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//two hearts on the floor; one mine, both yours.

[noodledesk]

big masterpost of fun things to do this summer

hi :) i like to make a big list of things i want to do each summer, and i thought i’d share all the resources i collected this year with y'all in case you want to do any of these things too <3

learn a new language. 🦜

i’ve collected a bunch of resources for french, korean, and mandarin so i’ll be making separate posts for those languages. but here’s some of my favourite resources - most of them are based off of krashen’s comprehensible input theory which is why they are fun resources:

french: free grammar lessons and quizzes for all levels, watch french tv, read manga in french, a drive full of french books, a bunch of french culture podcasts, a list of french youtubers

korean: anki grammar decks for all levels, super in depth grammar explanations up to advanced level, a bunch of resources, reddit’s ultimate beginner’s thread, read korean webtoon, talk to me in korean

mandarin: a bunch of anki decks, grammar gamified, reading practice, chinese reading world, mandarin bean grammar points

japanese: core 2000 words anki deck, grammar gamified on renshuu

spanish: language transfer for spanish!

learn to draw. 🎨

this is more just a collection of art related resources. hope they help!

proko’s art library, a bunch of sketching and fundamental tutorials

the complete famous artists course

collection of art books and resources

alphonso dunn’s youtube channel

learn guitar. 🎸

i got a guitar last summer on a whim and have been having a really fun time learning it! here’s the main resource i’ve been using.

learn jazz piano. 🎹

similarly jazz piano is something i’ve wanted to get into for a while + improv. this person’s youtube channel is very cool!

write something and put it out into the world! ✍

i love to write and it took me a while to learn how to submit stuff to journals. hope these help you!

a bunch of resources on how to submit to journals

how to submit to literary magazines by doretta lau

publishing 101

chillsubs, an easy way to find journals to submit to

make your own video games. 🎮

by now if you follow me you know i love to make twine games. here are a couple of cool engines you can use for free!

twine, a text based engine

love

renpy or visual novel resources

bitsy

take a free online course. 🧠

coursera has a lot of options, which i really like. i took Yale’s the science of well being a few years ago and it was great!

make your own music or learn how audio software works. 🎵

audionodes is a cool free browser software that lets you do this without downloading anything!

learn about personal finance. 💵

i feel like it’s hard to devote proper time to learning about personal finance so a lot of us rely on learning as we go, but there are some good resources and tools online that are quick and easy when you have 5-30 min to spare!

PBS Two Cents youtube short vids about personal finance

wealthsimple personal finance 101 (short videos. nicholas braun is in them for some reason)

mint - free budgeting and goals software

edspira - more technical side of finance, accounting, etc youtube channel

[becherdireinen]

trust that everything will fall into place without you forcing it there.

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[tiny-kt]

this for real fucking works

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[tiny-kt]

this for real fucking works

[likeahauntingmelody]

before sunrise (1995)

[inkskinned]

you get used to it, but it's tiring, because they need you to understand your own life as a series of goalposts. what college are you going to, what's your major going to be, whatcha gonna do with that, oh where will you settle down, when can i expect grandkids.

for the longest time my goals have been so blurry that they track into each other, their undefined edges slipping quietly back into the soft night. today i want to be a writer; tomorrow i will want to be a doctor, later i will wish i took that law school free ride. how the fuck do people just know what they want to do with their life?

where do you want to be in five years? i want to be alive; which is a huge step for me. ten years ago i would have said i want to be asleep and meant i hope that i'm dead by then.

but i want a yellow kitchen and a stand mixer. i want a garden and a fruit tree (cherry, if i can make that happen) and a big yard for my dogs to play in. i want to come home and read poetry out loud to someone and have them close their eyes to listen. i want a summer watergun fight. i want to make snowmen. i want to be the house to go to for halloween. i want my life to settle around me in a softness, for it to lay down gently. if i am very, very, very lucky, i want to travel; finally go someplace overseas.

of course i don't know what i want to be doing professionally. what i actually want to be doing is curling up beside my dog, settling in to read. i want to be making myself a cup of good coffee.

i can't answer the other questions. whenever people asked me what do you want to be when you grow up, i used to say i hope i'm happy.

i hope i'm still kind, five years from now. i hope i never get jaded and mean. i hope i have stayed in therapy. what do you picture yourself doing? when will you actually be an adult about this? why are you so afraid of being ambitious?

am i not ambitious? the other day i rearranged my furniture which doesn't quite fit into my apartment. i watered my plants. i'm going to try to propagate a cherry seed. my five year goal is to spend more time laughing. to lie down in a patch of sunwarm moss. to relax for a minute. to close my eyes and think oh thank god. this is why i stayed. this is finally it.

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[tiny-kt]

this for real fucking works

[gothredy]

[inkskinned]

one day, despite everything, a really clear and present peace will descend on you. you will find yourself almost retroactively feeling that peace as it happens: you'll realize it's been a few minutes or hours or days since you Thought About It. you'll notice that you're actually fully relaxed and you've been relaxed for a little while. that while today might just be a normal day, it felt like a normal day - it was a little tiring, but not overly so; there were moments of fun in there, and you got to see a little bit of beauty. you will realize that in between the self-help books you've "read" (glanced over) and the podcasts and the journaling, this moment is the tip of a long and beautiful ship you've been swimming towards for years now. you will realize: you've been teaching (coaching, parenting, punishing-sometimes, but ultimately yes - loving) yourself to see the beauty in the world, and now you do it almost automatically, by rote. you will realize that happiness is not just the wild abandon of summer; the concerts and the parties and the beaches. happiness is like love: it is gentle and soft, unassuming. it is confident and ready, a stable and earnest peace that is not the brittle holding-fast of your childhood but instead a real and impenetrable wall; a thing that once-felt cannot be dismissed. a thing that will always be there, in a sense, or at least will be something you could always make again - and you know this because you built it.

in that place you will finally find yourself. when you were little and decided enough was enough and decided you would survive this and decided that you were the master of your own fate: the person waiting for you in this peace is the version of you that you wished on. you looked years into the future and knew it would take work and diligence and failure. that you would be scrambling and backsliding. and you still said, back then: i want to meet who i am when i'm happy.

and oh, my love. it will be so worth it, all that waiting.

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[minyard-05]

It took Aaron a minute to find his voice again. He still sounded angry, but there was a muted edge to his, "You wouldn't even look at me. You wouldn't say a word to me unless I said something first. I'm not psychic. How was I supposed to know?"

"Because I made you a promise," Andrew said. "I did not forget it just because you chose not to believe me. I did what I said I would do, and fuck you for expecting anything else."

-Nora Sakavic, 'The King's Men'

[fandom-trash-goblin]

hello. i'm silly and in love with you

id in alt, credit and love to @fagdykevash

for a version with ID in comments: link

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the smell of his skin. his morning voice. his hair when it's messy. the warmth of his hands. his body moving slowly. the spark in his eyes when he's excited. his smile. his soft lips. feeling the weight of his body. his laugh. the way he talks. forehead kisses. nose kisses. butterfly kisses. his touch. his soft, pure heart. the mole on his cheek. everything about him. he. him. his.

[fragile-things-archive]

your love has made me buy silly, overpriced, heart-shaped things instead of the usual ones. your love has made me stop and stare at the stars a little longer, wondering if they see us too. your love has made me want to draw again. your love has made me want to care for myself, because you see me as someone worth loving. your love has changed me—it has led me to places i never imagined i’d wander to, places within myself, within life. your love has made me soft in all the best ways. it’s made me look at the world with gentler eyes, with more patience, more hope. more love. you’ve taken my heart in your hands, and i’ve promised to keep yours safe, forever.

[maliusaidh]