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hey hey, I'm Wolfie! 16 yo, she/her, I like digital art, horses and video games twt is Wolfiexkcals FOLLOW MEE

tw this will be an €d blog

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me after saying I'm gonna fast and then going back on it two seconds later

Diary entry pt 2

13/08/2024

Weight: 64.0 kg (64.8 kg yesterday I'm pretty sure)

Food: 912

Exercise: 542

NET: 370

Today's been a pretty good day ngl, didn't eat much, had to force myself to eat a damn slice of cake because I was really dizzy and shaking pretty bad.. well it's whatever. I'm still kinda hungry.. but I'm just gonna ignore it and go to bed or smth, I'm tired anyways. Not sure what else to talk about tbh, it's been a pretty boring day, didn't get much done sadly. I feel like shit lowkey so idk.. just depressed and tired. Anyways good night!

nclsny

a cool concept: me, but thinner

Diary entry (sort of)

12/08/2024 (August 12th 2024)

Weight: 64 something kg

Food: 1046 Exercise: 1k NET: ~46

Okay so.. uhm tried recovering but ended up binging like crazy because of ✨extreme hunger✨. I feel so fucking fat and I absoloutely hate myself, people who say "you won't be happier at a lower weight" are bullshitting because at my lw I was so confident and happy holy shit, I was always so euphoric, I felt good.. yes I was tired and dizzy but I am that now too, I mean genuinely fuck recovery, it has ruined me. The same way pvrging ruined me, but I've been able to stop that and hey, maybe I can stop the binging? today was the first "successful" day, only 1000 calories and not double or triple that. And a good amount of exercise too. I actually feel good for once and I plan on updating this blog more often, I kinda see it as a diary as you can probably tell by the title of this first sort of diary entry. Anyways, going to bed in an hour or so, gonna try and actually take off my makeup and brush my teeth for once. Yes it's gonna take effort but I do want to be able to take care of myself in other ways that don't involve eating, depression fucking sucks.

wanting to achieve something but u have low self esteem so losing weight seems like the only option is what made me relapse

#disordered eating thoughts #ed bllog #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw ana trigger #4norexi4 #anorex14 #ed not ed sheeran #ed rant #i wanna be weightless

omg it's been a while holy heck

yelloooo, am 16 now lol

anywayssss I was like in recovery for a while BUT IM BACK BITCHES. I've gained like a TON of weight so I'm gonna try losing all that shit before graduation bcs no way am I looking fat in my dress nuh uh

accidental metab day??

went out to eat with family and felt like I was gonna explode (not very fun). uhh ig it's just gonna be a metabolism day then lol. I don't feel too guilty, didn't pvrg3 either so I'd say I'm doing pretty okay. Now just having a zero sugar moster yippee

had my omad now to ⭐ve lol

ugh I am NOT gonna let myself slip again

so I've had a few days where I haven't restricted properly and I kinda binged yesterday soooo uhmm fml basically. ANYWAYS I'm gonna try and be more active here soo like daily meals and stuff? I'm gonna do the same on twt. Today's gonna be rough since my family's having pizza, I just hope to god I don't eat too much of it bcs I don't want to pvrg3 again yk? Also to the point, I am not letting myself go into another b/p cycle because last time it nearly killed me (I tried to kms basically). that was a few months ago.. still traumatised lowkey. I'm gonna start fasting again as well, so hopefully sundays/saturdays I'll fast and then one metab day per week bcs my metabolism is painfully slow. so... next post will be what I ate and estimated calories bcs I actually can't be sure lol (I am sooo overestimating and then exercising like crazy bcs I can't risk gaining)

I'm gonna get back on track idc anymore

I'm so done with b/ping. I need to stop, at least I'm still losing but very slwoly and I've actually gained a lot of weight back, like 5/6 kg since my lw and I hate myself more than ever. Not only that but my psychologist for DBT wants me to eat 1500 kcal a day and I'm not doing that. I literally cried during the session because I'm so terrfied of upping my intake. I panic thinking abt it. I'm not giving this up, I'm not recovering, ever.

I'm tired..

I feel so sick.. my relationship with food and my body image are probs the worst its been.. ever. but I'm so hungry all the time but I don't want to eat and I still do and I was ltierally sat in the living room crying because of it but I can't tell anyone I'm struggling because they'll just push recovery and I don't want that

lil vent

idk what to do anymore, I'm just stuck in one place and I cant do anything abt it.. its so stressful to know I'm working my ass off and not able to see any progress whatsoever.. might as well just give up at this point and end it....

vearraarcade

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

winterzchill

i feel so dirty when i eat.

if only I was sick enough...

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