-a

_journa.l

[gusty]

[xaudreyyyx]

Block my lungs till air is no longer allowed in

[brandsilva]

[adssdfsxd-deactivated20131223]

[gusty]

[xaudreyyyx]

It frustrates me, it upsets me how I’ve been pushed so much to the side. I was a center and now I’m nearly nothing. I told myself that with life things will be shown and everything will fall into place, yet this is what I’m shown. My eyes ache from the sight. It’s brings agony to feel this excruciating pain again. Sick to my stomach that I actually allowed myself to be open with you,I did it again, With trust, Hope, bare soul. I tried push myself away several times for protection, to shield my well being, pulling me back each time. You actually rewired my thoughts and the way my emotions are sent through out my body. You had such a impact on me, my emotions for you were real, you would have been my center, you were the center. You would have seen what it’s like to be treasured. Maybe that wasn’t the plan for us, just passing time. Just someone to assist with life I presume. I let go, this was enough to show. I’m not someone you can just keep to the side. I let go.

She closes her journal with a slam, the crescent moons were deep in her hands. The wind blew away each tear trying to escape. Takes out her stone with the message on it and watches is sink. Looking up to the tree she calls her temporary shelter, “it’s done, I’m moving on, I promise I let go.”

10/15/18

-let go

-a

Via-xaudreyyyx

[heavensghost]

[fvckpvssy]

ig: xnaamo

[xaudreyyyx]

“I live different lifes through my words. I’m a healer, lover, destruction, saver, drug. The emotions in my stories changed but the love that ignited in me for you, was dimmed due to trouble, never demished. My life’s change but for you my feeling never did, I see trouble but glory in you. Always ”

Via xaudreyx

10:35 pm

[xaudreyyyx]

Last time we talked

The night that I walked

Burns like an iron in the back

Of my mind

I must have been high

To say you and I weren't meant to be

And just wasting my time

Oh why did I ever doubt you

You know I would die here without you,All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughing with you

And I think that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through

'Cause I know there's no life after you,You and I, right or wrong

There's no other one

After this time spent alone

It's hard to believe

That a man with sight could be so blind

Thinking about the better times

Must've been out of my mind

So I'm running back to tell you,All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

Without you God knows what I'd do

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter

As long as I'm laughing with you And I think that all that still matters is love ever after

After the life we've been through

I know there's no life after you

-daughtry

Im laughing with you, lost in memories we create. I've aligned with you. Time could only evaporate, yet i’m planted here cause im not afraid. Brushing his hair back she smiles and looks into the oceans eyes, deep deep eyes, “ I love you” she say louder than the rest of the words poring out. The brown in her eyes become dull, letting out one tear. Pulling out of his pocket a key latch on to a chain thin, sparkling silver with a hint of hidden gold, to unlock the home he’s  built, “my love, here. I have finally finished and this time I’m grateful for time has been my friend.” Smiling he put it upon her, “I promise my dear I promise for no matter what happens you have a home here. Im your home you see ?” With a rush of relief she attaches herself to him. She didn't quite know where the next step was heading, she knew that it was going to be right beside him. Even in distance miles away, they are crafting home for each other keeping them stable in secret. life is playing game with them but they know in their heart exactly where they belong. Nothing can replace it or even better it. she smiles and take her last sigh before the scene goes blank. She said her last goodbye, but her I love yous can be heard in the wind. The giggle is heard while drinking chocolate milk. A slight smile sneaks its way onto his face when he hears her name, that sweet a. He grabs ahold of her hand, “I feel you my love. I see you in the words and the clues in life. I love you and your home is here. soon soon my dear we will be wrapped in bed, locked in arms.” kissing his lovers cheek. He speaks to himself, “gosh my fiancé is life. everything is passing time.”

via - xaudreyyx

[xaudreyyyx]

These pages are filled of emotions centered on you. Writing my last page before placing it upon the shelf. Journals and journals I have accumulated from different points in life. More than half have a label; you. Placing us on the shelf was your action. Having every right you did. Thank you for all the moments I cherish and don't admit. No words have been exchanged that you really have become something strange to my mind. Im a journalist, I will still write. I promise to the world my new journals will never dust. It was nice to re-read these aged paged. Taking trips back into the past. astonishing that even in pain I had hidden spill of love in between the lines. Even in fear I had hidden treasure of light. Heres to the closing book being put away. Maybe you will receive pages shapes in planes of the unacknowledged stories I created for you. Maybe so just maybe, yet maybe never. hehe gosh I love they ways my words have created a person in me that doesn't fear or diminish when troubles appear. Here’s to my new journal skinned yellow. Here to all the journals entires I will write on the pages that fill you. To the new book opening in life, I can't wait to see whats in store for the new pages I will walk through. life take care of me, future hold carefully me and my yellow journal I ask you. 

-a

via xaudreyyx

[xaudreyyyx]

I feel ancient, aged more than truth. It’s been forever since I spilled emotions in a book. I haven’t glanced, or even peeked through my window to see you. Life has carried on with the winds blowing us any and every which way. Writing is my vehicle to worlds only my words can take you. It’s devastating to admit I dream and think of you, in the random. I guess I’m missing you I just can’t put my finger on which puzzle pieces of you I’m missing. I guess identifying it could be the one that aligned with me. I’ll send my thought and messages on a paper airplane one day. Maybe years from now the breeze will face us at each other. However for the person I used to know I’m wishing only greatness upon you. Life is doing us both good, you deep in love and me breaking every chain. Time will have its victory, deciding fate and our ending. Gosh it felt nice dusting off this old book. Such a sight to see a page full. I did it, finally letting it out, wow look at me, no longer clinging onto my ring. I can’t believe I’m writing again. Journalist, is here again, I’m unleashing the saved parts of me now, the sacred and worried pieces. Fear is no longer in control. I’m released, can’t you see ? I’m okay. You’re okay. She’s okay.

You’re life is great. I’m achieving great things. Here’s another page for the books, waiting wasn’t ever going to work, at least not now.

-a

Via xaudreyyx

[atelierdemuebles]

[winterfellis]

[screeches]

[xaudreyyyx]

“Right hEre”

-staind

Via xaudreyxx

[seduced]

[decision]

[xaudreyyyx]

You appeared, right on top of me. One hand wrapped around me and one playing with my hair. Smiling and giggling, looking into my eyes you leaned in. I melted feeling those lips kiss mine. Such a wonderful dream I thought to myself when I woke. Screaming to the wind,”Fuck it, the moment she returns, I'm going to kiss her.” Is it wild that when I hear the dogs from the house in front bark I think it’s you coming down the tracks? I stare out the window waiting to see your face. I've never wanted to be more about anything my life, I want it to be truth that you will return. The moment you do, it will be like a scene from the movies. picking you up, pushing your hair back, then kissing you. slowly but rough, both of us lost in our story. At least it ends the way we both prayed for. With us, now till earth ends. I love you babygirl. 

via-xaudreyyx