Blue

Good Vibes.

[strawbeb]

no, i don’t have a “dream job.” i want to spend my days reading and writing and lazing in the afternoon sun. i want to bake bread and brownies and apple crumble. i want to grow my own vegetables and plant a rainbow of flowers. i want to be with nature. i want to be at peace.

[unleash-the-krayken]

I really wanna do something self destructive

[bitchycode]

Name a more iconic duo than my fear of abandonment and instinct to self isolate, I’ll wait

[goodreadss]

“You have to die a few times before you can really live.”

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[goodreadss]

“A person full of hatred treats human beings as things; a person full of love imparts a living personality even to lifeless objects.”

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[goodreadss]

“How long they choose to love you will never be your decision.”

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[goodreadss]

“I even miss the things I hated at this point.”

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[killed-long-ago-deactivated2021]

Stay away from me

I’m not worth your time

I am cold and mean

Chances are that I’m gonna hurt you even if I don’t want to

Because that’s what I do

I hurt everyone

I’m sorry to everyone I’ve hurt

But no one is sorry for hurting me

Stay away from me

You can spend your time on someone better

Everyone is better

I’m nobody

I’m weird

I’m messy

I will probably give you more reasons to stay away than reasons to stay

You will eventually hate me

Or get tired of me

Everyone does

So before all that happens

Stay away from me

You deserve better

I deserve worse

Much worse

I deserve nobody

And I have what I deserve

I have nobody

So don’t try to change that

I never wanted anyone to stay away from me

But they did anyway

And now that I’m used to it

All I want from you

Is to do as everyone else before you

And stay away from me

[expressed-emotionz]

Nothing scares me more than the feeling of being unlovable and spending my entire life waiting for someone to love me the way I want them to.

[expressed-emotionz]

You never loved me if you knew I cried all night because of you and you let me.

[ilovetoodeeply]

when i love someone, i love all of them. at the beginning it’s obvious things like their laughs or the way they carry themselves but the deeper i fall, i find more and more things that make the person even more loveable like the way they respond to certain things or how they think about certain topics. but at the end of the day, i’m gonna love all of you.

[expressed-emotionz]

You were home to me, until you broke me and turned me into nothing but ashes.

[expressed-emotionz]

I always wondered how my family will live without me when I die, but then I realize there isn’t really much difference..

[expressed-emotionz]

One day, you’ll remember how much I loved you and you’ll realize how fucking stupid you were.

[expressed-emotionz]

I’d rather be heartless than heartbroken.

[indeathswake]

I REALLY HATE when I’m talking about my desire for romantic love and someone says, “well love yourself.” Like shut the fuck up. Self love and romantic love do not replace each other. They do not fill the same void. And just because I wish there was someone in my life that made me feel special, doesn’t mean I don’t think I’M special. Fuck your projections. Regardless of HOW MUCH you love yourself, it doesn’t replace the energy, strength, commitment, and love that can come from another. As a general note, my feelings aren’t up for debate. I just wanted to vent.

[phatpuma-deactivated20230508]

Mannnnnn!!!!!!

[mydarling-suggestions]

i could lie here in your arms for the rest of my life and still wish for more time