no, but you wouldn’t say it was a good example of super soldier stamina.
A devilish smirk spread across his face, stalking towards you like he was a predator and you were his prey.
“Cut a guy some slack, doll. You were the first woman I’d touched since the 1940s. I’m surprised I lasted as long as I did.”
He was right in front of you now, pushing a strand of hair behind your ear—his hungry eyes latched on your lips.
“You want a redo? Want me to show you how long I can really go for?”
Your pulse jumped in your neck, a breath getting lodged in your throat, the ache from the day before hitting your core at full force.
“…Bucky, we—we said no funny business.”
His hand moved to your chin, gripping it gently and tilting your head up. There was a fire blazing in his eyes as he stared into your soul.
“No, you said that.” His vibranium hand rested lightly against your hip, testing. You gasped at the cold seeping through your clothes, relieving some of the heat and making your core clench with need at the same time.
He dropped his head, brushing his nose against yours.
“Did you take care of yourself last night, sweetheart?” His voice was low, husky.
Your body flushed even hotter. His proximity had your brain short-circuiting and butterflies raging in your stomach, the smell of his aftershave and something uniquely him overwhelming your senses with every shuddering breath you took.
“I asked you a question,” he gripped your chin tighter, his tone bordering on demanding.
“I…had a bath, drank some wine…” the vibranium hand on your hip slipped higher, cupping your waist and pulling you closer. A tiny gasp got caught in your throat.
“Did you touch yourself?” His nose brushed across your cheek, his mouth dangerously close to your ear.
“You—you can’t ask me that, Bucky.” Your voice shook. Your hand clutched his shoulder, the vibranium cold against your palm even through his shirt. The ground beneath you felt unsteady, your body swaying towards him for support.
“Sure I can, your wellbeing is important to me. Answer the question.” The hand on your chin moved, a calloused thumb brushing your bottom lip.
The touch had your mind blanking, tingles erupting beneath his thumb and travelling through your body, gathering in the pit of your belly. Your head felt fuzzy and the world narrowed to him, only him.
“Yes,” you whispered.
He hummed, satisfied.
“Good girl.”
Your thighs clenched at the praise, the warmth in your core begging for relief. You watched his tongue swipe along his bottom lip, leaving them glistening and looking so fucking tempting.
“It wasn’t enough though, was it?” He walked you backwards slowly, a small gasp escaping you as your back hit the wall. “No, I think you need more.”
His head dropped to the crook of your neck, his stubble scratching your sensitive skin. You sucked in a breath, resisting the urge to moan. It had been so long since someone had touched you—since Bucky touched you—and the need pulsing through you was making you delirious.
Both Bucky’s hands dropped to your hips, squeezing tight as he stepped closer. One of his thighs slotted between your legs, the pressure against your core making you whimper.
“You need to be more careful about what you put in your calendar, doll.”
You struggled to understand what he was saying, too overwhelmed by his closeness and the dizziness it was causing.
He pressed a faint kiss to your throat, right where your pulse was beating wildly. He chuckled lowly, the sound vibrating against your skin.
“God, I’ve been hard ever since I saw that notification yesterday.”
That had you reeling, a fraction of reality slipping through the haze. What was he talking about?
You found your voice, although meek and small. “What notification?”
His vibranium hand slipped from your waist to your back, pulling you into him until your back arched, your core shifting against his thigh. The slight friction made your body thrum, your hips instinctively rolling to chase the feeling.
“The one letting you—me—know that you’re ovulating.”
You gasped, horror running through your body. You didn’t even think about how your tracking app was linked to your calendar.
“I can smell it, sweetheart. How fucking needy you are.” His words had the horror dissolving into liquid honey, the need he was talking about dripping from your core.
His right hand gripped your hip tighter, his fingers digging in as he moved your hips, dragging you back and forth on his jean-clad thigh.
“I wanna take care of you. Let me make you feel good.” He whispered, his mouth hot against your ear.
Any worries you had about crossing boundaries, about ruining Jamie’s relationship with her father disappeared, replaced by a blazing fire.
“Please,” you whispered desperately.
Bucky didn’t waste a second, his lips finding yours in a bruising kiss. His hands pulled you tighter against him, your hips flush with his. Your hands found their place in his hair, tugging the soft strands and making him moan into your mouth.
His tongue slipped past your lips with no resistance, meeting yours in a battle for dominance that you had no intention of winning. He bit your bottom lip, tugging it as he pulled back. He dropped his forehead to yours, both of you panting heavily from the kiss.
“You’ve got no idea how long I’ve wanted to do that,” he murmured, pressing small kisses to your lips like he couldn’t help himself.
You whined when he stepped back, missing his warmth and the friction between your legs.
“Patience, doll.”
And then he was dropping to his knees in front of you, his hands sliding up the sides of your thighs and gripping the waistband of your leggings, pulling them down torturously slow. He groaned low at the sight of your panties, the dark wet patch exposing your need for him.
He pressed a quick kiss to the patch, making your head hit the wall with a thud. He chuckled at you, his eyes filled with a possessive hunger.
“So responsive.”
He placed one of you thighs over his shoulder, peppering your inner knee and thigh with soft kisses. He stopped at your mid thigh, turning his head to lavish your other leg with the same attention. Your breathing grew heavy at the teasing, the need in your core growing unbearable the more he avoided where you needed him most.
“Bucky, please, stop teasing,” you whined, your voice echoing in the apartment.
He chuckled darkly, looking up at you like you were a feast he couldn’t wait to devour.
“Gotta be quiet, doll. Don’t wanna wake Jamie up now, do you?” His tone was mocking and you wanted to slap the smirk off his face.
He relented his teasing, rising to his full height and gripping your hips. His mouth found yours again, softer this time but still just as hungry. Your arms wound around his neck, pulling him impossibly closer as you tried to grind your core against the bulge in his jeans. He let out a small broken moan, leaving your lips to kiss along your jaw and neck.
“Jump,” he muttered into your neck. You did as he said, your legs wrapping around his waist as he hoisted you up in his arms like you weighed nothing. His hands grasped your ass, rolling your hips against him harder. He spun you around, walking towards your room with his face still buried in your neck, biting and tugging your sensitive skin.
He closed the door behind him softly, dropping you gently onto your bed. He stood at the end, quiet as his eyes raked over your half-dressed body. He grabbed your ankles and pulled you to the edge of the bed. He dipped down to kiss you passionately.
His hands grasped the hem of your top, dragging it up your body and over your head. He stopped momentarily, staring at your naked breasts in awe.
“I didn’t worship you like you deserved, sweetheart. I’m not making that mistake again.”
Then he dropped his head, kissing a path down your neck and across your collarbones. He ran his tongue along your skin, biting the soft swell of your breast gently, avoiding your nipple. Your hips bucked under him, desperate for more. His hands tightened on your hips, pushing them into the bed to stop your squirming. He finally took your nipple into his mouth, sucking gently and grazing his teeth against it. You let out a sharp gasp, your hands clutching his shoulders. His flesh hand came up to palm your neglected breast, pulling and twisting the nipple between his fingers, eliciting more debauched gasps from your lips.
“So fucking pretty,” he mumbled, switching his mouth to the other breast to give it the same attention. His vibranium arm whirred as your hips tried to buck more, holding you down with ease.
His flesh hand stayed palming your breasts as his mouth descended, his stubble scratching the soft skin of your stomach. He stopped, pulling back slightly as his eyes focused intently on your skin—more specifically, on the stretch marks covering your lower belly.
He let out a low moan, pressing his forehead against your stomach like he was collecting himself. His hand on your breast trailed down, calloused fingertips reverently tracing the jagged lines your pregnancy left behind.
“You’re beautiful,” he murmured absentmindedly, like he was in a trance. “You’re always beautiful, but seeing those photos of you pregnant with my child.” He let out a dark chuckle. “You don’t know what that did to me, doll.” His dark eyes met yours. “I’ve fucked my fist every night looking at them. Seeing you big and round with my baby—shit, doll.” He closed his eyes and groaned. “Makes me wanna get you pregnant again.”
He dropped his mouth to your skin, his lips kissing your stretch marks with a tenderness that had your heart clenching painfully. He took his time, worshiping every scar with his lips. Your underwear was soaked, his actions and words making you so overwhelming needy that it hurt.
You pushed on his shoulders, trying to get him to move down to your core—to offer you some relief. He relented his soft kisses, grabbing your panties and pulling them down your thighs. He moaned, watching the way the fabric clung to your wet pussy—a line of slick keeping them tethered. He stuffed your panties into his back pocket once he removed them, throwing you a wink.
“A souvenir,” he muttered before diving in.
His mouth was hot on your core, his tongue dragging a line up your slit before latching onto your clit. He sucked greedily, a hum sounding in the back of his throat. Your hands flew to his hair, grasping the strands and pushing him further into your core. He switched between sucking your clit and fucking you with his tongue, listening to your moans and whines to see what you liked. His flesh hand splayed against your stomach, stroking the marks there as he held you down. It was both tender and dirty, and it had the heat in your core spreading like wildfire. His vibranium hand trailed along the top of your thighs, making you gasp and shiver.
He lifted his mouth off you, your slick glistening on his lips and beard—you almost came from the sight alone. He watched you closely as his hand inched higher, a cold finger brushing against your lower lips. You gave him a quick nod, muttering “please” and he didn’t waste any time.
He dipped a finger into your entrance, moaning at the wet heat and little resistance. He pumped it slowly, sucking your clit back into his mouth—making your back arch and hands tug harder, pulling at his scalp and making him moan into you. The noise had you preening, the ball in your core tightening. He inserted another cold finger, curling against the spot that had your legs shaking. You let out a long moan, your breath coming quick as you climbed higher.
“Come for me, sweetheart.” He mumbled, his voice vibrating against your core. A third finger joined in and the stretch had tears brimming your eyes, the pleasure he was unleashing on your body too much. You came with a cry, your body tensing and shaking under him. He slowed down slightly, dragging your pleasure out until you were whimpering and pushing his head away from the overstimulation.
He crawled up your body, peppering more kisses on your skin as you struggled to catch your breath, coming down from your high slowly. You giggled as his stubbled tickled your stomach. He brushed your cheeks gently, wiping away the few tears that escaped from your pleasure. He looked at you with what looked like love in his eyes, causing your cheeks to flush and heart to beat harder.
He kissed you deeply, the taste of you on his tongue turning you on more. You returned the kiss with fervour, wrapping your legs around his clothed waist and grinding your hips against his bulge.
He moaned at the feeling, his arms on either side of your head shaking with restraint.
“Can I fuck you, doll?” You responded with an eager nod.
“Will you let me fill you up?” You continued nodding, a little whine and pleads leaving your lips.
He removed himself from you, ripping his clothes off in a hurry. He dropped on top of you and you relished at the feeling of his bare chest against yours. Your hands found his shoulders as he rubbed his cock along your dripping slit. You both let out matching moans.
“Wanna give Jamie a little sibling.” It wasn’t a question.
You nodded deliriously, your breath hitching as his tip caught your entrance. He pushed in achingly slow, kissing you as a high pitched moan escaped your throat. He grabbed your legs, wrapping them around his waist as he plunged deeper—a deep groan rumbling in his chest. You whimpered at the stretch of him. He thrusted slow and gentle at first, closing his eyes and savouring the feel of your tight walls hugging him. He picked up the pace, hitting your sweet spot—sharp gasps escaping you with every thrust. Your hands clutched his back tighter, your nails digging into the flesh slightly. The obscene sounds of skin slapping against skin, your breathy pants and gasps, and his low moans filled the room.
His hand moved from your hip to your core, rubbing circles on your clit in time with his thrusts. You were still sensitive from your first orgasm and you could feel the fire spreading from your belly at record speed.
“That’s it, that’s my good girl,” Bucky muttered against your lips. You clenched around him tightly, the praise adding more fuel to the fire. “You like that? You like when I call you a good girl?” You nodded, babbling incoherently as everything became too much and you seized below him. A harsh gasp escaped you as you came a second time, your nails scratching along his back and drawing blood.
“Fuck—squeezing me so tight, sweetheart. Shit,” he grumbled out as he continued to fuck you through your high, only slowing down when you let out a sob.
He cradled your face in his hands, brushing away tears with a concerned look on his face. “Hey, hey, you’re okay. Just breathe,” he cooed softly, pushing hair back from your face. His eyes roamed over your features as you collected yourself, gasping in small breaths as your mind came back to your body.
“You still with me?” You nodded shakily. “Wanna keep going?”
“Please, need you to come inside me.” You whispered, a shaky hand grabbing his jaw and kissing him softly.
He groaned into your mouth, his cock dragging inside you slowly—making you whine.
“You got any idea what you do to me, doll? Fucking begging me to breed you,” he gave a harsh thrust and you let out a broken sob.
He shushed you, moving his flesh hand to your mouth as he continued to thrust mercilessly.
“You’re gonna wake Jamie up.” You moaned behind his mouth, your eyes rolling back and your body feeling weightless.
He pulled out suddenly, making you let out a pained cry at the loss of him. “No, no, please, don’t stop.” You babbled, your hands grabbing his arms trying to get him back inside you.
He chuckled at your desperation before grasping your hips and flipping you over, positioning you on your hands and knees. You had little time to adjust to the new position before he was slamming into you, his cock pounding your walls at a relentless speed. Your moans were muffled by the pillow beneath your head, the fabric getting soaked in your drool and tears.
“Fuck, you look so good like this, baby,” he moaned, clutching your ass cheek before bringing his palm down in a harsh slap. Your body jumped forward, pain radiating from his slap and morphing into pleasure. You clenched down on him in a vice like grip, his hips stuttering in response.
“You want another baby, doll? Want me to get you pregnant again?”
You nodded your head vigorously, mumbling out “yes” and “please” like they were the only words you knew.
He slapped your ass two more times and you let out a broken sob, tears flowing down your cheeks as the pleasure became too much. You could feel Bucky getting close, his thrusts losing rhythm and his grunts increasing in volume.
“God, you’re gonna look breathtaking, not gonna be able to keep my hands off you.” He muttered out, cursing as you gripped him even tighter. His hand moved from your hip to your clit, rubbing harsh circles. Your back bowed from the oversensitivity, trying to escape his touch but needing it at the same time. You bit the pillow below you as you came for a third time, your wail ringing out in the dark room. Bucky thrusted three more times before stilling, coming inside you with a long drawn out groan. He kept pumping inside you, his warm seed filling you completely. You sighed at the feeling, bliss running through your veins. Bucky caught you as your body collapsed, all your strength leaving you. You felt completely ruined.
Bucky pulled out with a groan, gently rolling you over so you were laying on his chest. His hand trailed up and down your back in soothing patterns, the both of you quiet as you came down. He pressed a kiss to your head, breathing you in deeply. You traced a pattern on his sweaty chest, sleep pulling at the corners of your eyes.
“We should probably talk,” you mumbled.
“Later,” another kiss to your head. “Wanna enjoy you in my arms a little longer.”
More tears pricked at your eyes and you hugged him tighter. You took in a shaky breath as you prepared yourself to say what’s been on your mind since Bucharest.
“I…I think I love you, Bucky.”
Bucky’s chest shook with a trembling exhale below you.
you are already lost to him when the first deep thrust pulls the air from your lungs.
zuko’s cock fills you completely—thick, searing, the heavy length of him pressing against every sensitive inch of your walls as he buries himself to the hilt. your back arches off the silk-covered bed, a low, helpless sound escaping your throat while his long black hair spills over your breasts. he looms above you, face gleaming faintly in the low lantern light, golden eyes hooded with lust.
his hand slides up your body with deliberate possession, fingers splaying across the delicate column of your throat. he squeezes—firm, commanding—until the world narrows to the pulse hammering beneath his palm and the relentless rhythm of his hips. each stroke is measured, precise, the thick head of his cock kissing that sweet spot with every thrust.
“feel me,” he murmurs, voice a low, velvet rasp against your ear. “every inch of me buried inside you. this is where you belong—open, wet, taking me so perfectly.”
you clench around him involuntarily, slick heat coating his length as he drives deeper. zuko’s breath hitches. he tightens his grip on your throat just enough to make stars bloom behind your eyes, then releases the pressure in a slow, teasing rhythm that mirrors the way he fucks you.
“you were made for this,” he continues, the words dark and intimate. “made to be filled by me. i want to see your belly swell with my child—soft and round.” his free hand slides down to press over your lower abdomen, palm warm against your skin as if he can already imagine it rounded and full. “i’m going to fill you so completely you’ll feel my cum leaking from you for days.”
the words sink into you, igniting a slow, molten heat that blooms low in your belly. your walls flutter and clench around the thick length of his cock, a fresh rush of slick warmth coating him as your body answers before your voice can. a shattered moan slips from your parted lips, raw and trembling, your hips instinctively rolling up to take him even deeper. your fingers dig into the sweat-slick muscle of his shoulders, nails leaving faint crescents as you arch beneath him, chasing the pressure of his hand on your throat and the promise pressed against your stomach.
“zuko…” the name comes out hoarse, desperate, little more than a breathy plea. “yes—please. i want it. i want you to fill me up… want to carry your child.” your voice cracks on the last word, your cunt pulsing around him in helpless, rhythmic waves.
he shifts his angle, hips rolling in a slow, devastating grind that drags the ridged underside of his cock along that devastating spot inside you. the wet, obscene sound of your bodies meeting fills the chamber, but it is the heat of him—the living fire in his blood—that makes you tremble. zuko leans closer, long hair brushing your nipples, lips grazing the shell of your ear as he whispers, “i want everyone in the palace to know whose child grows inside you. i want them to see the way you walk after i’ve spent myself inside this perfect cunt again and again.”
your orgasm builds like a slow-burning flame, licking higher with every thrust, every flex of his fingers around your throat. when it breaks, it shatters you—your walls fluttering wildly around his cock while your vision whites out beneath the steady pressure of his hand. a choked cry tears from you as the pleasure crashes through every nerve.
zuko groans, low and guttural, the sound vibrating through his chest and into yours. he buries himself to the hilt and stays there, grinding deep as his own release floods you—thick, endless pulses of hot seed painting your insides, filling you completely. he does not pull out. instead he rocks slowly, deliberately, pushing every drop deeper, ensuring nothing escapes.
his hand finally loosens on your throat. you gasp in air, chest heaving, only for him to lean down and capture your mouth in a slow, claiming kiss. when he pulls back, his eyes are molten gold.
zuko brushes a strand of damp hair from your cheek, thumb tracing the curve of your jaw with surprising tenderness. “you look so good like this,” he whispers, voice low and intimate against your lips, the words laced with quiet reverence. “so full of me… so open and perfect beneath me.” he kisses you slowly, deeply, tongue sliding against yours in a lazy, claiming stroke that makes your heart stutter.
then the hunger returns, darker and sharper. he pulls back just enough for you to see the shift in his gaze.
“not enough,” he murmurs, the tenderness giving way. his cock twitches inside you, already hardening again. “i’m going to fuck you until my cum is the only thing keeping you full."
he rolls his hips once, slow and deep, grinding the fresh swell of his length against your sensitive walls as you whimper into his mouth.
Can i request a zuko x reader in his adult form . Like he's in a meeting with high generals and the reader just barg in heavily pregnant asking for her husband's attention . Thankkk uuuuu
@lizxy
Zuko x Pregnant!Reader — “The Fire Lord’s Most Important Meeting”
The war room inside the palace was silent except for the low rumble of voices. Around the long table sat several high-ranking members of the Fire Nation Royal Council. Maps were spread across the polished surface, little carved ships and battalions marking naval positions.
At the head of the table stood the Fire Lord himself. Zuko leaned over the map, brows furrowed, one hand planted firmly against the table. His voice was calm but firm.
“We’ll redirect the southern fleet to—”
The doors slammed open. Every general in the room stiffened. A palace guard hurried behind the intruder, flustered.
“My Fire Lord I tried to stop—”
But the person who entered didn’t look remotely apologetic. You stood in the doorway. Heavily. Pregnant. One hand pressed against your lower back, the other holding the doorframe like the entire palace personally offended you.
“Zuko.”
The entire room froze. Several generals stared at the floor immediately like their lives depended on it. Because technically, They might. Zuko blinked. Once. Twice. Then immediately straightened so fast his chair scraped the floor.
“Y/N?” he said, stunned. “What are you doing here? You shouldn’t be walking this far alone.
You waddled further into the room, unimpressed.
“Don’t start with me,” you muttered. “I’ve been looking for you for an hour.”
One brave general attempted to continue the meeting.
“My Fire Lord, regarding the southern fleet—”
Zuko raised a hand without looking. The man shut up instantly. Zuko walked quickly toward you, worry replacing his earlier seriousness.
“You should be resting,” he said softly, placing a careful hand on your arm. “Is something wrong? Are you hurt? Is the baby—”
“I’m fine,” you interrupted.
Then you grabbed his sleeve.
“I just need my husband.”
The room collectively pretended to be extremely interested in the war maps. You sighed dramatically.
“You promised you wouldn’t skip lunch again.”
Zuko froze. The generals slowly looked at him. The Fire Lord of the most powerful nation in the world had apparently been caught skipping meals. Your glare sharpened.
“I waited. The food got cold. I had to waddle all the way across the palace to find you.”
Zuko looked genuinely guilty.
“I lost track of time,” he admitted quietly.
“You always lose track of time,” you muttered.
You shifted your weight and immediately winced, rubbing your stomach. Zuko’s panic came back instantly.
“What? What’s wrong?”
“The baby is kicking again,” you said.
Without hesitation, Zuko dropped to one knee. In front of the entire war council. Gasps quietly echoed around the room. Zuko placed his hand gently against your stomach.
“…Hey,” he murmured softly to the baby.
Your irritation melted just a little.
“See?” you said. “They only do that when you’re not around.”
Zuko’s expression softened completely. A faint kick pushed against his palm. His eyes lit up.
“They’re strong,” he whispered.
You smirked.
“Of course they are. They’re yours.”
Behind you, one of the generals coughed awkwardly. Zuko slowly remembered the room was still full. He stood up, suddenly very aware of the audience. You looked around at the silent men.
“Oh,” you said casually. “Am I interrupting something?”
No one answered. Zuko cleared his throat.
“…The meeting is postponed.”
Several generals looked relieved. One even nodded approvingly. You hooked your arm through Zuko’s.
“Good,” you said. “Because your child and I are hungry.”
Zuko sighed, but a smile tugged at his mouth.
“Yes, dear.”
The Fire Lord of the Fire Nation allowed himself to be dragged out of the war room by his very pregnant spouse and not a single general dared to comment. One finally whispered after the doors closed.
i feel like people aren't getting how dire ai is. we are running out of drinkable water. our brains aren't engaging as much with what we see and hear. people near data centers don't get clean water and experience electricity blackouts. it's being used to make pornography of underaged people and women. it often just lies. it affirms everything. it lies. it has made people kill themselves. it lies for gods sake. and people act as if im dramatic for being staunchly against it. 'now i KNOOW you hate ai and whatever, but look at this cute video' this isn't me being a new age puritan about internet videos, this is about the fucking earth and our future living on this planet. people are suffering now, people will suffer more, and my friends and parents will roll their eyes and think im annoying for despising ai so explicitly. we need to wake up because we cannot live like this
ㅤㅤ. . . Despite what anyone might say, your relationship was still fragile, passing through those first months when everyone expected the inevitable collapse once the honeymoon phase wore off.
You, however, knew Bucky was something steady and permanent. Your chivalrous boyfriend seemed like he hadn’t touched a girl since the ’40s. Ever since you started dating, his touches had been delicate, that almost fragile way he handled you charming—and, sometimes, honestly exhausting.
Things in the bedroom were no different.
Maybe that was why your lower belly still burned while your breathing slowly evened out, lying there with Bucky’s arm around your shoulders and his body still warm beside yours beneath the sheets. That night the sex had been as sweet as ever, his lips lingering on your skin only as long as they absolutely had to, his whispered words of adoration brushing against your neck.
Nothing calmed the heat in your pussy.
“Bucky?” you murmured softly, pressing a gentle kiss to his jaw that made him shiver briefly, just like he always did whenever your lips touched his skin.
And still he wouldn’t let you use your mouth to please him, you thought bitterly.
Even so, you didn’t let the thought discourage you.
His time would come.
Bucky only hummed faintly in acknowledgment, his body still loose and relaxed, his thumb stroking along your ribs. Not too high. Not brushing your bare breasts or the hardened peaks reaching toward him, begging for his mouth. Your lips pursed before you continued.
“I want to try something new.”
Your words clearly caught him off guard.
“Something… new?” he repeated, brow furrowing, head tilting like a curious puppy. It might have been cute if you weren’t already wet enough to make patience impossible. “New like… here, in bed? Or do you mean…?”
You barely let him finish before answering.
“I want to sit on your face. Fuck me with your tongue, Buck.”
The curse that slipped from Bucky’s mouth only made your cunt grow wetter, already clenching around nothing while a few drops of his semen still slid slowly between your thighs.
“Jesus, sweetheart. Why would you say—? What the hell…?” he huffed, chest rising fast as his arm tightened around your shoulders while you bit your lip and looked at him with those doe eyes that always made him give in. “We’ve never done that. I mean, I don’t think… that wouldn’t be good, and I—”
“Bucky, Buck, please,” you pleaded, lips already pouting as your leg shifted over his thigh, the friction of his bare skin against your center sending another wave of wetness through your folds. Bucky’s grip tightened even more. “I want to do it. You’re sweet and very chivalrous, but I need more. Please, please, my love. Just this once, and if it’s not good then we’ll never do it again for the rest of our lives, okay? I want to feel your tongue. Please, James.”
His name on your lips was enough to make his pupils expand like a predator’s, the feeling of his still-warm, soft cock against your thigh beginning to harden again. Bucky had never been a strong man when it came to you and your pleading.
“Climb onto my chest, sweetheart. Hands on the headboard.”
It was the only thing he said, in that rough tone that made heat coil deep in your stomach and wetness surge between your legs.
Excitement filled your chest at his words. You left a quick kiss on his lips before sliding your leg fully over his waist, dragging your wetness along the path of his abs until your ass settled on his bare chest. His hands moved down to grip your waist as if you were a doll made of clay beneath his touch. Your knees framed his head while Bucky silently examined the slick shine of your folds barely brushing his skin.
A low growl rumbled in his chest.
“Fuck, look at that. I just filled you and you’re already asking for more stuffing in that cunt, huh?” he muttered almost to himself, his tongue darting out to wet his lower lip as he pulled your hips forward, his nose brushing your trembling thigh. “And how thoughtful. Still dripping my cum. Dirty little thing.”
“Buck, stop—oh, fuck.”
Bucky’s tongue dove between your folds before you could finish complaining. His lips wrapped around your clit with a gentle tug that made you gasp and whimper. He ate you like you were the most delicious thing he’d ever tasted, his tongue circling your clit while his nose brushed the start of your slit. Your eyes nearly rolled back as the wet sounds of his mouth filled the room.
“Oh, I—Buck, Bucky, please…” you moaned instinctively, your hips trying to roll to chase the sensation of his lips. Bucky growled low, pulling away with one last suck on your swollen clit, the pop echoing like your final sentence. You could have cried from frustration, looking down at him as your hands smacked the headboard.
“No! No, no… please don’t—don’t stop, I need it… I want—please…”
The teasing smile that left his lips would have earned him a slap if the heat twisting in your stomach weren’t so overwhelming.
“You asked for this, sweetheart. You begged for it,” he replied coolly, guiding your hips in a slow roll, his rough stubble dragging deliciously across your trembling folds. The sound that left your mouth was anything but dignified, but Bucky only kept smiling, lips swollen and wet. “So be a good girl, yeah? Stay still and I’ll give you a nice reward. But if you even try to move your hands off the headboard, I swear I’ll suck your pussy without giving you a single fucking orgasm. Understood?”
Your whimper came out faster than expected.
“Understood, understood! Please, just go back to—”
Before you could finish, his mouth was between your legs again. Your lips parted in a trembling sigh, your head falling boneless against the headboard while your nails dug crescent shapes into the fabric until it began to tear under the pressure. Bucky’s hands stayed anchored to your hips while his lips alternated between greedy sucks and kitten licks that made your head spin.
“Fuck, James! Don’t stop, please, don’t stop, don’t you dare—”
The words spilled out of you faster than your mind could process them. But Bucky kept that arrogant air as you sat on his face, the lower half of it buried between your thighs and his eyes shut in pleasure. Low groans vibrated against your pussy between every suck, his words muffled against your wet folds.
“So fucking good, baby… best meal I’ve ever had,” he breathed against the slick heat between your legs, his nose hooked against your clit while his tongue moved side to side in a furious lick that sent fire straight to your womb. “I can feel how much this pussy wants something inside it. Fuck, my girl can’t get enough of my tongue, huh? So wet, so damn ready for my tongue and my cock.”
His words only stoked the fire in your stomach, your breath catching in your throat when Bucky’s tongue slid between your folds, sucking at your entrance like he was eating a glazed donut from the inside out. Your forehead dropped against your forearm on the headboard as the knot in your belly snapped and your orgasm crashed through you, flooding Bucky’s mouth and dripping down his chin like melting ice cream.
“Shit, yeah, give it to me, give me everything. I want every last drop, baby. That’s it. My strong girl, so fucking sweet,” he groaned, sucking down your release in obscenely loud noises, his hands pressing your hips firmly onto his face until the curve of your ass settled fully against his wet chin. “More… I’m not full yet. Give me another, sweetheart. Give me another and then I’ll give you my cock.”
The frustrated moan that left your lips broke into a sob while his tongue returned to its assault, your body still shaking and your thighs weak against his cheeks.
“I can’t, Buck. Please, no. I can’t, I don’t have another one,” you pleaded to deaf ears while Bucky kept sucking through the aftershocks of your orgasm and the tremors wracking your muscles. “Jamie, please, Buck…”
“Give me another, sweetheart,” was all he said.
Your eyes filled with tears while Bucky guided your hips back and forth over his face, your slick soaking his bronzed skin. His tongue chased the salty taste of the drops of your orgasm his mouth had missed, sucking them up in quick, confident pulls that made tears run down your cheeks and your toes curl beside his shoulders.
“Buck, I can’t anymore! I can’t, please, it’s too much, too much!”
“Never enough,” he replied, the words nearly lost in the friction of his tongue against your folds as he licked up the pearly drops of wetness still pooling between them despite your pleas.
A sob tore from your chest as your thighs relaxed around his head. Bucky made a pleased sound, eyes shut tight and brows drawn together while he guided your hips, bouncing you against his hungry tongue. One of his hands left your waist, sliding like a snake beneath your stretched arm, his thumb brushing your nipple in slow vicious circles that made the knot in your stomach ache and tighten.
“I feel you getting close… give it to me, please, fuck, give me everything,” Bucky panted between increasingly fierce sucks that left your folds tingling and made your back arch. His thumb and forefinger pinched your nipple just enough for pain and pleasure to blur together—and for the second time that night, the pressure in your lower belly broke as your orgasm spilled in soft drops across his face.
Your sobs softened while Bucky licked and cleaned your release from between your legs for what felt like forever. His fingers left your nipple and settled back on your waist, his once fierce grip loosening until you felt his calloused but gentle fingers tracing soothing circles along your skin. Your muscles felt like jelly by the time his licking slowed, his hands guiding you back until you were once again sitting on his chest.
A hiccup caught in your throat as you looked down at his still-dilated blue eyes and the stains of your release smeared across the lower half of his face like a permanent mark of your claim.
He barely managed a breath before speaking again.
“I swear to God, sweetheart, I hope you like having a new seat, because we’re doing this every day.”
the glass bottle slips from your roommate’s grasp, shattering on the ground and soaking the shoes of everyone in your vicinity. groans erupt all around you, glares being shot your way. your face burns red from the sudden and misdirected attention.
“sorry,” she hiccups, waving a dismissive hand at the bartender as he rolls his eyes and turns away. you wince, grabbing a mountain of bar napkins and scattering them over the growing pool of beer on the floor.
“how much have you had to drink?” you mutter under your breath, maneuvering her out of the spill. “that’s the third bottle you’ve dropped, if they see it’s you they’ll—“
“hey, miss,” a voice says suddenly over your shoulder. you spin around to find the bouncer — he crosses his tree trunk arms over his chest and sports a no-nonsense frown. “time to go.”
your roommate sways on the spot, matching his expression. you step in front of her, trying to hide her obvious stumbling.
“she’s fine,” you respond instinctively, even though it couldn’t be further from the truth. the bouncer isn’t amused.
“nice try, but she’s been making a mess all over the place for the last twenty minutes. she’s out.”
with that, he side-steps you and begins ushering your roommate to the door. you trail after them, your pleas to let her stay falling on deaf ears until you’re dumped on the sidewalk.
“dude, at least let her get a water,” you barter, irritation flaring up. the bouncer merely shrugs and heads back inside. you let out a frustrated grunt while your roommate roots around in her purse.
“where’s my phone?” she slurs. you point at the device currently tucked in her other hand. “oh, thank god,” she sighs.
“no, not thank god — we now have to walk thirty minutes back to the apartment because of your butterfingers.”
she looks up at you, clearly struggling to focus, a crease between her brows. “we can walk to sam’s, it’s just around the co—hiccup!—corner.”
you put a pin in your anger over the fact that she doesn’t seem the least upset about ending your night early. she makes a good point.
“alright,” you sigh, grabbing her by the elbow, “come on.”
the two of you make a slow trek to your roommate’s boyfriend’s house. what should be a seven minute walk turns into a solid fifteen, and you’ve never been more relieved to see the lights of the house shining through the broken blinds on the windows. the yard is strewn with red plastic cups and empty beer cans, plus a folding table that’s seen better days. you kick aside an awful smelling snorkel and help your roommate up the front door steps.
the door is unlocked — as usual — and there’s a large group of people gathered near the entrance. none of them pay you any mind as you pull your roommate over the threshold, eyes scanning the crowd for her boyfriend.
you spot him in the kitchen on the other side of the room, pouring a round of shots for some of his teammates. you march over to him with your roommate in tow.
“sam.”
he looks up, bright smile wiped clean off his face when he sees who’s behind you. “what happened?”
“no clue. but i know she started early,” you reply, handing her over to sam. she squeals when she sees him, throwing her arms around his neck and planting a sloppy kiss on his cheek.
“hi, baby!”
sam’s a mix of amused and concerned, holding his girlfriend tightly so she doesn’t topple over as she laughs at nothing. “thanks for walking her here,” he murmurs. “i’ll put her to bed upstairs. you’re welcome to come with us if you wanna go back out.”
your skin’s already prickling from being in this house for this long. you quickly shake your head. “no. thank you, but i think i’m gonna call it a night.”
“you sure? it’s only eleven.”
sweat’s building up at the small of your back.
“positive.”
he nods. “okay.” then he zeroes in on something over your shoulder. “hey, buck!”
your spine locks. you were so close.
footsteps approach. you feel him behind you but you don’t dare look.
“you mind walking her back?” sam asks.
“oh, i don’t need anyone—“
a scoff, mocking and familiar, cuts you off. “seriously? that’s what you called me over for?” your hands curl into fists. “we’re about to leave.”
“you just told me five minutes ago you didn’t feel like going out.”
“changed my mind.”
“seriously, sam, i’m fine to walk alone.”
he shoots you a look that questions your intelligence before turning to bucky. “dude, come on. you owe me one. and it’s the decent thing to do,” sam adds, leveling the man behind you with a look. there’s a pause before you hear a low grunt.
“whatever. let’s go.”
you shift on your feet, nails digging into your palm, processing the unexpected answer from him. your roommate is now wrestling with one of the teammates for his shot. sam’s got an arm around her, pulling her away, sufficiently distracted and leaving you with only one undesirable exit from the situation. bucky moves behind you without looking back, streaking through the crowd; you’re left to follow him, swallowing through a dry mouth.
he waits for you at the end of the driveway, hands stuffed into his jacket pockets, scowling, and looking so stupidly beautiful, it makes you want to scream. he doesn’t even spare you a glance before he takes off, and you have to take two steps for one of his just to keep up.
there’s a tense silence between the two of you. you wouldn’t dream of breaking it to thank him for walking you home, but his strides are nearly impossible to match. “can you slow down?” you grumble, feeling the straps of your heels cut off the circulation in your toes.
he finally looks your way, sending you a withering glare that shoots anger through your bloodstream and heat to your core. fuck. nevertheless, he slows down — somewhat.
“i’d like to make it back before midnight — not my fault you live in siberia,” he snaps.
“we live five minutes from campus. you live in siberia.”
“depends on how you look at it.”
“well, you’re looking at it wrong.”
he lifts an eyebrow. “there she is. ms. know-it-all princess can’t even take a friday night off. tell me, do you know what fun is? and don’t give me the dictionary definition.”
“fuck off,” you hiss. “just cause i don’t kill my brain cells every chance i get doesn’t mean i don’t have fun.”
“says the girl who’s choosing to end the fun before it even starts,” he quips.
“in case you didn’t notice, my fun ended when i got kicked out of the bar because my roommate can’t hold her liquor.”
he laughs once, short and assertive. “you could’ve ditched her. let her find her own way home.”
you round on him. “that’s fucked up. and if that’s how you feel then why haven’t you ditched me?” he grins wryly.
“it’s the decent thing to do.”
you snort. “you don’t have a decent bone in your body.”
a muscle in bucky’s jaw ticks, smile gone. it’s quiet for half a block before he murmurs, “you like that, though.”
you choose to ignore this, drawing your coat tighter around you, even as your heart rate skyrockets.
the two of you cross through campus grounds without a word, just the sounds of your footsteps and far off traffic. there’s not another person in sight, despite it being a friday night at a university. you suppose everyone else is probably out having fun with people that actually want to be with them.
your apartment looms ahead before you know it. you expect bucky to leave you at the front door and split, but he taps his foot impatiently next to you while you search for the key in your purse. when you scan in, he’s right behind you as you head for the stairs to the third floor. the heat of him is impossible to ignore, clinging to you like a magnet, even from four steps away.
your apartment is at the very end of the hall. bucky drags his fingers along the wall as you move as fast as you can in your heels. you turn sharply to face him when you get to your door, mouth open to tell him to get lost, but the words get stuck in your throat when bucky steps into your space, chest bumping yours.
“you gonna let me in?” he murmurs, eyes dark and holding yours hostage. “have to make sure you get home safe.”
you gulp. “i’m at my door — you’ve done your job,” you say, voice trembling slightly. “you can go back now.”
his head tilts. “do you want me to go?”
you say nothing because you have no clue what your answer will be. bucky’s finger slowly traces a line from the corner of your jaw down your throat to your exposed collarbone.
“let me in,” he says, his lips hovering over yours. it’s not a question. you hesitate, mind foggy from the proximity of him. his expression grows impatient. “open the door, doll.”
you unlock it in seconds. once inside, bucky wastes no time and pushes you against the wall, arms trapping you there as he captures your mouth with his. he kisses you brutally, punishingly, stealing your breath and every rational thought in your head because he had to tell you twice to give him what he wanted. you feel his irritation in the hard planes of his body flushed with yours, in the way he leaves no room for you to escape him.
you answer his viciousness with your own, pulling at his hair until he groans. he nips at your bottom lip, rolling his hips into yours to let you know exactly what he’s here for. the moan escapes you before you can tamp it down.
he pulls back for a breath, eyes wild and lips wet. “you can’t say no, can you?”
anger flares inside of you, and you shove at his chest. he doesn’t move an inch, snatching both of your wrists in one hand and pinning them above your head.
“admit it,” he coos, kissing down your throat while he holds you immobile. “you’ve wanted this since the moment you saw walked into my house.”
“you’re so fucking full of yourself,” you hiss, only for it to break off into a whimper when he bites the skin.
“mmm and yet you want to be full of me.”
“bucky—“
his other hand covers your mouth while he presses his bulge against your center, a move so familiar to you that your eyes roll back on instinct.
“admit it.”
he stares you down, but you refuse to give in. so what if him being an ass turns your panties into a mess? he’s still an ass, and you love to treat him as such.
bucky exhales slowly when he realizes you aren’t going to say anything. “you don’t wanna talk? fine. you don’t have to talk.”
he releases you to push on your shoulders, guiding you to your knees in a way that lacks an alternative. a thrill shoots through your body, raw and electrifying, and the defiant glare you shoot him is dulled by the desire to be before him like this.
he jerks his chin at you like it’s routine, which — by this point — it might be, giving you the wordless command to undo his jeans and pull down his briefs; his cock springs out, stiff and flushed, angry to have been kept waiting. your mouth waters, but you don’t touch it — not yet. your eyes find bucky’s, and he’s watching you with an intensity that hits deep in your gut.
“last chance,” he murmurs, head tilting, “or does ms. know-it-all princess like it when she’s got her mouth full?”
the name zings against your skin while your panties flood with the slick heat of your arousal. you should bite his dick off — you say as much to him with your eyes.
but instead, you grab the base of his cock and pull the tip of him into your mouth, not caring to be gentle, not caring to start slow. bucky grunts and his hips jerk suddenly, shoving in an extra inch. you slurp and suck as you pull him in further, tongue curling, eyes fluttering as he reaches the back of your throat. you swallow around the need to gag, drool building up around the corners of your lips. you use it to pump up and down whatever doesn’t fit in your mouth with your hand, twisting and changing up rhythms until his breathing grows shallow.
“fuck, doll. i like your mouth a hell of a lot more like this than when it’s bitching at me,” bucky says, throwing his head back when you give him an especially hard suck.
you watch as his face goes slack, lips parted in a shaky exhale. one hand braces himself on the wall while the other hand finds your hair and grips it — hard. it brings tears to your eyes that mix with the ones already there from taking him deeper. bucky notices and gives your hair another tug, keeping your eyes locked on him as he starts to rock into you.
you hold onto his legs as he begins fucking your mouth, slow, deep strokes at first, then faster, shallower thrusts. saliva drips down your chin, tears spill down your cheeks, and you’re starting to lose your breath.
but bucky has you pinned to the spot with his gaze, daring you to push him away as he uses you how he pleases. he doesn’t care if you’re a sobbing mess below him; in fact, you think he prefers it. whatever brings him closer to his release is what he’ll always prioritize when it comes to you.
“jesus,” he hisses when you pull back enough to suck and lick at his tip. “knew you wanted this.”
your nails dig into him in response, but bucky just chuckles breathlessly.
he pushes back in without warning, making you sputter around him. the hand in your hair slides down to your jaw, holding it steady as he resumes his ruthless pace. all you can do is take it now.
it’s not much longer until you can feel bucky’s thighs tense up right as his pace becomes uneven. you whimper around him, knowing what comes next, hating yourself for the extra drool that pools in your mouth like pavlov’s fucking dog. his strokes are clumsy now, body trembling. you swirl your tongue around his cock, pushing forward so that the sensitive tip of him touches the back of your throat.
he shatters, coming in your mouth in hot spurts as his hips jerk and shake. you feel it land on your tongue, salty and tangy and him. bucky’s hand slips down the wall, his fingers tightening around your jaw. he breathes heavily through his comedown, eventually sliding out of your mouth when he recovers enough.
his eyes remain on you, half-lidded but intentional, and you follow the undisclosed instruction to swallow and show him your empty mouth. he lets out a shuddered exhale, his lips quirking up before he says something snarky, no doubt—
you hear the footsteps right before you hear the keys jingling. both of your eyes go wide.
in a flash, bucky’s hauling you off the floor and tucking himself back into his pants. you wipe the drool off your chin as best as you can, but you’re keenly aware of the lack of makeup around your mouth. he shoots across the room, throwing himself onto the couch before you can blink, just as the door swings open.
it’s sam and your roommate, stumbling in. “oh, shit,” sam says when he spots you right in front of the door, chest still heaving from lack of air. his eyes find bucky next, who possesses enough cool to fake a look of surprise from the couch. “oh. did you guys just get here?”
“yeah, something like that,” bucky responds. sam looks confused.
“you…waiting for something?”
bucky grins crookedly, turning to look at you. “she promised me a beer to thank me for walking her home.” his eyes flash when they meet yours, sending you a silent warning. your body jerks into motion without a second thought, moving you into the kitchen to grab a bottle of beer. when you hand it to him, he’s careful not to brush his fingers with yours, looking anywhere but at you.
a heat runs through your body, searing and all-consuming. whether it’s anger, desire, or something else, you’re unsure.
“o…kay,” sam says, dragging your half-asleep roommate to the other end of the couch. you move to help him while bucky just sips on his beer, schooling your face into a look of concern.
“i thought she was staying at yours,” you say, and you hate the way your voice cracks. bucky shifts in his seat.
“she got a second wind,” sam mutters, tucking a blanket around her. “insisted she come out with us. we made it to the uber when she passed out on me, and by then we were closer to here than our place.” he shakes his head as his girlfriend begins to snore lightly. “god, i love her.”
an unnamed emotion takes your heart and squeezes it. you look away.
“i’ll get the trash can,” you mumble, moving to the kitchen again. “sam, if you want to go, i can take care of her.”
you hear bucky shift on the couch again.
sam perks up a bit. “really? i mean, i have no problem staying. but it is the first time the whole team can go out this year…”
“go,” you say, coming around with the trash can and forcing a smile. “i got her.”
“you’re the best. if she wakes up tell her to call me.” sam turns to bucky. “coming with? or did you change your mind again?”
for the very briefest of moments, sam’s eyes flit to you.
bucky stands, draining his beer in one go. “nope. i’m coming. but you’re getting the uber for making me walk all the way here.”
you clench your teeth, jaw straining from the pressure.
“deal.”
bucky sets the bottle down on the coffee table and heads for the door while sam thanks you. he doesn’t look back. the door shuts behind him with a cold click.
