pairing: mature era!BOYFRIEND!michael x singer!reader
summary: mike sleeps over at reader’s place for the first time. that’s it. that’s the plot.
word count: 1228
author’s note: i’m back with these two (raise your hand if you’re shocked ✋) and i TOLD YOU they’re in love now. this one was another one of those ideas that the universe threw at me and would not let me rest until i wrote it down. hope that’s okay with y’all.
(i really hope this concept is as funny to other people as it was to me bc i was crying my eyes out picturing this shit going down)
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You always stayed the night at Michael’s house.
Always, always, always.
He was the one with the big bed, the big bathroom, the big everything, and if you were going to be sleeping over, it just made more sense to do it at his place.
Except for the one time it didn’t.
You were at an event in the city that happened to be near your apartment, and it was late. The thing had dragged on for longer than either of you had anticipated, and you were both exhausted. So he had the bright idea to spend the night at your place instead.
You’d warned him it was small—one bedroom, one bathroom. You had the money to buy something nicer at this point, but you’d lived in the same spot ever since you moved to California, and you liked your cozy little home—why would you give it up just because your career had taken off? You didn’t need anything bigger anyway, until you’d met Michael.
Now you were wishing you’d just bought a damn house.
The two of you had just made it inside, and you’d just opened up your bedroom door, when you promptly shut it right back.
“Woah. What’s happenin’?” Michael blinked several times, like the door slamming had woken him up from a half-sleep.
“I think we should sleep at yours tonight.” You said decidedly, putting your hands on his shoulders and trying to push him back towards the front door, but he was too solid.
“What are you talkin’ about? ‘s late. I’m tired.”
You scrambled for some reason—any reason—that you couldn’t stay here. Bedbugs, mold, asbestos… literally anything was better than the truth.
“I know, but you’re not gonna be able to sleep in my bed. When’s the last time you slept in anything smaller than a California King?” You pointed out, a little too eager to have settled on that excuse.
Michael looked at you, and a slow, knowing smirk crept across his face.
“You’re hidin’ somethin’ from me.”
“No I’m not!” You insisted, but when he grabbed your bedroom doorknob, you immediately put yourself between him and the door.
“C’mon. What is it? I wanna see.”
Gone was the sleepy expression. He was having too much fun with this now.
“It’s nothing. I just want to sleep in your bed. Please?”
Your puppy dog eyes were no match for his doe ones.
“Honey. Whatever it is, it can’t be that embarrassin’.” He twisted the doorknob, and you put a useless hand on his wrist to try and stop him.
No. Such. Luck.
He pushed his way past you and into the room, and for a moment, he looked confused as to what you could possibly be worrying about.
The room was cute. It looked like a college girl decorated it—because you were, when you moved into this place—but there wasn’t anything terribly unusual about it. Pink paint, a frilly bedspread, posters on the walls…
Then he started to laugh. Hard. And you let out a mortified noise, covering your face with both hands. “Oh. I see.”
“Please don’t.”
You were near tears at this point. Because there, tacked up on your wall between E.T. and The Go-Go’s, was a picture of his face.
His stupid, pretty face and his stupid, pretty curls and his stupid, pretty white suit.
And just in case he’d developed a sudden, miraculous case of facial blindness and didn’t recognize himself—right above his face, in unmistakable gold lettering, was his name and the name of the album. Michael Jackson. Thriller.
There was no hiding from this.
“Aw, don’t do that! I think it’s sweet!” He tried to pry your hands away from your face, but you stubbornly refused to budge.
“We have to break up.” You moaned miserably into your hands, and he dropped his and tried wrapping his arms around your waist instead.
“Nooo. Baby. Honey. Precious. Angel.” You could tell he was trying to keep the laughter out of his voice, but his body was still shaking with it. “Look at me.”
“I don’t ever want to look at you again.”
You were actually going to start crying. You were really, truly, about to start crying your eyes out because you had never been so embarrassed in your life.
“Okay, well, now you’re bein’ unreasonable.” You could hear him pouting.
“I think that’s a perfectly reasonable response to this.” You muttered, but you couldn’t stand the idea of the dejected look you knew he was wearing, even if you were utterly humiliated, so you peeked up at him.
“There she is.” He grinned—smug ass—and pulled you closer.
“Don’t start. I don’t want to hear it. Please, just put me out of my misery.”
You actually thought about marching over and ripping the whole thing off the wall. But that was your Thriller poster. You couldn’t do that.
“You’re hurtin’ my feelin’s. What’s so bad about lookin’ at my face every night when you’re fallin’ asleep?”
Evil. That’s what he was. An evil, evil, evil man.
“Why are you enjoying my suffering?” You groaned again, retreating to the safety of your bed.
Michael followed right behind, sitting down next to you.
“Because I think it’s cute.”
Argh.
“I got that way before I met you. Just for the record.” You sniffed, absolutely refusing to meet his eyes.
“D’you want me to sign it for you?” He offered cheekily, and you smacked him on the chest.
“Michael.”
“I’m sorry! I’m sorry! Really, I’m sorry.” He doubled over in laughter again, and then you were the one pouting.
“We should not sleep here.”
“Stop that right now.” He pulled you into his lap, kissing you soundly. “I’m not makin’ fun of you, okay?” He brushed your cheek like he was brushing away a tear, even though none had actually fallen.
He was totally making fun of you. But you knew it wasn’t mean-spirited. Michael didn’t have a malicious bone in his body, and honestly—the situation was funny.
Or, it would be funny. Many, many years from now.
“Are you gonna let me stay? ‘cause I really am tired.” He asked, and you nodded reluctantly.
“Fine.”
“Yeah?”
“Yes. But you’re sleeping facing that way.” You jerked a thumb towards the opposite wall, and he laughed again, tugging you into a much deeper kiss.
You melted into it the way he knew you would, the way you always did, but when his fingers started toying with the hem of your dress, you shut that right down.
“Oh, no. You can sleep here, but you are not getting laid tonight. Not with him watching.”
“But it’s me!”
“Don’t care. Get up. I’ve got a spare toothbrush you can have.”
You climbed off his lap, grabbing yourself a pair of pajamas from your dresser and pointing him towards the bathroom. He didn’t move from the bed.
“How about in the shower?” He suggested, all big brown doe eyes again. You shook your head.
“Kitchen?”
“Nope.”
“Livin’ room?”
“Literally not a chance.”
“How about—”
“Michael. Get up and get ready for bed.”
“Fine.” He sighed dramatically, getting up and trailing dutifully behind you. “But can we still eat breakfast in bed?”
“Only if you promise that we will never, ever speak of this again.”
Preview: It's date night and you and Michael have chosen to stay in tonight.
Content: Fluffy goodness and Michael being a silly butt.
A/N: This one got a little away from me, but as some may have noticed I love to run my mouth lol! Enjoy this latest installment of A Day in the Life -The Jacksons series.
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Dim lights, the scent of warm leather and amber permeating the air and the sound of tinkling laughter rings out as date night begins.
As semi empty nesters, your youngest being away at college, you had more time to devote to each other and that meant implementing more regularly planned date nights. Interestingly enough, it was Michael who’d come up with the idea.
Tonight’s date was decided to be spent at home, even though Michael was retired he was still one of the most famous people in the world and people would clamor and fall over themselves to get an autograph, a picture or even the chance to just lay their pink finger on his jacket.
Wanting to avoid the spectacle it would bring being out in public, the best decision was just the two of you in your own space wrapped up in each other.
Your date night playlist was softly crooning in the background and Anita Baker’s ‘Sweet Love’ currently set the romantic ambiance while you and Michael prepared dinner together. The menu tonight was chicken enchiladas, cilantro-lime rice and roasted peppers and onions. Michael was on chopping duty and you were seasoning the chicken.
“It’s nice how calm it is around here, ya know?” Michael asked as he finished slicing the onions into medium size strips and moving onto the red and green bell peppers.
Snorting you turned your deep brown gaze toward your husband.
“Oh, I wouldn’t say it’s calm per say. You’re still here babe.” You teased. It was no secret that Michael loved having you all to himself and even at damn near 68 years old, the man was still just as affectionate and handsy as ever.
The thudding of the knife against the wooden chopping block paused as Michael displayed a faux offended stare at you.
“Hey now, watch yourself mama. You love being the center of my attention, don’t play.” He smirked with a knowing raised brow.
“Hmph.” You grinned and moved to wash your hands before picking up the blue checkered dish towel and drying your damp digits.
You couldn’t even deny that he was in fact right. Not to brag…too much, but you honestly had the most loving, doting and generous husband in the world. Michael always made sure your needs were met, that you didn’t want for anything and showered you in love every day.
Hanging the towel back on the oven door, you went about preheating the oven and setting out ingredients for the rice, and the rest of the filling for the enchiladas.
“How are Marlon and them doing? You talked to him earlier today, right?” You inquired.
“Yeah, I did and everyone’s doing well. His foundation is doing well and he mentioned him and the guys have a gig coming up. You know that knuckle head had the nerve to ask me if I wanted to perform with them?” Michael exclaimed, shaking his head.
“And you weren’t even the least bit interested, huh Applehead.” You stated, already knowing the answer.
With a deadpan stare, “Hell naw.” Michael declared.
Back in 2009, during the ‘This Is It’ tour, Michael was adamant about it being his final performance and he’d stayed true to his word. Having lupus really put a toll on his body along with dancing, so he sadly didn’t move like he used to when he was more agile.
The serious look on his face was your undoing. Letting forth a full belly laugh, you could always count on Michael’s face to say it before his mouth did.
“You know I ain’t lying mama, I’m finally at peace and you KNOW I hate tourin’.” He retorted.
Hands up in surrender you indeed knew how much Michael couldn’t stand touring. The toll it used to take on his body, throwing off his sleep schedule and the occasional hassle of having to find a doctor when he’d have a lupus flare up.
“I know baby, I remember those days. Trust it wasn’t fun for me either, especially having to see you in pain or battling to get a good amount of rest.” You remarked, embracing him from behind and rubbing your warm hands against his stomach.
Laying your head on his back, you breathed in his clean patchouli scent. He’d taken a liking to the Tom Ford fragrance a few years back and even though it was discontinued now, there were still several bottles in his collection.
Michael took in a deep calming breath as memories invaded his mind from over 30 years ago, flashing behind his closed lids like scenes from a movie. The sleepless nights, grueling rehearsals, long plane rides, and oftentimes the constant pain.
Shaking his head as if to toss the thoughts from his brain all together, he didn’t want to dampen the mood and bring this lovely evening off track.
“Hey, enough of the sadness my love. Let’s finish dinner and enjoy the rest of our night, cause it’s just getting started.” He chirped happily.
Brushing a soft kiss on his back, you patted his stomach and nodded your head.
“Most definitely baby.” You answered.
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Plates and serving dishes were placed atop the table which bore scattered rose petals, an ice bucket with chilled wine and long white tapered candles.
Already taking into account tonight as date night, you opted for a flowy, thin strapped leopard print maxi dress for a sexy yet casual vibe. Of course Michael wanted to match your fly and he opted for a black long sleeve silk shirt and khaki colored linen pants. He let his hair fall freely and was aware you were in love with his longer hair style.
‘Could It Be I’m Falling in Love’ floated through the built-in surround sound speakers as Michael, ever the gentleman, pulled your chair out for you.
“Thank you baby.” You cooed gently.
As he pushed your chair forward, he couldn’t resist leaving a soft kiss against your check. His hands skimming over your shoulders, fingers lightly brushing against your upper arm.
“No need to thank me, wife. It’s what I’m supposed to do.” He winked as he took his own seat next to you.
The flickering flames from the candles only enhanced the sultry mood and you were transported to one of your first dates back in 1985.
“You remember our third date, when you tried cooking for me at Hayvenhurst and damn near burned down the kitchen Applehead?” You chuckled while bringing the crystal wine glass to your upturned lips.
Wiping the cloth napkin across his mouth, Michael finished swallowing the bite he’d previously taken.
“Hey now, I was tryin’ to impress you mama. I didn’t know how long a chicken would need to cook in the oven.” Michael shyly defended himself.
“Baby, there was such a thing as a timer,” you giggled, leaning forward, running your fingers through his loose and wavy strands.
“I still fed you though, didn't I?!” He scoffed good naturedly.
“Yes, if I recall correctly we ended up ordering Chinese food and eating by candlelight. It was a nice save too, baby.” You replied.
Conversation and comfortable silence flowed throughout dinner as you two finished the meal you’d prepared together. It was a quiet intimacy in sharing the experience of cooking with each other and showed how you cared for one another. You really cherished moments such as these and were grateful for the longevity of yours and Michael’s marriage of 37 years.
After the last bite was eaten and clean plates were left behind, Michael rubbed a hand over his stomach.
“Whew, that was good mama, I’m stuffed.” He hummed in content.
“It was a team effort, love, but it was pretty tasty though.” You agreed.
Taking a few minutes to clear the table, you and Michael moved effortlessly around each other as if choreographed. In between loading the dishwasher and indulging in sips of wine, you exchanged flirty gazes and spoke of whispered promises.
You’d seen an idea on social media to have a DIY paint night and you thought it would be fun, so during the week you’d taken a trip to the craft store and bought a pack of canvases and a few bottles of paint.
Leaving Michael alone in the kitchen for just a moment was your thought, but of course you should’ve known better with Mr. Clingy supreme himself.
Gripping your waist in one elegant hand, Michael pulled your back flush with his chest.
“Where you goin mama?”He whined.
Reaching up, you cradle his firm jaw and stroked a thumb over his cheek.
“I’m just going to set up our activity for the night. I promise I’m not going far husband.” You assured him in a hushed tone.
Tipping his head, fingers flexing against your waist, Michael’s head made a slow descent toward your full and awaiting lips. Pecking at just the corner of your mouth, he took his time placing a few soft chaste kisses before finally paying attention to your pouty naturally two toned lips.
Nibbling on your bottom lip before gently biting it between his teeth, he quickly soothed the pain with a lap of his tongue. Releasing your lip with a soft pop, he kissed you twice before loosening his hold on your waist.
“I love you girl.” He professed huskily.
Dazed and thrown off center for a moment, you could only manage a lovestruck grin.
“Damn, I love you too.” You replied breathlessly.
Yeaaah, he’s getting some ass tonight. You smugly thought.
When your brain finally sent the signal to your feet to get moving, you made quick work of prepping the dining room table and making sure all the materials needed were in place before calling your husband into the room.
“Mich..” the words died in your throat as you glimpsed him standing in the doorway.
Broad shoulder cocked to the side against the wall, a hand casually tucked into his pocket while the other held his wine glass showing off those delicious veins. Dark pools of molten brown locked on your thick, curvy frame, a devastatingly handsome grin tugging those pink full lips and the cherry on top, his long wavy tresses that fell just past his shoulders.
Michael Jackson in his later years, was the whole damn package and you got to call him yours for a lifetime. You were truly blessed and better than everybody who just WISHED they could have a piece of what you had.
He’d caught you staring, cause of course he just had to be in your orbit and followed after your retreating form once you’d left the kitchen. What man who was madly in love with their wife wouldn’t want to bask in her beauty though?
Michael took no shame in raking his stormy gaze over your ass draped in the leopard print maxi dress that did nothing to conceal the curves of your juicy frame. Your thick thighs, the fullness of your breasts, the soft pudge of your middle and oh the plush hips that he loved to grab hold of every chance he could get. The sight damn near had his mouth watering.
He thanked God every day for the life he’d been blessed with and to be able to share with the love of his life. Bringing his glass to his lips, he drew in a swig of the Merlot and let the taste savor on his tongue for a moment before swallowing.
“Need any help baby?” he asked as he leaned off the wall and sauntered toward you.
Holding his gaze as if you were hypnotized, you barely shook your head.
“N-no, I’m ready for you.” You stuttered and felt your cheeks warm.
Once again, Michael held the chair out for you before sitting right next to you. He immediately placed his left hand on your thigh, absentmindedly drawing circles with his thumb.
Picking up your wine glass, you damn near downed the rest of the blood red liquid because you were so parched and slightly flustered. At least Michael still knew how to turn you on and get you heated.
“So what you got us doin’ my love? I see paint out.” He asked, as he cautiously settled his wine glass on the table out of harm’s way.
“We’re going to make our handprints intertwined on the canvases. You’ll use one color and I’ll use a different one on top then we’ll add the date and any cute extras.”You slowly explained the process.
Like the sun rising over the horizon, the smile on Michael’s face appeared wide and bright.
“Ooo, I love it!” He exclaimed and started reaching for the paint to examine the colors you’d bought.
Pleased with yourself, you grinned. “I knew you’d like this and I already know you’re gonna choose red Applehead.”
A boyish grin was all the answer you received in confirmation.
Just as you’d both gotten into the groove of the art project and covered your right hands in paint, the soft guitar rifts of ‘The Lady in My Life’ floated around the room. Eyes lighting up, you couldn’t help but start lightly swaying your shoulders to the beat and snapping the fingers of your left hand.
Glancing your way, Michael smiled bashfully. Decades later he still got a bit embarrassed when hearing the song play, but he’d learned how much you loved this song.
“You know this is one of my favorite songs of yours babe. How come you don’t ever sing it for me? That would be the sexiest thing ever.” You gushed with heart eyes.
“Usually, all you have to do is ask baby and I’ll give you the moon and the stars. However, that may be one request I can’t honor.” He declared as he firmly pressed his hand to the canvas.
“Ugh, why?” You groaned, placing your hand over his print on the canvas and pressing down. “You’re damn near 70 baby, you gotta get over the making of the song. Do you know how many videos are made of that song in particular? Everybody LOVES it!” You proclaimed.
Always humble and graciously accepting the praise, Michael’s ears and cheeks tinged a dusty rose and he ducked his head.
“Aww stop it mama, you know I’ve accepted how much that song means to people. I’ve gotten letters and emails about how much people want songs like that back. I was even told I was a real “yearner”, whatever that means.” He declared. It always made his heart full knowing his music still touched millions of people in this day and age.
“It means you were and still are a lover boy baby. Come on, let's do the other hand so we can wash this paint off.” You said as you leaned over and kissed his cheek.
After laying the handprints for your left hands on the canvas and finishing off the work with the date and thumbprint hearts in the corner. Michael held a mischievous glint in his eyes and reached a wet hand out, grasping your face planting a wet kiss on your lips and effectively leaving his handprint splattered on your cheek.
Eyes rounding as big as saucers, your pretty mouth dropped in a perfect O.
“MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON!” You shrieked.
Jumping up from his seat, Michael’s peals of laughter were heard as you chased after him with paint streaked hands and a plot for revenge.
Authors note: and they call it puppyyy loveeee. watch these two idiots nearly miss each other.. I love baby Y/N and Michael.
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Los Angeles, 1979
The funny thing was that neither of them should have remembered the other at all.
Studio 54 had been crowded, loud, and overflowing with beautiful people. Celebrities drifted through the club like ghosts beneath spinning lights and clouds of cigarette smoke. People met each other every night and forgot names by morning. That was simply how the world worked.
Yet somehow, weeks later, Michael could still remember exactly how Y/N had smiled at him.
He remembered the sound of her laugh over the music. He remembered how she hadn't stared at him like he was some impossible creature. He remembered how easy it had been to talk to her.
Most of all, he remembered how she'd looked at him when she said goodbye.
Like she hadn't wanted the night to end either and that was what made the magazine hurt so much.
Michael sat in the family room in Encino, absentmindedly flipping through a stack of entertainment magazines while the television played somewhere in the background. His brothers were arguing over something as usual, but their voices barely registered.
His attention had snagged on a particular cover.
A smiling Y/N stood beside John Travolta at some Hollywood event, both of them impossibly attractive and impossibly glamorous beneath camera flashes.
The headline stretched across the page.
HOLLYWOOD'S NEWEST POWER COUPLE? FRIENDS PREDICT WEDDING BELLS FOR TRAVOLTA AND L/N.
Michael stared at it far longer than he should have.
His stomach twisted unpleasantly.
Logically, he knew it was ridiculous.
He barely knew Y/N.
One conversation.
One evening.
That was all.
Yet he'd thought about her constantly since New York.
Sometimes when he was recording, sometimes late at night, sometimes for absolutely no reason at all and now every magazine in America seemed convinced she belonged to somebody else.
Jermaine noticed the expression immediately.
"Who died?"
Michael glanced up.
"What?"
"You've been staring at the same page for ten minutes."
Before Michael could react, Jermaine reached over and snatched the magazine from his hands.
A grin instantly spread across his brother's face.
"Oh."
Michael groaned.
"Don't."
"Oh, this is bad."
"It isn't."
"It's a girl."
"It is not."
Jermaine held up the magazine.
"Then why are you looking at her like somebody just kicked the giraffe?"
Michael snatched it back and immediately regretted how defensive he'd sounded.
Because unfortunately, Jermaine wasn't entirely wrong.
For the first time in a very long time, someone had gotten under Michael's skin and he had absolutely no idea what to do about it.
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Across Los Angeles, Y/N was having an equally miserable afternoon.
She had been in California for nearly a month, splitting her time between studio sessions, photoshoots and endless networking events. Everybody had told her she would love Los Angeles, so far she hated it.
It was beautiful, certainly.
The weather was perfect.
The opportunities were endless.
But New York felt real.
Los Angeles felt like a performance.
Everyone seemed to be pretending to be someone else.
Everyone except one person.
She sat outside a small café on Sunset Boulevard, pushing a spoon around her coffee while her friend watched her with growing amusement.
"You know" her friend said eventually, "most people move to California and become happier."
"I'm thrilled."
"You look heartbroken."
"I'm not heartbroken."
"You absolutely are."
Y/N sighed dramatically.
"Do you remember that singer I met in New York?"
Her friend's eyes widened immediately.
"The adorable one?"
"Yes."
"The one you've mentioned approximately five hundred times?"
"I have not."
"You absolutely have."
Y/N dropped her forehead into her palm as it rested on the table.
Which, unfortunately, was basically a confession.
Her friend laughed. "What happened?"
"Nothing happened."
"That's clearly the problem."
Y/N groaned again.
Because that was exactly the problem.
Nothing had happened.
Not really.
Just a conversation.
Just a connection she couldn't seem to shake.
Then, almost immediately after she'd arrived in Los Angeles, she'd started hearing rumors.
Michael and Diana Ross.
The whispers were everywhere.
Industry parties, record executives, stylists and publicists.
Everyone seemed convinced there was something between them and every time Y/N heard it, she felt a tiny sting she couldn't quite explain.
It shouldn't have bothered her, she barely knew him and yet somehow it did.
Because she'd walked away from Studio 54 believing there had been something there.
Something small.
Something fragile.
Something worth exploring.
Now she assumed she'd imagined the whole thing.
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Weeks passed that way.
Michael seeing Y/N's face in magazines.
Y/N hearing Michael's voice on every radio station in America.
Both wondering.
Both missing someone they hardly knew.
Both convinced they were too late.
Neither realizing the other felt exactly the same.
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The record label party happened in November, one of those glamorous industry events where nobody actually wanted to be there.
Executives shook hands.
Photographers wandered around hunting celebrities.
Champagne flowed endlessly.
Michael arrived because his manager insisted.
Y/N arrived because her agency insisted.
Neither expected the night to become important.
Michael spotted her first, the moment he stepped into the ballroom.
She stood near a balcony, laughing at something someone had said.
His entire body froze.
For a second he wondered if he'd imagined her.
Then she turned.
Their eyes met.
And suddenly the room disappeared.
The music.
The crowd.
The noise.
Gone.
Just like it had been at Studio 54.
Y/N's smile faded into pure surprise.
"Michael."
Her voice carried across the distance between them.
His heart immediately began racing.
"Hi."
It was pathetic, really.
Months of wondering about her and the best greeting he could manage was hi.
Yet Y/N's smile returned instantly.
A real smile.
One that made his knees feel suspiciously weak.
"Hi yourself."
For a moment they simply stood there looking at one another.
Neither quite sure what to do next.
Neither wanting to break whatever invisible thing still existed between them.
And despite himself, Michael's gaze dropped toward her left hand.
Once.
Twice.
Three times.
Searching.
Looking for a ring.
Looking for proof that the magazines had been right.
Looking for confirmation that he'd already lost.
Finally Y/N noticed.
A teasing smile appeared.
"Are you looking for something?"
Michael nearly died.
The teasing smile on Y/N's face widened as she caught him glancing toward her left hand for what was now the fourth time in less than a minute.
"Are you looking for something?" she asked.
The warmth that flooded his face was immediate:
"No."
"You are."
"I'm not."
"You absolutely are."
Michael looked away, suddenly fascinated by a decorative plant in the corner of the ballroom.
Unfortunately, Y/N wasn't going to let him escape that easily.
Her eyes sparkled with amusement as she stepped a little closer.
"Michael Jackson, were you checking for a wedding ring?"
His head snapped back toward her.
"I wasn't—"
"You were."
"I was not."
"You were."
The smile she gave him was so victorious that he couldn't help laughing despite himself.
"Okay, maybe I was."
"Mmhmm."
She folded her arms.
"And why exactly were you checking my hand?"
Michael hesitated.
Because saying I spent months thinking about you and then tortured myself with magazine headlines claiming you were marrying John Travolta sounded slightly crazy.
Before he could formulate an answer, Y/N tilted her head.
"Actually..."
Her voice softened.
"I wanted to ask you something too."
Michael's stomach tightened.
"What?"
For a moment she seemed almost nervous.
Which surprised him.
Y/N never looked nervous.
She always seemed confident and self-assured, like she knew exactly where she belonged in every room she entered.
Yet now she was staring at him with the same uncertainty he'd been carrying for months.
"Are you and Diana Ross together?"
The question hit him so unexpectedly that he actually laughed.
Not because it was funny.
Because it was absurd.
"No."
The answer came instantly.
Without hesitation.
Just pure instinct.
"No."
Y/N blinked.
"You're not?"
"No."
"At all?"
"No."
Michael shook his head.
"Diana is family to me. She's one of my friends, but we're not together."
Relief washed across Y/N's face so quickly it was almost impossible to miss.
And suddenly Michael felt his heart start racing because that wasn't the expression of someone making casual conversation.
That was the expression of someone who'd been hoping for a particular answer.
Someone who cared.
Someone who'd wondered.
The realization sent a thrill through him.
"Wait."
A grin slowly spread across his face.
"You thought we were dating."
Y/N groaned immediately.
"Oh, don't you start."
"You did."
"It was a reasonable assumption."
Michael laughed.
"You thought Diana was my girlfriend."
"Everyone thought Diana was your girlfriend."
"But not you."
She rolled her eyes.
"I was trying very hard not to."
Something shifted between them then.
Subtle.
Fragile.
Hopeful.
The air suddenly felt lighter.
The distance between them smaller.
Months of uncertainty beginning to crack.
Michael looked at her for a long moment before finally gathering the courage to ask the question that had been eating him alive.
"So..."
His voice came out quieter than intended.
"What about Travolta?"
For a second Y/N simply stared.
Then understanding dawned.
Followed immediately by laughter.
Real laughter.
The kind she couldn't contain.
The kind that made her reach for his arm to steady herself, Michael looked mildly offended.
"I'm serious."
"I know."
"Those magazines made it sound pretty serious."
"Michael."
She was still laughing.
"I've had like three dates with him."
"Three?"
"Three."
"That's it?"
"That's it."
His eyebrows rose.
"And you're not engaged?"
"No."
"Not secretly engaged?"
"No."
"Not planning a wedding?"
"No."
"Still dating?"
"No."
"What about—"
"Michael."
She reached over and lightly touched his wrist.
The simple contact silenced him instantly.
Her smile softened.
"No."
Just one word.
Yet somehow it felt like the answer to every question he'd been carrying around for months.
Michael looked down for a second, trying and failing to suppress the smile spreading across his face.
When he looked back up, Y/N was smiling too.
And suddenly neither could stop.
The realization settled over them simultaneously.
All those months.
All that worrying.
All those assumptions.
For nothing.
~~~~~~~~~~
The rest of the party disappeared around them.
Neither noticed.
Neither cared.
They talked, really talked.
Not the shallow conversations that filled most industry events.
Not the carefully rehearsed small talk celebrities learned to perform.
Actual conversation.
The kind that wandered naturally from topic to topic without effort.
They talked about New York.
About Los Angeles.
About growing up.
About their families.
About dreams.
About fears.
About what came next.
The longer they stood together, the easier it became.
Michael found himself telling her things he rarely admitted to people.
How overwhelming fame could feel sometimes.
How desperately he wanted to create something meaningful.
How lonely it could be when everyone already believed they knew who you were.
And Y/N listened.
Not because he was Michael Jackson.
Because she genuinely cared.
That was the difference.
It had always been the difference.
When she looked at him, she wasn't seeing a celebrity.
She was seeing him.
The shy young man underneath all of it.
The one few people bothered to notice.
Hours seemed to disappear.
By the time Michael finally glanced at his watch, it was nearly one in the morning.
Most of the party had already emptied out.
The ballroom felt quieter now.
More intimate.
And suddenly a terrifying thought occurred to him.
If he didn't ask now, he'd regret it forever.
His heart began pounding.
"Can I ask you something?"
Y/N's expression softened immediately.
"Of course."
For the first time all night, Michael looked nervous.
Genuinely nervous.
The confidence he'd managed to fake throughout the evening vanished.
His fingers rubbed against the back of his neck.
He glanced down.
Then back up.
Then down again.
Y/N found it impossibly endearing.
"What is it?"
Michael took a breath.
Then another.
Finally he met her eyes.
"Would you like to go out with me?"
The question hung between them.
Simple.
Honest.
Terrifying.
For a moment neither moved.
Neither spoke.
Michael immediately began wondering if he'd made a mistake.
Then Y/N smiled.
Slowly.
Beautifully.
The kind of smile that made his entire chest ache.
"I was starting to think you'd never ask."
Michael's grin was instantaneous.
Boyish. Relieved. Radiant.
And Y/N felt her own heart stumble because she realized she would have followed that smile almost anywhere.
~~~~~~~
An hour later they were sitting in the back of Bill's car, driving through a sleeping Los Angeles.
Neither had wanted the night to end.
So when Michael casually suggested finding somewhere still open, Y/N had agreed immediately.
Now the city lights blurred past outside the windows while they sat beside each other in comfortable silence.
Close enough that their shoulders brushed whenever the car turned.
Neither moving away, neither wanting to.
Eventually Bill pulled into the parking lot of a tiny twenty four hour diner glowing beneath a flickering neon sign.
It wasn't glamorous.
It wasn't exclusive.
No photographers lurked outside.
No executives waited inside.
Just truck drivers, college students, and exhausted waitresses serving coffee at two in the morning.
And somehow it felt perfect.
~~~~~~
They slid into a booth near the window.
Coffee arrived, then pie and more coffee.
Neither touched much of it.
They were too busy talking.
Michael couldn't remember the last time conversation had felt this easy.
There was no pressure.
No expectations.
No performance.
Just Y/N.
Across from him.
Smiling every time he spoke.
Looking at him as though he were the most fascinating person in the room.
At some point, while she was telling a story about growing up in New York, Michael realized he wasn't really listening anymore.
He was watching her.
The way her hands moved when she spoke.
The way her eyes lit up when she laughed.
The way she leaned forward when she was excited about something.
Beautiful.
God, she was beautiful.
Eventually she noticed.
"What?"
Michael blinked.
"What?"
"You're staring."
His smile turned shy.
"Sorry."
"Don't be." The words escaped before she could stop them. A slight blush immediately crept across her cheeks.
Michael's heart nearly stopped.
Neither looked away.
The world outside seemed impossibly distant.
The diner.
The city.
The future.
Everything.
Gone.
Just this moment.
This table.
These feelings neither could ignore anymore.
Michael slowly reached across the booth.
His hand resting between them.
An invitation.
A question.
A risk.
Y/N looked down at it.
Then placed her hand in his, without hesitation.
The contact sent a spark straight through both of them.
Warm.
Certain.
Electric.
Michael smiled.
Not the smile the world knew.
Not the performer.
Just Michael. Young and hopeful and completely gone for her.
"I haven't stopped thinking about you since New York."
Y/N’s eyes softened.
"Neither have I."
And as dawn slowly began breaking over Los Angeles beyond the diner windows, both of them felt it, that strange certainty.
The rare kind that only came once or twice in a lifetime.
Neither could possibly know what the future held.
The albums. The tours. The years. The love.
But sitting together in that tiny diner at four in the morning, fingers intertwined across a scratched tabletop, one thing already felt undeniable.
This was the beginning of something extraordinary.
~~~~~~~~~~
The sky outside the diner had begun to soften from black to deep blue.
Neither of them had noticed the hours passing.
Their coffee had gone cold long ago. The pie sat half-eaten between them. Around them, the diner had fallen into that strange quiet that only existed just before sunrise, when the world hadn't quite decided whether it was still night or already morning.
Michael sat with his chin resting against his hand, watching Y/N talk.
Not listening.
Watching.
He'd been caught doing it several times now.
Each time she teased him about it.
Each time he blushed.
And each time he somehow became even more endearing.
It was ridiculous.
Here was one of the most famous young men in America.
A performer who could command arenas.
A singer who made entire crowds scream.
Yet sitting across from one woman in a diner booth at six in the morning had reduced him to a nervous wreck.
Y/N found it impossibly charming.
"You did it again."
Michael blinked.
"What?"
"You're staring."
His cheeks immediately turned pink.
"I wasn't."
"You absolutely were."
A grin tugged at her lips.
"Do I have something on my face?"
"No."
"Then why are you looking at me like that?"
Michael opened his mouth.
Closed it. Opened it again.
And somehow looked even more flustered.
Because the truthful answer was impossible.
Because you're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.
Because I haven't stopped thinking about you for months.
Because I think I'm already falling for you and that feels insane after one date.
Instead he looked down at his coffee cup.
"I just like looking at you."
The confession slipped out before he could stop it.
Silence settled between them.
Not awkward.
Not uncomfortable.
Something softer.
Something warmer.
Michael slowly looked up.
The moment their eyes met, the air seemed to shift.
The teasing disappeared.
The laughter faded.
Suddenly neither of them felt like joking anymore.
The attraction that had been humming beneath every conversation all night finally settled heavily between them.
Real.
Undeniable.
Michael swallowed.
His heart was beating so hard he was convinced she could hear it.
God.
He wanted to kiss her.
He'd wanted to kiss her since Studio 54.
Since the first moment she'd smiled at him.
But wanting it and actually doing it were two very different things.
Because despite everything people believed about him, Michael was painfully shy.
Especially when it mattered.
Especially with her.
And Y/N could see every bit of it written across his face.
The way his eyes kept dropping to her mouth before darting away.
The way he leaned slightly closer without realizing it.
The way his fingers tightened around hers.
The way he looked absolutely terrified.
The realization made her heart melt.
"Oh, sweetheart" she thought. "He wants to."
The poor thing just couldn't bring himself to do it.
For perhaps the first time all night, Y/N felt brave, she shifted slightly closer across the booth.
Michael immediately noticed and his breathing visibly changed.
Neither spoke.
The diner seemed impossibly quiet now.
The waitress had disappeared into the back.
The few remaining customers were paying no attention.
It felt as though they were the only two people left in the world.
"Michael."
His eyes lifted to hers.
The tenderness there nearly undid her.
"Yeah?"
Her smile softened.
"You know..."
She squeezed his hand.
"You can stop looking so terrified."
A startled laugh escaped him.
"I'm not terrified."
"You look terrified."
"I don't."
"You do."
His smile grew sheepish.
"Maybe a little."
"A little?"
"A lot."
That made her laugh.
The sound immediately relaxed him.
Just enough.
Just enough for her to gather her courage.
Slowly, Y/N slid out of her side of the booth and sat beside him instead.
Michael's entire brain stopped functioning.
One second she was across from him.
The next she was beside him.
Close.
Very close.
Close enough that he could smell her perfume.
Close enough that their knees touched.
Close enough that his heart nearly exploded.
For a moment neither moved.
Neither breathed.
Michael looked at her.
She looked at him.
And suddenly every conversation they'd had that night seemed insignificant compared to this.
Because this was the moment.
The real moment.
The one neither of them would ever forget.
His gaze dropped briefly to her lips.
Then back to her eyes.
Then back again.
Still not moving.
Still too shy.
Still Michael.
And Y/N adored him for it.
So she made the decision for both of them.
Her hand rose slowly, brushing against his cheek.
Michael leaned into the touch instantly, without thinking, as though he'd been waiting for it.
Her heart squeezed.
God.
He was beautiful.
Not because he was famous, not because he was talented.
Because beneath all of that he was gentle, kind, vulnerable and looking at her like she hung the moon.
"Hi" she whispered.
Michael smiled.
A small nervous smile.
"Hi."
Then Y/N leaned forward and kissed him.
Softly.
Tenderly.
The briefest brush of lips.
A question more than a kiss.
An invitation.
For a second Michael simply froze, not because he didn't want it.
Because he wanted it so much.
Then his eyes fluttered closed and he kissed her back.
The world disappeared, the diner, the city.
Everything.
Gone.
There was only warmth and electricity.
Only the feeling of her hand against his face.
Only the realization that she was real.
That this wasn't another magazine cover.
Or another daydream.
Or another missed opportunity.
She was here.
With him.
Kissing him.
When they finally pulled apart, neither moved very far.
Foreheads resting together.
Both smiling like fools.
Both slightly breathless.
Michael let out a soft laugh of disbelief.
"Wow."
Y/N laughed too.
"That's all you've got?"
He shook his head.
Still smiling.
Still looking at her as though she'd performed magic.
"I've been wanting to do that for months."
The confession made her grin.
"Then it's a good thing one of us was brave enough."
Michael groaned immediately.
"Oh, you're never gonna let me live that down, are you?"
"Absolutely not."
His laughter filled the quiet diner and for the first time that night, Michael reached for her instead of waiting.
Pulling her hand into his and pressing a kiss against her knuckles.
A small gesture.
An old-fashioned gesture.
Pure Michael.
"I really like you, Y/N."
The honesty in his voice stole her breath.
No games. No performance. Just truth.
And she squeezed his hand.
"I really like you too."
Outside, the first rays of morning sunlight spilled across Los Angeles.
Inside, neither of them noticed.
They were too busy falling in love.
~~~~~~~~
Authors note: what do we think? do we want more baby Y/N and Michael? Or do you want more mature Y/N and Michael? I have both 😅
┊ ♡ ﹒ as told through bad to dangerous eras 𖹭
┊ ♡ ﹒ summary : what do you do when the man you built your entire life around disappears without so much as a goodbye for another woman? do you love him enough to stay? or do you respect yourself?
┊ ♡ ﹒ byi : power imbalance (mentor and apprentice), age gap (reader is 20 / michael is 29), slow burn, mutual pining, celebrity romance (reader is a popstar), hurt/no comfort, cheating, marriage, divorce, addiction & substance abuse, rehab, depression, michael is in a lot of pain from his accident (reader helps him wash his hair at some point), anxiety, panic attacks, codependency, emotional neglect, themes of loss, abandonment, media harassment, public scrutiny, character study, ”right person wrong time.” extremely heavy angst, smut, intercourse, creampie, pregnancy. third person pov. use of petnames. no y/n, reader is (name).
┊ ♡ ﹒ disclaimer : this work contains depictions of addiction, substance abuse, deteriorating mental health and discussions the 1993 allegations (fictionalized within an alternate universe narrative). this piece is not an accurate depiction of any real-life individuals. 28k word count.
The studio had long since settled into the comfortable quiet that often accompanied afternoons spent in Michael’s company. It wasn’t ever completely silent because there was always music somewhere at Westlake, but he did like to keep it dark in the room mostly. A distant melody leaking beneath a door, muffled sound of a playback from another room, occasional burst of laughter from a hallway before fading away. Yet neither seemed particularly aware of any of it as hours had a tendency to disappear whenever they occupied the same space, each of them retreated into their respective work while somehow remaining deeply attuned to the other’s presence.
There was just something about the space they shared that neither of them ever learned how to explain. It was unlike the awkward silence that settled between strangers with nothing left to say, or lovers too consumed by one another to speak. This felt beyond either of those things because somewhere beneath language itself, beneath the music, even the friendship, they had stumbled into a frequency only the two of them seemed capable of hearing. They rarely interrupted one another, but every so often one of them would glance across the room to simply bear witness to the other’s existence. It felt spiritual.. it felt strangely.. devotional. As though the simple act of creating in each other’s presence had become its own form of intimacy. They each protected the other’s solitude with the same care another person might protect a confession. There was an unspoken understanding that whatever was happening inside the other’s mind, deserved to arrive in this world undisturbed.
The thing was, truly knowing another person is a remarkably rare experience. Most relationships are built upon performance initially, a person will unconsciously arrange themselves into someone easier to understand, to admire and love. But there are extraordinarily rare occasions people who seem to step past all of that. People who see you and understand you before you have a chance to disguise it. And there are very few things in life more sacred than finding another soul who your own can finally share company with.
Michael and (Name) were just that.
She sat on the floor between two couches in the corner, surrounded by the clutter of an artist’s mind. Open notebooks, loose sheets of paper and pens scattered across the flooring. One notebook housed lyrics and the other contained.. literally everything else from fleeting observations, fragments of conversations and questions she found herself unable to stop thinking about. The thoughts that were too insignificant to piece together in the moment but had too much potential to ignore. Every so often she would pause, chewing thoughtfully on the end of her pen as she stared down at a page, scribbling another line with furrowed brows. Across the room Michael worked through notes of his own, occasionally adjusting something on the mixing console or replaying a section of music.
Neither of them spoke or even seemed inclined to.
This could go on for hours upon hours and it was maybe the most unusual aspect of their friendship:
How easy it was.
Because most people approached Michael Jackson with some level of a mental obstacle he couldn’t look past to see them, even if it wasn’t conscious. Some people became nervous, others became overeager.. but many spent entire conversations attempting to impress him.
But somehow she had skipped every single stage of this discomfort and awkwardness entirely.
Their first meeting months earlier had been brief, a polite little exchange at a charity event attended by dozens of entertainers and industry figures. Neither had anticipated seeing the other again, and yet something about that initial conversation had really stuck. A second meeting followed. Then another. Phone calls became commonplace. Invitations to studio sessions no longer required formal asking. Somewhere along the way, what should have remained a casual acquaintance turned into one of the closest friendships either possessed.
Michael often attributed it to recognition, she felt less like someone new and more like someone he’d forgotten he already knew. He had met plenty of people in his life, but very few made him feel this way in particular and it was intriguing—intoxicating, even.
He couldn’t shake the feeling that he’d seen that kind of ambition before. The way she carried her lyric books almost everywhere she went. The way she dissected her own work with such a relentless scrutiny. The frustration that overtook her whenever an idea failed to match the version she had envisioned in her head. He recognized it because he had spent his entire life battling the same instincts. While others saw a young entertainer on the verge of stardom, Michael saw pieces of himself reflected back at him with this startling clarity. The perfectionism. The sensitivity.
The inability to leave “good enough” alone.
For (Name), the friendship had begun from an entirely different place. Admiration, certainly. How could it not? Michael Jackson had occupied such a permanent space within popular culture that separating the man from the legend often felt impossible. He felt like a deity. But what surprised her most was how quickly the legend disappeared once they were alone. The Michael she encountered in studios, hallways, and late night phone conversations bore little resemblance to the larger than life figure the public imagined. He was thoughtful. Curious. Shy. Nosey. And far funnier than anyone ever gave him credit for. He asked questions and genuinely listened to the answers. He remembered details from conversations months earlier. More importantly, he understood the strange loneliness that came with building a career at a young age in an industry that did more harm than good. Few people in the world could comprehend that reality and fewer still had survived it unscathed.
Which was probably why he felt so protective of her. It wasn’t that he didn’t think she was incapable of protecting herself, but.. he knew exactly how cruel the industry could be. The media, too. At twenty, she was still vulnerable in ways she didn’t even recognize yet, still young enough to believe talent and hard work would shield her from the uglier parts of success. Michael remembered being twenty himself. Bright eyed, eager and convinced that if he gave enough of himself, people would give something back. He wished someone with good intentions had been there to guide him through it all, someone who wanted nothing from him except to see him make it through in one piece.
Granted, their youth had looked nothing alike. Michael had never really been afforded the luxury of a childhood. By the time he was her age, he’d already spent years belonging to the public in one way or another. She meanwhile, had stories. Endless stories. Sleepovers and school dances and family vacations and embarrassing teenage crushes. Entire chapters of ordinary life that Michael found himself fascinated by.
That more than anything, surprised him. He wasn’t a naturally curious man when it came to other people in general. Most conversations with industry stars and such felt like a chore.. But he could sit and listen to her talk for hours, chin propped in his hand, completely engrossed as she recounted some insignificant memory from when she was twelve. To anyone else, the stories would have sounded so pointless and boring. But to Michael, they were so captivating. Hearing someone describe a childhood that had actually belonged to them felt almost miraculous. He never seemed to tire of it, always asking another question, always wanting another detail, as though he could piece together an entire world he had never gotten the chance to know himself.
He’d always be a dreamer, dreaming his life away.
The longer (Name) stared at the notebook in her lap, the more hopeless the page had become. What had started a few hours ago as a verse she was genuinely excited about had since become a shit show of crossed out lyrics, scribbled replacements, and arrows leading to ideas she wasn’t even sure she liked anymore. Entire sections had been rewritten only to end up exactly as they’d been before. Others had been abandoned halfway through, casualties of a train of thought she’d lost somewhere along the way.
The frustrating part was that the song wasn’t bad.
If it had been bad, she could’ve walked away from it. Started over. Scrapped the whole thing without a second thought. But, unfortunately there was potential in it. Every time she read the verse back, she could feel it. The song was close to becoming what she wanted it to be, close enough to keep her chasing it but not close enough to cooperate with what she feels on the inside. Every attempt to improve a line only seemed to draw her attention to another one that suddenly wasn’t working. A word would feel wrong. Then the rhythm. Then an entire section she’d liked five minutes earlier.
Eventually, she stopped making changes altogether and she just sat there rereading the same few lines, hoping that if she stared at them long enough, the answer would appear on its own. It never did.
Without thinking, her fingers drifted toward the rubber band looped around her wrist. The sharp sting against her skin followed a second later. It was a habit she’d picked up years ago and never quite managed to abandon, a small physical interruption to break the endless cycle of thoughts whenever she became trapped inside her own head. Usually she barely noticed herself doing it. Another minute passed. She stared at the page. Read the same line again. Hated it for an entirely new reason.
The rubber band snapped once more, harder this time.
Across the room, Michael’s attention slowly drifted away from the notes spread across the mixing console. They had spent enough afternoons together by now for him to recognize the various stages of her creative frustration. There was the concentration that came with the beginning of an idea. The excited rush that followed whenever she felt something falling into place. Then came this stage. The stage where progress slowed to a crawl and every sentence had her itchy and uncomfortable to be in her own skin. He watched her stare down at the notebook, reading the same section repeatedly and the rubber band snapped against her wrist again. Michael found himself smiling despite himself. Some things about artists appeared to be universal.
“Should we take a break?”
Her head lifted immediately, brows furrowed. “Why?” The response came far too quickly.
The moment the word left her mouth, embarrassment followed close behind. Because what she heard in his question wasn’t an invitation—it was recognition that she was struggling. She was suddenly hyper aware that he saw how she’d spent the better part of an hour trapped on the same verse and hadn’t written anything in quite some time. The realization that he maybe noticed everything bothering her made heat creep into her face almost immediately. Creative frustration was difficult enough in private but being perceived in it felt infinitely worse.
For a brief moment, Michael simply looked at her. Then understanding settled across his features. He knew exactly where her mind had gone. Knew she thought he’d been commenting on the fact that she’d been losing patience with herself for the last forty five minutes.
His expression softened like she was being silly. “For lunch,” He clarified.
The relief came so quickly. “Oh.”
A smile tugged at the corner of Michael’s mouth. “Unless your plan was to be like Louie and eat your notebook..”
A small laugh escaped her before she could stop it and the tension that had wound itself so tightly around her shoulders throughout the afternoon loosened ever so slightly. Somehow he’d managed to offer her a way out without drawing attention to the song or pointed out her frustration. Michael didn’t like offering advice when she didn’t ask for it because he never cared for it himself. Instead, he’d simply given her an excuse to step away from the problem for a little while.
It was one of the things she appreciated most about him, though she rarely said so aloud. Michael understood creative obsession because he lived with it himself. He knew the difference between helping and making someone feel watched. Knew that sometimes.. the kindest thing you could do for another artist was pretend not to notice the battle they were fighting with their own work. As he gathered a few papers from the console and prepared to leave the studio, (Name) found herself looking down at the notebook once more. The lyrics still weren’t right and they probably wouldn’t be right when she returned. And yet they felt less daunting than they had a few moments earlier.
Sometimes all it took was being reminded there was a world beyond the page.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ ㅤㅤApril, 1987.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ American Music Awards - Manhattan, New York City.
“Oh my god, you were amazing!”
“Did you see the crowd out there? That pop was insane!”
“You did the damn thing, kiddo. Congratulations.”
The aftermath of her performance felt louder than the actual performance itself. The air backstage was bustling with movement, people calling her name from different directions and hands reaching out to touch her shoulders, squeeze her arms, telling her she had done it—she had really done it. Someone pressed a bouquet into her hands and more people were already talking about reviews they had overheard in the hallway. There were congratulations layered over congratulations until none of them sounded real anymore, just overlapping noise dressed up as celebration. (Name) stood in the middle of it all with the bouquet held tightly against her chest, nodding at the right moments, smiling when it was expected, saying thank you in a voice that felt detached from her own body.
She’s disassociating.
All she could think about was the note.
The one she had nearly missed.
It’s ridiculous, really. It wasn’t noticeable for anyone to catch or enough to interrupt the direction of the set, but she knew it happened. It wasn’t even her fault, it was due to technical slip making her slightly off beat before the problem fixed itself. She had handled it so well that no one even suspected anything, only a note alteration but that was very common during live performances. But she wanted perfection.
(Name) could feel it still sitting wrong in her throat, the memory of it stood out like a thorn more than anything else from the entire night. It replayed behind everything people were saying to her, the praise going in one ear and out the other. She nodded again on cue adjusting her grip on the flowers and tried to keep her face fixed into something that resembled gratitude instead of frustration.
She only noticed Michael when he appeared at the edge of the crowd by the doorway. Unlike everyone else, he didn’t immediately make his way over. He lingered near the back instead, allowing managers, producers, executives, and well wishers to reach her first. It was a habit she’d observed countless times before. Michael understood better than most how quickly a room could change around his presence. One appearance was often enough to redirect an entire conversation. Two steps into a crowd and suddenly every eye belonged to him whether he wanted them or not. Fame had taught him many things over the years. One of them was when to take up space. Another was when to surrender it.
Tonight wasn’t about him, nor did he want it to be. So he remained where he was but not out of indifference, quite the opposite. It was her night. Her performance. Her achievement. The last thing he wanted was for the attention she had earned to quietly shift elsewhere. Michael had spent enough of his life accidentally becoming the center of things to recognize when someone else deserved the spotlight. He knew what it had taken for her to get here. The years of work hidden beneath a handful of minutes onstage. The rehearsals nobody saw. The disappointments. The self doubt. The relentless pursuit of something just out of reach.
From a distance, he looked almost detached from the celebration, standing just beyond its center with his hands hidden in his pockets and sunglasses on while the crowd continued to orbit around her. Yet his attention never wandered very far. Every so often his gaze found her through the sea of people gathered around her, watching with the satisfaction of someone who had believed in her long before the rest of the room had caught up.
There was pride in his expression, yeah. But it wasn’t quite the same pride everyone else seemed intent on expressing. Theirs was loud and straight to the point, entirely built upon the performance they had witnessed.
Michael’s was quieter and more attentive. And perhaps because he knew her so well by now, there was something else beneath it. He knew.
While everyone else saw success, he found himself watching for her reaction to it. The smile that never quite reached her eyes. Watching the way her grip tightened around the bouquet each time another person congratulated her. Watching her nod at conversations she didn’t seem entirely present for.
And unfortunately, he knew exactly what this was.
When her eyes finally met his shades, something in her shoulders tightened without permission. She could feel his stare.
Of course he would have noticed.
Of course he would know.
(Name) looked away first, because looking at him felt like she was acknowledging something she didn’t want to yet. A producer pulled her into another conversation, someone else asked about upcoming plans and she answered on autopilot, the words coming out in trained fragments while her attention kept slipping back toward the same place in the room where he stood.
Eventually, she found herself drifting toward one of the side hallways, retreating from the crowd. The noise softened the moment she crossed the threshold, the cheers and conversations dissolving into something distant and more manageable. For the first time all evening, nobody was speaking to her. Nobody was congratulating her or asking questions. The sudden absence of attention settled around her and she let out a long overdue exhale, leaning against the wall and adjusting the bouquet in her arms before realizing she’d been gripping the stems so tightly that a part of her palm had begun to bleed from a throne that pricked her. Slowly she loosened her hold, watching a few crushed petals spring back into place as she drew in a deeper breath than any she’d managed all night.
“Tinker.” His voice came from behind her.
She didn’t turn right away. “Hi, Michael..”
He stepped closer, not looking at the flowers but he looked at her face instead. “It went well,” He said. “Please, stop.”
“Stop what?” She replied too quickly. “It went okay.”
The silence that followed made it worse because he had seen right through her bullshit. She adjusted the bouquet again and her fingers had started picking at the ribbon
“I messed up.” She said suddenly, like stating it out loud would keep it from growing.
Michael blinked once slowly, as if processing whether she was joking or not. Then he shook his head, removing his shades. “Do you think anyone in there noticed except you? Honestly?”
“I noticed it, Michael..” She says. “I did.”
“Mm.” That sound Michael liked to do. It wasn’t dismissive but he wasn’t really agreeing either. Just acknowledging that her mind had already made a decision and was now refusing to let it go.
She stared down the hallway instead of at him. “I shouldn’t be fucking up on things.”
“Language..”
“I’m sorry. I’m frustrated.”
“You’re allowed to be human,” He said, and there was something faintly amused in it. “Y’know that right?”
“Says you.” Her mouth tightened anyway. “Michael, I rehearsed for weeks..” Her voice had changed. Slightly smaller but tightly bound in a tone that wasn’t aimed at him, even if it sounded like it might be. “I rushed the transition. I came in late on the second verse and I felt it. I felt it and I still did it anyway.”
Michael watched her for a long moment without interrupting. When he spoke again his tone had shifted, less performer observing another performer. “I used to do that,” he said. “All the time. I would finish a show and all I could think about was the one thing I didn’t do perfectly. Not the rest of it. Not what people were screaming about. Just the thing I knew I could’ve done better.”
She finally looked at him then and he wasn’t smiling now.
“I would go over it in my head so many times I’d forget the rest of the performance happened at all,” He continued. “And nobody ever told me what I’m about to tell you now, so I’ll say it because someone should have said it to me when I was your age.”
He paused, just long enough for her to feel it. “People don’t come to see you be flawless,” He said quietly. “They come because of what it feels like when you’re up there. There’s a difference. You’re the only one who turns it into a test.”
Something in her expression shifted, but she didn’t speak yet. Michael tilted his head slightly, studying her like he was trying to make sure the words actually landed where they needed.
“One little thing doesn’t undo the fact that you just held the entire world in your hands,” He added. “But I can already tell you’re not going to believe that tonight.”
A faint, reluctant exhale left her.
The bouquet drooped slightly in her hands as her grip loosened again. The silence returned, but it felt different now, less like pressure and more like space she didn’t know what to do with yet.
Michael didn't push further. He just stayed beside her, letting the noise of the celebration belong to another version of the night, one neither of them was currently living.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ May, 1987.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ The (Surname) Residence - Los Angeles, California.
The phone call had long since outlived whatever purpose it may have originally possessed. Not.. that either of them could remember what that purpose had been to begin with. Hours earlier, one of them had called the other for a reason that had likely seemed important at the time. A question about a song. A conversation about an upcoming appearance. Some minor detail neither could recall now. Somewhere along the way, the original subject had disappeared entirely, replaced by the sort of aimless discussion that only seemed possible after midnight, when the rest of the world had gone quiet (Name) sat on her bed painting her toe nails, a mess of different colors of polished, acetone and cotton balls spread out on her silky comforter. Outside her bedroom window, the city stretched into darkness with a pretty skyline and the hallway beyond her bedroom remained still.
Across Los Angeles, Michael was awake too. That part hardly surprised her anymore. Artists seemed to exist on entirely different schedules than everyone else.
The conversation drifted lazily between subjects. Music. His upcoming tour. Childhood. Movies. Family. Stories neither had planned on telling when the call began. There was no urgency to any of it, or destination they appeared determined to reach, just the comfort of two people who genuinely enjoyed speaking to one another. The thing was, neither had expected this. Not the friendship and certainly not the ease of it. When they had first met nearly a year ago, both had assumed the interaction would be brief. Another industry introduction. Another polite conversation destined to disappear among countless others. Instead, somehow, they kept finding reasons to talk. Then reasons to call. Then reasons to stay on the phone long after they should have said goodnight.
Michael understood loneliness in ways most people didn’t. And it wasn’t because he lacked company—quite the opposite. His entire life existed beneath constant observation. Crowds. Interviews. Audiences. Fans. Managers. Family. There were always people nearby. Yet very few of them knew him. Really knew him. And the older he became, the more difficult that distinction seemed to grow.
“I think people have a strange idea about what this is like.” His voice arrived unexpectedly through the receiver.
(Name) glanced up from her polish. “What?”
A brief pause followed. “Everything.” The answer sounded almost sheepish, as though he was aware of how vague it was. “This stuff.”
She smiled despite herself. “Very specific.”
Michael laughed softly. “You know what I mean, Dumbo.”
She did. At least enough to answer. “The music thing?”
“The fame thing.”
Something in his voice had changed slightly. The difference was subtle, but she had spent enough time around him to notice it. Most people spoke about fame as though it were a reward, a finish line, something achieved. Michael always sounded as though he were describing weather. Something that simply existed. Something unavoidable.
“I think people imagine it’s.. exciting all the time,” He said. “They think you’re constantly doing something. They think you’re happy because you’re successful.”
(Name) looked down at her toes. For some reason, she found herself listening more carefully. “Are you not happy?”
The question slipped out before she could stop it and silence followed. A thoughtful silence.
Then Michael laughed quietly. “I didn’t say that.”
“No, but you didn’t answer either.” That earned another laugh, slightly louder this time. For a moment she wondered whether he’d change the subject. Instead, his voice returned softer than before.
“I think sometimes people get confused.”
“About what?”
“Being loved.”
The words settled heavily between them—they sounded like something he’d spent a very long time thinking about.
“They think being loved by millions of people means you never feel alone. But most of those people don’t know you.” A brief pause followed. “They know who they think you are.”
Something tightened unexpectedly in her chest because she understood exactly what he meant. Not entirely on his scale, but enough. Enough to know what it felt like when strangers decided things about you. Enough to know what it felt like to become a version of yourself people preferred over the real thing.
The line remained silent for several moments. Neither seemed in any hurry to fill it.
Eventually Michael spoke again. “You know what I mean?”
His voice carried something unusual now, hope. The kind people rarely admitted to.
“Yeah,” She answered quietly. “I do.”
When Michael spoke again, his voice had softened even further. “That’s why I like talking to you, girl.”
The confession arrived casually, absentmindedly and (Name) forgot how to respond. Her eyes shot immediately toward the window looking at the city, toward anything except the warmth suddenly spreading through her chest.
“Why?” She asked quietly.
A brief pause followed long enough for her to wonder whether he'd answer at all. “Because you talk to me like I’m Michael.”
His voice carried the faintest trace of amusement. The faintest trace of gratitude. “Just Michael.”
Neither of them realized it then or understood that something had shifted. A shift into something infinitely more dangerous than romance.
Trust.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ ㅤㅤAugust, 1987.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Motown Records Summer Party - Los Angeles.
The thing that unsettled (Name) most was not that Michael was speaking to Diana Ross. It was that she seemed incapable of treating the sight with the level of indifference it deserved. Rationally, there was nothing remarkable about it. If anything, the opposite was true. So why.. why is she feeling like this? Michael and Diana occupied such a permanent fixture in one another’s lives that seeing them together should have registered as background noise. Expected. The sort of thing a person acknowledged before moving on, like fork found in kitchen. Yet for reasons she could not seem to control, her attention continued returning to them. Like.. often enough for her to notice and often enough for the realization to become uncomfortable.
The problem was that the feeling refused to cooperate with any explanation she attempted to give it. Jealousy implied desire, and desire implied a level of honesty with herself she had no intention of entertaining. Besides, jealousy suggested competition. A rival. An obstacle. Something to overcome. Diana Ross was none of those things. Diana belonged to an entirely different category of person. She represented history. Foundation. Permanence. The part of Michael’s life that existed before (Name) and would almost certainly continue existing long after her.
There was something deeply humbling about the realization. Entire chapters of him remained inaccessible to her. Entire versions of him and his life she would never know. The young boy Diana had met. The young man she had enough influence on to shape at least some way in his thinking whether it be his music preferences or.. his type in women. The memories they shared had nothing to do with her at all. It shouldn’t have mattered. Yet standing there, watching them laugh together across the room, she found herself confronted by an uncomfortable awareness of just how thoroughly Michael existed outside of her.
Perhaps that was the true source of her discomfort. Not the conversation itself, but what it revealed. Somewhere over the past year, Michael had ceased being a person she knew and quietly become a point of orientation. The distinction was subtle enough that she had failed to notice it occurring. Yet now, under the harsh spotlight of self awareness, evidence of it seemed to surface everywhere. He had become the person she saved stories for. The person whose opinion she sought before fully trusting her own. The person she instinctively imagined beside her during moments of success, disappointment, boredom, excitement. And not because she was in love with him. At least.. she didn’t think that was the reason. The truth felt simultaneously smaller and more alarming. Michael had simply become woven into the architecture of her daily life. So gradually, so naturally, that she had mistaken his presence for part of herself.
And that was what made the feeling ugly. If this was romance, it would have been easy. Romance was flattering. Romance transformed emotional dependency into something poetic! and socially acceptable!
This felt.. less noble than that. More selfish. More childlike.
It was deeply embarrassing about realizing how accustomed she had become to occupying a certain place in another person’s world. More embarrassing still was discovering the small sense of entitlement that accompanied it. Not entitlement to Michael himself, she wasn’t foolish enough to believe she possessed any claim over him. Rather, entitlement to access. To attention. To significance. The assumption that she would always occupy the same space she occupied yesterday. The assumption that their friendship existed as a fixed point rather than a living thing capable of shifting beyond her control.
The realization left her feeling strangely exposed. As though she had stumbled upon a private truth about herself she had never intended to examine. Because if Michael had become this important to her without her noticing, what else had changed without her permission? How many decisions had begun orbiting him? How many thoughts ended with his name? How much of her emotional equilibrium depended upon a friendship she had spent months insisting was perfectly normal? The questions arrived one after another, unwelcome and impossible to dismiss. By the time she finally set her drink aside and decided to leave, it had very little to do with Diana Ross. Diana merely happened to be standing in the place where the realization occurred.
The truth was that (Name) no longer wanted to remain in the room because she had become increasingly uncomfortable with the person she was discovering herself to be within it.
She offered a few quick goodbyes to people near the exit, accepted a handful of distracted farewells in return, and disappeared into the Los Angeles night feeling vaguely irritated with herself.
The feeling followed her home.
That was perhaps the most frustrating part.
Because by the time she arrived home, kicked off her shoes, and changed into something more comfortable, she had fully expected the discomfort to dissolve beneath the practical demands of ordinary life. Instead it lingered stubbornly at the edges of her thoughts, refusing to loosen its grip no matter how thoroughly she attempted to dismiss it. She washed her face. Brushed her teeth. Wandered into the kitchen for a glass of water she didn’t particularly want. The entire time, some small part of her remained trapped inside that ballroom, replaying a feeling she had already decided was ridiculous.
The thing was, embarrassment has a way of prolonging emotions long after they’re deserved.
Had she been genuinely angry, she could have justified it.
Had she been hurt, she could have examined it.
Instead she found herself confronted by something far more difficult to defend: self awareness.
Because the longer she sat with the evening, the less interested she became in Diana Ross and the more interested she became in herself. Specifically, in the version of herself that had stood across a crowded room behaving in ways she would have found deeply embarrassing had she witnessed them in someone else. The version of herself who had lingered. Waited. Watched. The version who had discovered, quite accidentally, that Michael’s attention mattered more to her than she had previously understood.
By the time she settled onto the edge of her bed, she had almost convinced herself she was overreacting. That the entire thing had been inflated beyond reason. That she’d imagined it.
Almost.
Then the phone rang, and (Name) stared at it for half a second before reaching for the receiver.
“Hello?”
“Hi, ladybug.”
Michael.
Immediately she smiled and the reaction was such an automatic response she nearly laughed at herself. Of course.
“Hi, apple.”
The conversation began the way it always did. Easily. Comfortably. They spoke about the event. About people they’d seen. Gossip. About nothing in particular. The familiarity of it settled around her almost immediately, smoothing over the sharpest pricklies of whatever had been bothering her. This was the version of their relationship she understood. This part was simple, it was safe. There was a reason she found herself reaching for the phone whenever something happened. A reason conversations with Michael never seemed to require effort in the way conversations with other people sometimes did. Being around him had become easy.
Then, after a brief pause, Michael spoke again. “You know..” Something in his tone caused her grip on the receiver to tighten slightly.
“Hm?”
“It’s not like you to leave without saying goodbye.”
The smile disappeared instantly and her pulse jumped. The thing was, she hadn’t considered the possibility that he would notice. The room had been crowded. The event had been busy. People had been coming and going all evening. In her mind, her departure had occupied the same category as every other insignificant thing she’d been trying to forget since arriving home.
Apparently not.
Apparently Michael had noticed.
“At least not saying goodbye to me,” He added gently. “..Is everything okay?”
Heat rushed into her face with alarming speed. Suddenly she became acutely aware of herself sitting alone in her bedroom, staring at the floor as though he might somehow see the expression she was making through the telephone line.
“Oh.” Brilliant. An excellent response. “I—”
She looked down at the blanket gathered around her legs, the embarrassment arrived all at once.
There was something uniquely humiliating about being known by someone observant enough to notice deviations in your behavior before you noticed them yourself. Most people would not have thought twice about an early exit. Most people would have assumed she was tired, distracted, busy. Michael, had noticed she hadn’t said goodbye.
Specifically to him.
“I’m sorry,” She said quickly. “I just.. wasn’t feeling well..”
The lie sounded flimsy even to her own ears but it wasn’t entirely false. She had felt unwell.. just not physically.
Silence settled briefly between them, the sort of silence that suggested Michael was considering the answer rather than accepting it.
Then: “Really?” One word.
Nothing else, yet somehow it managed to unravel every ounce of confidence she’d possessed in the explanation.
Because she couldn’t tell whether the question made her feel relieved or mortified. For the first time all evening, she found herself confronted by a realization every bit as unsettling as the one she’d fled from earlier.
Michael had become important enough to her that his attention could alter the course of an entire evening. And she had become familiar enough to him that he could hear dishonesty in a single sentence.
Neither realization felt particularly great.
ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤSeptember, 1987.
ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤD-1 Bad Tour - The (Surname) Residence, Los Angeles, California.
Michael wasn’t supposed to come. He wasn’t supposed to be there. She didn’t want to look at him or even say goodbye because she knew she’d cry! She had spent the entire day surviving on the fragile, pathetic agreement she made with herself that if she didn’t see it, it didn’t happen.
It would make it easier to cope, she thought.
But by the time she realized what was happening, the door was already open. It wasn’t knock she could prepare for.
It was him, standing there.
He was smiling. Shyly, the way he often did. It rested somewhere between hopeful and apologetic as his sunglasses hid his eyes, those oversized dark lenses he’d developed a habit of retreating behind, but somehow they only made him more unmistakably Michael. His curls fell carelessly across his forehead, disturbed by the breeze outside, and for one absurd, fleeting moment she found herself resenting how beautiful he looked standing there. It was unfair. Unfair that he could come here carrying something as painful as a goodbye and still somehow look so impossibly gentle, so effortlessly beautiful.
He had spent the drive rehearsing this visit in his head, wondering whether he should have listened to her when she’d insisted she didn’t want to say goodbye at all. In the end, he hadn’t been able to. The thought of boarding a plane the next morning without seeing her one last time had settled somewhere beneath his ribs and refused to leave. So he had come anyway, with only the softest version of himself to her doorstep, hoping that if he spoke sweet enough, smiled gently enough would grant him some level of mercy.
“I know you didn’t want to say goodbye,” He said, voice calm which only made it worse, “But I just couldn’t bring myself to not see you before I go.”
That was all it took.
Something in her face gave way the instant she heard his voice. It was imperceptible at first, the slightest tremor beneath the fake composure she spent the entire day constructing, but once the first crack appeared there was no gathering it back together. Her expression folded inward on itself with startling speed, her mouth pulling tight as if she could physically keep the emotion from escaping if she held it there long enough. She couldn’t. Her breathing hitched once, then again, each inhale shallower than the last until even that simple act seemed to betray her. She had been waiting for permission to stop pretending she was fine. He had unknowingly given it to her the moment he knocked on the door.
The sound that left her wasn’t graceful or even recognizable as a word. Just a small, fractured noise that seemed to tear itself free from somewhere deep inside her chest before she had the chance to swallow it back down. It embarrassed her almost immediately, but embarrassment had already become irrelevant. There are certain kinds of grief that strip dignity away before you have the opportunity to protect it.
“..Michael..!” His name left her in a trembling exhale. She hadn’t intended to say it like that. She hadn't intended to sound as though she’d been carrying those seven letters inside her all day, letting them grow heavier with every passing hour until speaking them became less of a choice than a release.
Then she moved.
The distance between them suddenly felt intolerable, something instinct refused to negotiate with any longer. She crossed it in two uneven steps, stumbling in her haste, and collided with him before either of them had time to think about what was happening. Her hands found the fabric of his plaid first, gripping it with desperate certainty, fingers twisting into the material as though she needed proof that he was solid, that he hadn’t already become another goodbye she was remembering instead of living.
The moment she felt his arms come around her, whatever fragile structure had been holding her together dissolved completely.
She collapsed into him.
Every ounce of resistance she’d spent days maintaining abandoned her all at once, her forehead finding the space beneath his chin, her weight settling against him with complete involuntary trust. Her shoulders shook violently against his chest, each breath catching so hard it bordered on painful, her fingers tightening almost helplessly against his back every time she tried and failed to steady herself.
It wasn’t only crying. It was relief—relief that she didn’t have to pretend for one more second. Relief that he had come despite her asking him not to. Relief that, for one impossibly brief moment before tomorrow morning arrived and an ocean separated them, she was exactly where she wanted to be all day.
With him.
Michael spoke softer, close to her hair, he said, “Hey now.. you’re gonna make me cry, silly girl.”
He had seen her cry before.
Artists cried. After bad performances. Long rehearsals. Brutal criticism. Creative exhaustion. She had cried in frustration over lyrics that refused to come, over mistakes she believed were unforgivable, over expectations she placed upon herself that no one else ever would. He knew those tears. He knew how to sit beside them, how to remind her that tomorrow would arrive and the music would still be there waiting. This wasn’t that.
This frightened him because whatever this was wasn’t coming from disappointment or failure or exhaustion.
It was coming from him, not something he had done to her—but something he represented as her mentor.
As she shook against him, the realization unfolded slowly. Somewhere over the last year, without either of them ever acknowledging it, he had become the place she returned to. The first person to hear a new melody. The one she called before bed because conversations with him never seemed to have endings. The familiar face waiting in the studio. Her mentor. He had mistaken it for routine. For a simple friendship. Because it had become routine for him too, don’t get him wrong.
But routines are dangerous things.
You don’t notice how necessary they’ve become until someone asks you to live without them.
His hand moved slowly across her back, trying to soothe something that suddenly felt much larger than either of them. She wasn’t simply crying because he was leaving. She was grieving the sudden absence of the person she’d learned to organize parts of herself around. The thought hollowed him. She never asked for that. He had never asked for it either. It had happened the way the most consequential things often do. Gradually.. one ordinary afternoon at a time.
And now he was leaving.
An ocean.
Sixteen months.
Different time zones. Concerts. Hotel rooms. Crowds so large they’d swallow him whole every night.
Michael had always imagined the tour would be difficult because he would miss home. He hadn’t considered that somewhere along the way he had become part of someone else’s.
A strange guilt settled over him.. because he couldn’t remember the moment he’d stopped making sure she would be all right without him. He had spent so long trying to protect her from the industry, from disappointment, from people who wanted too much of her, that he had never stopped to wonder whether she had begun depending on him in ways neither of them understood.
And if she had..
Then leaving no longer felt like boarding a plane.
It felt like walking away from something fragile he’d been trusted to keep safe.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ May, 1988.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ The Bad Tour - The World.
By the time Michael got to London, the tour didn’t really feel like traveling anymore. It just felt like doing the same thing in different buildings.
Wembley Stadium was huge, overwhelming in a way that never really stopped being overwhelming, even after soundcheck. Even after everything was set up perfectly. The lights, the sound, all of it technically correct. He moved through it on autopilot now. The same routine every day and every night. The same dressing rooms that blurred together no matter what country they were in. The same faces orbiting him with clipboards, headsets, schedules, questions. He was never physically alone, that had become impossible years ago. There was always someone opening a door for him before he reached it, someone asking what he needed before he’d decided whether he needed anything at all. And somehow that constant proximity had only made solitude he felt internally feel stranger. Conversation had become increasingly transactional, every interaction serving the machinery of the tour.
People spoke to Michael Jackson constantly. Very few spoke to Michael.
There was a show that night. Then more shows after that. Then another one after a short break that didn’t even feel like rest, just a pause before the next thing started again.
Everything started to blur together a bit.
Hotel. Stadium. Hotel. Repeat.
By the time he got back to the hotel, he could feel the tiredness sitting somewhere behind his eyes. Worn down. The kind that came after weeks of answering questions, making decisions, shaking hands, smiling for photographs, stepping onto stages where thousands of people wanted something from him all at once. He loved performing. He always would. But..
At some point in all of it, he reached for the telephone without really deciding to. The gesture felt so, so familiar, muscle memory from a life a year ago that had become increasingly difficult to return to. The receiver rested in his hand while he sat there for a moment, waiting for his thoughts to catch up with what his body had already done.
Then he stopped.
Because he realized there wasn’t really a correct time anymore. Either it was too late there or too early there, or she was probably doing something, or he was probably about to do something, or it just didn’t line up in any way that felt simple.
So he just didn’t call.
He put the phone back down and just kind of looked at it for a second like it was going to give him a better answer if he stared long enough. But it didn’t.
So Michael moved on with his days.
Because everything always kept moving anyway.
The thing about absence is that it rarely announces itself all at once. It reveals itself through instinct. Through the split second after something happens, before reason has time to intervene. He’d hear a melody and think, She’d like that. Someone would say something ridiculous and for one unconscious moment, he’d already be turning to tell her before remembering she was an ocean and a continent away. The feeling wasn’t that she had left his every day, she was still very much built into it. Every instinct still assumed she was only a phone call away.
Reality was simply taking longer and longer to catch up.
He went to more shows.
Hundreds of thousands people. Noise everywhere. Lights. Movement. Everything loud enough to fill his whole body. And somewhere in the middle of it he thought, kind of randomly, that he heard her laugh in his head. It felt like she was right there saying something to him during a conversation that didn’t actually happen.
It was so quick he almost missed it.
And then it was gone.
The weeks became months so gradually that neither of them could have pointed to the moment things changed. There wasn’t one. No falling out or misunderstanding. No conscious decision to stop calling. Life simply grew larger around them. The tour kept moving. London. Paris. Rome. Cologne. Every city arrived with another airport, another hotel room, another stadium large enough to swallow him whole before sending him somewhere else to do it all again. Days stopped existing as individual memories and became pieces of a routine so rehearsed he barely needed to think anymore.
Wake up. Rehearse. Interviews. Soundcheck. Perform. Sleep. Repeat. Sometimes he’d wake in the middle of the night and have to pull back the curtains just to remember what country he was in.
Meanwhile, thousands of miles away, her own life refused to slow down either. The album she’d spent months pouring herself into was finally becoming real. Recording sessions gave way to rehearsals. Rehearsals, wardrobe fittings, choreography meetings, photo shoots, interviews. Suddenly there were people everywhere, each responsible for a different need of her. Stylists discussing image. Executives discussing singles. Publicists deciding how the world would meet her before she’d fully figured it out herself.
Success had a strange way of convincing everyone they knew what came next. (Name) was simply trying to keep up.
The distance stopped feeling temporary when it became increasingly difficult to find a spot of the day that belonged only to them. He still thought about calling. She still thought about calling. But the thoughts always seemed to arrive at inconvenient hours. He’d reach for the telephone only to remember she was probably asleep. She’d hear something that reminded her of him, glance at the clock, and realize he was probably somewhere beneath stadium lights on the other side of the world. “Tomorrow” quietly became next week. Next week became another country. Months passed before either of them realized how long it had actually been.
And somehow, despite all of it, neither of them doubted the other was still there. That was almost the cruelest part. The closeness itself hadn’t disappeared in their hearts, it had only lost its place in the day. Every instinct remained like when she still found herself collecting little stories to tell him before remembering there was no guarantee she’d reach him that week and when he would pick up little trinkets that reminded him of her.
The pluse was still beating with no place to put it.
Then one afternoon in a random European city, she found him—not in person or through a phone call, if course.
But through a television.
Someone had left it playing in the dressing room while the crew reset equipment between rehearsals. Conversations drifted lazily through the room, a production assistant crossed in front of the screen carrying schedules while a few dancers watched the screen with excited smiles.
Michael wasn’t paying attention until he heard her name leave one of their mouths and his attention lifted almost involuntarily. The screen changed and there she was—he recognized her immediately, his heart skipping a beat as he crossed his arms over his chest.
It was her. Right there on the screen. And she looked so.. different since the last time he saw her. Granted, she was sobbing but in his memory she looked more girlish—childish and juvinile in a way. Always a pretty girl but.
Her eyes were the first thing that got him.
He’d always believed eyes were the only part of a person incapable of lying. Smiles could be mimicked and voices could soften. Hands learned where to rest. But eyes always surrendered something, whether their owner meant them to or not. They were the closest thing people had to a window into the soul, it’s why he enjoyed wearing sunglasses so much.
Hers had always been impossibly easy to read. Open in a way that almost nobody was anymore. Honest. Curious. Entirely without calculation. It had been one of the first things he’s noticed about her, and one of the reasons he’d trusted her long before he’d understood why.
But this..
This was different.
Goodness.. she was pretty—beautiful even.
Her eyes seemed to draw him in, leaving him strangely defenseless. He couldn’t have looked away if he’d wanted to. They were hypnotic now, a kind of beauty that didn’t demand attention so much as command it. Like standing too close to the ocean, knowing full well the tide was pulling at your ankles and realizing too late, that you weren’t interested in resisting.
Michael found himself staring longer than he meant to, then unexpectedly, something sharp twisted beneath the admiration.
Because he knew other people would see them too. Her eyes.
They’d look into those same eyes and find exactly what he had always found there: sincerity so complete it bordered on vulnerable, a warmth that invited trust before a single word was spoken. The thought settled uncomfortably in his chest. He had spent nearly two years selfishly treasuring that openness, foolishly imagining it belonged to the private spaces they shared. Seeing it framed beneath studio lights made him realize it had never belonged to him.
Anyone willing to look closely would have access to the same unguarded soul he’d been lucky enough to know. The realization left him with the peculiar ache of jealousy, irrational as it was. The rest of the world was finally being allowed to see what he’d been quietly protecting in his heart all along.
Then her smile came in and that was worse.
When she smiled, her face softened. Her mouth curved easily, warm and unguarded. It caught him instantly, sitting heavy in his throat. A stupid and immediate response. He didn’t even realize he was smiling until it was already happening.
And the way she moved—
It was just.
The way she shifted her weight, the way her hips carried the rhythm. The camera lingers on a small strip of bare skin peeking above her low slung jeans. The lighting is soft with golden halos from stage lights that catch on her skin just right, a thin silver chain glints around her hipbone as she moves
Close up shots follow every sway and tilt—the way fabric stretches tight over curves when she pivots sharply, then how a breathy laugh parts her lips mid dance before she rolls back into rhythm. Every frame shows movement: one second showing only fingertips brushing that exposed waistline as choreography demands; next frame zooming out to capture full body.
Michael couldn’t stop watching, and beneath the admiration sat something quieter. The realization that this hadn’t happened overnight. This version of her had been forming little by little through weeks, through choices and experiences and conversations he hadn’t been there to witness. Somewhere between hotel rooms and sold out stadiums, she’d continued growing without him.
Someone behind him smiled toward the television.
“She’s got a hit on her hands.”
Another voice agreed.
The room moved on but Michael didn’t. He watched until the video ended, until another artist replaced her on the screen. Only then did he quietly leave the area, thinking about her.
Hours later back in his hotel, he reached for the telephone before he’d fully realized he’d made the decision. His fingers rested around the receiver for a moment. Then he dialed her number. Once. Twice. Three times. The line rang.
“Hello?”
He closed his eyes. It was strange how familiar her voice still sounded after all this time. “..Hi, Tink.”
There was beat of silence, then he heard her smile before she spoke. “Michael?”
“Yes, it’s Michael..” He smiled himself a bit.
She laughed softly, almost disbelieving. “I was starting to think you’d forgotten my number.” She teased.
“I could never, my girl.” Another small silence settled between them, awkward only because it had been so long since they’d heard each other’s voices that they seemed to be readjusting to the reality of them.
It was surprisingly easy.
Within minutes, the months between them began collapsing under the weight of ordinary conversation. They spoke about nothing at first. The tour. Her recording schedule. London weather. Los Angeles heat. It felt strangely miraculous how quickly they found the old rhythm again, as though it had simply been waiting patiently for both of them to return.
Then Michael said, almost casually, “I saw your new video today.”
The other end of the line went unexpectedly quiet. “..You did?”
“Mhm.”
“What’d you think..?”
He smiled to himself. “I loved it a lot.”
When she spoke again, her voice had changed ever so slightly. Smaller and shyer. “I’m glad..”
“I mean it.” He could almost picture her looking down at the floor, suddenly unsure what to do with the compliment.
“You seem different,” He said carefully.
She laughed once through her nose. “Different?”
“Yeah,” He searched for the right word. “Confident, happier..”
She didn’t answer immediately, thinking about how to respond. It’s been hard without his guidance. “I’m trying to be.”
Something about that stayed with him. He leaned back against the headboard, looking absently out toward the London skyline beyond the window. Then, gently he spoke.
“Are they taking good care of you out there?”
The question hung between them. It wasn’t about the video. She knew that. “I think so,” She answered after a moment. “Everybody’s been nice.”
Michael nodded even though she couldn’t see him. “Good.”
He realized that the faint ache he couldn’t quite place wasn’t the video that had made him call after all. It was wanting to hear, beneath all the music and interviews and heavily managed appearances, that she was still there.
Just as herself, as his Tinkerbell.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ January 27, 1989.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Final Night, The Bad Tour - Los Angeles, California.
(Name)’s body gets ahead of her thoughts and at this point, refuses to wait for permission as she moves through people. She manages to cast a few polite but rushed smiles when she hears someone recognize her.
“Is that (Name)..?”
“Oh my god, I love her..”
Backstage is alive with the chao that usually comes after shows. People moving too fast, voices stacking over each other, the smell of sweat and heat and stage lights still clinging to everything. The energy manages to give her a second hand high as she’s walking through it. She doesn’t even fully register where she’s going, just that she’s checking faces as she passes them because she already knows the one she actually wants to see. But it feels like she’s already passed a thousand people, and she hasn’t found him yet. He couldn’t have left yet, she knows that much.
But then she sees him. And everything stops, she feels like she might just collapse because she feels weak in the knees.
He’s not even doing anything special, he’s just standing there in the middle of it all, still half caught in the post performance state where everything feels like an in between, where it feels like you’re coming down from a high. But it’s a high that only entertainers could get off on. His hair is damp with sweat, curls falling forward in soft and uneven pieces that stick slightly to his forehead and temples. A few strands are clinging near his cheekbone, darker from moisture and framing his face in a way that makes him look more masculine in nature. He takes a little sip of his orange juice, and she nearly giggles at him.
His skin still has that warm sheen from the lights, luminous under backstage fluorescents. There’s a faint flush at his cheeks, exhaustion sure, but there’s something alive in it like his body is still running a little faster than normal. His lips are slightly parted as he breathes, still regulating himself, still coming down from the energy of being in front of thousands of people. He looks.. he looks good.
Michael looks up, and sees her.
It hits him in a very visible shift, that small pause where recognition lands before anything else can follow. His expression changes subtly but immediately as soon as he drinks her in, and the entire room narrows down to just her and suddenly nothing else really matters anymore.
She doesn’t think before she’s moving to him. It’s fast and uncontained, the instinct inside her has been building pressure for too long and finally stops caring about control. The space between them disappears in seconds as she runs straight into him.
It isn’t graceful, it’s full on impact. Her body forgets how to be gentle about it. Her hands land on him first, gripping whatever she can reach, his jacket, his shirt, it doesn’t even matter. She needs something. Her mind hasn’t actually caught up to the fact that he’s here, in front of her. She can’t be sure if this isn’t some cruel dream she’s going to wake up from.
Michael catches her instantly with no hesitation at all.
His arms are around her in the same breath she hits him, pulling her in because that’s the most natural response in the world right now, there was never going to be any other outcome once she got close enough. One hand settles at the back of her neck, fingers spreading there and steadying her that same way he used to. Before work and fame so selfishly separated them sixteen months ago.
Up close, he still smells like the stage. Sweat, heat, fabric and his perfume warmed from movement. His shirt is slightly damp where she’s pressed into it, curls brushing lightly against her temple when she leans in. It’s still soft despite being flattened in places by sweat and movement.
She can feel him breathing, slightly uneven. His heart his pounding against his chest and she isn’t sure if it’s because he’s just gotten done working or if it’s because of her.
(Name) presses closer without thinking, her body trying to confirm he won’t disappear if she holds on hard enough and his hand at her neck tightens just slightly, anchoring her there without question.
And she doesn’t let go, not even a little.
“I missed you so much..”
“I missed you too..”
The cameras are waiting before the doors even open, a loose cluster gathered near the waiting vans, flashes already firing the second movement appears backstage. Security steps out first, then members of the crew, then managers talking over one another as they funnel everyone toward the vehicles.
The lens keeps searching.
Then it finds them.
They’re walking side by side through the middle of the entourage with their pinkies linked. He stays half a step behind, letting her weave through the narrow path security has made. Their fingers never separate. Every few feet someone calls his name, another voice shouts hers, cameras clicking relentlessly from behind the barricades.
When they reach the waiting van, Michael opens the sliding door himself and instinctively steps aside.
“You first.”
She ducks inside with a small smile, still holding his hand until the last possible second before climbing into the back seat. Only then does he let go, following her inside. The cameras don’t stop, the tinted windows are dark enough to hide most of the interior but the open doorway has already given them more than enough.
Michael drops back into the seat with the exhaustion of someone who’s just finished the final show of a world tour. His hair has mostly escaped the ponytail he’d started the night with, damp curls clinging to the back of his neck and temples. A faint line of eyeliner has smudged beneath both eyes, evidence of two hours beneath stage lights that had long since melted away any attempt at perfection.
He exhales through a tired little smile and reaches up automatically, trying to gather his hair back with one hand while fumbling for the elastic still hanging loosely around his wrist.
It catches almost immediately.
He makes a soft face of mild annoyance, trying again. The elastic twists into a knot somewhere in the curls near the nape of his neck.
She watches him for all of three seconds before smiling to herself. “Come here.”
Without a word, he turns slightly in his seat until his back is angled toward her, surrendering the problem without protest. Her fingers disappear gently into his hair.
“Hold still.” A quiet laugh slips out of her as she carefully works the tangled elastic free, taking her time so she doesn’t pull. Every now and then he winces ever so slightly when a curl catches, and she immediately softens her touch.
“Sorry.”
“It’s okay.”
The camera keeps rolling through the open door, the others around unable to hear more than muffled fragments through the glass. By the time she slips the elastic free, a few loose curls have fallen into his face again.
“There.”
He reaches up, gathering his hair into another ponytail while she smooths one stubborn curl behind his ear absentmindedly .
He looks toward the open door toward the camera, his tired eyes meet the lens. A warm smile spreads across his face despite the exhaustion still written across it.
He lifts his fingers in the smallest wave. “Hiii.” It’s quiet and sweet, a greeting that feels less like an acknowledgment of fame and more like someone politely noticing another person in the room.
Beside him, she catches the expression before turning toward the windshield herself. So cute!
She can’t help smiling. After months on the road, after the final show and the noise and the exhaustion, he still somehow had enough gentleness left to greet strangers with the same sweetness he greeted everyone else.
A second later the door closes and driver eases the van into motion and the entourage follows behind.
The footage ends there.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ March, 1989.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ The Children’s Arts Benefit - Manhatten, New York City.
It’s a charity event. Cameras everywhere, flashes going off in little bursts that aren’t really capturing anything interesting, just people standing in groups chatting about anything from business to personal life.
(Name) sees him across the room and her heels click against the marble as she moves to him, steady in rhythm and cutting through the softer noise of the room. One hand gathers her dress slightly, keeping it lifted just enough to move properly through the crowd without it catching as she walks. She’s not really listening to anything people say to her as she passes, only offering small nods and polite smiles when needed.
And Michael sees her before she gets there.
He’s mid conversation, still doing the polite thing and engaging enough so that anyone watching would think he’s fully engaged. But admittedly, his attention shifts the second he spots her coming through the room. And he does something simple.
He reaches out. Not fully stopping what he’s doing nor turning his whole body away from the conversation, he simply extends a hand slightly in her direction because he’s already expected she’ll end up there. This is just how it goes. ESP or something?
(Name) takes it immediately when she reaches him, her hand slipping into his. She’s done it too many times for it to ever feel like a question at this point. His fingers close around hers and squeeze for a quick second in a silent acknowledgement before his hand naturally moves to the small of her back, still half listening to the person he was speaking to like nothing.
That’s the part that would look normal if you weren’t paying attention. But there’s a camera nearby, drifting through the room and catching moments without any real intent. It lands on them right as it happens.
At first, it just looks like a greeting. Two close friends acknowledging each other in a crowded event, nothing unusual.
But the footage holds them longer than that.
It catches her as she leans in to say something to him over the noise. Without thinking her free hand goes up, brushing lightly against his arm and to his collar as she talks, just a small little touch. But she doesn’t fully settle until she’s physically anchored for a moment, her hand resting on the nape of his neck.
He tilts his head down to hear her better, still half in the conversation he was already in, but not really leaving her side either. His hand at her back doesn’t move, and then his expression changes slightly. A small smile caught on camera because of something that sat exactly right in his ear. A joke maybe?
She sees it and laughs a little, quick and soft, still standing close instead of stepping away like most people would after interrupting a conversation. They had the tendency to get caught up in their own world when they were together.
The camera keeps rolling, lingering on them.
The hand still there at her back is rubbing now, and they don’t fully separate even while he turns his attention back to the conversation beside him. (Name) finally walks away
And from the outside, it looks a bit intimate.
All hugged up on each other like that looks too comfortable to be accidental and too natural to question.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ ㅤㅤOctober, 1989.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Media Speculating.
By this point in his career, Michael has stopped functioning in the public eye as a person who is simply “famous.” Fame is too small a word for what he has become. He exists instead as a cultural constant—something closer to an event than an individual. Even people who have never seen him in person still recognize his presence through media alone. He's become a shared reference point across the globe.
Her fame doesn’t build in the same explosive, global rupture that defines his. It arrived gradually at first, through structure—an album cycle, organized, styled, and deliberately positioned to place her at the center of pop culture without ambiguity. But what happens after her latest release is what changes her entirely.
The record doesn’t just perform well. It defines her. It gives the public a version of her that feels fully formed, not developing. There is no “breakthrough artist” period that lingers in perception for long. Instead, there is a quick shift in language: she is no longer introduced as emerging but established. No longer “upcoming,” but “leading.”
And then the media assigns her a title.
“Princess of pop” becomes shorthand because it simplifies what people think they are seeing. Her image is polished enough to feel the intention and she's likable. Sweet, funny, humble, which makes her highly legible to the public in a way that spreads quickly across magazines, television segments, and early entertainment coverage culture. The public does not just consume her music; it feeds off her presence as well.
So, no one can quite agree on when it started. Hell, Michael and (Name) are still dancing around it themselves.
The first few times, it’s easy to dismiss. They’re musicians. Award shows are small worlds dressed up as enormous ones, the same artists orbiting the same ceremonies, after parties, and backstage hallways until everyone’s paths blur together. A photograph of them talking after an awards show earns a few inches in the entertainment pages before disappearing beneath the next week’s headlines. Then it happens again. Another ceremony. Another charity gala. Another industry party where someone swears they arrived separately but somehow spend most of the evening within sight of one another. Cameras keep finding them laughing during commercial breaks, leaning close enough to hear each other over the music, slipping into conversations that seem to shut the rest of the room out without either of them realizing it.
At first, reporters treat it like harmless fun. Two of the biggest young stars in music spending time together is easy copy, and the headlines stay playful.
“Music’s golden pair?”
“Just friends, or music’s newest power duo?”
“The King and Princess of Pop share another memorable evening.”
Neither of them acknowledges any of it. There’s nothing to deny and nothing to confirm. Their publicists call them friends, stating that they’ve always shared a close relationship before (Name) even blew up. A mentor and mentee type of relationship. Their managers smile politely through interviews, explaining that successful artists naturally cross paths. For a little while, people accept that answer. The stories begin growing longer than the events they’re supposedly covering, with journalists comparing guest lists before premieres have even happened, noticing that if one of them is expected somewhere, the other usually isn’t far behind.
Then the photographs change.
They stop coming from red carpets and heavily staged press lines. Someone catches them leaving the same recording studio long after midnight, her laughing at something he’s said while he holds the door open behind her. A week later another photographer spots them slipping through a hotel’s side entrance after an industry dinner, heads lowered more out of habit than secrecy. Neither notices the cameras until a flash suddenly lights the sidewalk. The pictures run everywhere the next morning, and nothing scandalous happened. It was just based off the simple fact that they’re together. Comfortable. As though neither of them considers sharing the same space remarkable enough to.. hide. That’s the thing, it didn’t seem like they were attempting to hide anything which made the story more interesting as it progressed.
Then comes the photograph everyone remembers.
It appears on the cover of three magazines before the week is over. (Name) steps out of his private residence just after sunrise wearing a wool coat hastily thrown over last night’s clothes, her hair only half pinned back with sunglasses pushed onto the top of her head despite the overcast morning. She looks like a time was had, no shade. Five seconds later, Michael follows, fastening the cuff of his shirt as he steps through the doorway, pausing only long enough to hold the door open before letting it swing shut behind him. There isn’t any visible attempt to create distance between them.
The captions practically write themselves.
“Breakfast together?”
“Early morning depature raises questions.”
“Friends don't usually leave the same house at dawn.”
Again, neither of them responds.
Their silence becomes part of the story.
A few weeks later a video replaces the photo. This one is grainy, taken beneath streetlights outside a restaurant after what had supposedly been a private dinner with friends. They’re stepping off the curb when someone suddenly shouts their names. Without thinking, she reaches toward him and his hand finds hers. The photographer catches the exact second their fingers intertwine. It isn’t posed or even particularly romantic. It’s the instinct. The unconscious movement of two people who have long since stopped wondering whether reaching for each other is appropriate. By the time either of them realizes cameras are there, the moment has already happened.
The video spreads faster than any interview ever could.
Television hosts spend entire segments analyzing it frame by frame. Magazine covers become bolder.
“Hollywood’s worst-kept secret?”
“More than friends?”
“Inside music's most talked-about relationship.”
Soon, columnists begin noticing details no one had paid attention to before. The way she instinctively looks toward him before answering questions on shared red carpets. The way he visibly relaxes whenever she walks into a crowded room. The fact that they no longer bother introducing one another because everyone around them already assumes they’ll arrive together. It becomes impossible to mention one without acknowledging the other, their names slowly merging into a single narrative that neither of them ever agreed to create.
The speculation eventually takes on a life of its own. They become fixtures in gossip columns because they keep appearing in spaces between public obligations. Leaving bookstores. Walking through airports without entourages separating them. Slipping into restaurants through side entrances. Visiting recording studios on days neither has publicly scheduled sessions. Always ordinary places. Always ordinary moments. Ironically, it’s the ordinariness that convinces people. If it were publicity, surely, they’d choose grander stages. Instead, every photograph feels stolen from a real life the public wasn't meant to witness.
The press develops its own language around them.
“Close friends.”
“Constant companions.”
“Frequent collaborators.”
“Reportedly inseparable.”
“Spotted together once again.”
Every headline performs uncertainty while quietly arriving at the same conclusion that there’s an elephant in the room. Award shows become dinners. Dinners become weekends. Weekends become early mornings leaving the same address. The explanations grow thinner while the photographs grow more intimate, yet neither of them offers the world anything concrete. No announcement. No exclusive interview. No carefully crafted statement. But no denial, either.
They simply continue living their lives, refusing to reshape something deeply personal into a story the public can neatly consume. Eventually people stop asking whether they're together and begin asking why they just won’t admit it. The truth, of course, is that whatever exists between them has never belonged to the headlines. The magazines can stitch together timelines from grainy photographs and whispered sightings, but the life they’re trying to explain is unfolding somewhere the cameras never quite reach, in the ordinary hours between performances, where love quietly becomes routine long before the world ever manages to give it a name.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ ㅤㅤNovember, 1989.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ BET Soul Music Awards - Los Angeles, California.
The BET Soul Music Awards had become one of the biggest nights of the year, but this one felt different before it had even begun.
For weeks it had dominated every entertainment headline. Television hosts spent entire segments speculating about surprise performances, fashion magazines ran prediction pieces on who would wear what, and columnists had somehow managed to turn the seating chart into front page news. The biggest names in music had all arrived beneath the same roof, filling the theater with enough talent, influence, and ego to power an entire city. Diamonds flashed beneath the chandeliers. Satin caught the light every time someone crossed the aisle. Velvet tuxedos, shimmering gowns, polished shoes, expensive perfume, camera flashes. Everywhere she looked was another familiar face, another legend she’d grown up watching, another artist she’d once only dreamed of meeting.
And somehow..
She was the one standing at the center of all of it.
Hosting.
At twenty-three years old, the woman who was declared by the public as the Princess of Pop.
The title still caught her off guard whenever someone else said it aloud. She’d never introduced herself that way and she never would. Yet tonight it seemed impossible to escape. It was printed across rehearsal schedules and cue cards, spoken proudly by producers introducing her to executives she’d already met three times that afternoon, repeated by reporters camped outside on the carpet as though saying it enough would somehow make it feel less surreal.
“Our host for the evening...”
“One of music’s brightest stars...”
“The Princess of Pop herself...”
Every introduction was met with another smile from her, gracious and practiced, even as a small part of her still wanted to turn around to see if they were talking about someone else.
Backstage was its own world entirely.
The polished glamour visible to millions at home dissolved into organized chaos the second someone stepped behind the curtain. Production assistants darted through narrow hallways carrying clipboards thick with revised schedules. Stage managers spoke rapid fire into headsets, pointing toward lighting rigs and camera operators without ever slowing their pace. Stylists hurried after artists armed with garment steamers, lint rollers, powder brushes, safety pins, and enough hairspray to survive a hurricane. Someone sprinted past carrying an entire rack of wardrobe changes. Somewhere farther down the corridor, someone was arguing over a missing microphone.
She barely had time to stand still.
A stylist appeared to smooth the fabric over her hips before disappearing just as quickly. Another adjusted the clasp of a diamond bracelet she’d somehow managed to twist backwards. Someone gently tucked a loose curl back into place before another production assistant slid fresh cue cards into her hands, apologizing because one category had been reordered less than sixty seconds ago.
Everything moved with the frantic precision of people who’d done this a hundred times before.
She inhaled carefully, then exhaled. Ignored the way her pulse refused to settle and then someone counted her down. They were back from commercial break.
Five.
The conversations around her immediately faded beneath the growing roar of the audience on the other side of the curtain.
Four.
The house lights dimmed until only thin strips of blue glowed backstage.
Three.
She rolled her shoulders once, flexing her fingers around the cue cards as the opening music swelled through the auditorium.
Two.
The stage manager pointed toward the entrance.
One.
The curtain lifted and the sound hit her before the light did.
The applause, cheers and screams rolled across the theater like a wave breaking against stone, thousands of people rising to their feet almost instantly. It was loud enough that she felt it vibrate through the floor beneath her heels. Cameras swung toward her from every angle, red recording lights blinking on one after another as she stepped into the spotlight wearing the kind of smile that almost convinced even herself she wasn’t nervous.
Her heart hammered against her ribs anyway.
(Name) welcomed everyone with effortless warmth, delivering the opening monologue exactly as rehearsed, though somehow better than rehearsal ever managed. Every joke landed cleaner once there was a real audience in front of her. Laughter rolled through the theater in waves, interrupted by applause so often she had to pause and let people finish before continuing. She improvised once when a teleprompter skipped a line, earning an even bigger laugh than the scripted joke had been meant to receive.
By the second hour she’d stopped thinking about where the cameras were.
She moved across the stage without thinking about tripping, transitioning seamlessly between presenters, teasing performers with affectionate humor, exchanging quick conversations with artists seated near the front rows that had the audience laughing as though everyone inside the building were old friends. Even backstage, producers were beginning to relax. She could hear snippets of relieved conversations every time she stepped behind the curtain between segments.
“She’s killing it.”
“Best decision we made.”
“She's carrying the whole show.”
Every time the camera found her, she seemed brighter. More comfortable. More confident. The audience adored her, and she returned every ounce of that energy effortlessly, making one of the biggest nights in music somehow feel intimate despite the thousands of people packed into the theater. It was getting closer to towards the end of the show, she had one last award to present.
She glanced down at the next cue card and smile on her face shifted almost imperceptibly. Not smaller, just softer.
Best Male R&B/Pop Artist.
Her french tip adorned fingers tightened slightly around the card.
Michael.
She swallowed before she could think too much about it.
Artists presented awards to other artists all the time. There was nothing unusual about that. It happened every awards season.
But nothing involving the two of them had felt ordinary in months.
Entertainment magazines had practically built an industry around trying to define whatever existed between them. Every charity gala became another cover story. Every award show became another excuse to analyze who looked at whom first. Every blurry photograph of them leaving the same venue within minutes of each other somehow turned into three weeks of speculation.
“Friends?”
“More than friends?”
“Hollywood's biggest couple?”
The headlines changed but the question never did.
(Name) drew one slow, careful breath, lifting her eyes back toward the camera as though there weren’t thousands of people watching and millions more at home. Her smile returned with a sweet ease.
“..And the Soul Music Award goes to..”
She slipped one finger beneath the envelope’s seal; the paper gave way with a quiet tear and the card was unfolded.
The moment she read the name, a grin escaped before professionalism could catch it.
“Michael Jackson.”
The reaction was instantaneous.
The theater exploded.
Applause thundered through the auditorium so loudly it nearly drowned out the orchestra beginning his walk up music. People were already pushing themselves to their feet before the cameras even found him, cheers echoing from every balcony as the entire room seemed to brighten with anticipation. It wasn’t simply applause for another winner.
It was for him.
She turned toward the aisle, the applause still surging through the theater in thick waves that didn’t seem interested in fading anytime soon. The entire room was on its feet, a standing ovation that felt physical force pressing through the air. Cameras tracked the movement instantly, lenses shifting in perfect sync as Michael stood from his seat.
He rose slowly, even with stadiums and decades of history behind him, there was still a flicker of shyness in the way he adjusted his jacket, a subtle dip of his head that softened the image of him. The smile that formed on his face arrived gently and then stayed, warm and unguarded, only growing the second his eyes found hers.
He began walking toward the stage and the crowd only got louder for him, but his attention didn’t shift. Not even once. He moved with his gentle rhythm and then just before he reached the steps, he caught his bottom lip lightly between his teeth, a nervous little habit that always betrayed him. It’s by far the most attractive tick anyone has seen. When he looked up again, his gaze was straight on her as she stood there standing so pretty in her hair, makeup and dress holding his award.
She felt it immediately. That pull in her expression she didn’t have to think about. The smile came before she could stop it, softer than anything she had given the cameras all night, and suddenly she wasn’t hosting anymore, not in any way that mattered.
He climbed the steps and reached her, stopping close enough that the air between them felt charged and uncomfortably aware. The audience was still roaring, but it was fading into something distant. They looked at each other for a moment that stretched just a fraction too long to be stage timing. They’re both blushing, terribly.
She lifted the trophy between them, hands steady in the way she had trained them to be, even though nothing else about her felt steady at all.
“Congratulations.” She smiles shyly.
His gaze softened as it dropped briefly to the award, then returned to her face. “Thank you.”
Their fingers met as he took it, and for a second neither of them let go properly. An unintentional pause where contact lingered longer than necessary and neither of them had decided who was supposed to move first.
Then he did.
Not backward.
Not toward the microphone.
Toward her.
It was small at first, just the shift of his shoulders and the way the trophy lowered slightly between them, but his eyes stayed locked on hers the entire time and whatever instinct normally governed distance simply didn’t show up to do its job.
She realized what was happening a second too late to stop it from mattering.
He leaned in.
Slow enough that it couldn’t be mistaken for anything else, intentional enough that her mind had time to register every stage of it before it actually happened. The space between them narrowed until there was almost none left, and her breath caught somewhere useless in her chest.
For a brief, suspended moment, he stopped just short, so close that she could feel the warmth of him and that the entire stadium might as well have disappeared if it weren’t for the fact that it absolutely hadn’t.
Then he closed the distance.
The kiss was gentle, certain, and startlingly soft as their lips moved against one another in a slow, intimate movement. She froze for the smallest fraction of a second out of sheer disbelief, and then instinct caught up, and she leaned into it before thought could interfere any further. Her hand covered their mouths from the camera as he smiled into the kiss.
Everything outside them dropped away completely. The audience, the lights, the cameras, all of it vanished into something irrelevant and far away. There was only the feeling of it, brief and unreal in the way moments like that tend to be when they shouldn’t be happening at all, especially not here, especially not like this.
Then it ended almost as soon as it fully registered, the two of them separating with the same stunned awareness, like neither of them had fully decided how they had gotten there or how they were supposed to return to reality afterward.
The theater was nuts.
The sound hit like a physical shockwave, screams and applause colliding into something deafening enough to shake the space itself. People were on their feet instantly, cameras flashing so rapidly the stage flickered in bursts of white light. It felt less like applause and more like chaos given permission to exist.
(Name) stared at him for a second too long, completely unfiltered, eyes wide with disbelief as the reality of what he had just done caught up with her all at once.
Then she laughed to herself, just pure shock breaking through and she lifted her hand and smacked his chest lightly, more out of instinct than anger.
“You—“ The word fell apart into laughter before she could finish it. Her cheeks were already burning, and she looked genuinely overwhelmed the way people only do when something insane happens in front of them and they’re expected to continue functioning anyway.
He immediately dropped his gaze for half a second, laughing under his breath, clearly just as thrown by his own decision as everyone else in the building.
The applause refused to settle. Even as he raised the award slightly and leaned toward the mic, “Thank you,” he said quietly, sheepish and grinning at the same time.
She shook her head, smiling too hard to pretend she was anything close to composed, and stepped back just enough to give him space. He took a breath, still grinning himself, then glanced down at the trophy for a second before speaking.
“I.. I wanna thank the creator above,” He began softly, and the room finally started to quiet in response, the energy shifting from chaos into attention. “My family.. everyone who believed in me, who continues to believe in me and everyone who’s supported me over the years.”
He paused, thumb brushing lightly over the edge of the award as if grounding himself, then looked up again. Straight at her.
(Name) was still standing just off to the side of the stage, trying very hard to look like she wasn’t still recovering from what had just happened. His smile returned, smaller now, more personal.
“And.. I’d like to thank the lady in my life.” A ripple of laughter moved through the audience instantly, followed by cheers that started building again like they were just waiting for permission.
“You all might know her.” That earned louder reactions, people already laughing as if the answer wasn’t obvious enough. “She’s been doing a wonderful job hosting tonight. Don’t you think?” His question is followed by cheers of agreement. Oh, she was going to kill him.
“You know, when she told me that BET had contacted her for the role, she said she was honored to even be considered but she was afraid that she was going to trip and fall.” He said, earning more laughs and endeared awes.
“She’s very special to me, and she takes good care of me.” He looks over at her and eyes never left hers, even as the noise swelled again around him. “And I can’t see myself without her.” He held the look for a beat longer than necessary, like he wasn’t speaking to the room anymore at all.
Then he softened into a final smile before raising the trophy to the lights and audience. “Thank you.”
The applause came crashing back harder than before, the kind that didn’t just fill space but swallowed it completely, while she stood there shaking her head like she still couldn’t decide whether to laugh or disappear.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ 1990.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
By 1990, they’d been boyfriend and girlfriend for a good bit of time. This year was a year of firsts for them, the start of a new and exciting relationship that that been growing from a seed that mad been planted nearly four years ago.
There wasn’t a formal conversation where they decided to spend every spare moment together. It just happened. She found herself leaving more clothes at Neverland because it became easier than packing another overnight bag. Her favorite skincare and hygiene products appeared in his master bathroom right beside his own. A drawer became her own walk-in closet. Her books started collecting on the bedside table, her records found their way onto shelves that hadn’t belonged to her a few months earlier, and somehow half the flowers in the gardens had been planted because she’d once mentioned liking them in passing. She still technically had her own place, but she spent so many nights at Neverland that the staff had stopped asking whether she’d be staying for dinner.
One evening, while they wandered through the house discussing furniture he absolutely didn’t need, Michael glanced at her almost absentmindedly.
“You know…” he said, slipping his hands into his pockets. “I think you should spend more time here.”
(Name) smiled without looking up from the lamp she’d been pretending to consider. “I practically live here already, silly.”
“I know.”
She laughed softly. “So what are you talking about?”
He looked at her then, wearing that shy and gentle smile that always seemed to appear whenever he was about to admit something. “I mean..” He shrugged one shoulder, suddenly fascinated by the hardwood floor. “..Move in.”
She blinked. “..What?”
He finally looked back up, the corners of his mouth lifting just enough to betray the fact that he’d been rehearsing those two words in his head for days. “Move in., with me. Your boyfriend.”
For a long moment, she simply stared at him. The thought had never occurred to her that he could ask so simply, as though sharing a home with her was the most obvious thing in the world.
A smile slowly found its way onto her face. “I think,” She murmured, taking the last few steps until she was standing directly in front of him, “I’d like that very much, boyfriend.”
Michael’s shoulders visibly relaxed, the quiet relief written all over his face before he leaned down to steal a quick kiss.
Things were good that year.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ January, 1991.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ ‘92 Grammys - Los Angeles, California.
“Michael, (Name). You’re both queued next.”
The event manager’s voice drifted in through the open limousine door, nearly drowned out by the wall of sound waiting outside. Camera flashes poured through the opening in uneven bursts, briefly illuminating the dark interior before fading again. Beyond the barricades, photographers were already calling their names, their voices overlapping into an indistinct chorus that rose and fell with each arriving guest.
She blinked.
The ring.
She’d been staring at it again.
Her hand rested in her lap, fingers lightly curled, the diamond catching every stray flash that reached inside the car. It scattered little pieces of light across the satin of her gown, dazzling one second and soft the next. She turned her wrist almost absentmindedly, watching it shimmer. It was beautiful, and expensive. She knows that much. Everything beyond that point dissolved into the background.
She still couldn’t quite believe it belonged there. On her finger.
She was someone’s fiancé? What in the world? She remembers being only twenty years old trying to break into this industry. Love was the last thing on her mind.
The proposal returned to her in fragments. Michael’s hands trembling so badly he nearly dropped the ring before he’d even asked. The way he’d stumbled over words he’d clearly spent days rehearsing until they both fell into nervous laughter. The tears she’d never managed to stop before she’d interrupted him with an answer he hadn’t even finished asking for. In retrospect, she probably should have suspected something was up when he brought out the entire Disney park for the day, even more so when her friends acted like it was so urgent to get their nails done the day before.
Sometimes she looked at the ring and remembered that night.
The soft click of the limousine door opening wider pulled her back.
Michael was already moving as he stepped out first, greeted immediately by another explosion of camera flashes and cheers from behind the barricades. For a moment, all she could see was his pretty silhouette against the sea of white light as he straightened his jacket beneath the photographers’ relentless attention.
Then he turned.
Without hesitation, he reached one hand back into the limousine.
Waiting.
She smiled to herself and her hand slipped into his.
The diamond caught the light the instant their fingers met, sparkling brilliantly beneath the flashes as he helped her toward the door with the same sweet care he’d always shown her when no one was looking. Only this time, everyone was looking.
She stepped carefully onto the pavement, her gown falling neatly into place as she straightened beside him. Their hands remained linked between them, the ring resting perfectly where the cameras couldn’t help but find it. Flash after flash reflected across the stone until it glittered almost as brightly as the lights pointed at them.
She looked around for a second then back up at him but he was already watching her. Not the photographers or the crowd.
Her.
That impossibly gentle smile spread across his face, softening everything about him. It was the same smile she’d seen across breakfast tables, in empty hotel hallways after concerts, during quiet evenings when the rest of the world had finally disappeared.
Without thinking, she smiled back and he leaned toward her just slightly, enough to silently ask for a kiss.
(Name) closed the remaining distance herself, brushing a quick, tender kiss against his lips. When they separated, he was still smiling, his forehead almost touching hers for the briefest second before he let out a quiet, breathy laugh that only she could hear beneath the chaos surrounding them.
His thumb brushed once across the back of her hand, and she gave his fingers the smallest squeeze in return before they turned toward the waiting carpet together.
The photographers erupted all over again, calling their names from every direction as flashes exploded like fireworks around them. Tomorrow’s headlines would talk about the kiss, the ring, the glamour, the fashion, every polished detail the cameras had managed to capture.
Neither of them seemed particularly concerned with any of it.
They simply smiled at one another one last time before facing forward, their joined hands swinging naturally between them as they took their first steps onto the red carpet.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤMay, 1991.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ A private estate - Temecula Valley, California.⠀ ⠀ ⠀
It was strange how quickly a wedding day disappeared.
They had spent months planning it, changing little details, choosing flowers, tasting cakes, arguing over songs, finalizing seating charts. Then the day arrived, and suddenly.. it was evening. A bittersweet feeling, really.
The ceremony had passed in a blur of music, sunlight, trembling hands, and promises neither of them had struggled to make. (Name) remembered seeing him at the end of the aisle, looking happier than she’d ever seen him—crying when he saw her. In that moment she remembered thinking, “you are the love of my life.” Everything after that had unfolded was exactly as it was meant to. A perfect day.
Now they were husband and wife. Mr. and Mrs. Jackson has a nice ring to it, doesn’t it?
The ceremony had been held on the grounds of a sprawling private estate tucked far enough away from the nearest road that the world might as well not have existed beyond its gates. White roses lined the aisle beneath towering oak trees, their branches stretching overhead as though they had grown there specifically to shelter the occasion. Hundreds of candles waited to be lit for the evening reception, and every path through the gardens had been woven with flowers that looked as though they’d bloomed there naturally.
It had been a large wedding by any measure. Family, lifelong friends, musicians, actors, producers, dancers, people who had watched them grow from children into artists, and others who had become part of the life they’d built together. Nearly every seat had been filled, yet somehow it had never felt crowded. The guest list had been expansive without becoming impersonal, each invitation sent to someone who mattered for reasons beyond status or headlines.
The press, for once, had been left outside.
Security had begun preparing weeks in advance, making sure every entrance to the estate remained private, every road carefully monitored, every helicopter route restricted as much as legally possible. The tabloids had guessed at locations, published fabricated schedules, and parked photographers miles away on the chance they might catch a glimpse of something through the trees.
They hadn’t.
The only cameras inside belonged to people Michael and she had chosen themselves. A handful of trusted professional photographers moved through the celebration, documenting the day without interrupting it, capturing laughter instead of spectacle and stolen glances instead of performances. They weren’t there to chase a headline. They were there to preserve memories. Every photograph would remain theirs before it belonged to anyone else.
And for the first time in years, they had been allowed something astonishingly rare. Privacy.
Not complete anonymity—that would never truly exist for either of them. But peace was achievable.
The vows had been spoken without the click of paparazzi shutters competing against every word. They had slipped rings onto one another’s fingers beneath birdsong instead of shouted questions from behind barricades. When the officiant had finally pronounced them husband and wife, the applause had come only from the people who loved them both, echoing warmly through the gardens before disappearing into the afternoon air.
It had been everything they’d hoped for.
Nothing extravagant for extravagance’s sake, despite how magnificent it all appeared. Every flower, every song, every place setting, every handwritten menu, every candle burning across the reception had been chosen because it meant something to one of them. The elegance wasn’t there to impress anyone. It simply reflected the life they had spent years building together, thoughtful in every detail and beautiful.
As daylight faded into evening, the celebration moved beneath a canopy of lights strung through the trees, casting a warm golden glow over the reception. Music drifted across the gardens while conversations blended into soft laughter, crystal glasses caught the candlelight with every toast, and somewhere beyond the estate walls the rest of the world continued searching for a wedding it would never witness.
Inside, hidden from every telephoto lens and gossip column, they were exactly where they wanted to be. Together and finally, husband and wife.
That same night of course they consummated their marriage.
Her hair is soft, slightly messy from the humidity of the suite as her veil fanned out beneath her like a halo against white silk pillowcases. They were tangled in missionary position: Michael braced above her on his forearms, moving with slow but deep thrusts that made every slide inside her feel endless. She held him close; one hand cradling the back of his neck while fingers threaded through sweat damp strands at his temples.
The wedding dress was long gone—discarded somewhere near their feet—but she still wore that delicate garter belt under sheer stockings, and it drove him wild knowing she’d kept something bridal on for this exact moment. Her heat clenched around him like a vise; the drag of his cock against slick walls made every withdrawal feel like torture before plunging back in even deeper than before.
He slowed, stopped entirely before he pressed their foreheads together instead as they caught breathless air between kisses. The space where their bodies joined glistened—an obscene, beautiful mess of frothy white clinging to the base of his cock like liquid pearls. Precum mixed with her arousal; a thin ring that stretched and snapped every time he pulled back just slightly before surging forward again in those slow, deep rolls. And each time he pushed deeper, that slick little ring got thicker. More abundant.
Then losing himself all over again when she arched up for another kiss mid thrust.
“Lovey—I wanna be a daddy..” A pause where he just stared into her eyes, pupils blown with pleasure as he whispered: “Can I give you my baby? Please?” A kiss. “Please, please, let me—lemme make you a mommy, give you a beautiful baby..” He’s babbling at this point, and she watches him above her with a dazed smile hidden behind a bitten bottom lip. She nods at him, lip popping back into place.
“Fill me up, Michael..” She whispered—soft but insistent, her fingers threading through his sweat damp hair as she coaxed him down against her chest. Her heartbeat pounded beneath his ear; a frantic drum of sound matching the stuttering rhythm of his hips now. Each thrust turned sharper, needier—chasing something neither could name anymore beyond more. She came rather suddenly, her body wasn’t cooperating with her plans of wanting to finish together but he just felt so good.
Then she felt it. A gush so sudden and deep inside that it punched a gasp from her throat—wonder.
“That’s it.. give me your baby,” She breathed out raggedly while cradling him closer like he might vanish if she let go even an inch. Her hands stroked over trembling muscles on back as aftershocks wracked through his body.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ August 1992.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
A lamp in the corner cast a warm honeyed glow across the living room, softening everything it seemed to touch. It was around 11 PM when she moved through the space, slowly and graciously as she picked up the mess from the day and straightened out things like pillows and throw blankets for the couch all barefoot on the polished floor. Her movement that had become second nature without her even noticing. She had long since had her baby, but her sense of urgency remained the same. There was a gentleness to everything she did now, motherhood had recalibrated her brain around something so small and precious that existed just a few feet away. She paused near the baby holder, lowering her gaze.
Aladdin was asleep inside it bundled neatly, his tiny face relaxed and completely unguarded the way babies only ever managed when they were fully gone into sleep. One hand had slipped free of the blanket and rested near his cheek. The sight made something in her expression soften even further. She reached down carefully, adjusting the edge of the blanket without disturbing him. Her fingers lingered for a second before she straightened again, exhaling quietly.
The estate still felt like Michael, even when he wasn’t there yet. That was the thing she hadn’t gotten used to and she doesn’t think she ever will, the way his absence didn’t feel empty so much as.. incomplete. He’s been coming home late these past few days, recording for a new album.
The front door clicked open and there was a pause, followed by the sound of him stepping inside and the faint shift of movement as he closed the door behind him. Then his voice, already softer than it probably needed to be, careful in the way it always was when he came home late and knew she’d notice.
“Tink? You were supposed to be in bed by now..” He set something down just out of sight before she finally looked at him.
“You’re late..” Her tone carried enough disappointment to make the point without raising her voice, not that she ever felt the need to even raise her voice at him.
Michael stepped further into the room, loosening his jacket as he looked at her. His expression shifted immediately, whatever exhaustion he had softened the second he saw her standing there in the cozy light, hair loose and her face calm but tired the usual way it was after she had a long day with the baby. His beautiful wife.
“I know, pretty mama. I’m sorry.” He crossed the space between them without hesitation and leaned in to press a gentle kiss against her cheek. “Forgive me.”
She tried to hold the expression for another second, the small pout still lingering like she wanted to stay mildly annoyed long enough for it to count but it didn’t last. Her shoulders relaxed, and she gave him a look that was half warning and half surrender before she leaned in and kissed him properly, soft and brief as her hand rested lightly against his chest.
When she pulled back, her gaze flicked past him for a second toward the baby holder, instinctively checking again.
Michael followed her eyes, then back to her, the smallest smile forming as if he already understood everything she wasn’t saying out loud.
He lowered his voice without thinking. “How’s he been?”
She lingered near Michael without moving away from him properly, the space between them had become something her body naturally refused to widen. Her fingers reached up first, adjusting his collar with an absent tenderness, smoothing the fabric where it sat slightly uneven against his neck. Her hand lingered there before sliding down over his chest in a slow, grounding motion.
“Good, but we missed you today..” Her voice came out soft, already slipping into that tired half sleepy tone that followed long days and late nights. There wasn’t accusation in it, just honesty that came from someone who had spent the day stretching herself between routines and small responsibilities and the demand of caring for a newborn.
Michael looked at her warm and apologetic as he leaned closer, the sound of her voice alone gave him a tingly feeling. His hand came up lightly, resting at her waist anchoring himself there. She had him wrapped around her finger, he hoped she knew.
“I missed you too—you both.”
She let out a small breath that almost turned into a sigh, her hand still resting against his chest for a moment before she finally let it fall, only to look up at him properly.
“Where were you today?” Tired curiosity.
For a brief second, something flickered across his expression. Not guilt exactly.. or anything that could be named easily for that matter. It was more like calculation, as if he was deciding how much of the day belonged in this conversation and how much should stay outside it. He shifted slightly, loosening his shoulders trying to make the answer sound simpler than it was.
“Just meetings. A few things came up—met a couple friends.”
It was vague enough that it didn’t invite more questions unless someone was looking for them. But she honestly wasn’t.
(Name) nodded a little, accepting it the way people accept small absences they assume will make sense later, then let her attention drift back to him instead of the explanation. Whatever part of her had briefly reached for curiosity dissolved quickly under the familiar pull of him being close again.
Michael exhaled quietly, tension easing from his posture as he stepped closer, his hand sliding up from her waist to her back. The conversation stopped being about answers and became softer and more physical. Something she desperately needed after the day she had.
“You look tired,” He murmured, brushing his thumb gently along her side as if checking for it himself.
“I am, baby..” She admitted quietly.
He smiled faintly at that, then he leaned in and kissed her forehead first, before letting his hand slide up to cradle the side of her face.
Her eyes softened almost immediately and whatever trace of curiosity she had, let go without resistance. She leaned into him slightly, her earlier concern dissolving into clinginess, folding back into his touch.
Behind them, the baby slept on, untouched by anything beyond his own small world of warmth and baby breath.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ September, 1992.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
Today had been a fun day for their little family! A cute day out that started with a shopping spree and ended with a nice dinner at their favorite restaurant. But all good things must come to an end.
The bathroom was quiet the way it usually was after a certain time. One of the vanity lights had been left on because she always forgets to do something before she leaves the house. The light reflected softly against the marble countertop and beyond the cracked door, the rest of the house had gone almost completely silent.
She stood at the sink, humming a little melody as she searched through the medicine cabinet for a small bottle of ibuprofen. Her shoulders ached from carrying the baby for most of the afternoon, and she promised herself she would take something before bed.
Michael was only a few feet away, standing in front of the mirror with his sleeves rolled to his forearms, carefully unbuttoning the cuffs of his shirt after the long day. She moved a few things aside before her fingers settled around an orange prescription bottle.
Then another.
She frowned slightly and tilted her head. The first one was nearly empty and she picked up the second without thinking, turning it over to read the label.
Her eyes lingered on it for a second. “..Baby?”
Michael looked up from the mirror. “Hm?”
She glanced between the two bottles in her hands. “I thought you just refilled this prescription...” Her voice was gentle, more puzzled than anything else.
She held up the second bottle a little. “..You have another?” The room seemed to pause, and it was so brief she almost convinced herself she’d imagined it.
Michael’s eyes settled on the bottles before returning to her, his expression remaining calm, though something behind it had tightened ever so slightly. “My doctor wanted me to have another one.”
His answer came easily enough. “You know, just in case.”
She looked back down at the label, her thumb brushing across the plastic cap. “Oh.”
A small silence settled between them. “..Have you had them look at it recently?” She looked up again, concern softening her features. “The burns, I mean. Because baby, you shouldn’t be dealing with this kind of pain..”
He gave the smallest shrug, eyes drifting toward the sink instead of meeting hers immediately. “Yes, of course. But they give me the same answers every time.” There wasn’t any bitterness in his voice, just genuine fatigue.
She nodded slowly and accepted the answer without another thought.
She’d seen the scars; it was the very first thing he showed her before they got really serious about one another. She knew how severe the accident had been. Of course, there were days it still hurt but she just hates the idea that he suffers through this. For God’s sake it happened in ’84, it’s currently ’92 now.
“I’m sorry,” she said softly. “Ignore me.”
He looked back at her then, offering a faint smile that was warm enough to ease the concern from her face. "It's okay."
She smiled back and without another word, she placed the second prescription bottle exactly where she found it, closed the cabinet, and crossed the room toward him. Her hands found the front of his shirt first, smoothing the fabric before they settled lightly against his chest.
“You work too hard.”
A quiet laugh escaped him. “So I’ve been told.”
She leaned up and pressed a gentle kiss beneath his jaw, lingering there for just a moment before resting her forehead against his shoulder. “You should let yourself rest more.”
His arms slipped naturally around her waist. “I know..”
Neither of them spoke again for a while.
The bathroom returned to its comfortable silence, broken only by the faint hum of the lights overhead and the distant creak of the house settling around them.
The prescription bottles remained tucked away inside the cabinet, unnoticed now.
By morning, she wouldn't think about them again. To her, they were simply another reminder that the man she loved still carried pain from injuries the world had long since forgotten.
A year later, she would remember the conversation with an unsettling clarity and wonder if that had been the first time something quietly slipped beyond her reach. At the time, though, it was nothing more than an ordinary night between a husband and wife, ending the same way most of their nights did, wrapped in each other’s arms while the rest of the house slept.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ October, 1992.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
Steam lingered in the bathroom, fogging the edges of the mirror until only blurred reflections remained. The room smelled faintly of eucalyptus and shampoo, warm from the shower that had been running for the last several minutes. The baby monitor rested on the counter, its tiny green light glowing steadily beside the sink, carrying nothing but the gentle sound of Aladdin’s giggles and Janet’s coos the hall.
Michael sat on the small stool in front of the tub; a towel draped around his shoulders while she stood behind him with one hand resting lightly against the back of his neck. He was 5’9 but she always sworn he was taller than that, he just looked so awkward and lanky especially in this position,
His hair was damp beneath her fingers as she worked the shampoo through it slowly, taking her time the way she always did. The soft curls slipped easily between her hands until she reached the patch of scar tissue hidden beneath the dark strands. Without thinking, her touch became even lighter, fingertips barely grazing his scalp as she carefully massaged around the area instead of directly over it.
Michael drew the smallest breath through his nose, it wasn’t quite a wince, but she did notice.
Her hands stopped immediately. “..Too much?”
He shook his head. “No.”
She wasn’t convinced. “You always say no.”
A tiny smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. “’Cause you're always worried.”
“I am worried.” Her voice was quiet, matter of fact.
“It still hurts.” He was silent for a moment before giving the slightest nod. “But I promise, it’s not terrible right now.”
She sighed before she resumed, somehow managing to be even gentler than before. Her fingertips moved with careful patience, and every so often she’d pause just to brush damp curls away from his forehead before continuing.
“I hate that it still bothers you.”
He looked down at his hands resting loosely in his lap. “I’ve gotten used to it, mama.”
She frowned. “That doesn’t mean you should have to, Mi.”
Neither of them spoke after that. The only sounds were the slow trickle of water from the faucet and the quiet rhythm of her hands moving through his hair.
When she finished, she wrapped the towel around his shoulders more securely before leaning down to press a kiss against the top of his head, deliberately avoiding the sensitive places.
“There.”
He smiled to himself. “Thank you, pretty.”
She squeezed his shoulder once before turning toward the sink to rinse her hands. Behind her, she heard the medicine cabinet open.
It barely registered at first. She reached for a hand towel, drying her fingers absentmindedly and she glances up just as Michael tipped two pills into his palm.
He swallowed them with a sip of water and she watched him for a second.
Then her brow knit together ever so slightly.
(Name) crossed the room without another thought, slipping her arms loosely around his waist from behind and he relaxed into the embrace as she rested her cheek against his shoulder, listening to the slow rhythm of his breathing.
But the furrow between her brow never left, lost in thought as her gaze fell into nothing in particular.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ November, 1992.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
The afternoon had settled into one of those slow, sleepy hours where the whole house seemed to breathe a little quieter. Sunlight drifted through the living room windows, warming the hardwood floors in long, golden rectangles that shifted almost imperceptibly as the day wore on. Outside, the gardens were still, save for the occasional movement of leaves stirred by a light breeze.
Aladdin had fallen asleep nearly twenty minutes earlier, the occasional sleepy crackle drifting through the baby monitor on the side table. She’d rocked him until his little fingers finally loosened around hers, laid him carefully in his crib, then stood there for another five minutes anyway, just watching his chest rise and fall because some part of her still couldn’t quite believe someone so small was entirely their responsibility.
His stroller rested near the front door where they’d left it after returning from the pediatrician, a tiny knit blanket folded neatly over the handle instead of where it belonged. A bottle sat forgotten on the coffee table beside a stack of music magazines she hadn’t opened in weeks.
Now, she stood at the window, absently twisting the ring on her finger.
Outside, the gardens swayed gently beneath the breeze. Somewhere farther down the property, she could just make out the stable through the trees, the horses moving lazily in the afternoon sun.
It should have been enough.
But lately, she’d been wondering why it didn’t always feel like enough.
Behind her, Michael sat curled into one end of the sofa with a book open in his lap. Every now and then he’d glance toward the hallway without thinking, listening for any sign the baby had woken before returning to the same paragraph he’d already read twice.
He looked comfortable.
Content.
More at home than she’d ever seen him.
“Lovey, I got a call this morning.” Her voice was so quiet that for a moment he wasn’t sure she’d meant to speak aloud.
He lifted his eyes. “From who?”
“The label.” She didn't turn around. “They wanted to know when I'd be ready to come back.” The words settled into the room without either of them rushing to fill the silence that followed.
Michael lowered the book into his lap. “Oh.”
She watched a pair of birds disappear over the trees. “They’re thinkign about starting another album.”
Another pause. “They asked if I’d started writing anything.” Her thumb absently traced the diamond of her ring. “I told them I hadn’t.”
It wasn't entirely true.
There were notebooks tucked away upstairs with pages she’d filled while Aladdin napped. Half-finished melodies hummed into cassette recorders in the middle of the night. Lyrics scribbled onto grocery lists because inspiration had inconvenient timing.
She just hadn’t told anyone. “I miss it, Mi.” The admission was nearly swallowed by the quiet room. “I miss the studio.”
She then let out a slow breath. “I miss recording until two in the morning because I can’t get something right.” A small laugh escaped her. “I even miss arguing with producers.”
“But.. I feel guilty for missing it.” Michael watched her for a long moment before setting the book he’d been reading aside.
“You don’t have to go back.”
She looked over her shoulder. “I know.”
“You could stay home.” His voice remained gentle. “You don’t have to rush.” He stood, crossing the room until he stopped in front of her. “You’ve got everything right here.” His hand rested lightly against her arm.
“You’ve got him.” Then, quieter. “You’ve got me.”
She smiled faintly. “I know.”
“You could take another year.”
“I could.”
“You could take five.”
A tiny laugh escaped her. “I don’t think my record label would like that.”
“I don’t care what your record label likes.” Michael says, too quickly.
She looked down, smiling for only a second before it faded again. “..I do.”
Silence settled between them.
“I love being his mom.” Her voice caught ever so slightly. “I love it more than I ever imagined I would.” She looked toward the nursery down the hall. “But I love making music too.” She shook her head.
“I don’t know how to be both.”
Michael stepped closer and both of his hands rose slowly to her face, cupping her cheeks with familiar tenderness until she had little choice but to stop staring at the floor.
She couldn’t quite meet his eyes.
“My girl..” His thumbs brushed gently beneath her cheekbones. “You don’t have to figure it out today.”
She let out a slow breath. “I’m scared.” She looked down at her hands. “It feels like I’m supposed to be completely happy just staying home.”
“You are happy.” He starts. “Are you not..?” His brows pinch together.
“I am.” She answered so quickly it almost hurt that he would even question that. “I am, Michael.”
She swallowed and her voice softened. “I love waking up with him. I love feeding him. I love putting him to bed. I love every tiny little thing.”
She smiled to herself, remembering. “When he falls asleep on my shoulder..” Her expression melted for just a moment. “..I don’t think there's anywhere else I’d rather be.”
She looked back up. “But I still miss music.” The confession lingered between them. “I don’t know what that says about me.”
“We need you.” Michael says. The words came so naturally that he didn’t even realize what he was admitting until they’d already left him.
Because he did.
He needed this.
He needed mornings that began with sleepy kisses in the kitchen while a baby laughed from a high chair. He needed evenings that ended with all three of them asleep under the same roof. He needed coming home and finding her barefoot in the living room, humming to herself while folding impossibly tiny clothes.
He had spent his entire life being pulled away by schedules, contracts, rehearsals, flights, interviews, people who always needed another piece of him.
This.. this was the first thing that had ever felt entirely his.
Not fame.
Not success.
Home.
And somewhere beneath all the love he carried for her lived a quieter, more frightened truth.
If she went back.. the world would start asking for her again. The studio. The tours. The interviews. The months apart.
Michael knew that world and he hated what it took from people.
A selfish part of him wanted to keep this exactly as it was. To keep her close. To keep the three of them together inside this peaceful little bubble for as long as he possibly could.
“If it were me..” He hesitated as his thumbs slowed against her cheeks. “I think I’d stay.” The moment the words left him, he saw something shift in her face.
She looked away again and he realized quickly that he’d answered the question he wanted answered. Not the one she’d actually asked.
He knows he’s being selfish, but he didn’t care. He couldn’t care.
Michael stepped just a little closer, trying to catch her eyes again, his hands still cradling her face. “My girl..”
She finally looked back at him, and her eyes were glossy now. “I’m scared, Michael.” Her voice barely carried. “What if I go back.. and I miss all of this?” She glanced toward the nursery. “What if I blink and he’s suddenly five?”
A tear slipped free before she brushed it away herself. “But what if I don’t go back..” She laughed weakly through the tears. “..And one day I don’t recognize myself anymore?”
There wasn’t a real answer.
Michael searched her face for something he could fix.
Anything.
Instead, all he found was the woman he loved trying to hold two equally important parts of herself without dropping either. His hands slipped from her cheeks just enough to brush her hair back behind her ears.
His expression softened. “What can I do for you, baby?”
She closed her eyes for a moment.
Thinking.
Breathing.
When she opened them again, the tears hadn’t disappeared, but they weren’t falling anymore. Her gaze drifted toward the front door, where Aladdin’s stroller still waited from that morning.
“..Can we go for a walk?” She smiled faintly. “With the baby.”
He leaned forward and kissed her forehead, lingering there until she felt some of the tension leave her shoulders.
“Yes,” He whispered. “Of course.”
A few minutes later, they stepped outside together. Michael pushed the stroller with one hand and his other found hers.
The conversation remained unfinished.
It would stay unfinished for months.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤ August - December 1993.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
(Name) genuinely believes her husband died somewhere in 1993. Not in any literal sense, but his soul did. His essence. The spark and light in his eyes dimmed into something unrecognizable and broken by a cruel fucking world that never really let him breathe to begin with.
There’s no clean break to grieve or any one moment she can point to and say this is when I lost him. It’s a slow, nauseating realization that the version of him she fell in love within her early twenties stopped existing in a place she can still reach—a place where she could still kiss and hold. And the worst part is that he’s still here in the physical realm. Grieving a man who’s still alive made her feel.. sick in ways she couldn’t possibly explain in words. It feels like a hole is in her heart, a large gaping hole that only he could fill. He had been her other half in the way people don’t usually mean literally. But it started to feel like she was holding something inside her chest that had been torn into pieces and rearranged wrong. She could picture it so perfectly, her own bloody, beating heart held in her hands, not intact and wrong in shape, pieces pulled out of it and stolen. And somehow, she was still expected to keep living like this? It felt like there was no possible way, but she was living through this.
(Name) never left his side.
The days became measured by meetings instead of hours. Attorneys came and went through the front door carrying leather briefcases that never seemed any lighter when they left, heavier even. Conference tables disappeared beneath stacks of legal documents, newspaper clippings, witness statements, calendars marked over so many times the ink bled together. Telephones rang before breakfast and long after midnight. There were strategy sessions that lasted entire afternoons led by conversations spoken in careful, clinical language that managed to strip every ounce of humanity from the man they were talking about. Publicists discussed disgusting headlines. Security discussed routes before they left the house. Lawyers argued over words, dates, timelines, and statements until they all blurred into one endless conversation that never truly ended, only paused long enough to begin again the next morning. Somewhere in the middle of it all sat Michael, shoulders a little more slumped than the day before, listening as strangers dissected every corner of his life while she stayed beside him, her hand quietly finding his beneath the table.
She became his wife in every sense of the word she had promised on their wedding day. She never let go of his hand. She rubbed circles into the back of his neck during meetings that lasted hours longer than they should have. She smiled for him when he couldn’t find it in himself. She carried the pieces of him he no longer seemed strong enough to carry alone and never once let him feel ashamed for needing her to.
But no matter how tightly she held him together, she couldn’t stop watching him disappear. Never complaining once.
(Name) reminded him to eat when the day disappeared beneath paperwork. She coaxed him upstairs after nights spent sitting in the same chair until dawn, still wearing yesterday’s clothes because neither of them had realized another day had already begun. When sleep wouldn’t come, she stayed awake beside him. When he finally managed to drift off from pure exhaustion, she stayed awake anyway, afraid that if she looked away for too long, he’d wake up.
If the world insisted on putting him through it, then it would have to put her through it too.
And that had never felt like sacrifice.
It had only felt like marriage.
The allegations did something to him that she couldn’t fight with tenderness alone. They hollowed him out in places she hadn’t known could become empty. At first the changes were so small she convinced herself they belonged to stress. A missed laugh. A smile that disappeared a little too quickly. His attention drifting halfway through conversations before he gently asked her to repeat what she’d just said.
Then the spaces between those moments started growing.
His laughter became quieter until she realized one afternoon she couldn’t remember the last time she’d heard it. The brightness that had always lived behind his eyes gave way to a guarded wall, every waking moment for him had become an exercise in bracing for impact. He moved through the house weakly, carrying himself with an invisible weight that seemed to follow him from room to room. Even when nothing was happening, he looked as though he was waiting for something terrible to happen next.
There were days he barely spoke unless someone spoke to him first.
Sometimes she would catch him standing in the middle of a room with no clear reason for being there. One hand resting against the kitchen counter. Eyes fixed on nothing. So still she almost wondered if he’d forgotten why he’d walked in at all. When she’d quietly ask him what he needed, he’d blink once or twice like he’d only just remembered she was there.
“I don’t know,” He’d answer. It broke her every time.
Sleep abandoned him first. Then his appetite, though, he is the first to admit he’s never been a great eater but these past couple years she successfully managed to put a little more weight on him. All of which is gone by now.
There were days when she wasn’t sure he remembered how to take care of himself. Because everything else had become so unbearably heavy that the ordinary things were the first to disappear. Eating. Sleeping. Bathing. Changing into clean clothes. Things like that became things she gently coaxed him toward.
She would find him hours later exactly where she’d left him, a cup of coffee gone cold beside him because he’d never made it upstairs from the night before. She’d kneel in front of him without a word, unbutton his jacket while he watched her with tired eyes, and tell him softly, “Come on, baby.” Most of the time, he’d go.
Then the parts of himself that had always reached instinctively toward life. Music no longer drifted absentmindedly from beneath closed doors. The piano downstairs sat untouched for days at a time. He stopped humming while he wandered through the house. Stopped dancing absentmindedly when a song came on the radio. The little pieces of joy that had always escaped him without thinking seemed to retreat somewhere so deep inside him that even he couldn’t find them anymore.
There were mornings she’d find him awake before dawn, sitting in complete darkness with the television on mute because he hadn’t actually been watching it. He would simply sit there, elbows on his knees, staring at the floor while the blue light flickered across his face. She’d kneel in front of him and take his hands into hers because they were always cold lately, rubbing slow circles over his knuckles until he finally looked at her.
“Did you sleep?” She’d whisper.
“I’m okay.” He answered, and it quickly became the sentence she hated most. Because he wasn’t.
He wasn’t okay.
Michael started apologized for everything.
For forgetting what she had just told him. For staring into space when she was talking. For missing dinner because another meeting had run late. For waking her when another phone rang at two in the morning. For snapping at someone and immediately hating himself for it. For crying. For needing medication. For being tired. For existing and feeling like he no longer resembled the man he thought she deserved.
It was as though guilt had rooted itself somewhere deep inside him and started growing in every direction. No matter what she said, no matter how many times she cupped his face and told him she wasn’t going anywhere, he looked at her with the conviction of someone who believed he had already become too much to love.
And that frightened her more than anything else.
Because for the first time since she’d known him, she couldn’t love him out of his pain.
She could only sit beside it, hold his hand through it, and pray that somewhere underneath all that hurt, the man she’d married was still waiting to find his way home.
Elizabeth found her in the sunroom just after sunset.
The house had become strangely still for the first time all day. Most of the staff had retreated to other parts of the estate, the phones had stopped ringing for the moment, and the endless stream of meetings had finally come to an end. Outside, the sky was washed in soft shades of pink and gold, rainwater still clinging to the hedges from an afternoon shower.
(Name) sat curled into the corner of the sofa with a blanket gathered loosely over her legs, though she wasn’t cold. A cup of tea rested untouched on the table beside her, the steam long since gone. She stared through the floor to ceiling windows toward the gardens without really seeing them, her thoughts somewhere much farther away.
Elizabeth lingered in the doorway for a moment before approaching. “There you are, gorgeous girl.”
(Name) turned her head, offering a tired smile that barely reached her eyes. “Hi.”
Elizabeth smiled back, soft and maternal, before lowering herself onto the sofa beside her. She didn’t sit across from her, she sat shoulder to shoulder, close enough that their sleeves brushed. Without saying anything, she reached over and took one of (Name)’s hands into both of hers, warming it between her palms.
“My goodness” Elizabeth murmured, studying her face. “Sweetheart, you look exhausted.”
(Name) let out a quiet breath that almost sounded like a laugh. “I am.”
Elizabeth rubbed slow circles across the back of her hand. “I know.”
For a little while they simply sat together. It was one of the few things (Name) appreciated about the older woman. She understood why Michael was so close to her, how could you not?
Eventually, Elizabeth inhaled softly. “I need to ask you something.”
(Name) looked over at her. The change in Elizabeth’s voice was subtle, but enough that her stomach tightened instinctively. “What is it?”
Elizabeth’s expression remained kind, though there was a seriousness behind it now that hadn’t been there before.
“I think…” she began carefully, choosing each word with obvious care, “,,I think it’s time we talked about having an intervention.”
The room seemed to lose all of its sound and (Name) blinked once, then again.
“No.” The answer came so quickly it surprised even her.
Elizabeth didn’t react, he simply continued holding her hand.
(Name) shook her head, her brows knitting together. “No. Absolutely not.”
She looked away toward the windows again. “He’s exhausted.” Her voice was quiet now, almost pleading. “Everything that’s happened these last few months..” She swallowed. “Anyone would be exhausted.”
“I know,” Elizabeth said gently.
“He’s under more pressure than anybody should ever have to carry--He isn’t..” (Name) searched for the words, shaking her head again. “He isn’t one of those people.”
Elizabeth tilted her head slightly. “What people, sweetheart?”
(Name)’s fingers tightened unconsciously around Elizabeth’s.
“The people you see on television.” Her eyes stayed fixed on the rain-speckled glass. “The ones whose lives completely fall apart.” She laughed once under her breath, though there wasn’t any humor in it. She knew she probably sounded ignorant, but at this point she didn't care. Her husband didn’t.. he didn’t belong in rehab like some addict. That wasn’t a thing, that wasn’t real. Come on, this was her Michael they’re talking about.
Elizabeth waited.
“He has prescriptions,” (Name) said quickly, as though she’d finally found the argument that mattered. “Doctors gave them to him. He’s in pain, Elizabeth.”
Elizabeth’s thumb continued its slow, absent circles over the back of her hand. “I know, my love. You don’t have to convince me.” Every answer was the same. Never argumentative or dismissive. Just heartbreakingly understanding.
(Name) felt tears beginning to sting behind her eyes.
“He just needs everything else to stop,” She whispered. “If these allegations had never happened.. if everyone would just leave him the fuck alone!” Her voice cracked. “He’d be okay!”
Elizabeth was quiet for several long seconds then she turned just enough to fully face her. “Sweetheart.”
(Name) looked up.
“Do you believe that?” The question settled between them.
(Name) opened her mouth but nothing came out. She wanted to say yes. She wanted to believe it with every part of herself. Instead, she looked back down at their joined hands.
Elizabeth spoke again, her voice scarcely above a whisper. “When was the last time he slept through the night?”
(Name)’s eyes closed. “..I don’t remember.”
“When was the last time he finished a meal without you reminding him to eat?”
Silence.
Elizabeth wasn’t interrogating her; she was grieving with her. “When was the last time you saw him smile because he felt happy..”
She paused. “..and not because he was trying to convince you he was?”
A tear quietly down (Name)’s cheek and Elizabeth reached up, brushing it away with the back of her fingers. “I’m not asking you to pass judgement on him.”
(Name)’s breathing had begun to shake. “I’m asking you to be honest with yourself.”
“I..” Her voice broke completely. “I don’t want him to think I’ve given up on him.”
“Oh, sweetheart.” Elizabeth’s eyes glistened. “This isn’t giving up on him.”
(Name) finally looked at her. “It feels like it.”
“No.” Elizabeth gently squeezed both of her hands. “It feels like you’re admitting that loving him isn’t the same thing as being able to save him.”
Those words struck somewhere so deep that (Name) winced. For months she had convinced herself that if she stayed patient enough, gentle enough, attentive enough, eventually he’d find his way back to himself.
She had loved him harder every single day.. she had stayed awake through the nightmares.
Counted pills.
Run baths.
Held him while he cried.
Sat beside him through meetings.
Reminded him to eat.
Reminded him to sleep.
Reminded him that none of this changed who he was.
If love could have healed him.. he would have been healed months ago. The realization settled over her so quietly she almost didn’t notice herself beginning to cry.
Elizabeth wrapped an arm around her shoulders without another word and (Name) folded into her immediately, burying her face against Elizabeth’s shoulder as months of fear finally caught up with her.
“I just want my husband back,” She sobbed, hiccuping.
Elizabeth closed her eyes, holding her a little tighter.
“I know, sweetheart.” Her own voice trembled. “I want him back too.”
That conversation had been eight weeks ago.
Eight weeks since she’d watched him zip up a suitcase she wished had never needed packing.
Eight weeks since she’d stood in the driveway with one hand tucked into his coat, trying to memorize the feeling of him before he disappeared behind tinted windows and boarded a plane bound for Europe.
Eight weeks he’d been away from home.
Some days she counted them. Other days she tried very hard not to.
The house had settled into a strange quiet without him. His slippers still sat where he’d kicked them off weeks earlier because she couldn’t bring herself to move them. His favorite sweater remained folded over the arm of the sofa. His piano downstairs gathered a thin layer of dust no one dared wipe away. Every room still carried traces of him, little reminders that he belonged there, while the only place he actually was sat thousands of miles across an ocean she couldn’t simply cross whenever she missed him.
She kept herself busy because she had to.
There was still a little boy who needed breakfast every morning. Baths every evening. Stories before bed. Aladdin had begun asking for his daddy in the innocent way only toddlers could, toddling over to the front door some afternoons after hearing a car outside, convinced for one hopeful second that this time it would be him. He was a little over one years old now, she can’t believe how quickly time flies
Each time, she’d scoop him into her arms. “Daddy’s getting better, sweetheart.” The words never became easier to say but she hoped one day they’d become true.
Every afternoon, usually around the same time once Aladdin had gone down for his nap, she’d reach for the telephone. It became part of her routine as naturally as brushing her teeth. She knew the number by heart now.
Sometimes the phone rang long enough that she caught herself holding her breath but when the phone picked up it was never Michael.
The conversations had become painfully familiar.
“I’m sorry, Mrs. Jackson. He’s unavailable right now.”
Or..
“He’s resting.”
Another day..
“He’s with his doctors at the moment.”
Then..
“It’s not a good time.”
The reasons changed and none of them made much sense. If he was resting yesterday, surely, he’d be awake today. If he was with doctors this afternoon, why couldn’t he call her back that evening? Once, someone told her he’d stepped outside. She found herself staring at the receiver after the call ended, wondering how someone could step outside and somehow stay there for three days.
She never argued or demanded to be put through. Never raised her voice. She simply thanked whoever answered, hung up gently, and told herself she’d try again tomorrow.
Tomorrow always sounded more hopeful than today.
On the days they did manage to connect, she treasured every minute she was given, even when the conversations never lasted very long.
She’d ask if he was sleeping any better.
If he was eating.
If the doctors were kind to him.
If they were taking good care of him.
She’d tell him about Aladdin learning a new word, or how he’d nearly toppled over trying to chase one of the peacocks that wandered the grounds, smiling through tears Michael couldn’t see as she painted little pictures of home she hoped might make him feel less alone.
“I miss you,” She’d tell him softly. “So does your little boy.”
There would almost always be a pause that felt like listening for someone standing at the other end of a long tunnel.
Then his voice would come back, quieter than she remembered.
“I miss you too.”
Or…
“Give him a kiss for me.”
Sometimes that was all. Sometimes before she had the chance to tell him she loved him, another voice would gently explain that their time was up.
She’d thank them, set the receiver back into its cradle.
Then sit there for a little while longer anyway, her fingertips still resting against the telephone as though somehow it remained connected to him. She never once considered that the distance between them wasn’t only measured in miles. It never crossed her mind that the unanswered calls weren’t always because he was asleep, or in treatment, or meeting with doctors.
She believed every explanation they gave her because she wanted to.
Because the alternative was too painful to imagine.
She didn’t know that, somewhere in Europe, the sound of the telephone ringing had become something he sometimes asked not to hear at all.
The phone remained stubbornly silent for another four days.
By the fifth, (Name) had stopped pretending she wasn’t waiting for it.
She carried the cordless handset from room to room without realizing she was doing it, setting it beside her while she folded tiny pairs of Aladdin’s pajamas, balancing it on the bathroom counter while she washed her face, leaving it on the kitchen island while she picked absently at toast that had gone cold long before she’d taken a second bite. Every sound outside made her glance toward the front windows. Every time the phone rang, her heart launched itself into her throat before sinking again when another familiar voice greeted her instead.
By late afternoon, she felt wound so tightly she thought she might snap.
She stared at the telephone for nearly a full minute before finally dialing Elizabeth’s number.
It rang once.
“Hello?” Elizabeth’s warm, unmistakable voice filled the line. “Sweetheart?”
(Name) opened her mouth to answer, but nothing came out except an uneven breath. She hadn’t even realized she’d started crying until she tasted salt on her lips. “..Hi.”
“Oh, honey,” Elizabeth said gently. “What’s happened?”
(Name) pressed trembling fingers against her forehead, closing her eyes as she slowly sank into one of the kitchen chairs. The room suddenly felt too bright. “I.. I’m sorry.”
“What are you apologizing for?”
“I shouldn’t be calling you like this.”
Elizabeth’s voice softened even further. “You can call me however you need to.” That kindness almost made everything worse.
(Name) laughed weakly through another shaky breath, wiping beneath her eyes with the heel of her hand. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me.”
Elizabeth simply asked, “Tell me.”
(Name) looked toward the nursery down the hallway where she could hear the faint hiss of the baby monitor. “I can’t stop thinking about him. I keep telling myself he’s exactly where he needs to be.” She nodded to herself as though trying to make the words feel true. “I know they’re helping him. I know this is supposed to take time. I know all of that.”
Her breathing caught painfully in the middle of the sentence. “But…” She pressed a hand flat against the center of her chest. “I just…” Her voice dropped to almost nothing. “I have this terrible.. terrible feeling.”
Elizabeth remained quiet. “What kind of feeling, sweetheart?”
“I don’t know.” (Name) stood abruptly from the chair and began pacing across the kitchen, one arm wrapped tightly around her waist while the other held the phone against her ear. “That’s what’s scaring me.” She shook her head. “I don’t know what it is.”
Her breathing had become noticeably uneven now. “It feels like..” She searched helplessly for words. “Like something’s wrong.”
Elizabeth listened.
“I know he’s in treatment and I know this isn’t supposed to be easy. But every time I call..” (Name) stopped walking, staring blankly out the kitchen window. “..there’s another reason.”
Her voice trembled. “He’s resting.” She swallowed. “He’s with his doctors.” Another shaky breath. “They’ll let him know I called.”
She laughed once, though it sounded hollow. “It just.. it never makes any sense.”
Elizabeth’s brows furrow in confusion on the other end of the line. “So, you haven’t been able to speak with him much?”
(Name)’s shoulders slowly slumped. “No..”
“How often?”
“I don’t..” She frowned, trying to remember. “I don’t even know anymore.” She rubbed tiredly at one eye. “When I do get him..” She whispered, “It’s only for a few minutes.” Her throat tightened. “He sounds so far away.”
(Name) continued to speak. “I don’t even care if we don’t talk about anything important.” She laughed through another sob. “I’d listen to him tell me what he had for lunch if it meant hearing his voice for five more minutes.”
Elizabeth’s expression shifted and silence settled between them. Then absentmindedly, (Name) asked, “..When was the last time you talked to him?”
Elizabeth sounded genuinely puzzled by the question. “Honey, we’ve been talking fairly regularly.”
(Name) blinked. “What?”
“I’ve been checking in on him. I actually spoke to him today.. which is why I’m so confused to hear this..”
Everything inside (Name) seemed to stop. “…Today?”
“Yes.” Elizabeth nodded. “We had a lovely conversation.”
(Name) didn’t answer.
“It must’ve been..” Elizabeth thought aloud. “Nearly two hours, I suppose.”
Two hours.
The words echoed through her mind and her grip tightened around the receiver until her fingers ached.
Two hours.
She couldn’t remember the last time Michael had spoken to her for longer than ten minutes.
“…He…” Her lips barely moved. “He talked…” Her heartbeat became deafening. “…for two hours?”
Elizabeth’s heart drops a bit. “…(Name)? My love? Let me give him a call, okay? I’m sure this is just a misunderstanding...”
The kitchen blurred around her. The walls suddenly felt too close. Air refused to reach her lungs no matter how deeply she inhaled. Somewhere on the other end of the line, Elizabeth was still speaking, her voice growing increasingly concerned.
“Sweetheart?”
“(Name)?”
“Talk to me.. Please talk to me, I’m on my way.”
She couldn’t hear anything except the blood rushing through her ears. With trembling fingers, she lowered the receiver from her ear, and she stared at it for one long, disbelieving moment. Then she pressed the button.
The line went dead.
The silence that followed was suffocating as she remained standing in the middle of the kitchen, the disconnected phone hanging uselessly at her side while tears slipped silently down her face.
He had spent two hours talking to someone else.
And suddenly, for the first time since he’d left for Europe, a thought entered her mind that she had refused to entertain before.
Maybe the person he was avoiding…
…was her.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤ⋆ㅤㅤEarly 1994.
⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ㅤㅤㅤ╰ㅤ Neverland Ranch, Los Olivos, California.
When Michael was released from treatment, (Name) truly believed the hardest part was finally over. She held onto that belief with both hands because she had to. It was the only thing that had carried her through the endless weeks he’d spent in Europe, through the unanswered phone calls, the sleepless nights, the ache of watching Aladdin toddle around without his dad. She told herself that rehabilitation didn’t end the day someone walked out of the building. He would need time. Space. Patience. She could give him all of those things. God knew she’d already given him everything else. She washed the sheets on their bed before he was due to return. She asked the kitchen staff to stock the pantry with all the little things he’d missed while he was away. She even caught herself smiling one afternoon while folding one of his sweaters, thinking how nice it would feel to complain about finding his socks scattered across the bedroom floor again. For the first time in months, hope felt safe enough to exist. Things would go back to normal.
He never came home.
At first, nothing seemed particularly unusual. A day passed, then another. There were explanations, always reasonable enough that she never questioned them. He was resting. The doctors wanted him to ease back into daily life slowly. Travel would take some time. She accepted every answer with the same quiet understanding she’d carried throughout the last year because that was what loving Michael had often required, faith in circumstances she couldn’t control. Every morning she still called without fail and every evening she called again if she hadn’t heard from him. Nothing changed, it was the same few excuses. She was told he’d stepped out. Other times he’d already gone to bed.
Occasionally she managed to hear his voice, but even those conversations seemed to disappear before they’d properly begun. He sounded distant, exhausted, like every word cost him something to speak to her. She asked the usual, if he was eating. If he was sleeping. If he needed anything from home. She told him she loved him. She told him Aladdin had started stringing little sentences together now, that he’d learned to point at photographs and proudly say, “Daddy.” Michael answered kindly enough, but there was always something absent underneath it all, as though part of him had already drifted somewhere she couldn’t follow. She was afraid of bringing up her concerns about his communication, especially since learning he was present with other people. How could she? He.. he was kind enough to take her call, and besides, she missed him too much to potentially mess up her few chances to talk to him. So, she ignored it. Her time with him couldn't even settle into the comfort of simply hearing him breathe before another voice would gently interrupt, telling him someone needed him, that another appointment was beginning, or something. The line would click dead, and she’d sit there holding the receiver against her ear for another minute anyway, staring into nothing.
Days quietly became weeks. One week became two, then three, until she realized she’d stopped marking the calendar altogether because looking at the dates only made the silence feel heavier. The house had become unbearably still without him. His slippers remained tucked beneath their side of the bed because she couldn’t bear to move them. His piano sat untouched, gathering the thinnest layer of dust no one dared wipe away because wiping it meant they were wiping him away. Even Neverland itself seemed to notice his absence. The laughter that usually drifted across the grounds had disappeared, replaced by long stretches of quiet broken only by the distant carousel or the soft chatter of staff trying not to speak too loudly. Aladdin babbled for him constantly. Every answer she gave grew a little weaker than the last. “Soon,” she’d whisper, kissing the top of his head while silently begging God not to make a liar out of her.
By the fifth week, something inside her had begun to change. Hope unraveled slowly, thread by thread, each unanswered call loosening another piece until she found herself lying awake at three in the morning, staring at the empty space beside her where Michael should have been, unable to silence the dreadful feeling settling deeper into her chest. It wasn’t anger. It wasn’t even resentment. It was fear. Quiet, instinctive fear. The kind that arrived without explanation and refused to leave. She couldn’t shake the feeling that something had shifted while he’d been away, that somehow, she’d lost him without realizing the exact moment it happened. She just didn’t know yet that the silence wasn’t accidental. It was a choice.
By the sixth week, she had stopped asking herself when he was coming home.
Instead, she found herself asking why he wasn’t.
The question followed her everywhere. It lingered while she stood at the kitchen sink washing dishes she hadn’t dirtied, while she folded laundry that still smelled faintly of his cologne, while she rocked Aladdin back to sleep in the middle of the night. She turned every conversation they’d had over and over inside her mind until she could practically recite them from memory, searching for something she’d missed. Had she said something wrong? Had she pushed too hard? Not enough? Had she spent so much time trying to keep him alive that she’d forgotten how to simply be his wife? Every answer only led to another question, each one crueler than the last.
Then, as though the silence itself hadn’t already hollowed her out, the news found her anyway. It wasn’t Michael who told her, not a phone call or even a conversation. It was another headline. Another photograph. Another piece of her life handed to the public before it had ever been offered to her.
Someone had seen him in Las Vegas.
Not alone.
With Lisa.
Eight days.
Eight days that stretched across newspapers and entertainment programs with the same relentless appetite that had consumed every other private moment of their lives. Restaurants. Casinos. Hotel entrances. Smiling. Talking. Walking side by side with their hands held as though the weight of the previous year had somehow become light enough to carry in someone else’s company.
(Name) stared at the photographs until they blurred together.
For eight weeks she’d been told, directly or indirectly, that he was too fragile. Too exhausted. Too unwell to hold a conversation with the woman who had stood beside him through allegations, investigations, lawyers, hospitals, intervention meetings, sleepless nights, withdrawal, and rehabilitation.
Ghosted her for six weeks after his release.
Yet somehow, he’d found eight days for another woman.
Something inside her finally gave way.
The first drink came almost absentmindedly. A glass of wine she poured while dinner sat untouched in front of her, thinking it might finally silence the noise in her head long enough to sleep. But of course, it didn’t.
The second night, she poured another.
By the end of the week, she had stopped bothering with glasses altogether and opted for drinking straight from the bottle. She discovered alcohol did one thing remarkably well. For a little while, it made her numb. It softened the endless loop of unanswered questions. It dulled the image of those photographs long enough that she could breathe without feeling like her chest was caving in. It hushed the instinct that still made her glance toward the front door every time she heard a car outside.
Morning always punished her for it. She’d wake with pounding headaches, swollen eyes, and the same emptiness waiting faithfully beside her the moment she opened them. Nothing had changed. Michael was still gone. The bed was still half empty. The phone still refused to ring.
So every evening, when the house finally grew quiet and Aladdin had fallen asleep upstairs, she’d wander into the kitchen almost without thinking. The bottle had become as much a part of her nightly routine as locking the doors or turning off the lights. She hated herself a little more each time she reached for it.
She drank because it was easier than feeling everything. She drank because the silence was louder sober. She drank because she couldn’t survive every night with the version of him she loved walking endlessly through her memories, while the man still alive somewhere in the world seemed to want nothing to do with her anymore.
It happened on an ordinary afternoon. The moment where she died. If her Michael left her in ’93, then she followed soon after in ’94.
There was no warning. No phone call asking if she was home. No request to meet. No conversation she could cling to afterward and tell herself at least they’d tried.
Just a knock at the front door.
She almost didn’t answer it herself. One of the house staff had been busy with Aladdin, so she crossed the foyer without thinking, smoothing the sleeves of her sweater as she reached for the handle.
The man standing outside wore an apologetic expression she didn’t understand until he asked her name. “Miss (Name)?”
“Yes?”
“I need you to sign for these.”
She accepted the large envelope automatically, thanked him then closed the door.
For several seconds, she simply stood there in the middle of the foyer, turning it over in her hands. Her name was typed neatly across the front in stark black letters. No handwriting. No familiarity. Nothing to suggest it had come from the man who had once traced that same name across birthday cards with hearts and little notes left beside her pillow.
Something deep inside her already knew. Her fingers trembled as she slid the papers free. The first page was enough. She didn’t make it past the title before the packet slipped from her hands, scattering crisp white pages across the polished floor like they weighed nothing at all.
Her knees nearly buckled. “No..”
The word escaped before she’d even realized she’d spoken. “No..”
She shook her head, staring at the papers, hoping they might rearrange themselves into something else if she looked long enough.
This couldn’t be how it happened. Not after everything that’s happened. Not after the allegations. After the meetings. The sleepless nights. Rehab. Not after standing beside him when the entire world had seemed determined to tear him apart.
Not like this.
Her breathing became shallow. Fast. And suddenly she stumbled backward before turning blindly toward the nearest bathroom, one hand clamped over her mouth as panic climbed so violently through her body it made her dizzy. She barely reached the sink.
The first wave came without warning.
A clammy gripped the porcelain so hard her knuckles burned as everything in her stomach came up in painful, emptying heaves. Tears blurred her vision until she couldn’t tell where the sink ended and the room began.
When there was nothing left, her body kept trying anyway.
Again. Again. Again.
She collapsed onto the cold tile floor, coughing so hard her chest hurt, one hand pressed against her sternum as though she could physically hold herself together.
Everything she’d known since twenty. Her mentor. Her protector. Her best friend. Her husband. Her fucking soul.
Her life was seemingly being severed over black and white.
Michael didn’t even give her the respect of a conversation or an explanation. Not even goodbye?
Just a case number.
She curled forward until her forehead rested against the edge of the bathtub, shaking so violently she could hardly catch her breath. Somewhere else in the house she could hear Aladdin laughing at something, blissfully unaware that only a few rooms away, their world had just been split cleanly down the middle.
(Name) had survived watching the world try to destroy her husband.
But she wasn’t sure she would survive discovering he had chosen to leave her himself.
waittt i just had the cutest idea for daughter!reader 😭 imagine it’s during history tour, michael is rehearsing in a dance studio, and reader who’s like 5-6 years old is there with him and throughout practice michael notices that’s she’s watching him intently and then at some point she gets up, stands next to him and tries to repeat his dance moves. it’s clumsy of course but he can see real talent there 🥹 idk i think it would make him so emotional to realise that his child might be showing interest in something he’s so passionate about 💔
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Michael x daughter! reader
Summary: Michael is rehearsing and he brought. Eventually you started copying his dance moves and Michael notices.
The dance studio echoed with pounding bass. "Again!" Michael clapped once, breathing hard as the music restarted. The dancers fell back into formation. Sweat glistened under the fluorescent lights as mirrors reflected dozens of moving bodies.
Near the corner of the room sat you with your legs crossed on the hardwood floor, five years old with riny sneaker and tiny denim overalls. A stuffed rabbit tucked under one arm. You've been perfectly quiet for nearly two hours.
Every now and then someone from the crew would offer you juice or a snack. You politely say, "No thank you." Your eyes never left your daddy, Michael noticed. Every time rehearsal paused, he'd glance toward the corner and see his daughter watching, he smiled to himself. "My little angel"
One of the dancers chuckled."She's got your focus." Michael laughed softly."She's always watching." The music started again. Michael spun sharply, every movement precise.
When rehearsal ended, everyone reached for water bottles. Michael grabbed a towel, wiping his face. "You all take five." As dancers scattered around the studio, he looked toward the corner.
You weren't sitting anymore, you were standing right in front of the mirror. Michael leaned against the wall, curious. "What's my baby doing?"
He was watching as you planted your tiny feet exactly where he'd been standing, copying him. Well, trying. You spun too fast and nearly tipped over, you caught yourself with a little giggle. Michael covered his mouth to hide a smile.
"Oh..." You frowned at your own reflection. "No." You shook your head. "Daddy did it better." You tried again. You bent your knees first, then turned.
Still wobbly. One of the dancers noticed. "Oh my gosh." Another turned around, "look." Half the room had quietly stopped talking.
Nobody wanted to interrupt. Michael stayed exactly where he was, watching you.
You weren't copying random movements. You were listening to the rhythm and waiting for the beat just like your dad did. You were trying ying again whenever you made a mistake.
His chest tightened. "She hears it." One of the choreographers looked over. "What?" Michael's eyes never left his little girl. "The music." He smiled to himself.
"She hears it." You noticed everyone staring, you froze. "Oh." Your tiny face turned warm. "Sorry."
Michael walked over. "No, sweetheart." He knelt until you both were eye level. "What are you apologizing for?" You looked down at your shoes. "I was copying." "You were?" You nodded.
"I wanted to dance like you." His heart nearly melted. "You did?" You shrugged shyly. "I like watching you." He smiled so warmly it made the dancers around them grin too.
"You know" He gently tucked a curl behind your ear. "That's the nicest thing anyone's ever said to me." You beamed. "Really?" He nodded. "Really."
You looked up hopefully. "Was I good?" Michael pretended to think very seriously. "Hmm..." You waited. "You know what I saw?" "What?"
"I saw someone who kept trying." You blinked. "You didn't stop after you got wobbly." He smiled. "You stood right back up." You nodded proudly. "'Cause that's what you do." Michael looked at you in surprise. "I've seen you." You pointed toward the mirror. "You mess up sometimes." The dancers burst into laughter. Michael covered his face dramatically. "Oh, now everybody knows."
"You say..." you scrunched up your face, trying to imitate him, "'One more time!'" The room erupted. One dancer laughed so hard he nearly dropped his water bottle, Michael pointed at her. "That is exactly what I sound like, isn't it?" The choreographer nodded.
"Every single rehearsal." You giggled. "You don't get mad, you just try again." Michael smiled softly, he placed a hand over his heart. "I do." You leaned against him. "So I tried again too. He couldn't answer.He looked at you, his little girl.
Just wanted to dance. because you loved watching your daddy dance. His eyes became shiny. One of the dancers whispered, "Uh-oh." Another smiled. "He's getting emotional." Michael laughed quietly, wiping beneath his eye. "I'm fine."
"No, you're not." You tilted your head. "Daddy?" He looked down. "Yes, honey?" "Why are your eyes all sparkly?" The room went silent, Michael smiled.
"Because" He gently cupped your tiny face. "Sometimes your heart gets so happy" He tapped his chest. "That it leaks out of your eyes." You gasped. "My heart can do that?" "Oh, absolutely."
You pressed both little hands against your chest. "I think mine's happy too." Michael let out the smallest laugh. "I think it is."You looked toward the mirror again. "Can you teach me?" His breath caught. "What did you say?"
"Can you teach me to dance?" You smiled up at him with complete innocence. "Please, Daddy?" Michael stood and held out his hand. "Come here, baby girl." You slipped your tiny hand into his. He guided you to the center of the studio. "Okay."
He crouched beside you. "First rule." You listened. "You don't dance with your feet." You frowned. "You don't?" He gently touched one finger to the middle of your chest. "You dance from here."
"My tummy?" He laughed. "A little higher." "My heart?" He smiled. "Exactly." You nodded serious. "My heart dances."
"It certainly does, sunshine." He stood beside you in front of the mirror. "Now" He held one hand out. "Follow me." Very slowly, he demonstrated the first few steps. You accidentally slid too far and bumped into his leg. "Oh!" Michael caught you before you could stumble. You burst into giggles. "I crashed into you!" "You did."
"I'm sorry." He scooped you into his arms as though she weighed nothing. "No apologizing." He kissed the top of your head. "My little star" You wrapped your arms around his neck. "Did I make you proud?" Michael held you a little tighter. "More than you'll ever know." He rested his forehead against yours. "You know my favorite part?" "What?"
"You smiled the whole time." You grinned wider. "'Cause dancing makes me happy." Michael looked at you for a long moment before whispering, "Then promise me something." "What, Daddy?"
"No matter what happens when you grow up" He kissed your forehead. "Always dance because it makes you happy." You nodded. "I promise." He smiled.
He bounced you once in his arms and laughed. "Now"He looked toward the dancers. "Who's ready to see if my little angel can teach me something?"
The entire studio applauded as you buried your face in your father's shoulder, giggling while he spun you around the rehearsal floor as though they were the only two people in the room.
꒰ঌ welcome to brown suga letters ໒꒱
every love note, late-night confession, and Michael Jackson daydream I’ve written so far.
requests: open 🫶🏾
minors: do not interact with mature content
current eras: otw, thriller, bad, dangerous, history, invincible, mature
note: I don’t always write requests in order. I go where the inspiration hits so I can give each idea its best version. Only writing Michael for the time being unless inspiration spikes.
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𝜗𝜚 series
✧ Let’s Go Half
dangerous era, domestic michael, pregnancy, family, softness
part one ⋆ part two ⋆ part three ⋆ part four
✧ Can We Get It Together
dangerous era, relationship angst, emotional repair, grown love
part one ⋆ part two
✧ Girlfriend
thriller era, best friends, jealousy, emotional mess
part one ⋆ part two ⋆ part three
✧ Somebody Else's
mature era, married reader, emotional cheating, emotional mess
part one ⋆ part two ⋆ part three
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𝜗𝜚 one shots by era
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𝜗𝜚 otw era
✧ coming soon
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𝜗𝜚 thriller era
✧ Little Pieces of Her
fluff, girlfriend reader
✧ The Lady In My Life
fluff, best friend reader
✧ Are We Still Good?
fluff/angst, girlfriend reader
✧ Workin' Day and Night
fluff/angst, girlfriend reader
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𝜗𝜚 bad era
✧ The First Person I Wanted To Tell
fluff, best friend/employee reader
✧ Inside These Four Walls
fluff, girlfriend reader
✧ Love Never Felt So Good (18+)
smut, girlfriend reader
✧ Give In To Me (18+)
smut, girlfriend reader
✧ Soon As I Get Home (18+)
smut, girlfriend reader
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𝜗𝜚 dangerous era
✧ Best Birthday Ever (18+)
smut, girlfriend reader
✧ Good Fish (18+)
smut, wife reader
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𝜗𝜚 history era
✧ Pretty Young Thing (18+)
smut, post-history era, girlfriend reader
✧ Anything For Mrs. Jackson (18+)smut, wife reader
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𝜗𝜚 invincible era
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✧ Jibbitz In His Crocs (Drabble)
fluff, younger girlfriend reader
SYNOPSIS: Reader learns about Michael's little nickname for pretty women, and now he's in the doghouse. Can he make it up to her?
CONTENT: smut, 18+, fluff, NO MINORS, descriptive dirty talk, needy!Michael, soft-dom Michael, physical affection, dangerous era!Michael, era 1991, wife!reader
Author's Note: Hi babies 💕 so this was inspired by a video I saw of Mike at the mall fishing lol. I had to write something warm and fuzzy about it, and I love a lil Marlon/Mikey moment. Enjoy 💕
The third time that you passed by Michael without letting him touch you, he knew something was off.
He was miserable.
It seemed like you were doing everything except speaking to him. As of right now, you were cooking dinner. Michael had followed you into the kitchen like a lost puppy. He had tried wrapping his arms around your waist while you stood at the stove. Kissing on you. Of course, you'd shrugged him off with a stern,
"Boy stop. I'm busy."
Sighing, Michael leaned back against the counter behind you, watching your every move.
"What did I do, baby?" he asked softly. "Why aren't you talking to me?"
The hurt in his voice almost made you give in. Almost. Until you remembered what started this whole mess.
Two days ago, it had been movie night. Michael had been upstairs on the phone with Frank while you rummaged through the cabinet beneath the television, searching for a VHS tape the two of you hadn't watched a hundred times already.
Your fingers landed on one labeled neatly in Michael's handwriting.
Michael with Fans — October 1990.
Curious, you smiled to yourself and slid it into the VCR.
Seeing Michael's public persona had always fascinated you because it was so different from the man you knew behind closed doors. The world knew Michael Jackson. You knew Mike.
The screen flickered from blue static to grainy camcorder footage. Michael stood in the middle of a shopping mall, absolutely surrounded by screaming fans. He laughed, signed autographs, hugged little kids, kissed grandmothers on the cheek. It was sweet.
Then he looked toward the cameraman and said—
"Let's go over here... there's some more good fish over here."
You blinked.
"What the hell...fish?"
On the television, Michael immediately made his way toward another group of beautiful women, reaching for one of their hands before posing for a picture. Your eyebrows slowly rose in disbelief.
"...Hold up."
You rewound the tape.
Click.
"Let's go over here... there's some more good fish over here."
You stared at the television.
"...Fish?"
Another rewind. Clicked play.
"...There's some more good fish over here."
Your jaw slowly dropped.
"Hell naw."
When the tape finished, you ejected it so hard it nearly flew out of the VCR. Absolutely not. Marching straight to the phone, you dialed the first Jackson brother that came to mind. The one who knew everything there was to know about Michael. They were practically twins.
The phone rang twice.
"Marlon speaking."
"What does fish mean? And don't lie."
Silence trilled through the receiver.
"...Marlon?"
More silence and then Marlon sighed.
"...Mike done got himself in trouble, huh?"
"What does it mean, Marlon?" Another pause. You were tapping your foot impatiently, growing tired of waiting.
"...It's what we used to call pretty girls."
Your eye twitched. Suspicions confirmed.
"...Excuse me?"
"I mean—"
"So he was fishin'?"
"No!" Marlon barked, already laughing. "No, no, not like that!"
"Then why was he walkin’ over there talking about, 'there's some more good fish over here?'"
Marlon had absolutely no defense. His brother was caught.
"...See... when you say it out loud like that..."
"It sound crazy, don't it?"
"...Lil bit."
You thanked your brother-in-law, hung up the phone, and walked upstairs without another word. No movie night. No cuddling. No goodnight kisses for Michael. Nothing.
Now, two days later...
Michael Jackson had absolutely no idea why his wife wouldn't speak to him.
Later that afternoon, Michael again sauntered into a room he knew you inhabited. He gazed at you quietly for a moment, large doe eyes watching you carefully and waiting patiently like a good boy to be acknowledged.
Early afternoon glow began to settle over the room, highlighting your features with a soft golden warmth. You were seated at the kitchen table reading a new book. You sensed his presence. Like you always did. But you refused to raise your focus from your book.
You were a stubborn woman, he had to admit. Once you committed to something, you’d burn the house down with yourself in it. So, he brushed his lips against the back of your neck and gave a soft “I love you”, laying down your favorite flowers on the table next to you.
You hummed in approval,
“Thank you, they’re beautiful.” The phrase came out simply. No kiss or smile attached. No reinforcement for Michael. Sulking, Michael silently retreated from the room.
He needed advice.
“She won’t talk to me for nothin’” Michael was exasperated, rubbing his hands up and down his face frustratedly. He hated being ignored. Especially by you. You were quite literally his favorite person on the planet, other than his mother.
He was so desperate that he’d driven to his sister’s place, praying she had some insight.
La Toya continued to organize her closet, bustling about as she listened to Michael’s woes.
“Women don’t give you the silent treatment for this long, Mike. Somethin’ happened.”
“I haven’t done anything! I’m so lost.” The poor man was needy for your attention, and he couldn’t get to the root of the problem.
His sister was no help. So, he wandered to Marlon’s next. Really just bored and looking for companionship.
“What’s wrong Mike, you in the dog house?” Marlon pulled his brother in for a hug, patting him on the back gingerly. Michael rarely stopped by unannounced. Usually when he did, something had been troubling him.
Michael sulked over to the couch, plopping down with a sigh.
“I don’t even know WHY”
Unbeknownst to Michael, immediately his brother became fidgety and nervous. Uh oh.
“She won’t even let me touch her.” Michael whimpered, dropping his face into his hands.
Marlon scratched the back of his neck and looked away, eyes growing wide. He remembered his last call with you. Very well.
“Soooo… hypothetically… if a man got caught calling women fish by his woman…”
Immediately Michael’s head snapped toward Marlon.
“What you mean?” Michael’s eye contact never left his brothers, burning a hole in the side of his profile as Marlon feigned distraction and gazed in the opposite direction.
“I’m just saying. Hypothetically.”
Slowly, Michael’s eyes widened. He didn’t. He wouldn’t.
“She talked to you? And you didn’t tell me?” Under the pressure Marlon cracked. He immediately held his hands up in surrender as his brother shoved him.
“I ain’t say nothin’!”
“You told her!”
“I didn’t tell her!” Marlon exclaimed, now dissolving into a fit of giggles.
Michael stood up, officially agitated.
“You supposed to be my brother, and you’re telling my girl our secrets. Come on man” Michael rolled his eyes, of course this was Marlon’s fault. Marlon continued to explain himself through broken laughs.
“I’m her friend too, Mike!”
“I’m leaving.” Michael grumbled.
“C’mon Mike, just apologize.” Marlon said, laughter dying down. “You did call them fish.”
“So did you, but did I tell Carol!”
“Hey, this ain’t about me!”
“Bye Marlon” Michael grumbled, finally making his way toward the door. His brother’s giggles followed him out the front door, further agitating him.
When Michael finally arrived back home, he closed the front door behind him silently. His head dropped against the door behind him as he sighed heavily. He was in trouble.
He found you in the kitchen, he hadn't bothered to call out to you. He had grown used to your sweet voice not answering him when he was looking for you.
But when he found you, he felt a very familiar heat building in the pit of his stomach. There you were, standing at the kitchen sink and absentmindedly humming a tune. Michael’s eyes trailed up your figure, admiring the way the sundress you wore perfectly hugged your body, framing your hips and cutting just above your ankles to expose your pretty anklets. Your ass raised in the hair as you leaned over to grab more dish soap.
The kitchen smelled like lemon dish soap and the faint trace of the smothered greens you’d made earlier, the radio in the living room still playing Luther Vandross low and slow like it knew what was coming. You stood at the sink in that soft little yellow dress—the one that always made Michael’s eyes go heavy—scrubbing the last plate, warm water up to your wrists, hips swaying just a little to the music without even thinking about it.
You didn’t hear him at first. But you felt him. That solid heat sliding up behind you, chest to your back, the familiar weight of his arms wrapping around your waist like he’d been starving for the shape of you all day. His nose brushed the side of your neck, breath already shaky.
This time, you didn’t pull away.
“Been watchin’ you all day, baby” he muttered, voice low and rough from hours of holding back. “All evenin’. Makin’ the bed, foldin’ clothes, standin’ here doin’ these damn dishes like you ain’t the finest thing I ever seen. Got me hard just lookin’ at you, girl.”
You felt it then—thick and insistent, pressing against the curve of your ass through his loose black slacks. He rolled his hips once, slow and deliberate, letting you feel every inch of him already straining, already leaking. The grind was filthy, unhurried, like he had all night to ruin you right here against the sink.
“Mike…” you whispered, fingers still curled around a wet plate. He didn’t answer with words. Just another deep grind, cock sliding heavy between your cheeks. One big hand slid down to fist the hem of your dress and yanked it up over the swell of your ass in one smooth motion. The cool air kissed your skin for half a second before his palm was there, squeezing, spreading you open like he owned it.
“I missed you all day, baby…”
It was muttered on a sharp exhale as he bent you forward over the edge of the sink, your chest pressing into the counter, water splashing over your forearms. He made quick work of your panties, dragging them down to your ankles with one impatient tug. Two fingers pressed against your lips, tapping gently.
“Open,” he breathed. You obeyed immediately.
He slid them in, slow, letting you suck them wet and warm while he worked his zipper down with his free hand. You could hear the low, filthy sound of him pulling his cock free—thick, heavy, the head already shiny with pre-cum from hours of watching you move around the house like you didn’t know exactly what you were doing to him.
“You’re so pretty like this,” he groaned against your ear, pulling his fingers from your mouth with a wet pop. “All soft and domestic. Got me thinkin’ about bendin’ you over every surface in this house.”
Those same fingers, still slick from your tongue, slid straight between your thighs and pushed deep into your cunt without warning. You squeaked, the stretch sudden and perfect, back arching as he curled them immediately, finding that spot like he had a map to get to it.
“If only they knew,” he whispered, voice dark and sweet at the same time. “How this smart, pretty girl turns into such a needy little thing the second I get my hands on her. How bad you love letting me play your pretty little body like an instrument. Am I right, mamas?”
You made a choked, gaspy noise when he started fucking you with his fingers—fast, precise, obscene wet sounds filled the quiet kitchen. Your knees nearly buckled. He allowed saliva to slowly drip from his lips down onto his aching length, slicking himself up with a low groan that went straight to your core, and then the blunt head of his cock was nudging at your entrance.
He pushed in slow. So slow you felt every thick inch stretching you open, the burn and the fullness making your eyes flutter. When he bottomed out, hips flush to your ass, you both moaned, his deep and cracked, yours high and shaky.
“Say thank you, baby,” he whispered against your ear, one arm sliding around your waist, the other hand coming up to rest lightly at your throat. Not squeezing, just holding, owning.
You tried. The first sound that came out was nothing but a whimper.
His palm cracked across your ass, hard enough to make you jolt and clench around him.
“T-Thank you,” you gasped, voice already cracking. “Fuck—thank you, Michael—”
“That’s my girl,” he hummed, and then he started moving.
Not fast. Deep. Rolling his hips in those slow, grinding circles that dragged the head of his cock over sweet spots only he could touch on every pass, the faint swell of him pressing against your lower belly from the inside. You could feel it every time he sank in to the hilt, relishing in the way he flattened his palm there.
“Feel that?” he rasped, grinding deep, staying buried while his hips worked in tight, filthy rolls. “That’s me, baby. Stroking all those little spots only I can reach, ain't that right sweetheart?”
Your fingers clawed at the edge of the sink. Your thighs started shaking as you leaned forward on your tip-toes. The wet, obscene sound of him fucking you—slow and heavy, mixed with the low music and the occasional drip of water from the faucet you’d never turned off.
He felt you getting close, felt the way your walls fluttered and squeezed.
“There it is,” he cooed, voice going soft and dangerous. “Come on, mama. Let me feel it. Cum for me.”
When it hit, it was hard.
Your eyes rolled back so far your vision blurred. A needy cry tore out of your throat as your pussy clenched and gushed around him, sticky arousal sliding down your thighs. His hand around your throat eased its hold but stayed there, steady and warm, keeping you upright as the pleasure kept rolling through you in thick, helpless waves. Your eyes stayed rolled back, walls squeezing and fluttering tight around his thick cock while he pressed soft kisses to your temple and along your jaw, nose nuzzling gently against your cheek until your body went slack and heavy in his arms.
Michael didn’t stop though. He just adjusted his pace into long, lazy, deep strokes, grinding in slow circles while you came, letting you ride it out while he kissed the side of your neck, your temple, nuzzling his nose against your cheek like he was trying to crawl inside your skin. Saliva dribbled down your chin as you tried to gather your thoughts to no avail.
Michael couldn’t tear his eyes away from you, eyebrows furrowing at how your pretty face contorted with pleasure through his torment.
“Good girl,” he breathed, voice shaking. “Such a good fuckin’ girl for me. Look at you… droolin’ all over yourself. So pretty when you can’t even talk.”
You were still twitching, still fluttering around him, when it started building again, deeper, harder, the hand at your throat tightening just enough to make your head spin in the best way.
Your second orgasm crashed into you before you were ready, thighs shaking so bad you almost collapsed. He caught you, arm locking tight around your waist, hips never stopping.
“Michael—fuck—too s-sensitive—oh my God—”
“I know, baby,” he groaned, voice breaking into something raw. “I know. But you can give me one more, can’t you? My good girl can take it.”
He pulled out slow, the wet sound filthy, your essence combined with his pre-cum was dripping down your legs in messy strings. Before you could even catch your breath he was turning you, lifting you onto the counter like you weighed nothing, knocking a clean plate into the sink with a clatter.
Your dress was bunched around your waist, panties still around one ankle, and he stepped between your spread thighs like he belonged there. He gently tugged the strapless dress below your breasts, cooing softly at how your nipples hardened when they touched the cool air.
You tried to hide your face, suddenly shy under the bright kitchen light, under the way he was looking at you hungrily—like you were the only thing in the world that mattered.
“Don’t hide from me,” he whispered, catching your chin, making you look at him. His eyes were glassy, lips swollen, voice already raspy. “Wanna see those pretty eyes roll back again.”
He pushed back inside in one smooth thrust, and you sobbed, overstimulated, stretched so wide around him it burned in the sweetest way. He stayed deep, grinding in those slow, devastating circles, one hand on your lower belly again so you could both feel the way he moved inside you.
He rolled his hips in slow, searching circles, the thick head of his cock prodding gently at your insides as he tried to find that little spot. The one that always made you fall apart. He adjusted the angle with each careful roll, hips moving with focused intent until—oh, he found it. The second he did, your whole body jolted, a broken sound slipping from your lips, and he locked right there, grinding against it with every pass like he was trying to etch it into your memory.
Your third orgasm built slower, your whole body trembling, tears slipping down your cheeks from how good it was, how much it was. You couldn’t even form words anymore—just incoherent little sounds, stuttering attempts at his name.
As he rolled his hips in those deep, filthy grinds, your voice came out small and shaky between gasps. “I love the sound of your voice… when you talk to me like that. God, Michael, it does something to me…”
He continued to roll his hips slowly, eyes darkening with fresh heat, a slow, wicked little smile tugged at his swollen lips at your admission. Music to his hears after being ignored for two days.
“Yeah?” he murmured, voice dropping even lower, rougher, the way he knew drove you crazy. “Then be a good girl… touch yourself for me and I’ll keep talking for you.” The words landed softly, touching something hot and sensitive deep in your core.
He would say whatever you wanted him to, hell he’d sing every word, if it meant you’d finally speak to him. And you did. You chanted his name like a prayer.
Your hand slipped down between your bodies without hesitation, fingers finding your swollen clit while he stayed buried deep, grinding in those slow, perfect circles that made your toes curl. He didn’t stop talking, he kept that low, raspy praise pouring right into your ear like he promised.
“That’s it, mama… rub that pretty clit for me while I’m deep inside you. Fuck, you feel so good squeezin’ me like that. My good girl. My perfect girl...Look at you, touchin’ yourself just ‘cause I told you to… so fuckin’ pretty when you fall apart for me. I could stay right here all night, just grindin’ in this sweet pussy, listenin’ to every little sound you make…”
Your fingers moved faster, the combination of his voice and the thick drag of his cock against your g-spot pushing you right to the edge again. Your thighs shook around his hips, free hand clutching his shoulder like a lifeline.
Michael’s own control was slipping. His hips stuttering every few rolls, breath coming in broken little groans against your neck, but he kept talking, kept praising, voice cracking with how good it felt for him too.
“Come on, baby… let me feel you. One more time, please? I got you. Always got you. That’s my girl…” When it hit, it wrecked you completely.
Your eyes rolled back hard, mouth falling open on a silent scream as your pussy fluttered helplessly, clenching down around him as you gushed again, soaking his cock, his thighs, the front of the counter. Michael grunted with approval. Your whole body shook like you were coming apart at the seams, fingers still working your clit through every pulse while he held you through it, whispering the whole time.
Michael followed you over with a low, guttural moan—hips stuttering and his cock jerking deep inside you as he came hard, flooding your walls with rope after rope of warm cum. The excess leaked and smeared around him with every trembling thrust. His voice cracked on your name and his face was buried in your neck. Arms locked around you like he was afraid you’d disappear.
He didn’t pull out. Just stayed buried to the hilt, rocking in these tiny, overstimulated grinds while both of you trembled through the aftershocks. His breath was hot and ragged against your skin. Yours was worse, little hiccuping gasps, tears still sliding down your cheeks, drool on your chin.
“Shhh,” he whispered eventually, voice hoarse, kissing your jaw, your temple, the corner of your mouth. “I got you, baby. Breathe for me. That’s it… my good girl. My everything.”
His hands moved slow and careful, rubbing your lower back in those deep, soothing circles you loved, thumbs pressing into the sore muscles from being bent over. He nuzzled into your neck, breathing you in like he needed it to live.
“I love you,” he murmured, over and over, like a prayer. “Love you so much it hurts sometimes. You don’t even know what you do to me… how you make all the noise in my head go quiet.”
You were boneless in his arms, still twitching around him, still full of him. He stayed inside you until the trembling eased, until your breathing slowed, until the only sounds left were the low music and the occasional drip from the faucet.
Then he finally pulled out, gentle, careful, watching with dark, tender eyes as his cum spilled out of you in thick, messy rivulets down your thighs and onto the counter. He felt his cock twitch at the sight, already ready to have you again.
He grabbed a clean dish towel, wet it with warm water, and cleaned you gently, murmuring soft apologies every time you whimpered from oversensitivity.
When he was done he lifted you off the counter like you were made of glass, guiding you into the living room with his arms wrapped around you, soft kisses pressed to the top of your head. He laid you down on the couch and stripped off what was left of your dress, pulled his own shirt over his head, and climbed behind you, pulling you back against his chest.
One big hand kept rubbing slow circles into your lower back while the other stroked your hair, your arm, anywhere he could reach.
“You okay, mama?” he whispered against your shoulder, voice soft and a little shy now that the storm had passed. “Was I too rough?”
You shook your head, nuzzling back into him, still too fucked-out to speak properly.
He smiled against your skin, pressed a kiss behind your ear.
“Good. ‘Cause I ain’t nowhere near done lovin’ on you tonight. Just… let me hold you for a minute first. Let me take care of my girl.”
And he did. For a long time.
A comfortable silence had settled over you both. Michael held your smaller hand in his, calloused fingers gently pressing into the muscles in your hand.
“So you been talkin’ to Marlon, huh?” he mumbled sleepily, amused.
“No” you said quickly. But Michael felt your body tense. You were never able to lie to him, and he loved it.
“You know… you’re my favorite fish baby.”
He erupted into laughter when you huffed and elbowed him. Unfortunately, you couldn’t help the giggles that slipped past your lips too at the joke.
“I’m kidding baby, only joking. Don’t be mad with me anymore.” His fingers continued to stroke your belly gently.
“You had me out here thinkin’ you’re shopping, and you out here fishing.”
“Baby, never. I wasn’t. I’m yours. All of me.” He murmured against your neck, lips lazily brushing the skin there.
You couldn’t help the cheesy grin that broke through.
—𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒; everyone sees the soft-spoken, gentle, respectful michael jackson — but, after opening night for the victory tour in kansas city and a few bottles of hard liquor, you see how alcohol turns that sweet mouth real dirty
—𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆; smut, 18+, heavy alcohol consumption, reaaaaal dirty talkin, soft-dom!mike, semi-public sex (tour bus), cunnilingus, cursing, jackson brothers are such teasing lil shits, creampie.
—𝐀/𝐍; HIII, i’m baaaack! did you miss me :D also new layout who dis
Celebrating with the Jackson brother’s wasn’t anything short of lively.
It was a warm summer’s night in July — the air was muggy, manageable, but enough to cast a thin sheen of sweat across your forehead in the main seating area of the black Eagle entertainer coach. One singular window was cracked, letting in a blissful, relieving blast of cold air as the tour-bus whirred down the freeway.
The atmosphere was upbeat — the sound of loud laughter, teasing comments, and playful insults hurled in the air as conversations flowed with ease. For the first time in a while post-concert, every Jackson brother was present — Tito was shuffling a stack of playing cards, Marlon was relentlessly teasing Jermaine for finally being allowed permission back into the group, Jackie was conversing quietly with a fan he’d brought from the bustling crowd of Kansas City, one of the many girls he’d go to pick up after a show, who sat nervously next to him, Randy watched his brother’s shameless flirting with wide eyes, utterly stunned at his boldness for bringing a girl, let alone a fan, back onto the tour bus with the whole family, and Michael, quiet as always, sat comfortably beside you, his lady, with a hand laid lovingly on your clothed thigh.
All seven residents of the tour bus, excluding Jackie’s friend, encircled two large separate foldable tables, both locked into place to allow card games and beverages to splay across the plastic top.
Speaking of beverages, thanks to Jermaine and Marlon, who decided opening night of their Victory Tour in Kansas City couldn’t be a night without a “special somethin’”, had provided more than enough liquor to clean a hospital — and maybe even put them in one after consumption.
As Tito announced that he’d successfully shuffled the cards to his best ability, he began distributing them, calling out Michael’s name to reach over the intersection of the bus to grab ahold of yours and his cards. As your boyfriend rose to his feet, took the cards from his brother’s hands, and then resided back into his seat — you met his eyes as he handed your bunch to you.
Michael shon a gentle, sweet little smile your way, his eyes twinkling with affection as you watched them travel over your grinning face. His hand slipped back onto your thigh, giving it a small squeeze and a light pat. Sifting through your cards, becoming accustomed to your hand, you let your cheeks warm at the subtle display of affection.
Michael was always doting — from the moment you met, when your high-school best-friend, La Toya Jackson, had brought you home for supper, he had been seeing hearts in his vision.
You had been friends with La Toya from school for a few years at that point in ‘73, knowing each since the jovial days of middle-school, often walking home together after a long day of classes, and stopping by at her small, yet comforting, home in Gary, Indiana, for dinner. And from the first day you stepped foot in the Jackson home, you were welcomed with open arms — Katherine Jackson, La Toya’s mother, adored you, always calling you her fourth daughter, and practically begging La Toya to bring you round more often.
And once her older brother’s got whiff of a new female face around the house — the teasing began. Marlon, being close to you and La Toya in age, loved to pick on you childishly — claiming that he was going to tell the guy at school that you had a crush on, that you liked him, or that he saw him kissing another girl behind the Sycamore tree at lunch. And, as your relationship with the family blossomed and strengthened, you teased back — playfully winding him up, saying that when he approached and painfully flirted with the new girl by the lockers, that he had peanut butter on his chin. He didn’t, but the look on his face would send you into fits of laughter.
Tito and Jackie, the eldest of the Jackson siblings, treated you as if you were their little sister — often warning you about what guys really want when they ask a girl to a drive-in movie, or what to say when a guy’s teasing you at school. The rest of the Jackson brother’s, as well as La Toya’s younger sister, Janet, all adored you too — finding it bizarre how La Toya didn’t introduce you sooner.
Even Joseph tolerated you — and that was saying something.
But, no Jackson sibling, or parent, or cousin, or uncle, or niece, that you met, because you had as Katherine had basically adopted you at this point, would ever equate to your favourite.
Michael.
He was different, intriguingly so, different from all his brother’s and sister’s — who were loud, boisterous and lively, who weren’t afraid to quip back a snark response during a playful spat, or chase you round the backyard in an attempt to push you into a large murky, muddy puddle during winter. No, he was definitely different. Shy, softly-spoken, gentle and endearingly polite — it was as if all the extraversion was given to his siblings and left him nothing.
But, you liked him that way.
Oh, boy, did you like him.
La Toya would tease you relentlessly — poking your sides when she caught you staring at him from across the living room, or clutching her stomach in laughter when you revealed you actually might have a crush on him, or deliberately knocking into you to force you to stumble into him in the kitchen, muttering a knowing ‘Oops’ with a smirk on her face as the two of you blushed and apologised profusely.
You were convinced your feelings for Michael were one-sided as after five years of mingling around the Jackson family and falling even harder for the bashful boy, now at the ripe age of seventeen and you eighteen, no obvious, reciprocated romantic emotions were shared. Michael was always sweet and friendly, sharing laughs and stories with you at the dinner table whenever you sat near one another, or bringing you a cold drink on a hot summer’s day when they all moved to Hayvenhurst and you’d stay for weeks at a time during the warmer months — but, his true feelings were never clear.
It was unbeknownst to you that Michael had been utterly infatuated with you from fourteen years-old when you and La Toya trudged through the front door, slinging your back-packs and Mary Jane’s to the floor, and rushing through to the kitchen to formly introduce you to her parents — he was speechless. Even at such a mutual young age, he thought you were beautiful. His boyish heart would thump in his chest at the sight of your plump, adolescent cheeks, soft eyes and toothy grin — but, what got him the most, was the sweet, fruity aroma of your cherry-scented shampoo. The waft of your freshly washed hair flooding his nostrils whenever you’d step foot into the home, running past him with a quick, high-pitched ‘Hi, Michael!’ with a cheesy smile on your face — it sent him spiralling.
But, as all inexperienced, nervous teenagers do, they assume the person they like are unlikely to reciprocate their feelings — so, he kept to himself. Letting his brother’s do all the teasing, and the talking, and the flirting when you turned eighteen — it pained him to keep so quiet, it wasn’t out of character due to his shy nature, but all he wanted to do was reach out and kiss you, and tell you exactly how he felt.
And when La Toya, both of you aged twenty, and Michael nineteen, threw a birthday party for her boyfriend at the time, and you consumed one too many fruit-punches from a three litre plastic container in a red solo cup, now completely plastered beyond recognition, did you decide to finally spill your guts.
Literally and figuratively.
You had approached Michael, stumbling and giggling, who sat on the sidelines of the Hayvenhurst back-yard that swarmed with people from your school and his family, pretending the orange juice in his solo cup was alcohol, and sat promptly next to him on a lounge chair.
You let your mind run away with itself — telling him how nice he is for letting his older sister host a party for her boyfriend, who you revealed you hated as you knew he had slept with her other friend before dating Toya, who you also didn’t like, and ignored him when he reminded you it wasn’t his house, but continued to let you ramble. And when you finally finished praising him, on how nice his shirt was, and his teeth, and his hair, and his eyes, and his lips—you had already said too much. Deciding that now was the perfect time to let slip that you had been hopelessly in love with him from the second you laid eyes on him sat on the couch in the little living room of his Indiana home, that your feelings hadn’t faltered for the past six years, and that you wanted so badly to kiss him right now.
But, before Michael, who was wide-eyed, slack-jawed and blushing, could have a chance to reveal he felt the same — you were puking into the grass, heaving and crying as he held your hair back.
In the morning, you woke up with a headache and a dry throat on La Toya’s bed — but, no amount of physical pain could amount to the sheer dread and embarrassment that flooded your system at the realisation of what you’d said the night before. Well, a mere few hours earlier, as your body clock had decided a three-AM till seven-AM sleep was sufficient after a night of drinking.
And when you finally decided to crawl out of bed at twelve-PM that same day, bags under your eyes and hair a mess, you faced your fear — diminishing any humiliation by facing the problem head on.
You had knocked on Michael’s bedroom door, swallowing thickly and gnawing at your lip as you awaited permission to enter. And when he did, opening the door with furrowed eyebrows and a confused expression, which instantly melted once he set eyes on you, you rambled once more, now sober with no excuse, tears falling freely from your eyes as you apologised.
And Michael, watching as you word-vomited, thankfully figuratively this time, gained a sliver of confidence and cupped your cheeks with gentleness, before pressing his lips to yours to shut you up. You had frozen, before sliding your hands into his bed-head of hair, and sobbing into the kiss, ignoring the way your spit-stricken lips mixed with your salty tears, only catching your breath as he pulled away, whispering a nearly inaudible, ‘I’m in love with you too.’
The rest was history — Katherine was ecstatic her son and her favourite friend any of her children have ever had, were together, literally jumping for joy and pulling you in for tight hug. Of course, the Jackson brothers teased you shamelessly, never missing a second after you revealed your relationship without picking on Michael with a — ‘Damn, Mike, how’d you get this one to agree to go out with you?’ ‘I didn’t even know you had any game, little brother.’ ‘Whenever you’re done, bring her ‘round to me, yeah?’
But, for once in his life — he paid no mind to his brother’s childishness. He suddenly had all the confidence in the world since he was now officially with the one girl he’d been in love with since he was fourteen.
And six, nearly seven years together, here you were — Michael now at twenty-six, you twenty-seven, accompanying him and his brother’s on their Victory Tour around the United States and Canada. You had accompanied them on many a tours previously, when they became ‘the Jackson’s’, when Jermaine parted from the group to stay with Motown, and always remained an anchor and lifeline for Michael. He hated whenever there was times you weren’t there with him on tour — feeling awfully woeful and lonely laying in an large, empty hotel bed, pouting on the phone to you for hours about how much he missed and needed you, how he couldn’t wait to see you in the next city when you were flying in, and how much he loved you.
Like I said — always doting.
“Let’s get this party started, shall we?” Marlon quipped, pulling you from the memory of your childhood love affair, grinning from ear to ear as he reached over the playing cards that Tito had placed in front of him, and grabbed ahold of a large bottle of Tequila — chuckling darkly to himself as he unscrewed the cap and flicked it across the room, howling as it smacked Randy right between the eyes.
Ignoring his brother’s curses from injury, Marlon brought the glass bottle to his lips, gulping two deep swigs of the hard, straight liquor, cursing as he swallowed.
“Your turn, Mr Big Shot.” Marlon joked, passing the bottle to Jackie, who now had his arm around the blushing fan next to him.
Jackie chuckled, leaning slightly to take the litre bottle from his brother’s hands, and bringing to his lips as he did — wincing after a large swig.
“You want some of this?” Jackie asked, turning to the girl next to him.
Her eyes blew open, clearly unaccustomed to alcohol by the way her mouth parted and closed a few times before speaking, “I, um, I—“
“Sweetie, you don’t have to if you don’t want to, they’re just alcoholics, so pay no mind to their peer pressure.” You spoke up, leaning over to press a reassuring hand to her knee as you smiled.
She turned to you with a thankful grin, before shaking her head at Jackie, mumbling a soft ‘No, thank you’.
“Alcoholics? Girl, I know you’ lyin’.” Marlon exclaimed, titling his head at you.
You laughed loudly, “Am I wrong? You just drank that shit like it was water.”
The room erupted into soft laughter as Marlon shook his head with a chuckle, “That doesn’t make me an alcoholic.”
“Oh, yeah, you’re right.” You started, with a playful smirk, “An alcoholic wouldn’t go ‘Ooh, ah, fuck, shit, that’s strong, fuck’!”
Loud roars of laughter, even including your quiet boyfriend who giggled beside you, filled the room as Tito nudged Marlon teasingly.
“Oh, really? Think you can do better?” He shot back.
“In what way?”
“I reckon you can’t take three swigs of that shit without gagging or, or, cursing.” Marlon challenged, raising his eyebrows in contest.
In the true sibling rivalry that you had formed with them, especially so with Marlon, you tongued the inside of your cheek, mentally deciding whether a hangover was worth this childish game.
“Or, you can remain a pussy.”
“Give that here.” You spat, snatched the bottle from the table in front of Jackie, ignoring the way Marlon cackled at the fact his provoking had worked.
With a deep breath, you brought the bottle to your lips — squeezing your eyes shut as the burning liquor trickled down your throat, setting fire to your taste buds as the harsh Tequila settled in your mouth.
One swig, two swigs, three swigs — and you slammed the bottle back down onto the table with a sigh, repressing a gag that threatened to creep up your throat and pressing your lips together to prevent any profanities from falling into the air.
Michael, watching the juvenile scene play out in front of him, squeezed your thigh in support as you finally let out a shaken breath, meeting Marlon’s eyes with your glassy ones, and sticking out your clean tongue.
“Beat that, fucker.”
The taste of Tequila stuck to your tongue as you let the room erupt into applause as Marlon rolled his eyes, “Always the show-off.”
“Y’just a sore loser, brother.” Jermaine piped up, grabbing an unopened bottle and drinking it himself, as Jackie did the same, handing it to Randy once he was finished.
Within fifteen minutes of the bottles being opened, the room had erupted into tipsy giggles and slurred conversations — Jackie’s girl had finally agreed to have a drink, clearly a light-weight as she was snorting with laughter at whatever Jackie had whispered in her ear. The card game had been abandoned before it even really started — Tito had attempted to explain the rules, but was continuously cut off by Jermaine and Marlon who repeated everything he said back at him in a squeaky, high-pitched voice, before finally giving up and telling them to fuck off, sending laughter throughout the room once more.
Luckily, everyone in the bus had failed to realise the quiet man next to you had avoided taking any swigs from the bottle at all — just silently observing the mess that was his drunken girlfriend and brother’s unfold before his eyes as cards were thrown around the bus, and competitions on who can do the best Joseph impression sent everyone into fits of giggles.
When finally, his silent avoidance was shattered,
“Ay, Mike, you haven’t had a drink yet!”
Jermaine’s loud, accusatory voice sounded out into the room, everyone’s head’s snapping towards the bashful boy, whose cheeks flushed burgundy at the exposure.
“I’m alright, ‘Maine, I don’t fancy a drink.” Michael replied coolly, hand still wrapped around the comfort of your thigh.
“Oh come on, everyone’s drinkin’, don’t be a party pooper.” Marlon teased, eyes drooping slightly as he slurred his words.
“Hey, leave my man alone.” You fired back, reaching up to press a defending hand to Michael’s chest, “He can choose to not drink if he doesn’t want to, Marlon.”
“Quit dick-ridin’ and pass him the bottle.” Marlon spat, laughing as he slid the bottle across the table in Michael’s direction
“Ew, why would you say that?” Michael spoke up, grimacing at the lewdness of his brother’s words.
Jackie cackled, “Actin’ like you haven’t been together for, what?, six years? Boy, we’ve all heard ya.”
You gasped, “Oh my God, what? Please tell me you’re joking.”
“Qui—Quit changing the subject and get some liquor down you, little brother.” Marlon exclaimed, smiling widely.
Michael looked from the bottle, to his brothers, to you — searching for an escape as he swallowed thickly. It wasn’t that he didn’t necessarily want to drink — he just knew he’d ultimately regret it in the morning or do, or say, something he’d also regret.
You met his eyes, “‘S alright if you don’t want to, baby, you don’t have to.”
The look on your face, eyes bloodshot and hazy, cheeks flushed and smiling toothily, all drunk and happy, made his heart swoon. He was here, with all his brother’s and the love of his life, touring again with his beloved family on opening night — everyone looked so upbeat and giddy, all desirable qualities after a long first show, surely a drink wouldn’t be so bad, right?
That theory was soon diminished.
An hour later, after forcing six long swigs of Tequila down his throat from his persisting brother’s, who also ended up pouring the liquor straight into your mouth for your seventh swig, everyone was hammered. Jackie and his girl had retreated from the room half-an-hour ago to his bedroom in the back, ignoring Jermaine’s shouts to keep off of his bed. Tito and Randy had fallen asleep on one another, heads resting against each other’s as their snores filled the quieter room. Marlon was nearly spent — sighing deeply as sleep also threatened to taken over his drunken body as he slumped in the chair.
As for you and Michael, you were tucked neatly into the corner of the cushioned benches around the side of the bus, pressed up against one another — his hands caressing the curve of your waist as you pushed your chest against his, letting him whisper sweet-nothings into your ear, warm breath and soft lips grazing the shell as you shuddered.
You’d never seen Michael under the influence before, even when you first confessed your undeniable love to him, he had been consuming orange juice all night, so his behaviour had struck you speechless.
The second the alcohol hit his system — he was a changed man.
Suddenly, he was the loudest and most confident man in the room — laughing and shouting boyishly with his brother’s, shooting insults at Marlon, or letting curses slip past his lips, which erupted gasps in the room at his profanities due to his shy, collected sober nature.
But, that wasn’t all.
He became twice as handsy.
It started after his second swig, it all hitting him at once, as his hand trailed just that little bit higher up your thigh, dangerously close to where you twitched — a movement that had your breath hitching in your throat at the sudden action. He played it off smoothly, just peering down at you with an innocent smile when you glared up at him in shock.
Then, after the third or fourth swig, he pulled you into his lap, hand splayed across the bare of your stomach as he rest his chin on your shoulder, ignoring the way everyone exchanged glances at his sudden public display of affection — something he would never normally do around his brother’s.
Furthermore, after the fifth, he was gone — now kissing your neck openly, running his hands all over your sides in a slow, steady rhythm as he whispered how much he loved you into your ear, and how beautiful you looked, and how happy he was that you were here, and how— he didn’t stop. Just blabbering away, slurring and stuttering, about his utmost gratitude and adoration for you as his breath fanned over the back of your ear.
Finally, he had let you down from his lap after you grew increasingly more bashful at the way his brother’s ogled and teased about Michael’s sudden boldness — but, not letting you off that easy. Not letting a single second pass by, once you left the comfort of his lap, before pulling you against him and cupping your jaw to press soft kisses to the ridge.
“God, you’re so beautiful, Cherry.”
Your heart fluttered at the nickname, a long-standing term of endearment he had given you years ago from the scent of your childhood shampoo, one that he adored, as you braced a hand on his shoulder.
“Thank you, Mikey.” You whispered back, head fuzzy and dazed as the alcohol buzzed through your system.
“Y’know how much I love you, right?” He mumbled for the thousandth time that night, the scent of his minty breath filling your nostrils as he pulled back from your jaw to meet your gaze.
“I do, angel,” You hummed, leaning forward slightly to nudge his nose with your own, “I love you more.”
“No, I do.”
“Nope.”
“No. I love you the most, Cherry.”
“Not true. I love you the—“ “Get a room, guys, Jesus.”
Jermaine’s slurred words hit your ears as you turned your head to face him, pulling away from Michael’s face.
“Fine, we will.”
You gasped as Jermaine groaned at the insinuation of Michael’s words as he rose to his feet, extending his hand to help you up from the seat. You did so willingly, still shocked at his confidence at a such lewd revelation in front of Jermaine, who shook his head.
Michael didn’t waste a beat — dragging you swiftly into the back of the tour bus, towards his bedroom, one that was, thankfully, reserved just for him, despite all his brother’s having to share with one another. His feet moved quickly as he guided you through the dark of the hallway, hand still enclosed tightly in your own as an anchor in the low-lighting, especially in your drunken stumbling.
Once you clambered into the room, giggling as you tripped over your own feet and slammed into his back, Michael shut and locked the door and instantly pressed you against it. His lips met yours instantaneously — a low hum of satisfaction leaving his mouth and into yours as he cupped your burning hot cheeks. His hands, nimble and precise, moved and found solace in the curve of your hips, gripping tightly as he pulled you flushed against his body, while his tongue nudged your bottom lip.
You whined into his mouth, feeling awfully needy after his continuous teasing throughout the evening, as he slot a knee between your legs — his clothed thigh now inches away from where you had begun to throb in your panties, now stricken with slick that drooled from your twitching pussy.
The alcohol had hit you straight between the legs — arousal now flooding your veins twice as hard as the liquor had, your head reeling as his eager tongue slipped into your mouth, colliding with your own. The kiss was sloppy and needy, tasting heavily of liquor, tongues and teeth clashing together in a feverish connection as you clung desperately to the fabric of Michael’s shirt, crinkling the material in your tight grasp.
Michael parted from your mouth for a mere second just to guide you — turning you around from the comfort of the door, and towards the bed. He laid you down gently, as he always did before you had sex, cradling your head to soften the collision with the mattress — before instantly attaching himself back to your lips. Your legs instinctively wrapped lazily around his hips as he hovered over you, holding himself up on two elbows as he continued his work on your mouth, groaning down your throat as you shamelessly began rutting your crotch into the painfully obvious bulge in his joggers.
“So needy, my baby, hm? You want me that bad?” He spoke lowly, the gruff, deepness of his voice hitting you full force — a soft gasp ripping from your throat as his mouth attached to the bare of your neck, suckling the skin gently.
You’d never heard him talk like that — even during sex. It was always gentle and loving, coaxing rather than tantalising.
But, this—this—was different.
His voice had a bass in it that you’d never heard before — a dark, seductive growl, a statement of his need.
This was the alcohol talking.
But, as he sucked dark, prominent marks into your skin, now meeting your hips halfway as you humped up into his bulge, mewling as the tip of his stiff cock rocked against your aching clitoris repeatedly — you didn’t care.
“Mich—Mike, God.” Words failed you as you rambled into his ear, hands now threaded through his curls still damp with sweat, “Need you.”
Michael groaned into the warmth of your collarbone, lips detaching, he lifted himself up, to meet your glassy gaze — pupils blown and dancing in burning desire.
“Yeah? Really need me that badly baby, yeah?”
He was slurring, repeating himself, as he rolled a particularly harsh thrust into your clothed cunt — revelling in the way you mewled loudly at the connection, your grip in his hair tightening.
“Please.”
The sound of your meek begging had him dizzy — theoretically drunk on arousal as he fumbled with the button of your denim shorts, swift fingers dragging down the zipper before pulling them down your legs. He moved even quicker to your shirt — yanking at the hem and practically ripping it off of your body and to the floor, atop of your discarded bottoms.
His eyes met your half-naked frame, now clad in just your bra and panties, which now sported an obvious wet patch right were you drooled in anticipating arousal — a groan slipping past Michael’s lips at the sight of it.
Your back arched off the bed as his thumb traced the prominent circle of slick that painted your panties — his thumb catching your clenching hole, as well as the edge of your clit, as you jerked your hips into his touch.
“My baby’s so wet, God, look at you.” Michael whispered, eyes locked on your soaked underwear through the moonlight peeking through the curtains, “What am I gonna do with you, hm?”
You whined, an eager, desperate display of your desire, eyebrows furrowed in need as he slid a tentative thumb along your slit.
In your own drunken boldness, words fell from your swollen lips before you could refrain yourself, “Fuck me, please.”
“Patience, baby.” He whispered, pulling the your panties to the side, “Been waitin’ to touch this pretty pussy all night.”
You didn’t know what had gotten into him, in your intoxicated brain, but you knew sober you would understand that getting Michael Jackson drunk was like dangling a carrot in-front of a pigs face — you couldn’t exist around him while he was drinking without him getting crazed with need.
In a slow, tantalisingly steady movement, he crouched between your thighs, large palms needing the skin as he came face to face with where you drooled. He pressed his warm face right where you needed him — the sound of your aroused gasp at the sudden contact and his deep, guttural groan of satisfaction at the sweet scent of your cunt as he deeply inhaled your aroma, filled the thick air.
“Shit—so fuckin’ sweet.” He mumbled, soft lips dragging along your folds as he nuzzled into your sex.
“Michael, pl—please.”
The melodic sound of your whining ripped another groan from deep in Michael’s throat — grip tightening around the plush of your thighs as they enclosed around his head the second his mouth started working on you. He lay his tongue flat along your cunt, a slow, teasing drag of the muscle along the ridge — collecting your essence that had coated your lips, as well as your thighs, on his tongue.
You cried out, albeit louder than sober you would’ve wanted, hips jerking up to meet his mouth half-way as he tongue-fucked your cunt — movements sloppy and messy as he lapped at your clit like a man dying of thirst. He, matching your whines of pleasure, hummed and groaned into you — enclosing his lips around your nub, suckling frantically, as a singular finger slipped inside, instantly curling upwards to abuse the spot that had your toes curling.
“Oh—Oh, God—“
The words barely made it past your throat, coming out in a croaked stutter, before your orgasm crashed over you violently. In your pleasured and liquor-induced drunken haze, you failed to register the tightening of your abdomen and the twinkling of ecstasy down your spine that occurred prior to your orgasm before it arrived — instantly rendering you speechless, mouth in a tight ‘O’ shape as your eyes locked into the back of your head.
Michael, still lapping at your cunt, tongue swirling around your clit, and his digit moving at a rapid pace, groaned loudly, the vibration, a statement of satisfaction, only adding to your pleasure, as he began unapologetically rutting into the mattress, attempting to soothe the painfully hard bulge that, drooling pre-cum, rest underneath his uncomfortably tight boxers.
As your release fluttered away into a blissful buzz of post-orgasm glow — Michael took to his knees once more, palm encasing around his stiff cock, now harder than he’d ever been before.
He shuffled closer, a strong hand taking ahold of your hip, dragging you closer to where he throbbed as he continued to jerk himself — utterly bewildered at how hard he had gotten despite his alcohol intake.
Your hand flew to his chest, tangling in the crinkled material of his shirt once more, legs wrapping around his waist, as he decided that tonight he didn’t have time for anymore foreplay, that he just needed to be inside you, that there was no time for games.
And, at the sight of your glistening cunt catching in the light, creaming and clenching around nothing, pussy lips all swollen and doing nothing to hide where you dripped, he managed to form a coherent thought — that the sight was definitely going to leave him hard for days.
Michael cursed under his breath at your vulnerability, all spread out and dripping just for him — he stood, hands flying to his joggers, thumb latching underneath the waistband of them, along with his boxers, and tugged them down his legs. He kicked them off his ankles as he crawled onto the bed with you, knees either side of your raised legs, as a firm hand enclosed around the length of him.
He hissed at the contact as he pumped himself, lip coming between his teeth as a dribble of pre-cum slipped from his mushroom-headed tip, and dropped onto the fat of your pussy lips, trickling down your slit. His hazy, drunken mind instantly ran away with itself — eyes locked on the way you clenched around nothing.
“Gotta give it t’ya, baby, can’t wait.” He mumbled, finally slotting between your thighs, sliding the thick of him through your folds, “Can yo—you take it? Talk to me, pretty.”
You mewled — eyes fluttering shut momentarily at the sensation of the warm, stiff length of him rutting between your folds, gathering your sticky essence along his cock, hips twitching forward, subconsciously begging for more.
“Need words if you want my cock, Cherry.”
You gasped, your throat dry and sore from the harsh Tequila, at the assertiveness — something completely atypical from your man atop of you. As your eyes shot open in surprise, chest heaving, lips agape, the look of raw, dark, devilish thirst for your submission hit you — the moonlight catching the way his hungry eyes bore into your own, sending shivers down your back, sheen in sweat.
“Please—fuck—I can take it, just please.” Your sober self would’ve curled into a ball of embarrassment at the sheer intensity of desperation evident in your voice — the way it cracked and stuttered as you forced the words out, trembling in desire.
Michael hummed, satisfied with your response, as he pulled your soiled panties completely from your legs and angled himself, albeit clumsily in the drunken darkness, towards your clenching hole. You had attempted to sober up before he pushed in, thinking hard about remembering to keep quiet — but, when he slide inside, sheathing himself to the hilt in a singular, harsh roll of his languid hips, cunt stretching deliciously quickly around the size of him, you failed to suppress to pleasured cry of surprise that left your lips.
Your head lunged back into the pillows, back arching into his chest, your clothed breasts pressing against the soft of his t-shirt. Michael took this opportunity to lean down, slipping his hands underneath your curved back and unclasped your laced bra with practiced ease, ripping it off your arms and to the floor.
“Much better.” He mumbled drunkenly, hands finding instant comfort in your bare tits — cupping them and using them as anchors as he began his brutal thrusts.
Your breathless, whiny mewls of pleasure only grew in octave and intensity as Michael set a relentless pace — the fat tip of his cock repeatedly slamming against the gummy, sweet spot inside your weeping cunt that had your eyes rolling deep into your skull and carving lines into his back under his shirt.
You chanted his name like a prayer — like you were begging for forgiveness at his feverish pace, his stamina proving just as strong even in his drunken state. Every ridge and vein of his thick cock was dragging along your tight, gummy walls — only increasing your pleasure.
“Jesus, Cherry.” He panted, grip tightening as it slid down to your hips as he pulled you down onto his cock, “Y’squeezing my cock like you own it."
You took a mental note to get Michael drunk more often as the provocative words slipped from his lips — forcing your eyebrows to curve up your forehead as the dirty sentence hit your ears.
His brutal pace never let up — hips slamming into your own as he rutted into you like he was born to please you, like he was running out of time. His grasp slipped down your hips to your legs, hands curling underneath the backs of your knees, and forcing your legs to your chest. A choked gasp escaped your throat as he pressed his body weight onto your front — now impossibly and deliriously deep, the tip of his cock grazing your G-spot, and kissing your cervix with every thrust.
“Ho—Holy shit—Oh, my fucking God—“
Strings of broken pleas and curses slipped past your lips as he leant over, grunting wildly into your skin as he peppered hurried kisses to your neck — spit glistening on your skin in the light as he continued to force himself deeper.
“That’s it, thaaaaat’s it, baby, you can take it.” He mumbled, voice muffled as he sucked a particularly harsh love bite into your burning hot skin, “Y’sucking me in like you fuckin’ live off my cum.”
Now, that did it for you.
Clenching cunt instantly quivering and fluttering around the thick girth of him, a husky whine ripping from your mouth as your back curved once more, erect nipples grazing his clothed chest, at the sound of his gruff, seductive voice talking dirty to you like he wasn’t the shyest, most sweetest boy in the world.
“Ooh, Mic—Michael.” His name fell from your lips in a shocked, breathless manner, eyebrows still taut into the crease of your forehead.
He ignored your silent, rhetorical questioning for why he was acting so out of character, as in his drunken mind, he saw no difference to his intoxicated self to his usual persona — deciding that instead of replying to your splutters, he’d lift his body from yours, lift your legs into a V-shape in the air and rut into you faster than before. If that was even at all possible.
The scream that ripped from you could’ve been heard by the hundreds of passerby’s in their cars on the freeway — your hands flying to his forearms, nails digging into the soft skin, tracing the veins that bulged from the tensed skin. Your second orgasm, now scarily close, was given a forceful shove to tick over your gyrating body as your eyes flicked up to your boyfriend — who was a sight for sore eyes if you’d ever seen one.
His head was thrown back, a few stray curls cascading over his flushed face, eyes squeezed shut, his t-shirt between his teeth, now soaked in his saliva, as he mumbled almost incoherently into the material — ‘Oh, yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah’ ‘Fuuuuck, yeah, yeah—God, fuck, yeah’ ‘Gonna—Gonna—oh fuck!—Gonna cum—’
It was nonsensical blabber — spit staining his lips, and the softness of his shirt, eyes now half-open as they rolled deep inside the sockets, his grip on your ankles, the ones that held your legs up so perfectly despite his drunken clumsiness, tightened as you fluttered dangerously around him.
His name fell from your lips, paired with strings of incoherent sentences about how good he felt, as your orgasm washed over you twice as intensely as the first — nails leaving indefinite claw marks into his skin at the sheer volume of the release. He didn’t let up though — still slamming into you like it was what he was born to do, not music, not dance — no, just slip inside your warm, squeezing cunt and let you milk him for all he’s worth.
Michael doubled over, t-shirt slipping from his mouth, now messier than you’d made it, his grip on your ankles diminishing as he fell to your chest — flushed face nestling into the crook of your neck once again as his hips faltered ever so slightly.
“Fuck—y’so—so tight.” Michael inhaled sharply, a raw, broken whine slipping past his swollen lips, “Oh my—Fuck, ‘M gonna—Gonna marry you.” He was panting like a dog in heat, still rutting into you as he chased his own release as yours subsided slowly, “My girl. My fuckin’—Aah! Fuck—Gonna fill ya so deep. That what you—what y’want?”
A screech of agreement left your lips at his mindless rambling — cunt spasming violently as the suggestive, pornographic worthy sentences trickled from his lips like syrup, coating your whole body in a thick sheen of arousal.
You almost couldn’t quite believe what you were hearing — Michael was usually shy, nearing submissive, and gentle during sex, which you also adored, but this—this—was something to look back on late at night when he was thousands of miles away on tour with your hands down your pyjama shorts.
“‘M there—Oh, fuck, ‘m there!” He cried, knuckles turning white with how hard he was gripping the sticky bedsheets beside your head, “Take it, take it, take it, tak—“
He cut himself off with a hoarse, raucous groan — so loud it rang throughout the room, near enough echoing with how quiet the bus had gotten without you realising, hips twitching aggressively as he spilled inside you. The warm, blissfully familiar, sensation of his fierce spurts of cum painting your fluttering walls had you whining too — biting your lip so hard the indentation of your teeth was traceable with your tongue, as he, despite being almost painfully overstimulated, rolled his infamous hips deep into you, fucking his seed deeper inside your drooling pussy.
Then came the silence.
The deafening, almost ear-piercing silence that coated each and every corner of the tour bus — no voices, no laughter, no snoring, nothing. Just the uncomfortable knowledge that hung thickly in the air that everyone—oh yes, everyone—had heard you.
Michael pulled out with a wet pop! and rolled next to you with a loud huff — head spinning and eyes fluttering shut as he attempted to catch his breath, chest heaving. You, too, succumbed to the relieving solace that was sleep, your own eyes still squeezed shut as your legs fell to the bed, now sporting a dull ache that matched your sex — now dribbling with his release over the sheets.
But, before your drunken mind could register the severity of what your boyfriend’s brother’s had just heard — sleep took over. Lulling into a relaxed, much needed slumber — still bare and sweaty, pulled against Michael’s chest as he too, for once, slept beside you.
However, all actions have consequences.
Unfortunately for you.
So, when you woke that morning, head pounding, lips dry, eyes squinting from the brightness of the morning sun, and body aching — you enjoyed the few blissful seconds of your waking where you had forgotten what you’d got up to last night. Just turning over and smiling softly at Michael’s sleeping frame, the soft, slow deepness of breathing as he slept calmly warming your heart.
Then, it hit you.
Your eyes shot open — finally registering the hangover and the nakedness you and Michael both sported, mouth hanging open in shock as your vision fluttered towards the locked door to his bedroom, knowing that behind it was a conversation and years worth of teasing you’d never, ever live down.
You knew you couldn’t hide in here forever — their next show was tonight, and you needed Michael to recover from the hangover, one that you were certain he would have, as soon as possible.
You groaned, rubbing a hand across your face, knowing that you’d have to take your pride and reputation and throw it out the window onto the freeway that you were still on, and face his brother’s, just like you had with Michael the morning after your drunkenly confessed your love.
Similarly, you also decided that staying away from alcohol for the foreseeable future was probably a good idea.
Rising from the bed, not without a wince at the dull ache between your legs, solidifying your realisation that everyone had heard how Michael laid it down on you like it was his last day to live, last night — and that there was no way to avoid this.
The bedroom door opened with a creak, impossibly and noticeably loud, as your eyes adjusted to the brightness of the hallway. In the distance, the sound of soft laughter and quiet conversations filled your ears, sighing loudly as it became apparent every member of the Jackson siblings was present in the same room that got you into this mess.
You walked, stealthily slow, head still throbbing wildly, as you finally reached the part of the bus where you knew you would curse yourself for ever entering. Your eyes locked on the five men splayed across the seats, as you did the night before, plates of breakfast and cups of coffee residing in front of them.
For a moment the room stopped — all five siblings rendered themselves silent as their gaze dropped on you, watching as you pursed your lips together, awaiting their next movements.
Your eyes landed on Marlon, whose lips twitched up into a smirk, laughter crawling up his throat as he pointed at you, eyes squinting—
“Don’t you fucking dare.”
The sound of your croaked, stern voice sent the room into screams of uncontrollable laughter — tears falling from their eyes, fists banging on tables, and stomachs clutched as they roared at you. Marlon was practically sobbing — face beat red and cheeks soaked in humorous tears as he gripped Jermaine’s arm for stability, attempting to calm himself down.
“You two caused this.” You snapped, pointing between Jermaine and Marlon, the mastermind’s behind bringing the alcohol to the bus.
“Us?” Marlon managed to force out between giggles, wiping his face with the back of his hand, “I think you should be thankin’ us, girl. Sounds like you had a reaaal good time back there.”
The room burst into fits of laughter once more, only furthering as you threw a pillow at Marlon’s body, arms crossing over your chest.
“Oh, yeah, a real nice time. Remind me, ‘Maine, did it go more like ‘Oooh, Michael!’ or ‘Ohh, Michaeeel!’.” Jackie teased, his voice shifting in octave as he mocked your pleasured moans that had evidently rang loudly throughout the bus.
“Real mature. You never heard people have sex before?” You quipped, trudging to your handbag that lay on the table opposite where the boys sat, and pulling out a packet of Advil, and a grabbing a bottle of water.
“Well, actually, no, I hadn’t.” Randy started, a teasing, toothy grin spread across his face, “But, I sure as hell have now.”
You rolled your eyes as the boys screeched into laughter once more, a snarky remark at the ready to be fired back, when you turned around and your face fell.
“What’s so funny?”
Michael’s tired, hoarse voice rang throughout the now quiet room — all eyes now on him as he rubbed his tired eyes, joggers, once on the floor of his bedroom, now hanging loosely around his hips, as he approached you, back facing his brother’s as he leant down to press a soft kiss to your cheek. Visible to everyone in the room, a fact that had you squeezing your lips together in dread, were the sharp streaks of nails marks that you had dragged down his back, as well as along his forearms, painted across his skin in deep, rose coloured lines.
You knew the laughter was coming before it even started — eyes fluttering shut as Michael’s eyebrows furrowed together in confusion. It was apparent to everyone in the room, apart from him of course, that he still had no recollection of the night before — or even if he did, he sure as hell wasn’t aware of the intensity of the noise.
Michael’s eyes flickered around the room, attempting to piece why his brother’s were in bits from laughter, and why you were knee-deep in embarrassment. But soon, once his vision locked on the three empty Tequila bottles, the opened pack of Advil, bags under everyone’s eyes, the hickey’s on your neck and the scrapes of pleasured marks on his arms — he gasped as the ball dropped.
“Oh, my God.” He breathed, hand coming to clasp over his mouth, eyes darting between you and his brother’s, who were watching the scene unfold in real time, only making it twice as funny, “Did we?—Oh, no, and they—they heard? Oh, God—Oh, my good God.”
You nodded slowly, eyes full of shame as you met his own wide ones — blown into saucers as the dreadful realisation hit him.
Marlon, deciding that laughing in your face wasn’t enough, grabbed a half-drunk bottle of Tequila and raised it into the air, waving it in your faces as a teasing reminder on what got you into this mess to begin with, smiling widely, before speaking.
“What a great start to the tour.” He breathed out a chuckle, “Oh, and you’re welcome, little brother.”
Synopsis: Michael's younger girlfriend buys him his first pair of crocs and he hates them.
Content: fluff, mature era!Michael, era 2005, age difference, slightly suggestive
Author's note: I was listening to Monaleo today and this thought crossed my mind and I couldn't stop laughing. Cause growing up black, we don't play about wearing house shoes outside 😭 So here you go 😂
Michael stood in the middle of the living room staring at the shoes like they had personally disrespected him. One foot was tilted at an awkward angle as Michael tried to see if they looked better from a distance.
The matte black Crocs you’d bought him sat on his feet like two oversized rubber ducks. They looked awkward on his feet to him and made his billion dollar ankles look completely unprotected.
“Back in my day these would’ve just been called clogs,” he said, staring down at them with the same expression he used when he didn’t like a song in the studio. “House shoes. You don’t wear house shoes outside. My mama would have killed me. My ankles don’t feel secure in these things.”
You were already biting your lip so hard it hurt. Sometimes he showed his age so much that it reminded you he was getting older.
“You’re showing your age, Mike.”
He glanced up at you, eyes soft but completely serious. “I don’t wanna hurt your feelings, baby… but I think they’re ugly.”
You couldn’t hold it. A laugh slipped out before you could catch it. You palmed your forehead through the giggles. “You don’t wear them for cuteness. They’re just comfortable to run errands in.”
Michael tilted his foot again, turning it side to side like he was inspecting a crime scene. His whole life he’d been taught by his elders that when you stepped outside, your shoes needed to protect you — real support, real coverage. These looked like something you’d slide on to check the mail... and prayed nobody saw you.
“Like… meant to be worn outside?” he asked, voice full of genuine curiosity. “Or house shoes?” He was truly puzzled. Fashion these days was so odd to him. The sagging pants. The big gaudy clothes. The way everything looked like it was trying to swallow the person wearing it. He just didn’t get it.
“They’re meant to be worn outside,” you told him, stepping closer. “And look, you can put stuff in the holes.” You held out the little pack of custom jibbitz you’d picked out for him. Tiny rhinestone gloves. A glittery “M.” A little crown.
Michael’s eyes lit up despite himself as he took the pack. “Oh wow… these are so neat.” He started sorting through them right there, completely focused on figuring out how to push the little charms into the holes, tongue poking out as he focused.
That’s when it slipped out of you, low and teasing.
“Coochie so good it made you put some jibbitz in your crocs.”
Michael’s head snapped up. Heat crept up his neck and across his cheeks. For a second he just stared at you, then his face lit up with pure amusement, a boyish grin spreading across his face.
“What?” he said, voice cracking into the start of a laugh.
You didn’t stop. You started jokingly rapping the line, shoulders moving with the beat.
Michael lost it. A fit of giggles hit him so fast it turned into full, uncontrollable laughter. He covered his face with both hands, shoulders shaking hard.
He tried to compose himself, turning slightly away like that might help, but the chuckles kept coming. Every time he tried to straighten up and catch his breath, another wave hit him. He peeked at you through his fingers once, still grinning, clearly trying to keep a straight face and failing completely.
“Stop— stop it,” he managed between laughs, still struggling. “You’re embarrassing me.”
You stepped behind him and wrapped your arms around his waist, laughing with him now. “I’m just saying… you out here customizing shoes now.”
Michael turned in your arms, still chuckling softly and eyes sparkling with adoration. He leaned down to press a kiss to your forehead, then your lips. Gentle, lingering, and a little breathless from all the laughter.
“You’re gonna be the death of me, girl” he murmured against your mouth, voice warm and fond. “I can’t believe you got me in these things.”
You smiled against him. “They’re comfortable though, right?”
He glanced down at his feet, wiggling his toes inside the Crocs, that same boyish smile still tugging at his lips.
“…They’re actually kind of nice,” he admitted quietly, like he was confessing something scandalous. “Don’t tell nobody.”
You laughed and pulled him closer. Outside, the world still expected Michael Jackson in his signature loafers and militaristic sharp suits.
But here, in the soft light of your living room, he was just your man. Flushed, laughing until his belly hurt, and wearing jibbitz in his Crocs because you asked him to.
OMG PLEASE WRITE ABOUT THRILLER ERA MICHEAL COMING BACK FROM THE GRAMMYS WHERE HE WON LIKE 8 OR 9 AND HIM JUST GOING CRAZY ON YOU FUCKK and HIS KISS MARK LIKE YES
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⊱ thriller!mike • fem!reader ◞ 18+. ⋮ requested 𓍼
tgs ◞ very needy michael, switch michael, worshipping, ‘84 grammys, whimpering, smut, possessiveness, slightly rough sex, established relationship, use of ‘mama’, use of ‘Y/N’ once
The limousine purred through the chaotic, flashbulb-lit streets of Los Angeles, the muffled roar of thousands of screaming fans acting as a constant baseline outside the tinted windows. Inside, however, the world was shrunk down to just the two of you, bathed in the soft, ambient glow of the interior lights.
It was February 28, 1984. Tonight was the 26th Annual Grammy Awards, and the man sitting next to you wasn't just attending; he was about to rewrite history.
Michael shifted on the leather seat, his fingers nervously drumming against his thigh. He was wearing the iconic military jacket—the brilliant blue one adorned with heavy gold braiding, a sparkling sequined sash, and, of course, the single white glove. He looked regal, larger than life, like a king preparing for his coronation. But when his dark eyes flicked over to look at you, all that carefully crafted pop-star mystique completely evaporated. He just looked completely and utterly breathless.
"Oh my god," Michael whispered for what felt like the twentieth time since you’d left the hotel. His voice was soft, rich, and trembling slightly with an intensity that sent a shiver straight down your spine. "Angel… I just… I can’t take my eyes off you. I really can’t."
You couldn't help the brilliant smile that spread across your face, your rich, brown skin glowing warmly under the car's interior lights. For tonight, you had pulled out all the stops. You were wearing a custom-made, floor-length silk gown in a light, stunning white cream that provided a breathtaking contrast to your complexion. The dress hugged every single curve of your body before pooling elegantly around your heels. Your hair was styled to perfection, framing your face beautifully, and your makeup highlighted your features flawlessly. You looked like a literal goddess, and Michael was reacting like a man who had just witnessed a miracle.
"Michael, you've said that five times already," you teased gently, reaching over to place your hand over his gloved one. "You’re going to make me blush, and I don't want to ruin my makeup before we even step onto the carpet."
"I don't care," he insisted, his grip tightening around your hand. He leaned in closer, the faint, intoxicating scent of his cologne—a mix of expensive musk and sweet vanilla—wrapping around you. "I mean it, Y/N. You look so beautiful it’s actually hurting my chest a little bit. Look at you. Just look at how gorgeous you are."
His free hand reached up, his bare fingers gently tracing the line of your jaw, his thumb brushing over your cheekbone with a reverence that made your heart skip a beat. His eyes were wide, dark, and dilated, drinking in every single detail of your face, your shoulders, the slope of your neck. There was a raw, heavy hunger buried deep in his gaze, a sharp contrast to his usual gentle demeanor.
"You're going to be the most beautiful woman in that entire building tonight," he murmured, his voice dropping an octave, becoming a low, gravelly rasp that made your stomach flip. "Everyone is going to be looking at me, but all I'm gonna be doing is looking at you. I'm so proud to have you on my arm. So proud."
"Thank you, angelface," you whispered, using his nickname, a private intimacy saved only for moments like this. "You look incredible too. Tonight is your night."
"Our night," he corrected fiercely, leaning across the small space to press a soft, lingering kiss to your lips, being careful not to smudge your lipstick but still managed to communicate the sheer weight of his devotion. "Our night, beautiful."
The limousine finally crawled to a halt in front of the Shrine Auditorium. The noise outside swelled into a deafening crescendo. Flashbulbs began firing rapidly against the tinted glass, creating a strobe-light effect inside the vehicle. Michael took a deep breath, the public persona clicking smoothly into place, but as he looked at you one last time before the door opened, his eyes flashed with a promise that made your blood run hot.
The rest of the night passed in a dizzying, historic blur.
From the moment Michael stepped out of the car and reached back to pull you out with him, the world went completely mad. The cameras went into overdrive, the flashes so bright they left spots in your vision. But true to his word, Michael kept you glued to his side. His arm was wrapped securely around your waist, his large hand pressing firmly into the small of your back, guiding you through the sea of reporters and photographers. Every few paces, he would lean down, his curls brushing against your cheek, just to whisper, "You look so beautiful, mama," or "They're all staring at you, I swear it."
Inside the auditorium, the energy was electric. It was gonna be a memorable night, and everyone knew it.
One by one, Michael’s name was called. Producer of the Year. Album of the Year. Record of the Year. Best Pop Vocal Performance. Over and over again, he stood up, the crowd erupting into thunderous applause, standing ovations that shook the very foundation of the building. And every single time he stood up, he kissed your cheek first. Every time he walked up those steps to accept another golden gramophone, he looked back at you sitting in the front row.
By the time he walked up to the podium for his final acceptance speech of the night, having tied and shattered records by winning a staggering eight Grammy Awards, the atmosphere was euphoric.
Michael stood at the microphone, adjusting his sunglasses, the crowd finally settling down into an expectant hush. He thanked the academy, he thanked his family, he thanked the Records, and he thanked his fans. His voice was humble, sweet, and filled with genuine awe. But then, he paused. He took off his sunglasses, his dark eyes sweeping over the crowd until they locked onto you.
A soft, incredibly tender smile broke across his face.
"And... I want to thank someone very, very special to me," Michael said into the microphone, his voice echoing beautifully through the massive auditorium. "Someone who has been my rock, my inspiration, and the joy in my life. Y/N..."
The cameras immediately panned to you, your face filling the giant screens in the arena. You offered a shy smile, your heart pounding against your ribs as the crowd cheered.
"Thank you for believing in me when things got hard," Michael continued, his eyes locked onto yours, completely ignoring the thousands of people watching. "Thank you for your love, your patience, and for just being the beautiful, incredible woman that you are. I wouldn't be standing up here tonight without you. This is for you, too. I love you."
The crowd erupted into an absolute frenzy. Your eyes welled with tears of pure pride and love as you watched him hold up the trophy, his gaze never leaving yours. He wasn't just the biggest star in the world in that moment; he was a man completely, utterly consumed by his love for you.
The moment the televised broadcast ended, the backstage area became a madhouse of executives, celebrities, and security guards trying to steer Michael toward the official after-parties. Everyone wanted a piece of him. Everyone wanted to celebrate the historic night.
But Michael wasn't having any of it.
The second he was clear of the main stage, his hand clamped tightly around yours, his fingers intertwining with yours so fiercely it almost hurt. He was moving fast, his long legs eating up the pavement as his security detail cleared a path through the backstage corridors.
"Michael! Michael, wait!" Frank Dileo, his manager, came jogging up alongside him, puffing on a cigar. "We gotta go to the CBS party, Mike! Clive Davis is expecting you, the press is waiting, we gotta—"
"No, Frank," Michael cut him off, not even breaking his stride. His voice lacked its usual soft, compliant edge. It was firm, absolute, and completely non-negotiable. "Tell them I'm tired. Tell them I'm not feeling well. I'm going back to the hotel."
"But Mike, you just won eight Grammys! This is the biggest night of your life!"
Michael stopped abruptly, turning to look at his manager. He didn't look tired at all. In fact, his eyes were burning with a desperate, frantic energy, a wild hum vibrating through his entire posture. He looked down at you, his eyes raking over your emerald green dress, your exposed collarbones, the rich warmth of your skin, and a visible shudder went through his frame.
"I'm going home, Frank. Secure the car. Now."
Frank looked at Michael, then looked at you, seeing the absolute fire burning in Michael's eyes and the flush on your cheeks. Realization dawned on the manager's face. He sighed, throwing his hands up. "Alright, alright. Security, get the limo around back. Now!"
Within minutes, you were pushed through a back exit and shielded into the waiting limousine. The door slammed shut, cutting off the noise of the world once again.
The car hadn't even pulled away from the curb before Michael was moving.
He didn't wait. He didn't say a word. He practically threw himself across the seat, his large hands coming up to frame your face as he crashed his lips against yours.
This wasn't the gentle, sweet kiss from earlier. This was desperate. This was needy. This was a man who had been starving all night while surrounded by a feast. Michael groaned deep in his throat, his tongue immediately sliding past your teeth to claim your mouth in a deep, wet, possessive kiss. His hands tangled in your hair, completely disregarding the perfect styling, pulling you closer until your chest was crushed against the hard, heavily embroidered front of his bedazzled jacket.
"Michael," you gasped out against his mouth, your hands coming up to grip his broad shoulders as the limousine accelerated. "Michael, wait—the driver—"
"The partition is up," he panted, his lips moving down your jawline, biting softly at the sensitive skin right beneath your ear, making you arch your neck with a soft sigh. "It's up, mama. God, you don't know what you did to me tonight. You don't have any idea."
His hands left your face, sliding down the silk of your dress, his touch frantic and heavy as he gripped your hips, lifting you effortlessly and pulling you right onto his lap. You straddled his thighs, your cream gown riding up over your knees. Michael’s breathing was ragged, his chest heaving against yours. The heavy gold trophies were sitting in a bag at the floor of the car, completely forgotten. The only thing that mattered to him was the feel of your body against his.
"You looked so beautiful," he whimpered, his forehead resting against yours, his eyes dark, wild, and dilated to the point where the iris was almost entirely gone. He looked completely unraveled, his usual composure entirely stripped away. "Seeing you sitting there... watching me... knowing you're mine. All those people staring at you, wanting you. I thought I was gonna lose my mind, baby. I swear I was."
"Michael, I'm right here," you whispered, running your fingers through his damp curls, feeling the frantic heat radiating off his skin. "I'm yours. Only yours."
A broken, needy sound left his throat, and he buried his face in the crook of your neck, inhaling deeply. "Show me. Please, just let me get you back to the room. I need you so bad. I'm shaking, mama. Look at me, I'm shaking."
He held up his hand—the gloved one—and it was indeed trembling with a raw, kinetic energy. The sheer adrenaline of winning eight Grammys, combined with the agonizing, hours-long torture of wanting to touch you, had pushed him completely over the edge. He was a desperate man, and you were his only salvation.
The trip up to the hotel penthouse was a blur of shadows and hurried footsteps. Michael kept his arm wrapped securely around your waist, his head down, his fingers digging into your hip through the silk of your dress as if he feared you might vanish if he let go.
The moment the heavy wooden door of the penthouse suite clicked shut behind you, the silence of the room was immediately shattered.
Michael didn't even turn on the lights. The only illumination came from the moonlight pouring through the floor-to-ceiling windows, casting long, dramatic shadows across the luxurious room and highlighting the city skyline outside.
He grabbed you by the waist and pressed you back against the closed door, the heavy wood cold against your back, but your front was burning hot against him. He tore off his sunglasses, throwing them carelessly onto the floor, followed immediately by his single white glove.
"Michael—"
Your words were swallowed by his mouth. He kissed you with a ferocious, unbridled passion that left you completely breathless, his tongue plundering your mouth over and over again. He was needy, Whimpering into the kiss, his hands moving frantically over your body, tracing the curves he had been staring at all night.
"I need to see you," he panted, breaking the kiss for a fraction of a second, his eyes wild in the dim light. "I need to see this beautiful, gorgeous body out of this dress. Please, baby. Let me see you."
His hands found the zipper at the back of your cream gown. With a swift, practiced motion, he pulled it down. The silk hissed as it parted, loosening around your frame. Michael didn't waste a second. He pushed the straps off your shoulders, the heavy fabric sliding down your body, pooling at your feet in a dark wave on the carpet.
Michael stepped back just an inch, his breath catching audibly in his throat as he looked at you. You stood before him in just your underwear, your rich brown skin glowing like polished bronze in the soft moonlight. The contrast against the dark room was breathtaking, and Michael looked like he was staring at a masterpiece in a museum.
"Oh, God," he breathed, a hand coming up to cover his mouth, his chest heaving. "Look at you. You are so... you're a goddess, mama. You're so beautiful it makes me want to cry. Look at what you do to me."
He didn't wait for a response. He reached for his own clothes, his movements frantic, almost clumsy in his desperation. The iconic blue bedazzled jacket was unbuttoned and tossed carelessly onto the floor, the gold braid clinking softly against the carpet. His shirt followed, thrown aside until he stood before you bare-chested, his lean, toned muscles rippling in the moonlight, a light sheen of sweat covering his skin from the sheer adrenaline of the night.
He stepped back into your space, his bare chest pressing against yours, the heat of his skin instantly transferring to you. He swept you up into his arms, lifting you effortlessly as if you weighed nothing at all, and carried you over to the massive king-sized bed.
He came down over you immediately, pinning you into the soft mattress with his weight. He didn't give you a moment to breathe. His hands found your wrists, pinning them gently but firmly beside your head, his long fingers locking with yours.
"I need you so much right now, baby," he whispered, his voice cracking with emotion, his eyes boring into yours with an intensity that made your heart hammer against your ribs. "I've been wanting this all night. Every time they called my name, every time I stood up there... all I could think about was this. Was you. How gorgeous you looked. How much I love you. Please... let me show you."
"Michael, yes... please," you groaned, arching your hips up against his, desperate for the contact, completely consumed by his heat and his need.
He moved with an urgent, frantic energy. In a matter of seconds, the remaining barriers of clothing were gone. Michael hovered between your thighs, his body trembling, his skin hot and slick against yours. He looked down at you, his eyes drinking in the sight of your beautiful, dark skin against the white sheets, his breath coming in short, ragged gasps.
"You're so beautiful, mama. So beautiful," he chanted like a prayer, his voice a low, gravelly rasp.
He didn't ease into it. Driven by hours of pent-up desire, the adrenaline of a historic night, and a deep, possessive need to completely consume you, Michael drove himself deep into you with one firm, heavy thrust.
A loud, breathless gasp tore from your throat, your back arching off the mattress as he filled you completely. It was intense, overwhelming, and utterly perfect.
Michael let out a low, guttural groan, burying his face in your neck as he began to move. He didn't hold back. He began to pound into you with a fierce, relentless rhythm, his heavy, powerful thrusts rocking your entire body against the mattress.
"Ah, god, my angel... you're so tight, so warm," he gasped out, his voice completely unraveled, stripped of any pop-star perfection. He was just a man, desperate and needy, completely losing himself inside the woman he loved.
His pace was fast, hard, and unyielding. Every time he drove his hips against yours, a soft, pathetic whimper would escape his lips, showing just how much your body was affecting him. He gripped your hips with his large hands, his fingers digging into your plush skin, anchoring you to him as he set a punishing, intoxicating pace.
The room was filled with the heavy sounds of his ragged breathing, the wet, rhythmic friction of your bodies meeting, and the soft, breathless cries slipping from your lips.
"Michael... oh my god, Michael," you cried out, your fingers digging into the muscles of his back, your legs wrapping tightly around his waist to pull him even deeper into you.
"Tell me you're mine," he begged, his thrusts growing even harder, faster, driving into you with a desperate intensity that brought you right to the edge of a cliff. He leaned down, his sweat-damp curls brushing against your face, his lips frantically kissing your cheeks, your jaw, your mouth. "Tell me, baby. I need to hear it. I need you so bad."
"I'm yours, Michael! I'm yours!" you cried out, your voice breaking as the pleasure began to crest over you.
Hearing those words completely broke whatever restraint he had left. Michael groaned, a raw, dominant sound, and increased his pace even further, his body moving in a blurred, powerful rhythm. He pounded into you, showing you with every single heavy stroke just how much he worshiped you, how much your beauty had driven him insane all evening, how much he needed to claim every single part of you.
The friction was unbelievable. You arched your back, your eyes rolling back as a wave of intense, shattering climax ripped through your body. You clamped tightly around him, your voice crying out his name into the quiet penthouse.
The tight, crushing sensation of your release immediately pushed Michael over the edge. He let out a loud, ragged cry, his body going rigid as he delivered one final, incredibly deep, heavy thrust. He buried himself as deep as he could possibly go inside you, his muscles locking up as he poured himself into you, his chest heaving violently against yours.
For a long, breathless moment, the world stopped moving. There were no Grammys, no fans, no records broken. There was just the two of you, tangled in the sheets, breathing heavily in the moonlight.
Slowly, the tension left Michael's body. He collapsed against you, burying his face in your hair, his breath still coming in ragged, shaky gasps. He didn't pull away; instead, he wrapped his long arms tightly around you, pulling you impossibly closer to his chest, as if he still couldn't get enough of you.
"Oh, god," Michael whispered into your hair, his voice incredibly soft, returning to that sweet, vulnerable tone you knew so well. He was still trembling slightly. "My baby... thank you. Thank you so much."
You smiled softly in the dark, your hands gently rubbing his back, feeling the slow, steady heartbeat beneath his skin. "For what, Michael?"
He shifted slightly, lifting his head so he could look down at you. In the moonlight, his eyes were soft, wet with emotion, and filled with a love so profound it took your breath away. He reached up, his bare hand gently caressing your cheek, brushing away a stray curl.
"For being my real prize tonight," he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. "Those trophies... they don't mean anything compared to this. Compared to you. You're the most beautiful thing in my world, baby. Never forget that. I love you so much."
You pulled his head down, kissing him sweetly, completely secure in the knowledge that no matter how big the world got out there, right here, in the dark, you were his entire universe.
so ur manager!michael has been making me go insane…
I HAVE to ask if you would do a fic where reader sees Michael wearing his reading glasses (😩😩😩) and Michael sees how it makes the reader feel? Smut/sexual tension Mayhaps? with dom Michael ofc. Anyway 👀👀
( ˶°ㅁ°) !! 0.8k, fluff ) manager!michael jackson x gn popstar!reader: since i already did this concept somewhat here, i decided to write another version set later on when you're 100% established & living together <3
it's amazing how after all this time, michael can still drive you crazy just by having his glasses on. you're almost embarrassed about the butterflies you feel when you notice him reading on the couch with the kids. the book sits against his knees while blanket and paris are half-settled in his lap. prince leans over his shoulder, tiny feet pressed firmly into the couch cushions despite his father's prior admonishes. three pairs of eyes filled with wonder and glee stare at the pages of the storybook in his hands. meanwhile, michael's eyes (and hair) are busy telling the oh so familiar tale of parenthood. his hair is a mess of black along his head, a sight that would usually cause you to giggle, but with those glasses on, mmm, all you can focus on is the slope of his nose, the thin black rims, that knowing look in his eye as he glances up— wait a second.
"are you enjoying story time, too?" he asks playfully, a smile forming along his lips as he soaks in that subtle hunger on your face. "maybe you should join us. you seem interested in what happens next."
"join us!" prince immediately demands, standing up taller before wobbling and lowering himself back down. he leans against michael once more, peering at you with a grin that screams trouble.
you chuckle. "i'd love to, but i have still have one more thing to do for work. i'll be back by the end, though, so we can finish it together."
"you promise?" paris prompts.
"i promise. i swear it on my honor," you dramatically declare, walking over. the forehead of each child is kissed, one, two, three. then, michael leans up, giving you the opportunity to press your lips to his in a quick peck before you head off to finish your work.
by the time you come back, the kids are all more or less asleep along the couch, sprawled about the cushions while michael finishes the final pages of the storybook. you walk in just in time to watch him nudge his glasses further up his nose, quietly reading out the very last words on the very last page.
"cute ending," you remark as you come back over. your gaze sweeps over the three children before you smile a little, "story time always sends them right to sleep."
michael chuckles softly, an airy sound that fills the room around you. "that's because playtime is right before it. they tire themselves out; all i have to do is read and wait. smart, right?"
"very," you reply. "so..."
"so," he repeats, raising an eyebrow. michael pauses before leaning back, closing the book and setting it aside on the ottoman table. "you missed the children. but i'm still here."
"that you are," you nod, stepping closer. his legs part further, an invitation for you to stand in between them. "you look very handsome today," you murmur under your breath, your hands resting on his shoulders as you stare down at him. slowly, your thumbs rub his skin through the fabric of his shirt.
"is it the glasses?" he asks teasingly, his voice quiet as a cocky grin replaces his sweet smile. from below on the couch, he admires you. he's shameless in his enjoyment of your interest. for you, it's when he wears his glasses; for michael, it's when you're like this.
you just look so good when you're hungry.
"you know it is," you whisper back, "you're lucky the kids are around."
that statement only gets him to smile more, flashing teeth for a moment. "oh yeah?"
"yeah."
"is it driving you crazy?" michael taunts, gently knocking his knee against the side of yours just by moving his leg a little. "you look starved, baby. like i don't feed you."
"don't start," you scoff, beginning to pull away. he tsks softly before gripping your waist, keeping you there in front of him.
"patience," he says simply, pausing before going on, "after dinner, after baths... just us, some candles, maybe a movie. hm?" michael lowers his voice, making sure the children can't hear him. "would you like that? would that feed you, make you feel good?"
you smile immediately, then bite your lip in self-consciousness; you're so easy! you'd love nothing more than the ability to stand firm, to bully him back for daring to tease you, but god, that did sound good. nothing but you, your man, and a movie that's bound to become background noise. "yeah, michael. i'd like that."
michael nods, "good." he raises himself up carefully before pressing a kiss to your lips. "i'll even keep the glasses on," he adds, kissing your lips a second time.
it's hard to stifle the giggle that threatens to leave your lips, but you somehow manage it, covering your mouth with one hand and playfully swatting at his shoulder. if only you could fast forward straight to the end of the night!
want more manager!michael?
him and his sexy ass glasses (pt 2). i LOVE a man with glasses, i honestly need to do it crazy style until BOTH our glasses both fall off. but i digress, this was rlly fun to write tysm for requesting! and actually, i think it turned out pretty cute overall even w the sexual tension... like ughh so domestic, so cute.
solicitation: For months, Y/N has been trying to tell New York the story of Spider-Man. She never imagined she’d already fallen in love with the man behind the mask.
issue #1: your friendly neighborhood
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