walking disaster

28 // tw // minors dni was wishfulworm/woefulworm

[witheringworm]

ah i love my lunch if energy drink and thc vape yes yes now to do my 25th flight to my 7th floor job yes yes great idea that will not lead to cardiac failure

[witheringworm]

i didn’t want to say bc i didn’t want to jinx it but we are so so so back

the last few weeks have been super stressful at work and everything other than my relationship is kinda outta control and that’s the only time i really am able to spend enough time with ana. i’m seeing some results and feeling the difference some again (◕ᴗ◕✿)

i’d like to take this time to thank the real contributor to this recent success. dab pen, i didn’t appreciate you like i should have. i left you for months with the intention to get better (be on adderall), but all it did was make me yearn for your place in my life (gain a fuck ton of weight). i promise to not forsake you again <3

[kietai6]

Do we think I'll ever be sκϊηηγ again

[witheringworm]

genuinely don’t know what to do. i have been in an obvious deficit for a long as time now, really counting, and even on medications that aid in weight loss and appetite suppression.

but i’m back up to 130 and i cannot budge no matter what i do. i fucking hate it here

[witheringworm]

the fact that people can just roll up to work, put their car in park, and head inside is absolutely insane to me

[worthnotwantnot]

they should make it so self awareness is enough to break the cycle. patch it. games too hard

[witheringworm]

sometimes i’ll see a woman who has such a perfect frame that every sliver of hunger i might have been feeling is entirely squashed

[witheringworm]

embarrassingly, the reason i’ve been so inactive isn’t bc of lack of motivation… it’s my current fixation on my mahjong game

finally won the highest tiered tournament tho let’s gooooo

[witheringworm]

are we… are we so back???

[awesomenickverdant]

[witheringworm]

okay but why did they stop making yummy food flavored gum ??

[gothredy]

[rosyy-coosy]

📸 julie.tuzet

[witheringworm]

…bloob? is that you?

[witheringworm]

things i am going to do rather than crash out about my weight at work:

take an anti-anxiety pill

drink some ginger chamomile tea

remember that i haven’t been shitting normal in days, so most of this is (probably) water weight

plan my whole foods order for after work

[heavenpureheart]

[witheringworm]

i’ve been too ashamed of myself to even be active on here, but i think that shame is doing nothing but making this worse

the Adderall has been making me gain weight. a whole 13lbs of it. i’m huge and disgusting and don’t know what to do

i have to get myself back. i’m screaming inside, relentlessly, savagely