Kill Me

I am human, well at least I think. But the point is, is I am a fuck up. oops I mean i fuck up.

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I care so deeply. Just to be not cared for back.

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Is it possible to force yourself into being happy?

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Have you ever gotten everything you ever wanted?

No. But I once got very close.

I still sit at his grave and think about what could’ve been

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Blood stained sheets again.

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I was always hungry for love

You were always hungry for lust

I fed you to keep you from starving

While I withered away

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Everytime I start to feel happy

I looked down at my arms

And realize I’m still the same fucked up kid

The fucked up kid that left those scars

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I showed you my deepest scars

My deepest fears

And you held me

telling me you’d forever protect me

Then you turned around

And left me more damaged

Left me more scarred

Than ever before

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I trusted you

As I fell asleep next to you

My dearest friend

And I woke up

Next to a monster

My skin crawling

Whenever you pop in my mind

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Thank you for making me not feel loved unless it’s toxic.

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A total of 12 years self harming now. Started at 12. Who would’ve thought it would get this bad. What a joke.

[miyaeto]

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I feel as if my brain is fucked.

I feel paralyzed when I think of you.

As my brain shows me tragic things.

I stare at the wall and just see them on repeat.

But you’re gone now

And now I never will get my closure.

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You say you love me.

But whenever I look at you I remember you grabbing my hair and pushing my face into the pillow screaming at me about how I deserve everything that has happened to me.

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It came to that point a long time ago that I stopped longing to be happy. I’m comfortable in my sadness and want to let it just devour me till my final breath.

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Its either the alcohol talking or me.

But I really hate being alive.

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To anyone who looks at my posts.

Please read this and than read it again.

Never let your loneliness drive you back to toxic people.