““When someone who was a part of your life for so long disappears, you feel like the world has been buried alive. Weeks after their departure their name is the only thing wrapped around your brain. You start to think about all of the words you could’ve told them when they were physically there in front of you. You start to think about how you could’ve caressed their hands so much more. You try to remember the last words you said to them, and then your mind starts to feel blue because you wonder why you didn’t say something else. This person, the one who was in your life for a long time made you realize that roses have thorns for a reason. Weeks after their departure, you’re going to trick your mind into believing they left on vacation. You’re going to try and convince yourself they left willingly, and just left a note on the counter saying they left to Spain or Alaska, and they never want to be contacted again. But then you stop and think how they didn’t even know their departure was going to come this soon. You kneel on the ground with tears rolling down your face and you just question why they left so soon. Then you crawl into bed at night and your blanket feels cold, and you cry until you fall asleep, and you just wonder if their departure is ever going to feel okay?””
— Alexa Evangelista, the book i’ll never finish writing
