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22 UK when I’m active I’m relapsing

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TW for my account !!

ed, ocd and sh will be mentioned here so if you find any of this triggering then please dnf! *I am in recovery but not actually recovering*

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Thinking about how I used to calculate my cats daily calorie intake and make sure mine was lower

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All of my unhealthy coping mechanisms will be in full effect tonight

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*whispers into my coffee cup* help me

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gosh my ed just came at full force out of nowhere and suddenly I’m dragging myself around again off of 200 kcal a day

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sometimes I’m like hmmmmm shall I just eat and become bulimic

Then I realise I’m scared of vomit so na

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intake is 77 kcal today oops

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nvm its 60 i miss calculated

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2021 Sofia was such a goat I need to get on that

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So BASICALLY thank God for white monster

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Is it intuition or mental illness?

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Chinese snacks are the meta for keeping calories low this is why all of these guys are skinny they just eat KONJAC

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3kg from my last weigh in at the Ed clinic last Monday

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work was good today so maybe perhaps just maybe I should keep doing stuff

I basically just use this as my diary so yeah don’t mind me

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is there more to life than starvation?

nah probs not

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in my ED assessment they asked me if I engaged in any pro ana content so I remembered it existed and decided to engage in pro ana content again

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print(“hello world”)

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when someone looks at me concerned and tells me it looks like I lost a lot of weight and all I can do is smile😂😂😂😂😂 sorry I can’t keep a straight face I love it

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Lost 6kg in the last couple weeks. We are SO back x