ANTI-YOU / ANTI-ME

WHAT'S THE MOON WITHOUT THE SUN? ( ... ) that's right : nothing.

[withapathy]

kei gets a smattering of freckles over his shoulders and face when he spends enough time outside... they’re pretty subtle unless you’re looking though. it’s cute.

[withapathy]

kei pretty much never eats breakfast and leaves immediately upon getting ready to meet yams to walk to school together, eats roughly 3/4ths of his lunch ( the rest goes to yamaguchi, generally ), has half of a protein bar before practice and then eats the other half after, and eats... most of his dinner. mostly because his mom strongly encourages him to skdgjnd but he does stay well hydrated throughout the day !! so proud of him...

no, he doesn’t eat quite enough considering his build and activity level, and when confronted regarding it he gets generally annoyed because he simply doesn’t have the appetite to eat more than what he already does. he gets full very easily and very quickly, all things considered.

[withapathy]

slamspike‌.

HOW DO YOU RECOVER FROM THAT? he’s plotting it out; ironing the kinks. (plenty of kinks. not enough irons.) his own voice — sport — it echoes in his head like the tiniest pinpricks, straight from hell.

he’s grateful when tsukishima blows over it. naturally, though, asahi’s stressed that it’s been done maliciously, but that’s neither here nor there. he has worried more about less. it’s not unusual.  “fairly?”  come on, ace.  “uhh, hey. i just think… i mean, i don’t think you’re giving yourself enough credit. it was a pretty special invite, you know? people see a spark in you. i hope you got something out of it, that’s all.” 

                   Ah. This is something like ENCOURAGEMENT, isn’t it? From the ace of the team meant to strike fear into their opponents ——— which he does quite well, admittedly. Most of the time, that is. Yet, a spark? In him? Something that will surely lead to a wildfire, if true.

                    ( no, it’s already burning in you. quietly. )

                 ❝ ... I did, ❞ an admittance that is somewhat reluctant for all that he says it, nonetheless, and he thinks about HINATA and his intensity and his drive and knows what he hadn’t gotten the most from it all. And he had been invited. The thought sparks irritation in him, for one reason or another. ❝ They had us play two on twos. That’s how I learned how to set, somewhat. ❞

[withapathy]

shmizus‌.

THE SCRIBBLE OF A PEN OVER A STACK OF PAPERS, a gentle scritch scritch as pale gaze travels to each of her teammates — on the court and off. the approach of a first-year catches her attention, watching with silent regard; eyes following as he takes a seat on the bench.

only then does she make a move towards him, the clipboard and pen replaced by a towel and bottle of water. they’re held as offerings, waiting for him to take both before offering a small word of encouragement. “ nice receive. ” // @withapathy ♡ 

                     He considers her kindness as he downs several gulps of water and measures his response as he wipes sweat from his forehead and looks down at her and there is a QUIET INTENSITY about her, always. Unlike the rest. Unlike the others. He supposes that she has to have something to be able to stand among them, unscathed and unbothered by the raucous follies of teenagerhood.

                              Then again, she’s a teenager, too, isn’t she?

                   ❝ Thank you, Shimizu-san, ❞ a simple response delivered with a plain voice and a neutral expression and she’s done nothing to deserve ire unlike the majority of the rest of the team and he supposes that he appreciates her. And her words.

[withapathy]

i don’t want to say that kei is a slytherin because that feels so standard and whatnot but he’s. pretty much me in all ways but physical so, yeah, he’s a whole ass slytherin. i even took the full pottermore quiz for him to confirm skdgjsnd ( ravenclaw second, naturally, though notably i’m a gryffindor second to slytherin but that’s besides the point )

akiteru is a squib in this strange and theoretical hp universe wherein he doesn’t live in japan for some reason sdkgjsnd kei wants... nothing to do with magic and there is he anyways... this isn’t a formal verse or anything i’m just rambling lol

[withapathy]

               ❝ Do you have any athletic tape? ❞ he’d prefer to not ask the manager of Seijoh’s volleyball team for such a thing, but his finger is JAMMED again ( annoying, but nothing new ) and their first aid kit had run out. Regrettably. So he stands in front of her with his hands at his sides and a neutral expression on his face for all that there is an incessant and irritating thing thrumming just beneath his skin, begging him to return to the practice game. Posthaste.

@islelight // sc.

[withapathy]

the fact that kei is canonically popular with girls is fucking hilarious to me even though i know it’s because he’s super tall and athletic ( and naturally blond ) and he has a silent and mysterious air about him in class skdgjnsdkjg no one really knows how much of an asshole he is to people because he’s just. quiet in class. what a fuckhead lmao if anyone ever confesses to him.............. i’m sorry? not that he’d be like. mean about it but pretty much no one has a chance with him sdkgjskdsdkgjh

[withapathy]

sometimes i think abt how kags is canonically considered tall and handsome and i wonder if kei is too... probably not but i can wonder skgdsjd

EDIT : yama i’m so sorry skdgjsdkjgn

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this is the single most important icon i have ever made, by the way... please ignore my fucked up clean up around where words overlayed part of the image lmao i tried

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lumeias‌.

❛                  is  that  all  it  takes  for  you  to  spend  time  with  me  ?      maybe  i  should  sabotage  your  practices  from  now  on,    ❜            daunting  in  her  words,    unflappable  and  outrageously  candid,    but  little  weight  is  carried  in  her  would-be  threats.      they  walk  in  tandem,    stride  by  stride,    and  aylen  briefly  wonders  if  kei  is  trying  to  match  her  languid,    damaged  pace.

NO,    LIKELY  NOT.      something  like  that  would  be  too  kind  a  gesture  for  them  both.            ❛    …  your  manager  stopped  me  in  the  halls  again,    you  know.    ❜

                ❝ I’m sure the team wouldn’t mind, ❞ they wouldn’t, at first, considering that Aylen is objectively beautiful and if she were around, a great bulk of the team would certainly be enthralled with her. Then again, it seems that the concept of her being nearby is becoming more and more of a POSSIBILITY than he had once thought it to be.

                  ( if you were to ask him he’d say that his legs were tired from yesterday’s practice and all those that came before it / the simple truth of the matter is that he shortens his strides just so because sometimes yamaguchi walks beside him and sometimes —— sometimes kei doesn’t mind walking next to someone. sometimes he remembers her, smaller and following after him and they were different, once. )

                ❝ Shimizu-san is determined, I see, ❞ a bland observation : little more / little less. It’s no wonder that she so badly wants to find a new manager to replace her once this season is over : she loves the club. Anyone with eyes and observational skills can see that. And given how few students exist who don’t already belong to one or another... ❝ Are you going to do it? ❞

[withapathy]

            ❝ ——— You’re going to throw up later if you eat all of that, ❞ he looks at towering tray of Nishinoya’s food with something like distaste intermingled with abject disgust. The mere thought of eating so much food almost nauseates him, to be honest. Luckily, he’s already eaten all his food. Of course. Stand far away from him for the next hour, noted and checked. As if Kei doesn’t do that automatically, anyways.

@crwdeity // sc.

[withapathy]

thunderspiked‌.

     attention perks at the start of a conversation, immediately caught by whatever it was the other was going to say. because this was tsukishima! how rare for him to start a discussion! but then the topic is revealed and immediately does bokuto get a glint in his eyes, in his grin. ❛  oho! so you remembered, huh?  ❜ but of course he had ; even he wasn’t oblivious to the effects those words had had on him. ❛  finally had your moment, huh?  ❜ and oh, how gleeful was his smile. 

               ❝ Something like that, ❞ there’s no point in denying the fact for all that the FULL BLOWN SMILE on Bokuto’s face activates his fight or flight instinct for one reason or another. Kei doesn’t owe the man anything, per say, but —— but there’s something to be said regarding a source of momentary inspiration / or perhaps simply a wake up call / or a combination thereof. Letting him know as much seems disastrous, yet —— ❝ Occasionally... volleyball is fun, after all. ❞

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beep beep how’s my portrayal ?

[withapathy]

i can’t wait until i make specific tags for ppl

[memories]

#☾ ┈ yamaguchi tadashi / i see your light. and Other Things That Ruined My Life: An Autobiography by withapathy

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@pinchpride

[shoesfilled-deactivated20190609]

“ i’m used to it by now ” daichiiiiiiiii

buzzfeed unsolved     /      accepting       /       @withapathy

           ‘    that doens’t mean you should be used to it, tsukiahima.     ‘  when he took over captaincy, daichi never thought it would be like this. he never thought he’d be breaking up arguments &. he never thought he’d have such characters under his ( he snorts ) wing. out of all of them, however, tsukishima is both the one who gives him the least amount of headaches. 

        he wishes that tsukishima didn’t feel this way.   he almost wishes suga was here, as he is better at these kinds of things, but he’s off training with nishinoya.   ‘    you’re a valuable asset to the team &. we couldn’t have gotten as far as we have without you.    ‘    daichi sends tsukishima a small smile.    ‘    you don’t play second fiddle to anyone &. you shouldn’t feel that way or be used to it.    ‘

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shoesfilled‌.

@withapathy    /     liked

        ‘     tsukishima, can i borrow you for just a second    ?     ‘    looking at the first year student, keishin wants to work out a way to use tsukishima to the best of his ability.  they already have his height, his brains &. his ( seeming ) apathy, but keishin wants to make it to where the second tsukishima steps into a gymnasium, everyone gets nervous.    ‘    i have an idea i want to try.      ‘

              ❝ ... Sure, ❞ it’s weird, that he’s being singled out of everyone in this gym —— some may call it perfectly ordinary to want to discuss an idea with the tallest member of the volleyball team if applicable, but the request settles over him awkwardly. Strangely. Ill-fitting. But he follows his coach, nonetheless, curious if nothing else. ❝ What is it? ❞