Orphan
I don't know where to begin- with the end I want to forget...I just want to hear her on the other line smiling as I share my day...really the only one that cared what my day was like. Insert expletives but don't write them because that would be wrong. If she only knew all the wrong but what if she does now. I still feel she would love me. Did I fail her at the end ? I don't know- I know it was crazy hard by myself trying to make her comfy. She smiled at me that last day- that sweet 'I'm so glad you're here smile' just for me. We had no idea what the night would bring , the morning would take her away. The sun has gone out and I feel like nothing much matters anymore- forgive me furry ones- you do matter, you are my world. I feel abandoned by the sweetness of T at the moment, maybe it will get better- I must not be a girl- wishing for love and hugs- just hugs would be so comforting but it is better to learn to live without them because eventually they will end like everything - or does it?







