Ella Parkinson

Hey, I'm Ella! I'm a Mataku but people don't generally ask me that, of course I'm a black Mataku And apparently a pretty good one. Anyway this is my page, I'm a little bit of a fucking psychopath but you'll get used to it, because that shit is just me, so sit back and fasten your fucking seatbealt because I'm a god damn wild ride.Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me? Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me? Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me? Pointing fingers cause you'll never take the blame like me? I think there's a flaw in my code. These voices won't leave me alone.Well my heart is gold, and my hands are... Cold.

[witchyella]

Ella had spent so long trying to remember how to be herself, continuously just working at herself. And now she really felt like she was back to before everything had gone so wrong in her life. As she sat at the table in the restaurant she couldn’t help but smile as a butterfly landed on her hand, it felt like she was really getting back to being herself. “His name is reginald, I warn you he doesn’t take kindly to other names.”

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annaelhudson:

Annie rolled her eyes gently, “No I’m not,” sex had once appealed to her. It was a great way to distract from the pain, the darkness. She had had no interest in it now. A distraction from getting better, from who she could be. From everything at all. She sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose. “Because I don’t want to. I have no appeal or reason to.” She shrugged, pulling her thighs tighter to her chest as she shrugged and rested her forehead on her knees to take a deep breath and calm herself. “Well, thanks. But I’m good. And- what? No no. Stop. he’s just a- he’s a friend.”

Ella gave a soft shrug, "well, I mean up to you, but it's never not fun, no matter who you do it with." Ella was by far a sexual person, no matter what state of mind she was in she would always crave sex, it was just something she had grown used to wanting, sometimes even needing sex to feel like a person. "Fair enough, I'm just saying it's always fun when you have it." She reached to turn up the heat in the room, she could feel the cold settling into her bones and she really knew she needed sex. "I mean he can still be a friend and you can find him attractive, and besides, does he know you just want to be friends?"

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tallulahsaxton:

“No… No one can ever replace a person’s mother,” it must have been why her mother- or, rather, the woman who raised, why she’d been so awful. She wasn’t Tallulah’s real mother, and maybe, maybe somewhere deep down, she knew it. Maybe she’d been so neglectful because she couldn’t bare to try and love someone who wasn’t her’s. “And I’ll probably be there, because I’m always there. I’m never not there,” she grumbled, pinching the bridge of her nose, “it’s exhausting, sometimes.” 

Tallie smiled softly, chewing on her lip as she knelt to nuzzle Carissa. “He is. I do miss him. I wonder what he’s gotten himself into… he’s had to have gotten himself into something … necessary.” the word was chosen carefully. She was sure that if he were gone, there was reason for it.

"I've known that since my aunt tried to take over after the accident, that's part of why I ran away too." She admitted, finally realizing she should make some attempt to get back in contact with her family, that she should learn how to be her old self again, even though the majority of who she used to be had disappeared when she left. "Well, that's when you decide that you need to take a break and use up your holidays, New Zealand standard is two weeks a year."

Ella nodded in thought, losing her mind just a little bit as she was trying to think. "I.. Honestly I miss him too, I wonder if he's doing okay, then again I highly doubt he would have disappeared for nothing, no not at all. he wouldn't." She said with a shake of her head, sure of her words.

[witchyella]

Let the games commence Every cost is my expense There's a fine line between rage and romance The rules still stand Supply equals demand There's a fine line between rage and romance I ask forgiveness as I bear White flags are waving everywhere But what's the point in talking? You make a wish, I'll double dare I wouldn't plead if I didn't care No way Life's too short Take a chance Skate that line of rage and romance

{ @graysonjackoftheblack }

[witchyella]

vivianxcarter:

Vivian knocked lightly on the door in front of her and slowly opened it and peeked her head in. She was surprised by the woman’s words and felt her face flush lightly as she slipped in and shut the door softly behind her. “I’m sorry. I’m not who you were expecting. You are, um, Ella Parkinson, right?” She tucked her hair behind her ear and gave a small smile as she caught sight of the little girl, reminded of her own daughter. “Someone told me that you baby sit some times and well, I need someone other than my mum to look after my daughter … if … if you’re interested?”

Ella looked up when the front door opened and she felt something similar to a tentative energy. She smiled broadly when she saw someone new coming into her apartment and shook her head at her apologies. "Don't ve sorry, please, come on in. You have definitely found the right place, I'm Ella, how can I help?" She stood up, picking up the little girl who let out a reel of giggles at being moved around the place while she still had a cloud attached to her. "That I do, I've started to look after kids every now and then to try and keep me in the light. I would love to look after your little one!"

[witchyella]

greyangelgabriel:

He rocked back on his heels and rubbed his eyes tiredly before rubbing his chest lightly, it was still a little tender even after all this time. And his leg would occasionally ache if it got too cold out. But he’d take those aches and pains over his dreams, in his dreams he was never quite fast enough to throw himself in front of Ella for protection and always had to face the consequences. “You look much happier.” He murmured lightly, hugging her back. They’d come a long way from him telling her she’d drag Annie down further into Darkness over his dead body. Now it was more like it’d be over his dead body before he let anyone drag either of them into Darkness. “Did you seriously ask me that? El, sweets, do you not know me at all?” He laughed lightly.

While Ella knew she was happy, she knew there were several things wrong with her, but she could also tell just from looking at him that Gabe had the same nightmares she had, horrific nightmares that kept replaying from in that council circle, the place where she was too much for the black Mataku to handle, where they needed to take her out. And in some ways they did, they took a lot of the happiness out of her, and took away her darkness, but they gave her the nightmares of the accident too, and with so much more force. "And you seem somewhat happy, but... You have them don't you? The nightmares? About what happened? Because I do too sometimes, but there are far more pressing nightmares that take me over." She admitted finally, shaking her head as she made her way into the kitchen, making a couple of ice cream sandwiches and returning, holding one out to him on a little plate. "It's just the nightmares of my family's car crash are so much worse than the nightmares about what happened that day."

[witchyella]

graysonjackoftheblack:

His magic lashed out and made the windows rattle threateningly. “Yes, because you’ll end up hurt. Since you’re so good at pissing me off lately, Ella.” He growled out, glaring at someone who was about to come in the store until they turned right back around and left again. “Right again, you’re on a roll today, babe.” He snapped at her words and shoved her back into one of the bookshelves. “Save me? Light? Jesus, I knew you were dumb, Ella but I didn’t think you were this fuckin stupid. There is no Light in me. It’s all been put out and there’s nothing to be saved. No one can save me, because I don’t need to be saved. I’m fine just how I am.”

Ella knew she should have listened to the little voice in the back of her head screaming at her to run, but as much as his demons screamed, she knew she'd seen some of the same ones, and sometimes hers roared louder than his even now. "Of course, it's all I'll ever get with you, isn't it? You do that all on your own, Grayson, you're paranoid. Paranoid and predictable" She sucked in a breath and winced when she felt spots that she was sure would be bruises. "No, there is light in you, I can feel it. Anyone who is even a little light can feel it, and I know under the blackness you're light." She brought her hands up to rest against his cheeks again, letting him see all the cracks in her light magic, but pouring in as much of the light as she could. "You aren't what the black makes you out to be, Gray."

[witchyella]

greyangelgabriel:

He gave her a grateful smile, he really didn’t feel like talking about it right now and didn’t want to burden her in anyway with his issues either. He hummed softly as he listened to her speak. He remembered Tane confronting him over what he and Ella had done and how angry with the man he’d been. He was glad the old Fae had been able to help Ella though. He gave her a happy smile. “I’m glad Ella. This suits you, you seem …. happy.” He couldn’t resist the urge to lean forward and press a kiss to her cheek.

Ella knew deep down there were still some things that were very unsettled, but the more she surrounded herself with light, the happier she became, it was similar to dark in that way, she wasn't overly worried about life. But she couldn't get away from the dreams that took over at night, that took her to a different place, to a road back in England, those dreams were still there. "I feel so much happier over it all, I really do." She smiled softly, reaching her arms out to hug him. "Are you hungry? I made cookies and brownies and they're loaded with chocolate, but also they're warm still and I have ice cream."

[witchyella]

graysonjackoftheblack:

His temper felt frayed, his dream still rattling around in his brain, his sister’s scream echoing in his mind. He felt his lips pull back to bare his teeth like an animal. “I am not in the mood, Ella. Do not push me.” He was surprised when she grabbed his hand and let his magic squeeze around her a little tighter. “You think I care what these people think? You think they’ll even remember anything they’ll see here?” He snarled moving closer to her. “Why don’t you go running back to your precious Angelboy and your precious White Magic!”

Ella scrubbed a hand over her face, she was trying to put all the pieces together in her mind, the pieces of what had happened in here and somehow she figured out what it was, but she wouldn't mention his sisters name. "I know, because I'll end up hurt right?" She asked, her own growl coming from her throat. "No, I don't think you care what people think, in fact I know you don't care, and you won't let them remember." She said with a soft sigh, her anger building again. "You know why I don't fucking leave, Gray? Because I know you're better than this, because I know you are light under the dark and as much as it hurts to admit I care about you more than I care about myself, and that's why I don't go running back to him, because even if you hate me for it, I'm going to save you from yourself. Because someone has to."

[witchyella]

tallulahsaxton:

The warmth that radiated from Ella’s face alone made Tallie excited for her. “Thank you- I take that as a very high compliment. I’m trying. I’m nothing compared to her real mom, but I’m trying as hard as I can. She’s called me Mama quite a few times, and I keep trying to correct her, but she’s just not… catching.” She stared at Rissa, brows furrowed as she was somewhat in thought, trying to figure out another way to teach her. She laughed, “You’re ridiculous. Your next drink is on me, dear.” She smiled, offering it to the blonde. 

A small smile pulled on Tallie’s lips to know that the good that was done was from him. “Well, good. I’m glad. He’s a great man, and I’m happy to know he is what helped you.”

Ella could feel the happiness flowing out of her, she was warming up the room in the best way, with happiness. "No one can ever replace a persons real mother, no matter what they are, whether they're awful or fantastic, no one would, but you can come close, and if she calls you mama just keep correcting her and she'll eventually get it." She said with a small smile, nodding her head, really the only way to teach a kid anything was repetition. "Hey it's what I'm here for. I'll get my next drink when I come in and have some lunch at Flame."

Ella gave a smile as she remembered what had happened in the forest, sure she had scorched some of the trees but she'd healed them mostly herself. "He's kind of amazing, and he cares so much about literally everyone."

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annaelhudson:

Annael wasn’t sure why she didn’t particularly like being around children, but maybe it was because of just how pure they really were. Being around them was a constant reminder of how she had changed, how she was darker than she had expected to be as a child. A constant reminder that she had failed on what she’d wanted. She rose a brow when Ella mentioned a condom, and felt her face flush slightly. “I’m not having sex,” she huffed indignantly, “I just don’t want to have children, or be a mom or anything. It wouldn’t work well for me. And I’m not having sex with anyone, so it’s fine.”

It had been a long time since Ella felt this normal, this sane, from the day she lost most of her family to now she didn't really know what sane was, or where her sanity had gone, and yet she knew there were so many worse ways she could be, the dark magic still loomed over her and felt like she was being choked on occasion. Ella tilted her head at Annie's reaction to what she said. "I- Wait, you're not? Why not? I mean, up to you, but still it's great." She said with a giggle, "well, for what it's worth, even if you think you won't be, I think you'll actually be a wonderful mother. But honestly, climb that sea siren like a pole, he's hot!"

[witchyella]

graysonjackoftheblack:

He blinked and tilted his head before snorting and shaking his head. “You need your hearing checked, Ella. I was offering myself up so I would’t have to remember anything any more.” He sneered lightly before turning away from her to look back over the papers he’d fallen asleep on. The skin she touched his chin and her light magic seeped out he lashed out in anger. His hand smacked hers away and his magic lashed out, wrapping around her threateningly, though he was careful to maintain some kind of control over it. “Do not do that again.”

Ella's jaw tightened at his words, of course he was going to try and shove it all away, ignore what had happened, but Ella was stronger than she had been when she was stuck in hospital. "I don't need to get my hearing checked, black magic me was the one that heard things, Gray, not me." She said defiantly, cowering just a touch when he slapped her hand away, but ultimately standing strong and grabbing his own hand in hers. "Or what? You'll hit me? Don't forget you're working Gray, people are watching what you're doing."

[witchyella]

greyangelgabriel:

He blinked lightly and gave her a soft smile before shaking his head gently. “S’nothing, Little Ella. Mm just tired is all.” He hadn’t been sleeping well, had taken to putting up silencing spells in his room to keep from waking anyone with his reactions to having nightmares lately. He had even started considering trying his hand at making something that would help him sleep better. “How’ve you been, El?” He followed her and cooed down at the little girl, grinning at her.

Ella still wasn't convinced that it really was nothing, but she knew better than to push too much. "Alright, I'll let this one go, but I know something is up." She said narrowing her eyes slightly, but managing to keep herself quiet for the most part. She herself had continuous bad dreams when it came to after the accident, but after Tane took her to the waters, they had mostly ceased. "I've been doing fantastically, really, Tane took me to these... I don't know how to describe them... Magical waters, around the trees of his ancestors, and... I don't know.. It healed me and took away most of the blackness in me. I just remember everything so much clearer now."

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tallulahsaxton:

Tallulah felt warmth fill her as she pulled the little girl to her chest in a hug. It felt like it had been far too long since she’d seen Rissa last, and it really had just been earlier that day. “I’m glad it’s ‘Tal’ now,” she murmured, “I don’t deserve the title of ‘ma-ma’, not over her mom.” She nuzzled the toddler’s neck, eliciting giggles from her. “I appreciate the sitting- how much do I owe you?” She asked, pulling her wallet from her back pocket, “speaking of- I feel like I need to tell you- I don’t know what happened, or what you did, but…. you feel much lighter now, Ella.”

Ella couldn't help but feel the warmth of Tallie's happiness, it was such a new feeling to be happy rather than cold and bitter for once, the warmth of happy standing out rather than the cold of the sentence that came next. "Hey, you do a really good job being a stand in mama where she can't." She said with a genuine smile, shaking her head when she offered. "Nothing, I don't charge for looking after this beautiful little girl, that's what I charge the other ones for." She chuckled, smiling. "That is because when Tane came to see me in the hospital he took me out to the forest, deeper than I've ever been, he took me to this place where this water runs so deep with magic.. He held me in the water and washed it over me and I just... It took away some of the darkness in me."

[witchyella]

annaelhudson:

Annie gave a light shrug of indifference. Gabriel had received all of the child-charm out of the two of them. In fact, he’d really just received all of the charm period. Annie was a rather charm-less person in most states. When she was grey, and had her head on straight, she was very good at getting wht she wanted from people- manipulative. There was some charm involved in that. But it took concentration, and when she wasn’t okay she couldn’t do it. “I don’t know. He’s the parent, not me.” Annie would’ve pulled her knees to her chest had she been given the chance, “I’m not signing up to be a mom- I’m not Gabriel.”

Ella shoved herself up to sitting again, contemplating for a minute what she was saying. She furrowed her brows, she didn't know if she was a child person either until she was around them, they were so pure and light and it helped her to see that not all of the world was as dark as it seemed. That was something she needed around here, something to keep her mind in the light because there was so much dark in it sometimes that the light was so easy to lose. "Well I mean... I didn't mean it like that." Ella said with a smirk growing on her face, shaking her head. "But I mean if that's the case, just remember to use a condom."

[witchyella]

tallulahsaxton:

Tallie was overly happy to let Ella babysit Riss, but her need to protect the little one was so strong, that anyone having her gave her anxiety. She tried to regulate her pace as she made it to Ella’s, telling herself to be calm. When she entered, and saw the two of them happily together, she smiled brightly- “I got off a little early. How was she?” Tallie asked, felling her heart burst with love as Rissa rushed her. “I missed you, too Rissy.”

Ella knew right from the start that Tallie wasn’t as much scared as she was slightly worried, her bond to the little girl was so strong and she knew it must have been hard for Tallie to even leave. But when she walked through the door she could see and feel just how much better she felt for being there with the little girl. “She was a perfect angel, and she absolutely loved every second of it, but I know she missed you because she kept asking for ‘Tal’” She chuckled smiling brightly as she watched her go.

[witchyella]

annaelhudson:

Annie was sitting on the couch, frustration obvious on her form as she went on about her twins partner. Life had somehow- in the matter of, what? Two? months, went from hell-in-a-handbasket to calm, and almost “normal”. She was still struggling with trusting Ella and her twin, and dark magic- the coven of Ngaro and Black Mataku still worried her on the daily, but it was easier now. She cut her sentence short as the toddler giggled brightly at her ‘owner’ coming to get her. “God, I just don’t really get kids.” she muttered, resting her head on her knee gently.

Ella laughed as she got up to take the little girl back to her mother, having a quick conversation and returning, to sit next to Annie, turning slightly so she could lie down and wriggle so her head was in Annie’s lap. She reached over for a bowl of popcorn she’d just popped before the little girls mother showed up and turned on a movie. “I know you don’t, but if you keep hanging out with Max one day you might have to.” She laughed brightly, shaking her head.