wilonoir

cannibalism apostle || beauty in the grotesque he/it 16 𓄋 semi-ina

[wilonoir]

[smearedliipstick]

I need a man old enough to be my father to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay

[angeloftuesdayy]

touch me til I vomit

I'm not scared of god,

I'm scared he was gone all along

[jj-vs-world]

Want to be a good boy, pup? Then stop pretending to be a girl. Act as the man you say you are.

[m4keitoutal1ve]

clothes being pulled down/to the side instead of taken completely off.

[ilovedlemonicedtea]

Randy bradley wearing white lace panties send post

[5ubtotem]

[starzzmissthesun]

witness to such agony

[1osingdog]

t4t brocon ranson where benson's been out and passing for years and years. when his dad left and remarried, it was never something he mentioned to his new wife. he takes her transphobia and homophobia with a passive listening ear. when randy's little, it's all dresses and skirts, hair bows and clips in hair put in two braids by her mom every morning before school. benson thinks his sister looks like a cherub plucked from easter sunday church service. kid looks fucking stupid going out in public looking like a doll.

benson doesn't see her too often, her mom always giving him nasty side-eye, a grown man hanging around a little girl...pisses him off that she thinks he'd ever do anything. one time, though, miranda quietly asks him what it's like being a boy. listens all quiet and solemn and says that if she was a boy she'd like to be called randy. her mommy says that's not a girl name, though, so she can't be randy.

benson's not about to tell his *brother* about what's going on there, but he's more interested in spending time with randy after that. he understands that kid and wants to get him out from under his shitty mom obsessed with playing dress up with him

i feel like i’m going crazy reading this it’s literally a dream 😵‍💫 t4t brocon!ranson is actually a sentence pulled from my dreams i’m seeing spots

[1osingdog]

randy who wakes up early every morning to his mom in his room, picking out the dress for him to wear at school. something that means he can't be running around on the playground with, something that means he has to sit out from PE and watch everyone else run around. his mom says that girls that like playing sports end up as dykes. the dresses are glittery and scratchy and he's Always disliked the way they feel on his skin from a texture level but now that he's gotten to try some of benson's clothes, clothes that his brother lays out for him the same way his mom does but it's different because benson doesn't get mad at him when randy puts his clothes on the floor instead of laying them on the bed. benson doesn't make him stay still to fix his hair when it gets messy, if anything benson helps it get messy. benson's fine with randy wearing pants and prods at him to be louder, to have opinions. he lets randy have junk food and doesn't comment on him getting fat from it. once, he has randy look through his fridge for something to snack on and when randy tried to say he wasn't hungry---not seeing his mom's preferred snack of celery sticks---benson said that was bullshit. that randy was a growing boy. the offhanded comment made randy so happy he started crying in the middle of the kitchen.

randy sitting on the old beat up couch in benson’s room while they play video games, legs spread wide cause he’s in too-big pants and he can (and its how benson sits), sipping on soda and while benson’s smokes next to him. every once in awhile he glances at his big brother, replicating his mannerisms and movements, wanting to be more like him. when he has to leave and put his stupid dress back on the fabric is even more scratchy and unbearable after the soft worn fabric of his boy clothes. benson has to help get his hair back into the stupid over complicated bows and braids his mom always does, and it’s not the best but he’s getting better (he’d never admit it to randy but he practices sometimes on the longer pieces of his mullet). randy’s mom can always tell, and randy always comes up with an excuse about a nap messing it up or something but his mom always has a look like she knows (but maybe that’s just in randy’s head) one thing she does know is he always comes back smelling like cigarettes and not being very hungry for his dinner of steamed veggies and bland chicken and she rants for hours about how bad an influence his brother is and one of these days she’s gonna stop these visits

[1osingdog]

do you think a ranson incest au would have them the same level of unhealthy codependence or even More unhealthily codependent

oh 100000% even more unhealthy codependence. they are 100% angry ‘wants to toughen him up’ older brother x sheltered sensitive ‘just wants to make him proud’ younger brother.

like benson is maybe his older brother from a different mom that was always lowkey annoyed by randy growing up because he’s so much younger and his mom keeps him so sheltered and babied and he’s so damn soft and has been coddled and it pisses benson off but at the same time randy following him around like a puppy all wide eyed and scared he feels so violently protective of him, like only i can be mean to him and hurt him but if anyone else even tries benson would kill them. and when benson finds out how overbearing randy’s mom still is even after he’s grown it pushes him over the edge and he runs away with him, kidnapping his little brother whose so scared and doesn’t understand what’s happening but trusts benson so completely he’ll follow him anywhere because that’s his big brother and he loves him desperately

now i have new brainrot to think about, may have to write a separate headcanon post for this now thank you anon

[1osingdog]

the first time randy jerks off thinking about his brother being after he got the shit beaten out of him at school. some boys in his class didn't like the way he looked, the way he talked, the way randy's just...himself. benson's pissed because he taught randy to throw a punch, got him a knife a few years back. so either randy didn't stand his ground or the shitheads that did this to him ganged up on him so randy couldn't do anything.

and the way that benson was just so livid pulling the details out of randy about what happened, the fact that someone cares That Much about him makes his stomach twist the longer he thinks about it until he's touching himself under the covers. after he cums on his hand, he imagines it's benson's and licks his hand clean.

oh anon you’re CRAZY for this. just thinking about randy touching himself to benson, knowing it’s wrong because everyone and everything tells him he shouldn’t feel this way about his big brother but??? how can it be wrong when it feels so right??? when he’s the only person who ever makes randy feel safe and seen and cared for??? the only person he can imagine being that vulnerable with, that open and bare. so what if he jerks off every night thinking about his big brother’s plush lips around a cigarette, or his long fingers in hair, arms wrapped around him in a hug, or that one time they both fell asleep watching a movie one of the rare times randy was allowed to sleep over, and he woke with benson asleep half on top of him, the weight of him crushing him but in the best way. and suddenly randy felt a hardness pressed into his thigh and his eyes shot open and he was suddenly painfully awake, every fiber of his being on high alert at the feeling of his brother hard against him as he slept, breath heavy on randy’s neck. a pathetic untouched teenager he honestly almost came then and there and it took all the focus in the world not to. when benson finally woke up he apologized for crushing randy and randy couldn’t even make eye contact with him long enough to say it was fine

[barklikeagod17]

benson forcefemmimg randy because he’s “not a fuckin’ fag”

[riddler-apologist]

perverted church girl miranda bradley <3

[cyb3r-pupp]

Cuteness agression but sexual style as in someone is just too sweet and cute and all I want to do is hold them down and bite and bruise and turn them into a whimpering mess

[deathbatsgalore]

thinkin abt randy cryin n shakin n droolin n whimperin like a dog rlly gets me off <3

[goodblunt]

(nonchalant) (rock hard) i sense that you kill a lot of people