Sana Singh

[writingsunflowers-blog]

I don't want anyone to see this, but I just want to keep it here.

I feel broken

Hollow

I don't feel like I can do this anymore.

This year I've just hated myself, so much, it's not easy to go back

I did something terrible & it made me lose everyone. But this biggest lost is myself.

This isn't me, I'm not the real one in this body weight I'm carrying.

I really want myself back. I do.

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It killed how the only time you had eyes to see me, and ears to hear me,

When I was naked.

Not the nights when I stripped down my soul for you.

- Sana S.

[writingsunflowers-blog]

I took morphine thinking it will help the heartache.

- Sana S. /Morphine/

[poetbitesback]

I’m driving again speeds I haven’t hit in a long time.

what does okay mean? when the officer pulls you over on 26,  do you know where you are? do you know what he means? isn’t ‘okay’ always going to be relative?

you know he doesn’t mean to ask all the questions you need to answer:

why are you so far from home?  I don’t know where home is. why are you barefoot? I wanna feel the rumble of the engine through the floorboards. I wanna feel alive. I just wanna feel. did you know your headlights are out? they aren’t out, they are off.  I stopped worrying about looking ahead a long time ago. do you know how fast you were going? not fast enough, never fast enough. you know, you almost crashed back there. almost, it’s always almost.

- driving, again || O.L.

[shareaquote]

“You were a mistake I made, Something I want to forget, It seems impossible to, But I know you’ll leave my heart, Not the day my breath stops But the day my ink stops for you.”

— - Sana S. // @writingsunflowers //

[books-n-quotes]

“That is the saddest part when you lose someone you love — that person keeps changing. And later you wonder.. is this the same person I lost?”

— Amy Tan, The Kitchen God’s Wife

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Lasts are overrated

We can never live up to those expectations

Last hug, last day, last holiday,

However perfect we want that moment to be, we never know when it actually is the last, we never really make it perfect, Not even close.

- Sana S. // "Lasts" // Writingsunflowers

[writingsunflowers-blog]

I hope my last written words before dying are something meaningful and something to remember me by.

[poemswords]

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“As I look back on my life, I realize that every time I thought I was being rejected from something good, I was actually being re-directed to something better.”

— Steve Maraboli

[poemswords]

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“Write her a letter, send her a flower, love only gets old if you let it.”

— William Chapman

[writingsunflowers-blog]

There was a place I used to call my home,

Blooming with love and painted with my favourite colours,

Hurricanes of passion and the scent of forgiveness,

No room for loneliness but just you and me.

Now that home has withered walls and broken windows,

Just darkness and numbness.

I locked myself out and you took away the keys.

- Sana S. // @writingsunflowers

[writingsunflowers-blog]

There's a thing about dead flowers I completely adore,

Maybe they look like me when I'm not with you,

Or the roughness in the petals remind me of the scars you've imprinted on me.

It's upto you if you wanna throw them in the trash or immortalise them by making potpourri.

Well, you do both with me.

- Sana S. // Dead petals

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Moving on

You can't just get over a person by simply not seeing them,

'Out of sight is out of mind', they said it right

You haven't seen them in days and how do you know you don't love them the same?

It's gone when you watch them smile, with the spark in their eyes you loved,

And if your heart says "You're not what I want anymore"

That's when it's gone.

- Sana S. / Inspired by : Unknown

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