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tw ed and venting account | journal :) 「sw: 133lbs cw: 109.6lbs ugw: 85lbs bmi: 18.9 」 she/her | don’t report, just block

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› motivation for my fast

tw: ed (obviously), this is just me motivating myself into keep fasting, i actually am pretty agressive about myself so please be careful if you read it, it's quite hateful towards my appearance, not yours.

you're so fat. look at you, eating, trying to be healthy when in reality you know you'll never be it being a fucking fat person.

and those thighs? makes me disgusted. you can't even wear a baggy trouser because inevitably it gets stuck at your fat and horrible thighs.

you arms are fat too. when you put on a tank top you should be ashamed. you got a good, lower shoulder, but it'll never be a 90° degree shoulder because of these huge arms.

you look like a squirrel, your cheeks are ridiculous. you look like a little child and that's why no one respects you, because you're a fatty baby to everyone. who cares about the wants of a baby, right?

and, listen up, try being useful and put a thing at your fucking dumb mind:

don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat don't eat. DO NOT EAT, UNDERSTOOD?

and if you do, throw it up immediately, you fucking monster.

[them3dusa]

✨ ED Songs✨

Akasian Peace - Anamia

Atmosphere - Vanity Sick

Angelspit - Skinny Little Bitch

Anorexia Nervosa - Mother Anorexia

Augustana - Coffee and Cigarettes

Batteries - Anorexia Poster Girls

Beach Bunny - Prom Queen

Beartooth - Ignorance Is Bliss

Birdy - Skinny Love

Black Bell - Anorexia

Blind Melon - Skinned

BMTH - Hospital For Souls

Boyinaband - Empty

Broken Social Scene - Anthems For a Seventeen Year Old Girl 

Cex - Stop Eating

Catatonia - Bulimic Beats

Carbon Carousel - Skinny

Cherry Glazerr - Ohio

Craft Spells - Nausea

CRIM3S - Stay Ugly

Daddy Issues - Ugly When I Cry

David Howard - Anorexic

Dead Celebrity Status - Somebody I Once Knew

De-La Wonk - Anorexia

Die Cheerleader Die - Anorexic Nation

Drag - Anorexic

Edith Backlund - Skinny

Eleanor McEvoy - Sophie

Elysiansoul - Dark Descent

Elysiansoul - Decadence and Disorder

Elysiansoul - Dysmorphia

Elysiansoul - Girl Within the Ghost

Elysiansoul - Immune

Elysiansoul - Midnight Run

Elysiansoul - Pull Me Under

Elysiansoul - Sticks and Stones and Bones

Elysiansoul - Sugar & Ice

Elysiansoul - The Smile Underneath

Elysiansoul - The Voice Of Anorexia

Elysiansoul - Waiting To Be Weightless

Emily Wells - Becomes The Color

ETHS - Détruit Moi

ETHS - Bulimiarexia

Evaline - a Protest In Lines Too Thin To Be Read

Fakebestfriend - Anorexia

Fakebestfriend - Skinny

Felicia Goodman - Ana Mia

FFUG - Alcoholic Anorexic

Fiona Apple - Paper Bag

Firewater - Caroline

Fireflight - He Weeps

Florence + the Machine - Hunger

Florence + the Machine - Leave My Body

Flyleaf - I’m So Sick

Foo Fighters - Skin and Bones

Garbage - Bleed Like Me

Gem Club - Spine

Geri Karlstrom - Starving For Attention

Haim- Let Me Go

Hole - Jennifer’s Body

Hole - She Walks On Me

Hole - Skinny Little Bitch

Huntingtons - Annie’s Anorexic

Iron Curtain - Anorexia

Katy Rose - Lemon

K.Flay - Rawks 

Kent - We Need To Eat

Kevin McCollough - Anorexic Beauty Queen

King Adora - Big Isn’t Beautiful

King Adora - Born To Lose

Kitten On The Catwalk - Pro Ana Party Slama

Kutless - Down

L7 - Diet Pill

Lady Gaga - Donatella

Lana Del Rey - Boarding School

Lil’ Bo Weep - Confined

Lil’ Bo Weep - Untitled 

Lisa Loeb - She’s Falling Apart

Los Campesinos! - The Sea is a Good Place to Think of the Future

Lorn - Until There Is No End

Lunachicks - Binge and Purge

Manic Street Preachers - 4st. 7lbs

Manic Street Preachers - Anorexic Rodin

Maria Mena - Cause and Effect

Maria Mena - Eyesore

Maria Mena - Self Fulfilling Prophecy

Marina and The Diamonds - Teen Idle

Melanie Martinez - Mrs. Potato Head

Melanie Martinez - Orange Juice

Melanie Martinez - Sippy Cup

MGMT - She Works Out Too Much

Mi - Weightless

Mickey Avalon - So Rich, So Pretty

MikelWJ - Dear Diary

Mother Mother - Body

Mother Mother - Fat Kids

Mother Mother - I Go Hungry

Mother Mother - Oh Ana

Myah Marie - Starve Bitch, It’s Hollywood

Mystery Jets - Someone Purer

Natalie McCool - Size Zero 

Nausea - Anorexia Nervosa

Nice Flaws - Thinspo

Nicole Dollanganger - Angels Of Porn II

Nicole Dollanganger - Please, Eat

Nicole Dollanganger - Ugly

Nirvana - Anorexorcist

No Frills Twins - Dying To Be Thin

Olivia O’Brien - Empty

One-Eyed Doll - Bulimia

Outcast Youth - Genevieve

Picture me Broken - Skin and Bones

Pompeii - Numbers

Portishead - Biscuit 

Pro - Beautiful 

Pulp - Anorexic Beauty

PurelyDef - Anorexic Queen

Radiohead - Creep 

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Porcelain

R00k - Eat

Rufus Wainright - Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk

Sadistik - Russian Roulette

Sainthood Reps - Run Like Hell

Sara Lov - My Body Is a Cage

Schoolyard Heroes - Battlestar Anorexia

Silver Chair - Ana’s Song

Skating Polly - Ugly

Sky Flows - Hollow Shell

Sonic Youth - Tunic (Song For Karen)

SPECTRA*paris - Size Zero

Squishy Squid - Anorexia

Stage - Live Happy, Live With Anorexia

Super Chick - Beauty From Pain

Super Chick - Courage

Svavar Knútur - Emotional Anorexic

Tamara Dearing - Bulimia

Ted Leo and the Pharmacists - Me and Mia

The Blue Violets - Anorexic 

The Blue Violets - Diet

The Dollyrots - Skinny

The Network - Hungry Hungry Models

The Trews - Ana & Mia

Today the Moon, Tomorrow the Sun - Old Monster

Tura Satana - Down

Unaloon - My Roots

Utero Ecuador - Anorexia

Wale - 90210

Where Angels Fall - Thinspiration

X-Fusion - Anorexia Nervosa

Zeeza Love - Anorexia

[sun-n-moonn]

You didn’t starve all day to binge at dinner

[edventingblog]

Breathe

You can start again tomorrow

Drink some water

Rinse your face

Look in the mirror

Breathe.

New start

New hope

New you

[wutheringkcals]

when ana gives you a small hope of having a “cheat/binge day” because you’re planning to control your cravings and after the first meal she screams at you for being dumb enough to believe i deserve a day of food

[ohnoregrettio]

Restaurants Safe Foods Masterpost

Food from my master post, this is just so you don’t have to scroll through the whole thing if you didn’t want to on my masterpost

A&W

Applebees

Arbys

Bojangles

Burger King

Bj’s

Carrabas

Cheddars

Chick-Fil-A

Chilis

Chipotle

Chuck E Cheese

Cici’s

Cracker Barrel

Culivers

Dairy Queen/Orange Julius

Denny’s

Dominos

Dunkin Donuts

Fire House Subs

Five Guys

Fuddruckers

Golden Coral

Hard Rock

In and Out Burger

IHOP

Jasons Deli

KFC

Krispy Kreme

Little Caesers

Krystals

Logans Road House

Long Horn Steak House

McAlisters Deli

McDonalds

Movie Theaters

Olive Garden

Outback Steak House

Panda Express

Panera Bread Co.

Papa Johns

Papa Murphys

Pizza Hut

Popeyes

PF Changs

Red Robins (yuUUMMM)

Ruby Tuesday

Sonic

Steak and Shake

Subway

Taco Bell

Texas Road House

Tim Hortons

Waffle House

Wendy’s

White Castle

Zaxbys

[wutheringkcals]

i need my control back, please i’ve messed up these months terribly

[thelonelysapphic]

List of food w it’s calorie

Got this from thefitnesschef_ on IG, go ahead to their account for more.

[pretty-girls-eat-air]

Cravings and what they mean

If you crave carbohydrates, your serotonin levels may have dropped. Eggs, cheese and pineapple are good for raising them again.

If you crave sugar, you may be dehydrated. Drink some water or green tea.

If you crave red meat, you may be deficient in iron. Eat dried fruits like figs or prunes, or beans and legumes, or take iron tablets.

If you crave dairy, your blood sugar levels may be low. Eat foods naturally high in glucose, like oranges or strawberries to raise them.

If you crave chocolate, your magnesium levels may be low. Eat brown rice, whole grain bread or spinach to raise them.

If you crave salt, your blood pressure may be low. Eat salted nuts, whole wheat pretzels, or drink salted water to raise it. If that doesn’t work, you may be dehydrated. Drink water or green tea. 

If you crave bread, your nitrogen levels may be low. Eat turkey, black beans or brown rice to raise them. 

If you crave fried foods, you may be fatigued. Eat slow energy releasing foods like bananas or whole grain bread, or take a nap. 

[thinly-euphoric]

[chisatoslut-deactivated20231013]

I used to think the ana community was pretty ok when it came to fatphobia. Yes, I do know anorexia and other eds do come from internalized fatphobia but most people I’ve seen on here are pro recovery and again it’s internalized fatphobia so it’s never directed to others.

But it all changed when I went to take a peak at ana twitter and y’all are going to hell !

Using fatspo is already disgusting but using videos, photos or tiktoks of fat people trying on cute outfits, loving their bodies and being confident and proud of themselves -wich by the way if you suffer from an ed, YOU KNOW BETTER THAN ANYONE HOW HARD THAT IS TO ACCOMPLISH IN THE SOCIETY WE LIVE IN- without they’re consent is another level of disgusting.

[wutheringkcals]

i have to keep going or i’m just gonna delve deeper into self hatred if i don’t stop eating. i can gain this control back. i need to be thin.

[wutheringkcals]

useless, again. why don’t i learn? i’m never gonna be someone’s favourite person. always the third wheel, the second choice. forgotten

[toxicmindofmine]

Fasting Tips

Keep your fluids up - drink lots of water, tea or whatever drink you choose to but keep away from sugary drinks

Know what’s healthy - from the moment you start fasting until between the 12th and 14th hour, your body is burning glycogen; the sugar storages. After the 14th hour you begin burning fat storages.

Listen to your body - If you begin to feel faint or nauseous when you’re fasting, it’s likely because your blood pressure or blood sugar has dropped which can cause you to get shakey and light headed. If you feel this way you need to break fast and eat otherwise you can become unhealthy.

Low blood sugar - If you get low blood sugar and need to break fast, the quickest way to get it up is to eat something sugary and then eat something else. Usually if this happens I will have a Milo and then eat Baked beans.

Dont be disheartened - Not everybody will lose and gain weight at the same speed, so don’t be disheartened if you are trying to lose weight and the pounds don’t just shed off.

Exercise whilst fasting - If you are going to exercise while fasting you need to be aware that your body will exert all its energy and in turn make you more hungry than before. Exercising while fasting can be beneficial and help with weight loss but if you plan to lift heavy weights you will need to eat something within 30 minutes of finishing your fast or your blood sugar can drop.

Breaking fast - Depending on how long you fast for, will change how much your body will crave certain foods. When you break fast you should always try for the healthier option but sometimes it will be necessary to eat something salty or sugary.

Be safe - Be aware of the risks and what it can do to your body, be safe my babies

These are some of my fasting tips, please use them wisely and stay safe.

Love you all ♡