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The whims of a failing anorexic

Okay I will put anything

Today I am sooo puffy and gross and I feel out of control

So I am doing a cleanse tomorrow and made it a point to actually tell everyone, because it turns out embarassment is the only thing that will keep me consistent

Cleanse

Then im gonna start a diet similar to IU but with exceptions because I am on a budget and already have some ingredients in my house

Breakfast- Apple but can be supplemented by weetabix

Lunch- 2 baby potatoes nothing on them- can be substituted by avocado, bell pepper

Dinner- protein shake, can be substituted by hard boiled eggs

I'll post my SW tomorrow morning, its gonna be scary, with cleanse updates.

This diet, for personal reasons, goes until May 19th.

Literally barely over 2 weeks babe.

Exceptions can be made only when sharing food with friends. I've realized I always tell myself, oh you can't do that diet your friends will call you out. First of all, never true, I used to diet in front of my friends all the time, and they were only ever really jealous of my self restraint.

Also, I never binge in front of friends... thats why its disordered. So if I'm with friends, there's no reason not to grant myself food freedom, and thus I am not restricting really

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Day one,

SW: 162

Diet started well, but had one digestive and coffee with milk

Walked a bunch, proceeded to break the diet with 7 hard boiled eggs and an entire bar of sf white chocolate

Total calories: 1700

Speaks to how much starting the day low cal can save you

FW: 158.2

Totally bummed about failing, but whatever, theres no problems in the present, and the past does not define me, I will try again tomorrow. First day of IU modified

The whims of a failing anorexic

Okay I will put anything

Today I am sooo puffy and gross and I feel out of control

So I am doing a cleanse tomorrow and made it a point to actually tell everyone, because it turns out embarassment is the only thing that will keep me consistent

Cleanse

Then im gonna start a diet similar to IU but with exceptions because I am on a budget and already have some ingredients in my house

Breakfast- Apple but can be supplemented by weetabix

Lunch- 2 baby potatoes nothing on them- can be substituted by avocado, bell pepper

Dinner- protein shake, can be substituted by hard boiled eggs

I'll post my SW tomorrow morning, its gonna be scary, with cleanse updates.

This diet, for personal reasons, goes until May 19th.

Literally barely over 2 weeks babe.

Exceptions can be made only when sharing food with friends. I've realized I always tell myself, oh you can't do that diet your friends will call you out. First of all, never true, I used to diet in front of my friends all the time, and they were only ever really jealous of my self restraint.

Also, I never binge in front of friends... thats why its disordered. So if I'm with friends, there's no reason not to grant myself food freedom, and thus I am not restricting really

pixieproblem

I want people to look at me and say “she’s so petite” or “she’s lost so much weight”

pixieproblem

Things that have saved me:

(Personally, I can’t digest fake sugar so that means anything “diet” or “zero cal” so here are my safe foods)

Pickles!

Tea (add honey local to your area, it’ll help with allergies :))

Trader Joe’s jarred half peaches

Rice cakes

Cucumber salad (oil & vinegar if you want)

Raw peppers with salsa! (It doesn’t sound too great, trust me— I used to hate peppers but eating it with salsa is so good)

Water between every bite

MINTS OR MINTY GUM (you don’t like the taste of orange juice after brushing your teeth right? So the more mint you have throughout the day will not only curb your appetite but also keep you from having dry mouth if ur like me!)

I’ve noticed that binging is really what gets people. By snacking throughout the day you’re able to hold back on binging at night. Also try to sleep early so you spend less time thinking about food.

AGAIN PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS. IT’S AN ILLNESS AND IT’S SICK. IM TRYING TO BETTER MYSELF AND HOPEFULLY OTHER PEOPLE SO THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE. call me a hypocrite but I’ve never once told people that they’re fat or should stop eating, I’m just ill.

pixiecloudss

Morning

Accountability buddy

Trying to lose weight, but suck at being accountable. If anyone wants to be accountability buddies let me know <3

Ideally someone near my CW: 160

Thx :)

#accountability buddy #weight loss #cw160

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Remembering what it felt like to always have an empty stomach, to be excited to leave the house because it distracted you

Always feeling confident in my outfits

Borrowing clothes from friends knowing they'd likely be too big but would hang off of you in a cute way

Knowing you wouldn't have to drink a lot because the buzz would come quickly

When you ate in public and knew people would look wondering how you were able to do that and still be so skinny

The look of your stomach while laying in bed

Seeing your thigh next to someone else's and theirs being substantially bigger

Rubbing your knees together to feel the gap in your thighs

Not knowing which clothes to buy because all of them looked good

Every picture you take appearing as if its straight from pinterest

Always being slightly cold, but having someone to warm you up

Wanting to be looked at, wanting to be touched

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IG plgnsk

0calprincess

Holy fuck.videos hit so much harder.

sk1nnydietcvnt

Food is expensive. Do you want to be poor and fat or rich and skinny?

Lent and IU

Kicking off lent with the IU diet round 2... i unfortunately did just go grocery shopping and have a few things that will go bad so...

Apples may be exchanged for 2 cuties or cucumber/pepper

Sweet Potato may be exchanged by 2-3 eggs or zucchini

And protein shake will stay the same

I had a crazy unhealthy weekend so I needed to refresh

SW... 155 lbs which is up a bit but not as much as expected actually... shooting for 1 week

With the weekend coming up I'm prepared to give myself grace to go out then just get right back on it

Wish me luck <3

metamorphosisme

Roughly comes to 650cal a day. Think im gonna try it that way I can stay more on track. I know depression was getting ahold of me, I wish I could just sleep the days away like I used to.. let's see how this goes. If anyone has tried this cmt your results or tricks below!