Being abused made me such a “good kid.”
I was
Always polite
Never acted without permission
Never spoke out of turn
Always did what I was told
And it’s shitty that I was considered mature and praised for those things, and all of those characteristics have translated into me being an immature, “bad adult.”
Now I
Have difficulty making a keeping friends
Can’t act without permission/am dependent on others for direction
Am terrible at communicating
Have no agency/personal compass
It’s a really difficult thing for people who were abused as children to grapple with. What made us good children make us bad adults.
This is Important
THIS IS MY LIFE WOW
Conversely, while 90% of the time we’re kind and polite and accommodating, we get super fucking angry and have major outbursts when we feel threatened Which is not a good look either
Wow. This is an eye-opener
wow i’m really fucked up
Oh god it’s uncanny
Oh my ... This is me











