both heaven and hell

An angel with his powers sealed, temporarily stuck on Earth; for details please read the biography. (it's long and I apologise. I'll probably end up writing a summary someday.) Not tied to a specific fandom.

[wingsgoinggrey]

It’s easier to see it by others, I have to admit. It’s not that hard to be in denial about your own shitty situation. So you usually need someone else to realise that.

*He frowns slightly at that.* I don’t see why you would describe yourself as ‘fucked up.’

[derelictsoldier-blog]

Hm. Yeh, well, livin in denial tends to be easier than dealin with anythin else.

[Shhhrugged, her energy slowly dissipating.]

You’d  be surprised how accurate I am sayin that. Bunch fteeth missin, no tail, ears ain’t straight, can’t walk like I’m suppose to…

But, I mean, I could show you. Honestly, since you’re not human, it’s not a huge issue.

[wingsgoinggrey]

Sadly, it is.

*He's rather intrigued to how that all happened - there had to be a story - but he wasn't very keen on sharing stories himself, so asking would be unfair.* I won't ask about that, then.

No? Well - if you don't mind...

[wingsgoinggrey]

I guess such is the fate of some. However, there’s also the saying of how things have to get worse before they get better. When you think you’ve finally hit your lowest, you can get back up and climb. That’s how I see it, at least.

So you’re unrelated to them. You just take after them appearance wise? I’m just trying to wrap my head around this. It’s…you’re unusual.

[derelictsoldier-blog]

Suppose that’s true. Hard to tell when youf hit the bottom sometimes. And fother people can tell, you usually don’t want to take their advice.

[Sighed quietly. She’d rather not get into that.]

Mmmm, I get the feelin the easiest thing to do is just show you. Sortf hard to describe it another way… I just look real fucked up, so I’m not the best representation.

[wingsgoinggrey]

It's easier to see it by others, I have to admit. It's not that hard to be in denial about your own shitty situation. So you usually need someone else to realise that.

*He frowns slightly at that.* I don't see why you would describe yourself as 'fucked up.'

[wingsgoinggrey]

It should change. Yet I don’t think it’s possible. Well - such is life. It isn’t supposed to be perfect, it’s supposed to be challenging.

Probably. No one is without judgement.

*He nods.* True. And there are countless of small islands in the sea. I just thought kangaroos were native to Australia only. …I’ve never been that good in geography and such.

[derelictsoldier-blog]

And sometimes it just gets worse.

[Shrugged. It was weird how many people were so optimistic for the future. Of course, her thinking of the future was much more bleak.]

That. Exactly. Yeh.

Well, I don’t know much about kangaroos. Or, well, much fgeography either. So I wouldn’t know. But appearin like a kangaroo is different than being one.

[wingsgoinggrey]

I guess such is the fate of some. However, there's also the saying of how things have to get worse before they get better. When you think you've finally hit your lowest, you can get back up and climb. That's how I see it, at least.

So you're unrelated to them. You just take after them appearance wise? I'm just trying to wrap my head around this. It's...you're unusual.

[wingsgoinggrey]

It is. It’s very easy to turn people into the black sheep of the family, or the scape goat. Blaming others isn’t that hard. 

*He shakes his head.* I don’t know if that’s a human thing only. I doubt that. I think everyone, no matter what species you are, does this to some degree. If they’re intelligent enough, that is. 

Excuse my curiosity, but where do you originally come from? Kangaroos imply Australia…

[derelictsoldier-blog]

Scape goat for sure. It’s usually just pathetic, specifically when it’s the media. It’s easier and quicker to just throw out what they got. And even when more details come out, it’s easier just to run with what they already said. Backtrackin can make anyone look bad.

Yeh. It’s easier and safer to just assume off fwhat you know.

Hell, I’m quilty fit myself. I think everyone is.

Well, we are from an island, just not Australia specifically. Middle fthe Pacific ocean is a big place.

[wingsgoinggrey]

It should change. Yet I don't think it's possible. Well - such is life. It isn't supposed to be perfect, it's supposed to be challenging.

Probably. No one is without judgement.

*He nods.* True. And there are countless of small islands in the sea. I just thought kangaroos were native to Australia only. ...I've never been that good in geography and such.

[wingsgoinggrey]

Of course you don’t kill intentionally. That’s just twisting the truth so that you ‘don’t have a choice.’ Can’t you just eat… I don’t know. Dead livers. Change your diet.

[nappeunssias-deactivated2014091]

Ah, but that, too, is included in my diet. [Let her just hop down from the outdoor table and onto the ground.]

Humans are a lost cause, you know. Quite acting so high and mighty to protect them and let nature take its course.

[wingsgoinggrey]

Hm. *He follows her with his eyes.*

Humans are not a lost cause. They can completely drive you mad, and ruin everything within seconds, but they're by far not the worst out there. They're just fragile. And about that... it's my job. I have to.

[wingsgoinggrey]

*Sadly, he can’t even blame her for doing that. He would’ve done the same.*

Technically, I would be able to. I don’t want any more killings.

[nappeunssias-deactivated2014091]

Oh, shut it. I do not kill intentionally. It isn’t my fault humans cannot live without their liver.

[wingsgoinggrey]

Of course you don't kill intentionally. That's just twisting the truth so that you 'don't have a choice.' Can't you just eat... I don't know. Dead livers. Change your diet.

[wingsgoinggrey]

*He has no idea what she had said. He could guess, a little, but it was probably way off. Korean was not in his list of mastered languages. But she had spoken English before, hadn’t she? Let’s try that.*

I don’t trust you.

[nappeunssias-deactivated2014091]

Good. You shouldn’t. 

[Now, she’s going to pick and choose the parts he wants him to understand, thank you Korean.]

Now what do you want? If you plan on watching me 24/7, good luck.

[wingsgoinggrey]

*Sadly, he can't even blame her for doing that. He would've done the same.*

Technically, I would be able to. I don't want any more killings.

[nappeunssias-deactivated2014091]

wingsgoinggrey replied to your post:Go away.

*He just glares at the fox. He won’t leave you out of his sight.*

… you truly are a nuisance.

[wingsgoinggrey]

*He has no idea what she had said. He could guess, a little, but it was probably way off. Korean was not in his list of mastered languages. But she had spoken English before, hadn't she? Let's try that.*

I don't trust you.

[wingsgoinggrey]

No, it’s fine. Go on. I haven’t had a philsophical talk like this in ages…there are plenty of people who think that way. Black and white, and no inbetween. I don’t know what’s up with that. It’s maybe easier to digest and understand if they can clearly label other people and put them in their respective corners. In general, people like to simply everything. It’s not always of much help.

I see your point. I think I can agree.

[derelictsoldier-blog]

Oh, okay. Um, but yeh, I mightf misunderstood at first.

It is because it’s so much easier to point at someone and say they’re bad, rather than say they did somethin that could be called bad but they help out their community.

Might be a human thing? Or a human learned thing? I mean, that can’t be completely true, since it’s somethin we do too. Though it’s also a position that only sticks as long as you don’t fa whole lotf information.

[wingsgoinggrey]

It is. It's very easy to turn people into the black sheep of the family, or the scape goat. Blaming others isn't that hard. 

*He shakes his head.* I don't know if that's a human thing only. I doubt that. I think everyone, no matter what species you are, does this to some degree. If they're intelligent enough, that is. 

Excuse my curiosity, but where do you originally come from? Kangaroos imply Australia...

[swaynem-deactivated20140428]

That’s a Lot of salt…

[minugakitsune]

Do you want to order pizza? 

[She’s]

[Not really in the mood to cook this is rare :c]

[wingsgoinggrey]

Eh…I think that’s fine. I never had pizza. It’s one of those Italian fastfood things, right?

[minugakitsune]

Yes—

It’s delicious, but very greasy. Definitely not an every day food.

[She’s gonna go order their food u3u]

[wingsgoinggrey]

I'm not entirely surprised. It looks like a calorie bomb.

 *He's grabbing a pen and starts to doodle on an old newspaper.*

[minugakitsune]

You live under my roof, you eat.

[Very pointed look.]

[wingsgoinggrey]

…

*It was better not to argue. Especially not since he was the one in debt to her.* Yes, miss. I’ll eat dinner.

I don’t really have a favourite type of food. You can make whatever you want.

[minugakitsune]

Do you want to order pizza? 

[She’s]

[Not really in the mood to cook this is rare :c]

[wingsgoinggrey]

Eh...I think that's fine. I never had pizza. It's one of those Italian fastfood things, right?

[minugakitsune]

I was a child— for like three days—

[Shrugs]

What do you want for dinner.

[wingsgoinggrey]

I’ve seen people getting corrupted in less.

…I’ll drop it. *Then he looks up, a bit confused.* Dinner?

[minugakitsune]

You live under my roof, you eat.

[Very pointed look.]

[wingsgoinggrey]

...

*It was better not to argue. Especially not since he was the one in debt to her.* Yes, miss. I'll eat dinner.

I don't really have a favourite type of food. You can make whatever you want.

[wingsgoinggrey]

It’s not painful. It’s just uncomfortable.

You think so? They don’t. *He just shrugs. He hadn’t planned to tell him anything about it at all.* No. I can’t, I’m stuck here. It’s temporary, but… God knows when they’ll let me back up.

[lasciviouslullaby-deactivated20]

I’ll do my best not to be too touchy anymore then-

[He looks rather confused] Ah, I know that feeling sort of. They kicked me out of Hell for a while not too long ago. But for me, it wasn’t so much because I love the place, but Earth is too…cold for me and I don’t like humans-

[wingsgoinggrey]

I'd appreciate that.

I didn't even do anything remotely bad. They're just being assholes and setting me as an example, I'm sure. A while... why did they throw you out? *He sighs a little and stretches one of his legs.* I'm not surprised. Almost no one likes humans.

[minugakitsune]

She would and she could.

[wingsgoinggrey]

Exactly. That’s a problem. I’m glad she didn’t get to you.

[minugakitsune]

I was a child— for like three days—

[Shrugs]

What do you want for dinner.

[wingsgoinggrey]

I've seen people getting corrupted in less.

...I'll drop it. *Then he looks up, a bit confused.* Dinner?

[minugakitsune]

There’s no need to sound so sinister— I am fine and you are fine and things are back to normal. 

[wingsgoinggrey]

I don’t like that woman. She might just murder out the whole town if she wanted to.

[minugakitsune]

She would and she could.

[wingsgoinggrey]

Exactly. That's a problem. I'm glad she didn't get to you.

[wingsgoinggrey]

*His expression darkens a little at the mention of the kumiho.*

I knew she had you in her grasp. I think I met her yesterday. 

…I’m relieved you’re back to normal.

[minugakitsune]

There’s no need to sound so sinister— I am fine and you are fine and things are back to normal. 

[wingsgoinggrey]

I don't like that woman. She might just murder out the whole town if she wanted to.