By definition, backup isĀ aĀ person,Ā plan,Ā device,Ā etc.,Ā keptĀ inĀ reserveĀ toĀ serveĀ asĀ aĀ substitute,Ā ifĀ needed. AKA Abby, me.Ā
Always the odd number member of the group. Third wheeler, fifth wheeler. Iām just here in case someone needs me. Donāt worry, Iām used to it.
What Iām not used to is being the other one (this was before college).Ā
Well, Iāve kind of gotten used to it but Iām against it and donāt encourage it. Starts out with a great night. Next thing you know he got back with his girlfriend, or worse - they never really broke up. Foolish act. Whatās worst and more stupid than that? They know that you know that they are in a āseriousā relationship and They still call you up in the middle of the night asking the question āWhere are you?ā. Why? Because they know I have no one - āavailable" is the first word that comes to my mind. I always refuse but they never stop. They like the thrill, I guess. What they donāt understand is that Iām not that kind of person. I know how hard it is to trust someone because a stupid fuck broke your trust. Turns out that person is another stupid fuck.Ā
To summarize my life - āAlways the Other, Never the Oneā.
// I did not intend for it to be this way. It just happened. What this has become is a fucking rant of an alone human being who witnessed idiots throw their relationships away.//