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side blog. Welcome to my 2025 relapse. 26 and I feel too old to be here now… slowing creeping into my unbecoming female manipulator era. yay self awareness, I’m toxic lol. Pro recovery obvi. 5’7 female CW: SW:185 GW:110 LW:118 (2019 I was winninggg and losing lol) Additionally I have autoimmune issues- which can either cause weight loss or gain. Fun times.

[miseria-fortes-viros]

ultimately the truth about frankenstein is that we are all grotesque amalgamations of the best and worst parts of everyone who came before us. and sometimes the people who are supposed to love us because of and in spite of this will not. and we can kill them with hammers for that. and i think that’s beautiful

[winteragain]

We’re so back

[milliescaloriesxo-deactivated20]

heroin chic

[winteragain]

Accidentally falling into Mia tendencies againnnnnn- like no matter how little I eat, I just need to get whatever it is outttt of my body. Bleh.

[milliescaloriesxo-deactivated20]

heroin chic

[skiinnyluv777-deactivated202307]

♡ kate moss ♡

[winteragain]

In the moving process and I’ve dumped all the food in my fridge and pantry and I’ve only been buying like the minimal amount of safe food.

I got a little loose with things since my flare up, haven’t gained anything but haven’t lost anything either.

Looking forward to having a job where I can burn off however little I need to sustain me for burning off what I need to be sustained.

[winteragain]

not in a flare anymore so back to being a junkarexic smoker

[winteragain]

Ate quite a bit for my birthday and then drank so much I vomited well beyond the contents of my stomach - but no weight gained the next day so birthday miracle. Or maybe that’s just the trick to drinking- drink so much you vomit like crazyyytt

[saralosingit-deactivated2023030]

[winteragain]

When even in baggy clothes people comment on how thin you’ve gotten >

[zerocokedreamer]

everyday i wake up to suffer

[winteragain]

Left is for if I’m less physically active and right is for if I am more active.

[thebeiges]

[winteragain]

New anti inflammatory meal plan so I can get my autoimmune crap in check. Three meals per day and keeping each meal under 200 and a daily max still of 800. Going back to my orthorexie roots lol

[blackcoffeeokay]

I want this the hair the wine the collar bones all of it.

[winteragain]

Fuckkkkkkkkk my lupus is flaring up FML. Anyone do AIP while ana? Uggggghhhhhhhhhh.

Like obviously it’s flaring because I’m in a very unhealthy lifestyle. So I guess it’s time to be an orthorexie- plus the occasional cigarette