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Trust me, it isn't anything ill-hearted. The name is Marley Rose and apparently I'm a big deal back home. Something about being heir to the throne? But those details really aren't all that important. Music is my passion, which is why I am currently studying music here at Bordeaux. Hmm... what else? Oh. If you happen to see someone walking with my face then my advice to you would be to run as far and as fast as possible

[xaroyalrosex]

ooc

guise...

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

That’s great, but some people, namely your sister, just can’t. No matter how many people they have to talk to. 

[xaroyalrosex]

I-I didn't mean talking...

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

There’s a pretty big difference between keeping yourself together and just bottling everything up.

[xaroyalrosex]

Well trust me, I try to get rid of as much of it as I can...

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

You don’t really believe your sister doesn’t have her own issues with self-worth, do you?

[xaroyalrosex]

She manages to keep herself together better than I can.

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

All I want is to be worth something. I wouldn’t care what it came with. I wouldn’t. Just to be— to not have to— I… forget it. I’ll leave you alone.

[xaroyalrosex]

If you want to talk about worth than you should go see Em. It's more her area of expertize.

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

There’s everything to be.

Look, I-I’ll stop bothering you now if you want, but—just know that I’m sorry, all right? I am. I’m sorry.

[xaroyalrosex]

Trust me, there isn't. You don't want to be like me.

I'll believe you when I see it, Ryder.

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

It’s my fault that you hate yourself? Mine? Of all people? Look, I may bitch and whine, but I’d kill to be you. I would. I always would have, and I always will. To be able to— to sit around and read effortlessly, and to not have to worry about your country being passed onto some incompetent shit if your brother suddenly decides he doesn’t want the throne, and, God, to be respected for once, too? I can’t even imagine what that feels like. For fuck’s sake, I’m useless. I’ve known that since I was a kid. I sure as hell don’t flaunt it, but I have.

The last thing I’d want to do is make you feel like you’re less than what you are, which, even though you won’t believe the shit that I say, is magnificent. Not when I’ve been in complete and utter fucking awe of you for this long.

[xaroyalrosex]

There's nothing to be envious about...

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

Well, what do you want me to do, Marley? I’m not avidly trying to be a prick. For Christ’s sake, I’m not. Especially not to you. I’ve known you since we were kids. Jesus. And obviously that doesn’t make it okay, but I’m trying, all right?

I get that I’m terrible, and I get that you hate my fucking guts, and I get that I’m a pain in your ass, okay? I get it. But can you please just bump me up from “pure loathing” to “indifference” so I can actually worry about things like not flunking out and screwing over my entire family’s reputation rather than what to type when I’m clicking in and out of your ask box every freakin’ minute? Please?

[xaroyalrosex]

Sorry. But when someone admits to purposely being an ass to you and makes you hate yourself even more than you already do, it's not all that easy to just get over it.

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

[rydlynn-deactivated20130712]

You aren’t all too familiar with the phrase “life goes on,” are you?

[xaroyalrosex]

This is why I have a problem with you. 

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Ryley

rydlynn replied to your post: [PM] Will you quit acting like I’m the salt of the earth if I apologize?

[PM] I’m taking that as a solid maybe.

[xaroyalrosex]

[PM] Will you quit acting like I'm the salt of the earth if I apologize?

[PM]

You're kidding, right?

[goldenhummel]

Private || Hummelrose

[goldenhummel]

I just really miss my dad, and I hate it. I hate not being able to just go and talk to him about everything that’s bothering me like I used to. I hate not having him there to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay, and I hate that I hate this place. I love everyone here — but being here reminds me that I’m going to have to be king one day, because my dad wants me to,  but I don’t think I can. 

[xaroyalrosex]

Well I think you're going to be a great king someday.

[teahwilde]

Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuuuck.

[xaroyalrosex]

[goldenhummel]

Private || Hummelrose

[goldenhummel]

I keep meaning to call him, but I know the second I do I’m going to start begging him to let me come home. I know how much he wants me to stay, I’m just not sure how much more of this I can handle. 

[xaroyalrosex]

Okay. I'm here. Clearly there's something bigger going on. Do you want to talk about it? I mean, I'm not going to force you to or anything, but if you need to vent I'm willing to listen.

[goldenhummel]

I miss my dad. And home in general..

[xaroyalrosex]

I know the feeling. Er, you know, if you replace 'dad' with mom.

[xaroyalrosex]

[finnytheboy-deactivated20161002]