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@writtendiary
O wowie
I
I really am just shit at being a person huh
Fuck man
.
Good at pretending maybe
But I canT BE FUCKING BOTHERED
To
Do stuff emotionally
I am just exhausted.........
But my fear makes me scummy
There was no reason
To have anxiety
Towards anyone
I'm
I'm aaahhhhh I don't wanna
I I don't wanna
Distance, Created. It's a good tool to keep yourself from knowing about such terrible things
Helps you make-believe the things you want to be true
I'm too tired to write senssfully
I just want to be well
And the air against your vocal chords feels stiff and cold as you do not dare bring words to the thoughts coursing through your head right now
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHOW DO I HAVE THE GALL TO KEEP ON LIVING AND BREATHING
Have your jaw clenched for two minutes too much and your whole head will hurt for the rest of the day
You could have written me!!
Said by someone who, had I written them in not the exact, unknown, appropriate Moment would be incredibly mad at me
How many cals can I burn just by slapping myself over
And over
And over
And over
Again
O I'm bored Time to literally break every bone in my body
AHAHAHAH I SURE LOVE FEELING IMMENSE GUILT OVER JUST ABOUT ANYTHING I DO
SURE LOVE FEELING MY EVERY ACTION SIZED UP AND JUDGED
LOVE BEING TOLD IT'S NOT LIKE THAT
LOVE MOST OF ALL ALWAYS NEEDING TO PUT MY FEELINGS BEHIND EVERYONE ELSE
BECAUSE IT'S NEVER ABOUT ME OR HOW I FEEL
IT NEVER IS
7th of october
I can't calm down even if my life depended on it. I just hate everyone I know right now. Everyone, especially myself. The irony here, of course, is that I don't even know for sure who I am right now. Or what. I'm so easily replaceable. I could be anyone. And that makes me no one. Everything I thought I could do is made impossible or unimportant. I'm not important. I'm just a toy the universe plays with. And if anybody tries to tell me that that's even an "important purpose" god knows what I will do with them What am I supposed to do, if everything I do seems or is either wrong, unimportant, annoying or a mix of 'em Please, can someone just tell me that
people are labelling themselves with traits like being brutally honest, yet, in almost the same sentence, they say they lied to a friend because “they wouldn’t understand”
stop talking to her. you’re just falling back to where you once were. you dont want that. She doesnt care
why do I get hurt that easily
tfw you’ve been doing all fine and good but then just a few words/actions from a certain person ruin your whole mood and you’re just full of anxiety and nothing more
[2nd of august]
Why can you compliment everyone but me?
HOW IS IT that you say to me you’re not good at it  but yet I see you over flowing the people I despise and strive to be with the most wonderful of compliments
You aren’t even trying to put some effort in to lie for me
[29th of june]
Goddamn I'm tired. I'd been tired all day, but did I loudly complain? Did I sent this coming week to hell for it? Am I jealous of my friend's new gf? No. So why did I'm-so-fancy-but-dontcha-look-at-me had to? I just don't get it. Can't she be happy for Irene? Or at least shut up and don't make her feel bad for who she is and who she loves?
[26th of June 2015]
Why? Why do you even speak up? Your opinions and thoughts don’t matter, they are way too simple, they don’t fit in. They all just can use me. There’s nothing better to do with me. How can I prove myself? How can I know she and they are not lieing?! They don’t want me, they only need me for the dirty work. But even then, they wouldn’t miss me or it, when I was gone. I’m so fucking purposeless What am I supposed to do? I can’t just wait! Everyone’s always saying “WORK for your dream!” “Go ACHIEVE something!” What if I don’t know what to work for? And if I do do something, I get rejected or not recognized. I want acknowledgement for being the person which I am! I know it’s too much to ask. It was once simply “I want to be acknowledged” now, that I got that kind of simple acknowledgement, I hunger for more than just that
I don't know [07th June 2015]
I don't know how to put this... But you hurt me every minute we talk, and despite how strange it is, when we don't, it hurts twice as much I don't know how to do this... But stop walking on that path, I think might be an end for me. Of course I don't know how long I can do this, it'll probably turn out way longer, I will try to. I don't know how to say this... But I hate her. I won't deny that she may be a, if not the, most wonderful person on earth. I sadly still hate her