sympathy for the devil | dante x wren
dante-carrington:
Wren, of course. Long week?
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Longest week I’ve had in a while, that’s for sure. I assume it’s been equally busy for you?
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sympathy for the devil | dante x wren
dante-carrington:
Wren, of course. Long week?
.
Longest week I’ve had in a while, that’s for sure. I assume it’s been equally busy for you?
.
sympathy for the devil | dante x wren
Hey there. You have a minute?
@dante-carrington
mens rea | lissy & wren {ruina rex: funeral}
lissy-mccall:
[[ He never turns off, does he? Makes sense, in a way, when she saw him in his office. clearly on something. Lissy’s smile is a little broader because she does still like the man, even if she can’t picture telling him more about her thoughts. If he can barely cope, how the hell could she expect him to bear the extra weight of Lissy’s fucked up time in the wastes? She started to worry that she might be partly responsible for it. ]]
Yeah, yes. The other girls are there for me, and we’re all here for each other. We’re still doing really good. Me and the ‘CalGals’ [[ Lissy throws up a hand to make some air quotes, their silly little group name she’d been very excited to share with Wren at one point. Of course, she’d stopped seeing him soon after that.
‘It’s only natural to feel a little vulnerable,’ gives her pause. ]] Do you— [[ Feel vulnerable? ]] Do you have someone to help you out? Cause, I mean, you’re a helper. They’re always busy with others, y’know?
I’m so glad to hear you’re all still friends. {Wren remembers well and with much fondness the day Lissy had arrived at their session with bright eyes and a smile to match, excitedly launching into telling him all about the two girls she’d befriended before he’d managed to properly close the door. He’d been so happy to see her progress yield results, so proud to see how much more confident she’d appeared.
He’s still proud now despite no longer acting as Lissy’s therapist. Seeing patients regain parts of themselves previously thought lost is one of the best things about his job; every day he can go to sleep knowing he’s made at least one person’s life a little better and brighter. Most days that’s enough. It has to be.
Lissy flips the question and Wren smiles. It’s a tactic he faces at least three times a day, but he decides to humour her.}
Oh you know me, I’m always good at keeping myself occupied. It helps to have a task to focus on when things get rough. {The question lingers at the tip of his tongue but he swallows it again.} I find that even the most mundane of activities help me keep my thoughts straight. Folding laundry, dusting my office, organising books… that sort of stuff. Have you discovered any good books lately? I remember you saying you wanted to get back into reading.
oath and burden | cambie & wren {ruina rex: funeral}
cambieandrews:
[She wonders if he knows she made the sausage rolls. It seems like the sweet sort of subtle thing Wren would do, saying the sausage rolls are good because he knows it’ll boost Cambie’s mood to hear that. Then again, maybe he just thinks they’re good. Cambie’s not had much of an appetite today, partly because of the mood of the whole event and partly because she’d been up so late cooking, and tasting as she went.
Wren probably knows her too well, asking if she’s eaten. He apologises for always being switched on, but it makes Cambie smile. It’s one of her favourite things about him.]
Yes, mum. [She offers a small, teasing smile, but takes a sausage roll anyway and manages a bite. Often she thinks how glad she is to have people like Wren, and Mitch, and Cameron, to help look after people – but she forgets sometimes she needs looking after, too.] I can’t take all the credit, I had plenty of help. Enoch especially has been an absolute star. D’you think it all went alright? I mean, I know nobody ‘enjoys’ funerals, but… it was okay?
[She gives an anxious, brow-furrowed look to Wren, before glancing around the room. It’s certainly not the funeral Kaiser would have wanted, and that’ll weigh on her for a long time.]
Cambie. {Wren can practically hear the gears turning in her head, see the steam leave her ears. He knows that brow-furrowed expression all too well and wishes there was something he could do to ease her worries.} Stop fretting. You did a fantastic job with the tools and resources available to you. The funeral was perfect and the wake is going just as well. It isn’t about how much money you spend or how grand the decorations are, people just need a place to come together to mourn. Nobody expected you to put this much effort into it, and I bet every single person here appreciates everything you’ve done more than they can say.
{He didn’t know Kaiser personally but it’d been so hard to avoid hearing the rumours and gossip surrounding him, Wren feels like he did know him a little after all. He certainly heard enough to know that this isn’t the kind of funeral a man like Kaiser would have wanted, but it’s what the people of the Colony need.
Death is traumatic no matter where it comes from. Be it someone close to your heart or a person you’ve barely spoken three words to. Doubly so following everything they’d been exposed to during, and after, D-Day.
He can’t speak for anybody else, although he imagines he’s not alone in this, but Wren is glad someone did something. The funeral, the wake - everyone coming together like this makes him feel less alone with his thoughts and concerns. It makes him feel like there’s a community out here that cares for each other like family, political rifts aside. It reminds him of life before the end and it’s that small glimmer of hope that’ll get him through the day.}
Have you taken the time to talk about how you’re really feeling? {He can’t help himself. Seeing her so worried and stressed is breaking his heart.} To anyone? Or have you been so busy consoling others that you haven’t yet found the time to figure out your own thoughts?
CHARLIE ROWE 2020, The Forgotten C. dir. Molly Manning Walker
mens rea | lissy & wren {ruina rex: funeral}
lissy-mccall:
[[ It’s the first funeral she’s ever been too. Lissy never thought she’d see one, after experiencing death so many times, a memorial simply felt off. Out of place when so many others lost their lives unceremoniously.
Lissy has decided she’s not a fan of them, or wakes for that matter.
Kaiser, from the way everyone speaks about him, reminds her uncomfortably of Orla. A sort of magnetism and charm people almost feared but felt incredibly special and seen when he deigned to turn his gaze upon them. It makes her worry about what he said to Annie to make her care about him. She’s the only reason Lissy even turned up. Her and the other girls are taking shifts, of sort, to be at Annie’s side and hold her hand.
Maisie had taken over hand-holding duties for now. There is very little for her to do. Eating feels wrong—in the wastes a death was always followed by a feast. She can’t help but think of all the food as someone coming from the man himself. Lissy has instead got a glass of wine to hold more than drink. Hiding in a corner with a frown, someone turns to face her. Oh.
‘It’s good to see you again.’ The frown dissipates into a little ‘o’ of surprise. She likes Wren. The first person here that she actually felt safe around.
Dr. Philips, or Wren as she more comfortably called him, was a good therapist. Kind, patient, and never horrified by Lissy. Besides the CalGals, he is the only other person here who’s seen her completely breakdown, been told every detail about her time in the Wastes and more. Told him about the guilt she carried. It seems impossible, but it used to be heavier than it is today. The weight used to crush her, stop her doing anything and some days she couldn’t even leave the dorm.
Wren would knock on the door, enter with his usual soft smile and gentle words. He seemed to always know the right things to say. She really liked him. Until she couldn’t trust him.
Despite it all, she smiles up to him. Fidgets nervously with the stem of her wine glass. ]] Hi. [[ It feels like she’s playing pretend at being an adult. ]] Um, I’m holding. [[ A non-answer but Wren of all people should be used to this. ]] I’m just here for Annie. I never knew the guy. How are you? Did you… know him? [[ What the fuck do you talk about at a funeral! ]]
{It’s been a while since he’s spoken to Lissy, but Wren is pleased to note that she seems to be doing well. She looks a far cry from the skinny and terrified little girl he’d met during their first session; eyes brighter, cheeks fuller, posture more confident.
Initially he’d been a little jarred by her sudden transfer request to another therapist, especially since she’d left with little explanation, but she seems to be thriving under her new doctor’s care and that’s all he really hopes for. Pressing her for answers would be entirely inappropriate and unprofessional and no matter how bad he wants to know just what it was that he did wrong, he remains quiet about it, instead offering a sympathetic smile.}
I can’t say I knew him all too well either, no. He was never my patient and we didn’t stop to chat in the corridors that often. But one doesn’t have to have known a person to be sad about their death. It’s only natural to feel a little vulnerable. {Wren’s more worried about his patients’ reactions to Kaiser’s death than actually upset about it, but it’s easy to get swept up in the general sadness in a small community like the one at Col22.}
It’s very kind of you to be here to comfort your friend, I’m sure she appreciates it. I hope you have someone who supports you in return?
mens rea | lissy & wren {ruina rex: funeral}
@lissy-mccall
{As the day of the funeral progresses and people start gathering for the wake, Wren starts to feel increasingly more uneasy. He hadn’t had much contact with Kaiser and therefore can’t really relate to those in mourning, although the rumours surrounding his death have left him rather rattled. No, the worst thing about the entire situation is the helplessness. Wren feels entirely and utterly helpless and he hates it.
Aside from wanting to impress his parents and keep up the overachieving legacy of his family, Wren had become a doctor for one very simple reason: helping others. It’s cliché and earns him dumbfounded looks whenever he mentions it, but it’s the truth. What other motive could he possibly have had for putting himself through the hell of med-school if not to achieve something close to his heart? He could have quit after the accident - and maybe he should have - but he hadn’t. He’d continued onwards, dragged himself across the finish line on all fours, because he’s always known deep down that there’s nothing else for him.
The funeral had been miserable but the wake is even worse. Everywhere Wren looks he sees suffering, resentment, pain. It engulfs the room, suffocating and heavy; a suitably morbid atmosphere for a group mourning not just the loss of a man but the loss of a voice. It’s almost enough to make him wish he were high, just to ease some of the guilt.
At some point, from the corner of his eye, he catches a flash of blonde hair. As he makes to turn, he finds himself face to face with a very familiar frown.}
Ah, Lissy. Hello. It’s good to see you again. How are you holding up?
oath and burden | cambie & wren {ruina rex: funeral}
cambieandrews:
[Cambie’s good at this bit. It brings back fond memories – embittered by the feelings of loss, but perhaps closer to bittersweet now. Being the only diner in their village, Cambie’s dad had pretty much always catered for funerals, and Cambie would be enlisted to help pour drinks and take trays of food around. It’s easy for her to slip into her usual easy chatter, looking out for people.
She’s checked in on Ricky several times, and is glad to see Charlie is sticking by him. Most people seem to be holding up okay, although she suspects the funeral was harder than a lot of people had foreseen. For many of the Colony’s younger residents, it would be the first funeral they’d been to.
Everything is proceeding without any hiccups – rain doesn’t count, not in the UK – but Cambie still finds herself battling the anxiety that she’s not done enough, that this could be better, that she could help more. With her latest tray of sausage rolls distributed, Cambie lays it neatly on a table and is about to go and find another one when Wren waylays her.]
Wren, hi. I’m fine.[She’s not sure how convincing her smile is, but she suspects not terribly. It’s always difficult to keep up a facade around Wren; he’s so sweet, his face so open, that she just hates to be dishonest with him. He really is great, she thinks. The poor thing must be exhausted – the last week or so hasn’t been easy for the therapy team but he’s held up admirably well.] How about you? I know you must’ve been working so hard the last few days, I’m sorry I’ve not stopped by. But we’re almost there now, eh?
{Wren hates it when people tell him they’re ‘fine’. Fine means nothing. It’s an empty word, more often than not accompanied by unconvincing smiles or general resignation. It makes him a little sad as he knows very well what ‘fine’ stands for but, given the situation, Wren doesn’t ask for clarification. That doesn’t mean he won’t bug her for a proper answer over the next few days.
Setting down the wine in order to help himself to half a sausage roll, he can’t help but smile in mild exasperation. How very Cambie of her. He’d approached the conversation with the intent of offering her moral support, and instead she’s managed to spin the question back on him. Were it any other situation he might have insisted she be a little more forthcoming, but given the general mood of the room, it doesn’t take a medical degree to gauge how most people are feeling.
With just how much and how fiercely she cares, Cambie is hardly going to be the exception.}
You don’t have to apologise for being busy doing your job. I hear you arranged this entire thing by yourself? That must’ve been exhausting. Mhm, these are good. {He helps himself to the other half of the roll before unsubtly giving the tray a little nudge in her direction.} Have you eaten since this morning? Sorry, you know I can never leave my therapist-self in the office.
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oath and burden | cambie & wren {ruina rex: funeral}
@cambieandrews
{The day of the funeral is hard and heavy. The crushing weight of an atmosphere of death and mourning blankets the Colony, leaving no one untouched or unaffected by Kaiser’s death. Wren feels it in all corners of the buildings when he makes his way to the natural memorial - sees it in the eyes of everyone present at the wake that follows.
Crowded together in the small space to avoid the weather, it’s impossible to escape the general air of misery. Wren feels it too, that sense of loss, despite having exchanged less than ten words with Kaiser over the span of his years at Col22. It’s suffocating and overwhelming and he’s of half a mind to leave the moment he arrives.
However he’s not there to mourn, but rather in a more professional capacity. No one had asked him to bring his therapist hat to the event, but he’d figured it might not necessarily be a bad thing. Death is never easy for anyone and people need support, even if they can’t admit it out loud. Especially then.
Cambie draws his eye almost immediately, and after watching her buzz and shuffle anxiously about the room for a good thirty-minutes, Wren decides to make an approach. Near untouched glass of wine in his hands, he steps up to her just before she manages to dart off again.}
Hey. How are you holding up?
Wren Phillips | Twenty Eight; Elite
House: Delma Status: Uninfected Elite Specification: Trauma Therapist
[*TW: addiction, drug use*]
History
Wren was a good kid. A good kid and an exceptional student, raised in a family where grades, dedication and ambition were the stepping stones of success and the key to getting everything you wanted out of life. The middle child of three bothers, Wren was eager to be everything his parents wanted him to be, and though they did put some pressure on all three of their boys, it wasn’t without plenty of support nor was it enough to be negative.
His older brother a varsity jock, his younger, an aspiring musician, Wren’s parents were pleased when he decided to go into the medical field. But Wren wanted so much to meet his parents’ expectations, not to mention his own, that he began to buckle under the stress of the university workload. In an effort to increase his productivity, Wren bought into the black market of amphetamines, using one of the more widely-known campus dealers. He never meant to make a problem of it, never dreamed it would get out of control, but what started as something to help him through his cram sessions, became a daily thing to make him more alert in class, and then a nightly thing, to help him finish his work faster, and then a constant thing to make up for the fact that his new habit was making time for everything but sleep.
It was the weekend before his finals in his third year of university that it happened. He’d been up for three days straight, cramming and high on medication in his desperation to cover everything. On his way to campus on Monday morning, he was speeding through a school zone and was unable to stop on time when a fourth grader ran out into the street.
It was by some miracle that the little girl—Emma-Sophia, was her name, a name that would both haunt and comfort Wren for the rest of his life—survived. Wren spent countless hours in the emergency waiting room that day. Waiting, waiting, waiting—waiting for what he was sure to be bad news, but he prayed to be proven wrong, to anyone or anything in the universe willing to listen. Not for his sake, because he was the last person to deserve it—but for hers. Dear God, if only for little Emma’s sake.
And a miracle came. She’d gone into surgery and come out safely, her fierce little heart still beating, with only some stitches, bruises and a broken arm to show for how narrowly she’d escaped death. Her parents hadn’t wanted to so much as see Wren’s face and he didn’t blame them, but he’d waited until the doctors had come with the news and he’d managed one final look at her through the window of her room, the little machine beeping away as she slept, looking so peaceful, and he cried.
But miracle or not, the incident crushed him. And what could have or should have served as an irrevocable motivation to straighten his life out, only made matters worse. ‘Thanks’ to his family’s wealth and excellent defence lawyers, he got off easy in court—too easy—which had brought relief for his parents, but a relentless, angry guilt for Wren. He can still hear Emma’s mother’s angry, heartbroken wail when he’d been sentenced only to a year’s probation and a temporary suspension of his student practicing licence, on the condition that he attend court-ordered professional help.
Of course, Wren’s troubles sleeping only escalated, and though therapy served as some outlet to cope with the trauma, he found losing himself in his work to be more effective, and he had several missed exams to make up for. However, for all the ways in which Wren struggled, he was altogether too efficient at hiding them from his friends and family. Customarily of a warm and gregarious nature, he’d slide the evidence of his trauma behind a bright smile and warm, puppy-dog eyes. He soldiered on through the remainder of his undergraduate program, battling insomnia, addiction and fluctuating depression, and by some miracle, finished his first year of medical school in the top ten percent of his class.
Wren was in his second year of medical school and working part time at a small facility in Wales, when the End came. He spent about a year travelling with a group of wandering survivors, searching for sanctuary. With his addiction still an unresolved issue, the first six or seven months were hell for him in more ways than one. In the clan that formed around him, he found support and even friendship, but they were dark days for him and unfortunately, the darkness persisted as his fellow survivors slowly started to fall around him, dying of starvation, infected injuries, or victims of manslaughter.
About fourteen months after D-Day, however, Wren was discovered thin and weak, on the shores of the South of Wales. He was picked up by one of the merchant ships and taken aboard, where he stayed for a few weeks while they completed their run. They nursed him back to health as best they could, then dropped him off into the hands of Colony 22.
Wren Today
Going on five years later, Wren has reunited with portions of the man he used to be and he believes he has his position as a therapist on the CISM team to thank for a great deal of that. Again working with his passion, he finds it has helped to keep him in touch with himself, and within the Colony he is an amicable and approachable individual. He’s grateful every day for being saved the way he had been, is happy at Colony 22 and loves what he does—however, becoming a registered citizen and an Elite did come with its downsides: the exposure and access to medication.
With his addiction not so much overcome as it was simply cut off at the source, the temptation suddenly at his fingertips proved to be too much. Though Wren’s abuse of the meds available is limited in comparison to his struggles before the End (vastly due to the actual supply being rather limited, as well as the extreme guilt involved in taking from the minimal resources they have for those truly in need) it’s something he battles on a regular basis, fighting temptation and succumbing to weakness, a constant roller coaster.
Wren is one of the few therapist who still goes to therapy himself. He has difficulty sleeping, the uppers being only part of the problem, as the incident that had first caused his crash nearly ten years ago still haunts him in his lows, as do the memories of his post D-Day trauma, the deaths that he’d been forced to witness while at his weakest.
Nonetheless, Wren is otherwise still much stronger than he used to be, and is more often than not, high energy, cheery and positive—and as far as some of the crankier citizens are concerned, excessively so. He’s a team player, which is useful in the Games, and he’s always looking to help a friend out, whatever way he can. Though no one is aware of his problem, in theory it is difficult to tell where his natural friendly demeanour ends, and where his addiction begins.
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